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Can’t say no to a shirtless man with puppies. Well played @PretentiousHuman, well played.

http://www.nithyananda.org/#gsc.tab=0 If this guy doesn’t smell like a cult leader, I don’t know what does. Seems like an enlightened as fuck Zen Devil. Notice how and the way this guys followers deny everything and all accusations for all of the sex scandals this leader has and for delivering false siddhis and so on.

Can psychedelics help me uncover what it is I TRULY want? I feel so lost in my mind that I can’t tangibly feel what I want deep down. The truth is that I’m lost with no direction and I’m fucking tired of being frustrated not knowing what I want. To be honest, yeah I’m depressed. I do have to have moments almost each day to shed tears of built up frustration and confusion from lack of direction. I think I can set up a trip in a setting where I’m in a good space but if it leads to a “bad trip” and I run across some deep shit in my life, so be it. If I discover what it is I deeply want, awesome! If I have a “bad” horrifying trip where I finally fucking face and see all my inner demons, then it’s about time because I’m tired of being run by them and running from them, EVEN BETTER. I want clarity and I don’t really care what form that comes in anymore. I’m tired of guessing games. I don’t want to join some cult to give me my vision and purpose in life. I don’t want my ego to give my vision and purpose in life. If psychedelics are a good tool for this, please recommend. I’ve yet to do them and I’m currently looking at LSD. I was going to go gung-ho and just say fuck it and go research and find 5-MeO-DMT, face my egoic death cause that’s honeslty all I really want at this point. I don’t want to play games, I’m tired of suffering, lying (to myself and others), I want to know what’s on the other side and what I’m after so that I’ll also have that intense drive and motivation too and so forth but I feel like that might not be ideal for where I’m at just yet maybe in terms of the potential after math of a trip from a substance like that.

@rounder Saw him a couple weeks ago at his XMas intensive in Palo Alto (I live in SF so that was convenient). Talked to him and got "an enlightened hug"

Western science and it’s fear of paradox

@Arhattobe that’s a projection on your end. This whole “you can tell how enlightened someone is by looking into their eyes and their energy” is just bullshit. I’ve met plenty of enlightened people who are normal looking people. I met Adyashanti in person 2 weeks ago and gave the dude a hug and had a brief conversation. This whole you can see his energy through a video is just nonsense.

Here’s my question: what about kids with legitimate ADD/ADHD, Dyslexia, and such? How will your school provide ample learning for each individual? Totally cool if that’s something you’ve yet to come up with an answer on but obviously something you’re going to need to really study and come up with ideas on. High level Stage Yellow systems thinking is needed for that. 1st tier has done a shameful and atrocious job at solving this issue to the point where I’m almost convinced where these kids in the modern out of date school system will not be able to truly thrive until the playing field is leveled. I digresss though...

@Mu_ fair. I was watching too much Bill Burr when I wrote that. Apologies.

@Aakash all because I like @Jcent vision doesn’t mean the key is to just copy and paste his vision to my own. I like Leo’s purpose. I like Sadhguru’s purpose, I like Buddha’s and Christ’s. I also like Leonardo da Vinci’s purpose. There’s a lot of people whose purpose I admire because of the contributive potential they each have and for a variety of other reasons. All because you recognize the power of someone’s vision and purpose doesn’t mean you just copy and paste there’s to your own. Otherwise I would’ve just copy and pasted Leo’ life purpose to my life and there would be nothing to figure out but he is different from me. I mean, I like to talk, I’m very good at understanding concepts and getting across to people a very direct way that wakes people up and also “makes them fiesty” by provoking them but in a way where I mindfuck them and also sharing deep insights but copy and pasting someone’s else’s life to your own is a hands down mistake. My key strength is also not creativity and I’m not that good at larger group teaching and leadership. That’s never been my strength and in fact has always been my biggest weaknesses. I can’t stand groups. I check out every time I lead or participate in groups. I’ve quit teams I’ve lead and have been part of (college cross country was a good example of that) because I can’t stand large groups.

