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forget about find, I cant talk with any girl so she will be attracted to me and not be creeped out

I've chosen the "right" path a ton of times, and it's always harder and more painful. Maybe it's a different kind of pain, but still is pain. it's just the right thing to do to avoid disaster in the future, that's where you're right, in my experience

it can sometimes not get bored

I think I do that because to pick the joyful one takes effort, it's painful to pick that one because then i have to do very painful things, like to figure out my life purpose. I havent embraced pain enough and it's way easier to take the miserable path. I should embrace the pain and just do it. @omTom your username could be cooler if it was moTom (palindrome lmao). anyway, I tried NoFap in the past. The reason I dont do it is because I shouldnt force myself to stop masturbating, it should stop by itself when I advance spiritually. I do it because I lack excitement in my life and that's making me excited. and I think I lack excitement not because i fap, that would be ridiculous. thank you, man. That Rumi poem keeps creeping and creeping on me, repeating itself in different ways for me. I dont believe in synchronicities and stuff, but that is cool. I guess i just have to embrace the pain. not even embrace it, but to enjoy it as a part of life.

that's not the point, of course there are interesting things to do, i just dont care about doing them/dont want to

no, its more because the fact that life is meaningless sinking in deeper and deeper. I know that the fact that its meaningless is also meaningless, but that doesnt change my attitude

what do you mean by mental positions? I'm starting to "get it" more and more these past days. That I am existence, and not some character in existence, but in my daily consciousness i still identify with the character. I think the concept "eternity" implies time, which is imaginary. people who dont embrace eternity are conceptualizing a lot of time, which is an illusion, the only truth is now, which is true eternity, so yeah, i can embrace eternity, dont care much about it, thinking about it creates problems which dont have to exist.

@Rookie@ajasatya oh I think I get now why I do this. I think it's because I dont give a shit about life anymore. Or at least that's what happens subconsciously. I ask myself "would I care if i'd die right now" and I think a sincere answer is "no", I have no resistance to dying or any will to continue to live. that is not to say I want to commit suicide, I dont want that at all, I just dont care, apathy is I guess the technical term for it, I dont know though. I dont care about anything so I just go through the path of least resistance, there's no desire to try and do something that would "be beneficial" or would even make me happier. I know these 3 weeks could be extremely fun and I could feel extremely good doing life purpose work but I just dont care. I guess it will pass.

but how do you know that

is that true? how do you know? have you directly experienced it or is it just "obvious"? and what is the brain made out of? atoms? and what are they made out of? protons? quarks? strings? and what are those made out of?

Tolle actually took LSD, look it up. @Cortex lol have you been around old people? theyre much slower enlightenment is nothing but a shift of consciousness, before enlightenment carry water, chop wood after enlightenment carry water,chop wood

lmao I feel the same way Lol I know this on some level, but...

wtf is that question, no one can answer you, go find out for yourself

I find his thinking rather interesting. I think he's an example of stage turquoise. Do you agree with his line of thought about creativity? that it's just old ideas molded together using preexisting "molding techniques"?

that way there is no subconscious need to make a post in a way that people will like, those dopamine hits are like poison.

I dont know, personally I hate those kind of apps. for me the most addicting thing and the only thing that works is social media, when someone likes what I say or replies to what I have to say, like in here now

and if one is an incel and has masturbation/porn addiction, should he indulge in them?

man I like that so much

what do you mean? what I meant by 'normal' is that it's common. lmao most people believe that they're a person living in external reality, everyone is delusional.

lol its normal bro, happens when you lack basic needs

Also have that. I think it's in the same category as stretching automatically when you wake up for example or when you yawn, they also feel good. I guess it's a side effect of the emotional system, the nervous system its not harmful though, unless its painful, so theres nothing to worry about

I can just practice kriya for the rest of my life, or go to a cave and meditate and be absolutely blissful, why would I need to read books, get a life purpose, contribute, get relationships, develop my personality and all that stuff? people do those things just to be happy, but if I can be happy just doing spirituality why would I need to do all that? those things just slow down the process edit: people misunderstand me, I mean that I cant be happy now, but I can achieve that solely by the practices, my question is why would I need all of the other stuff?

what do you mean by vague presence? like not to concentrate on the breath but just be aware?

Thanks, that makes sense. and im definitely addicted to porn and dont want to quit because my life lacks excitement. I think the problem is self-esteem, I see myself as a nice guy beta male that's weak and cant do anything productive. Though sometimes, depends on the situation I see myself as a hyper alpha, smart, wise, very social (I am sometimes very social in certain situations and sometimes very shy and anxious) gotta fix that

doesnt help me and this kind of advice never helped me. you dont talk at my level of consciousness.