John Iverson

So, this past months i'm in to pursuing my meditation practice and pursuing the awakening process to be enlighten and to discover my true nature.. and last night, my family and our family friend gathered for a celebration.. and there is one girl that gives me the rush in side of me.. when i close my eyes to meditate there is her face popping out maybe i'm inlove with her... but I don't know if that is the egoic mind or it is something that i will give in? Should i talk to her? Because I don't want to be destruct my inner peace.. haha but suddenly she came ...

What is the trick if i eat 4 bananas?

I got aware of it and all i can say is.. i'm in love ❤️ But i'm in doubt .. maybe she is a destruction or just an illusory of the mind

The feeling is not about sex, hmmm? The feeling is like this.. my heart beats beats so fast, the rush is like that.. i wanna spend time with her , know her, even in my thoughts if she pops out it gives my heart e beat.. but this feeling is new to me and i don't know the cnnection of this to my being.. I don't want to conclude things without connection to the nature...

Why is that for 3 consecutive days i wake up in 2 am?? Is it in my meditation ?? I want to sleep smoothly no interruptions that i will wake up i dont know why...

Aside from shiviring i noticed that i am waking up nit the usual it is 2am huhh I don't know what's happening.. I meditating by sitting do nothing technique, and after a while i do that with open eyes and my break, i will be aware , practicing it just 3 consecutive days.. because i don't have anything to do because we have a semestral break

Is it i'm on the right track to say that I'm like a mirror that everything i sense is a reflection? And there is nothing just a hollow?

To conquer everything is not easy.. that if you want to pursue it tomorrow is the day... uhm? It is a long process.. so first, settle down your issues... one by one you can't able to heal all your issues.. it is something you should look forword to.. one by one okay? You can do it.. in every issues there is a tool to work for it... if the case is all issues are settled down.. then pursue enlightenment.. just sit and meditate... there are mny techniques that will suites you... if you're hurt just love yourself don't push yourself it is not the nature it is the monkey mind, listen to your body always... you can do it.. !!! I believe in youuu

I meditated now it is 4th time i meditated for today and i'm shakinggggggg why is that? Is it normal? My hands is shaking , my face , more on upper part of my body is shaking...

I will, hm? I don't have something i am addicting to.. before i am needy but I conquered it already I don't have temptations , i just sit entire day and meditate if my body wants a break then i will rest.. 3 days i do it 6 am i will meditate until 9 am.. my break time is practicing being i will go outside and look at the sky and feel the air.. but today it gets too painful..

I don't know what's this but Prabhaker has a explaination to this... this is the 11th day but this is the 3rd day I'm meditating all day long until i go to sleep.. it is very painful to do this and until evening i try to meditate my body is so hurt inside.. may arms hands and face and legs until foot.. it is painful.. I'm like leaf now.. i cant stand still it made me jelly

Haha we have semestral break, for 2 months i have nothing to do.. so this is my 11th day , hm? This is the 3rd day? Maybe? After i woke up i meditate until such time that i will sleep in evening... i wait till my feelings to sleep kicks in.. haha I don't have nothing to do i drop everything... I don't feel like going outside and mingling people , i just sit and grasping the reality sensed it all day long but ofcourse if my body wants to stop i stop.. but now my body is shaking... i'm bursting my body wants to do something that worth the energy do but I don't know i'm blank... I don't know yet my nature, nature of capable of doing something .. i practiced leo's be at the moment... being , and breathing ... i combined it together..

I know, there is alot of things that i must know and understand but the smell, the taste, the nature it self is very overwhelming.. that you don't want to sleeep..now? I don't know what I am capable of do the things in my nature it is painful that I don't know it yet i know the nature is not yet ripe but it is so painful i'm bursting I don't know what would i doooooo it is painful after meditating I don't know what will i do it is painful

The universe is here, the reality is here, before i woke up... there is no sleep state it is always awake, exist and there is no end nor beginning it always here.. there is no time, before I am sleeping now i woke up for this... i will never be sleep I don't know if I'm enlightened but i knew it... i grasped it... i tasted it, i smelled it, i touched it and i let it flow... i will never be sleep.. I don't want to .. i'm bursting inside... and i will let this until my form die...

What is contemplation?? How to contemplate??

Thankyouuuu! ?

Now I understand what Leo is trying to say in his topic... it will not help one another if you keep on do things such this... for the newbies it will absorb it and he/she falls in to that... he will not grow... because he / she gives in to this creation of monkey mind.... be aware on this one..

On this one, if you have the answer.. it is opinionated.. remember.. this time you falls in to traaaap.. just sense the being... and calm down... it is something that your mind is reconnect to your being... calm down.. if you have questions you contemplate.... rather than ask questions like this... for others it will be destruction... okay?

It's a traaaaap... don't visualize thingssss.. remember.. nature flow naturaly.. it flows naturally within us the nature.. don't question about this.. it is illusory to think, visualize, have an idea, remember? We are being.. we have the nature within us that will flow if we let it.. don't bother ask questions like that.. your mind tries to falls in to traaaap... you can't say any words on that or you can't describe it.. but the uniqueness is that if you are enlightened your reality will flow and it will cooperate in nature.. this topic is the one that Leo said...

HAHAHA IF YOU GO HERE.. go to cavite Haha lets meeeeeeeet!! Before you go to Visayas.. btw.. Cavite is in Luzon haha

So i meditated for 3 times today, and as i drink my coffee i have this I don't know.. everything i see in my parent's house is nature? But it has illusion on it?? Like the double deck bed? Furnitures, clothes.. it is created by illusion but it is the nature itself?

YESSS!! It is how i sense it! You said it well by english! Haha i'm Filipino sorry by my grammar but yesss! Definitely!!!!! But the moment they cling to survival, the moment the reality is forgotten... we cling on the thoughts, ideas and everything and it evolved and evolved and evolved.. we forget the reality is nature.... that's the reason the world is in danger..

Look the bed itself... how bed is arranged? The furnitures, how the furniture arrange, atleast by illusion itself, human could posibly i don't claim it but I don't see it that way anymore i see it nature but there is something in everything i see that maybe it is how human conceptualize the world it is their thoughts, or their illusory.you could expand that in everything you hear about beliefs, their ideas, their philosophies etc... before i drop everything in me.. the last one i did is, i watched Genius it is Albert Einstein story... and he conceptualize Waves by imagining you got my point? Albert Einstein could show you his illusory by nature but it is something he conceptualize. Waves is the name but it is something that he called it .. got my point?. i don't want to cling on this anyway.. haha

Well said

Is any position if you are meditating state you already meditating? Imean for example I don't sit but i'm in my bed is okay? Is that counted as meditating ? I'm aware, conscious and doing nothing just in bed and my eyes is close