I like this vision. I like this vision A LOT.

This is all completely irrelevant. I don’t see Leo on this post making criticisms and judgments here defending himself and being ideological nor is there any direct proof that Rogan was referencing Leo. So many of these comments and replies to this clip is just a shitstorm of ideological projections. There is a truth to what Rogan is saying. See the truth and toss the rest. Rogan is a highly developed person whose able to see a lot of different point of views, an ability most of his guests can’t even do. Rogan is more developed than most people and his multi perspective lens is one of the reasons why his show is so enterntaininng. People can feel his fascination and curiosity on some level or another and his lack of judgment and openmibdedness is what allows this to flourish. People who are expecting Rogan to understand nonduality and all this shit just show how much they take what Leo and a lot of great teachers share for granted.

As though I couldn’t really figure that out for myself... This is why I’m why I’m asking about psychedelics. You don’t seem to appreciate how some people (god forbid you) may have had the good fortune to trust themselves, are well integrated, have good integrity, and so forth whereas some other people and all they have is disempowering narratives, beliefs, stories, etc. and breaking free from that can sometimes be a lot harder for those people even compared to a lot of other people for whom this is already a big enough challenge as it is. You’re half right on your initial point. I get caught in these disempowering narratives and I’m aware I am but that doesn’t solve the issue in terms of stopping and putting an end to it. This isn’t going to make sense or be understood to the degree that I’m talking about to someone who can’t relate to the depth of this issue in their own life (hisyory). So, please contribute to answering the question I posed above and not just state the obvious. I made this post because I’m tired of goddamn guess work, wasting money on goddamn therapy that just wastes my time and money. I’m tired of guessing what I want out of life only to be lead to more confusion and frustration. I’ve been doing this for 10+ years and I’m tired of not having direction or clarity. My situation isn’t going to get solved just from some self-esteem sentence completion work from a personal development book or from positively affirming bullshit to myself or visualizing something that I don’t even know I actually want to begin with. I don’t want to waste more damn money and time on therapy I likely can’t even afford if I don’t have to. I don’t want more psych pills and I don’t want to articulate my complaints, frustrations, suffering, and trauma anymore. It’s what I want out of life that I want to know. I want to work hard again and commit myself to working hard and giving everything to 1 thing, but to what? My life has no direction and I’m tired of people who have no business giving people life advice nor know me to guide me. I’m tired of being guided. This is my life. I want to know “what do I most want out of my life? What do I want to put my life on the line for to know the truth of, actualize, master, and offer to people? What do I want to know so bad I’d risk everything for? What impact do I want to have on the world that’s most meaningful to me? What would I risk my life to know?” The truth is that I don’t know what that is. The truth is that yeah, my mind does have my mind me by the balls and I want to know if there’s technology (psychedelics in this case) that can help me with discovering the answer to any of the questions. If all I get is some horrifying thing but I finally can see all the shit I’ve been hiding all my life, AWESOME because I want this shit to come out from under the rug quite frankly and I’m tired of it driving my life.

@Emerald from The Diamond Net on YouTube has an amazing life coaching program right now for people and wanted to leave a review as I think she’s an AMAZING resource for those of us on here who are motivated towards nonduality and spirituality but also maybe struggling in life in some way and can use some outside help. Most life coaches as we know are often super expensive and although some of us can afford to spend that money, not all of us can. Most life coaches are often over $100 per hour and don’t even understand the kind of stuff most of us on this forum are really motivated about so they lack that deeper understanding and often remain at Stage Orange. Emerald is offering a super affordable $32 for 1 hour sessions and I think it’s definitely worth more. I now have a better and more concrete plan of how to move towards my life purpose and now have a step-by-step plan on moving out from home, how I’m going to do so, have a plan on ways to work towards my own financial independence, have a well thought out process of how I’m going to access greater intuition in my life, and so on. Emerald is also very well educated and has great understanding of very important foundational psychology such as shadow work, the subconscious, trauma, and so on. This is really worth it and I hope you guys give this a shot if you’re skeptical about most life coaches who might not understand your motivations towards true spirituality and so on.

