Tyler Robinson

Your main job/purpose in life is to take care of these entities. I've extensively written about sex. That's important for Kundalini Activation at the base of the spinal cord.

I remember more parts of the dream. He came closer. He grabbed arm rather forcefully. He looked into my eyes and proceeded to kiss me. Tongue in my mouth - deep. He pinned me to the wall. Said that he will rape me. He looked around. The floor was covered in dirt, stones and gravel. It seemed like there had been a fire in that place. Everything was full of dirt and burnt stuff. The floor was rough. He told me that he would need a soft bed (to fuck me). He kept looking around for a bed. Then he told me that he needs to find a bed somehow He told me that I'm safe. I had nothing to worry. He wouldn't harm me as long as I listened to him. Then he looked straight into my eyes and told me that I was his sex slave. That I needed to be his sex slave. Or suffer if I didn't do what he wanted. At this point I couldn't afford to say no. I could clearly see that I was trapped. There was no way out. My feet were wounded. I couldn't really run far. Running away from him would have put me in trouble. What if he left me there alone? I could scream all night and day and yet not a single soul would have heard my screams. I knew I was trapped. I had to listen to him to survive the whole ordeal.. Maybe one day if he had me enough times, he would set me free. That was my thought process. In the dream.. I see him grabbing me by the arm and taking me to a room. A very dark room. He took a piece of cloth from my long white dress and tied it around my mouth gagging me. Then he a part of the same cloth and tied my hands with it together like handcuffing me. He then made me sit there. He told me that he was afraid that I would run away. And then he told me that he needs to find a bed. He came back. I could hear footsteps. I could see him with a bunch of men carrying large wooden stuff. It was the bed. They were fixing the bed in the middle of the room, they were attaching the legs of the bed and assembling the furniture. He was instructing them. Then the men placed a mattress on the bed. Some pillows and sheets. Then the men left. He returned to my room. And he sat beside me. Then he told me that he wouldn't fuck me on the floor, it would be too rough and it would hurt my skin. That's why he had to arrange for a bed. Then he loosened the knots around my wrists. Began removing all the knots and freed me, grabbed me again by the arm and took me to the room where he had the bed arranged. And he threw me on the bed. It was very dark and rusty smell came from the walls of the room. Everything was looking ancient except the bed. He raped me. He pinned my arms and wrists to the bed, signaled me to be quiet and then penetrated me. I didn't scream because there was no point. Nobody would have heard me. I kept moaning and turning my head to the side to avoid looking at him. After he was done,he told me that he will get me some food. He told me that I had to be there for him like a mistress, he would lock the building whenever he had to go out and I wouldn't be able to escape, he would even lock the room. The room had a heavy stone door. Would have been impossible for me to try to open it without the key for the lock. He had the keys to the room as well as the main entrance to the building/mansion. Now I was totally trapped. I was his sex slave. He told me that he would beat me to a pulp if I even tried to run away. There was no freedom. I had to obey him. He told me that I need not worry about survival and that he would take every precaution so that I don't get pregnant. He said that he loved me and this was his way of showing love.

He told me that he would find it gross. I won't like my bf having man on man action. I would find it a-masculine. I guess men find lesbians a-feminine the same way I do. A lot of lesbians pretend to be masculine, example Ellen Degeneres. There's nothing attractive about a woman trying to pass off as a man and vice versa.

@Loba nice.

This is the only place where I have seen people be okay with bisexual partners. Maybe ya'll lying to your selves or mostly feminine guys. My ex hated lesbians. I don't know what's homophobic about it. I should start something like straight-o-phobic now because you guys don't find straight people hot enough. A lot of people are disgusted by seeing a guy kiss a guy or a girl kiss another girl. They're turned off rather than being turned on by it. This does not necessarily mean they are homophobic. Homophobic is someone who hates a person for being homosexual especially for religious reasons. If you get turned off by same sex kissing, it's not necessarily homophobia and there's nothing wrong with your body producing a natural gag response.

I'll correct it slightly — it's mind + heart + body. Whatever these things go through is surmised as life

I'm already living the good life with my petty self. Thanks.

Leo Gura

If my guy did this, next day I'm putting the single sign on my status. Enough dealing with cheating but no cheating type of BS. Every guy that cheated always tries to defend with low key behaviors initially. I have composed a silly rap rhyme for it — Guys be acting sneaky and shit. Loyal here, Ain't got no time for it. Either you have me or you have other girls, can't have it both ways. So choose.

I respect bisexual people..it's just that I don't want to date them. I would feel awkward if he is looking at a guy. I won't find it masculine. I don't find it attractive. Biphobic means hating bi people. I don't hate them. But that doesn't mean that I should date someone that doesn't feel attractive in my brain. If I'm attracted to a heterosexual guy that's easy because I am heterosexual. Wanting someone who is similar to you sexually, nothing wrong with it. Sexual preferences are key in relationships.

So if I don't sleep with a transgender, I'm transphobic? Glad to know that I have zero autonomy over my sexual preferences.

A man can never love me forever anyway.

Embodying manhood into my personality.

So I was pretty much stage Green for the whole year. But past few weeks I'm experiencing a pull towards stage Blue. (Andrew Tot effect, lol joking) I'm liking the discipline, moral integrity aspect of stage Blue. I used to have a shadow against stage Blue. I thought of Blue as cruel moralizing judgemental people. Lately I've been witnessing a different side to Blue - the sacrificial sacred side. Parents sacrificing and saving up money for their kids, instilling strong values so that their kids will turn into disciplined hard working adults. Although I always had a rebellious freaky personality, I'm beginning to see the wisdom in conformism. Not all conformist patterns are bad. Sometimes we need conformist trends for a peaceful society. I'm regressing a bit into Blue. Now im dangling between Blue and Green.. This space is tiny but not that bad. A tiny sliver of stage Blue conformity and stage green freedom. Anyone here experienced this form of regression while they were at Green?

Do you believe in being someone's fan. People say they are Kanye's fans. There are Tate fans. Leo Gura fans. Personally I don't like being someone's fan. You can't really appreciate someone forever. People change. Things change. One day you're a fan of someone. Next day you read about a scandal they were involved in and all your aspirations and dreams about that person crumbles to the ground like a house turning to cinders. I think it's a sign of intellectual maturity to not give into the silly game of being tacitly attached to someone, it's a game of validation, and a way of simping yourself in the process. It actually hurts your personal development, you grow deeper into the biased rabbit hole and drink the Kool aid directly from the cup and lose your sense of self and integrity in the process. Tiktok is a great reminder of this phenomenon online. You see many people on Tiktok claiming to be fans of people they have barely watched or known anything about. It looks appealing but is dangerously misleading. I see it tantamount to peer pressure and equally harmful on your self development journey. I don't know your thoughts and perspectives on this subject. It inhibits critical thinking and increases dependency on social validation. I try to keep it simple. My strategy is this. Appreciate the person in the moment for what they do in that moment. Don't become a fan. Don't be attached to a person.. That way you will have less disappointments when things go south. The intellectually matured thing to do is to take in all the good things, keep yourself open to all kinds of possibilities, never be a hard fan, never lose critical thinking and never be shy from turning away from what doesn't go with your general values and principles, not be afraid to speak your mind, criticize when you can, appreciate when you can, you'll never be blindsided, brainwashed and never fall into rabbit holes. You never have to be on someone's camp or deal with the burdens of being a fan. This way you allow minimum influence in your life and maximum gain. At the same time you stay grounded and morally sane. No need to guilt yourself if you aren't someone's fan, you don't have to be and you don't have to submit to this pathetic culture. You can be a lonewolf and be proud. Perspectives welcome.

AI music has potential.

Baby sometimes it's hard I know.

Cool.

Just close your eyes right now. Right now. Think of the words — God realization. Think for 2 minutes. Ya'll are intelligent, 2 minutes are enough. Now open your eyes you silly monkeys. Now tell me what came to your mind when you thought about God Realization. Just say it off the top of your head,whatever your mind thought.

Your heart needs to melt a little. Don't worry. One day some girl will make you go nuts.