I want to share 2 insights I learned from 2 videos of Ralston, which I have linked at the bottom, and something I’m quickly and rather rudely being awakened to in my own contemplations is the following: all because something isn’t metaphysically or existentially true, doesn’t mean it’s not useful. You can learn FOREVER. This insight is piggybacks off of the deep realization I had yesterday in my own experience of how existence is difference or “this and that”. However, I still have only see the little drop of this giant iceberg of an insight. Everything you learn, in a sense, is a distinction. Whether it came from you or not is another matter but regardless, everything you learn you create... and this was a helluva mindfuck (my hand was over my mouth when I realized this). For example (and this was what I brought to mind when I realized this), since we’re on the actualized.org forum, bring to mind everything you know, feel, have learned, your story about Actualized and of course @Leo Gura. Now... get where all of that is arising. What is the nature of all of that? It’s a thought. You and I literally created this whole narrative and story about Leo and actualized in the form of a thought that, likely, you didn’t have conscious awareness of that whole story and all the emotions that come with that story (or any example, doesn’t matter). Notice how that’s not actually true and if that’s not actually true, Leo really doesn’t exist for you... think about that. Notice this mechanism in your own experience. Notice that this mechanism, distinctions, are not thoughts per say. Now, become aware in your experience that you not only create these distinctions and worlds (unknowingly or not) but also notice that if you pay close attention, if you were to eliminate that distinction, it wouldn’t be real for you. So what that means using a tangible example, if the concept of logic never was introduced to you, logic wouldn’t exist. Which is to also say, you created this world and “thing” called logic since logic itself isn’t something floating out there in the ether. Also notice though... that these distinctions, stories, and concepts have still served you though. With that last point and example in mind let’s look at some examples of powerful distinctions despite them not being existentially true: Logic The Subconscious or Unconcious Mind Morality Gravity The Laws of Physics Mathematical Laws Your life story Death Sentient Rationality Symbols Language Success Failure Pain Society The ego Now... realize that this list can not only be exhausted to infinity but also that, each of these things are all different relative distinctions that are going to be interpreted differently in some way by each and every one of you because you all are going to have different relationships to these distinctions given the difference between all of your own individual upbringing (notice what I had to do there too? ). I invite you to also grasp that this is also creativity at work. Creating worlds & learning for infinity, this power is available to you. Notice the power here. You can literally learn and create forever. Imagine creating a distinction like “the subconscious mind” that, yes isn’t true in the real of absolute truth of Nothingness, but becomes true in the relative world. For instance... what if you created a new world for how we become enlightened and explore the nature of consciousness and create a whole new spiritual practice?... I think this is why I’ve always been attracted to different athletic coaches, sages, etc. They literally created this world from scratch by (unknowingly and unconsciously most likely) using the power of distinctions.

@Sahil Pandit

First off, I’m with @purerogue. You’re being called out for being a victim and of course you’re trying to defend yourself rather than just face the truth that you’re being a victim. “I exist so all my problems stem from my parents conceiving me,” is being a whining victim. I’m not trying to belittle you, make you feel small, but to go the degree of ‘my existence isn’t my fault and so all of my shit really isn’t my fault because my parents couldn’t keep it in their pants,’ is just downright whining. That’s not even being a victim that’s just childlike whining. Also I want to point out for other people when this guy says “all metaphysics aside.” Notice how he only wants Truth when it’s convenient and titiliating. When the rubber meets the road the devil doesn’t give a shit about Truth.

Are you happy?

Read Om Swami's memoir NOW. +1 to what @Leo Gura said. This is pretty much exactly what you're saying - I don't want to be anyone. I want to transcend this game. I want to be a monk. Oddly enough I'm in the exact same place as you. I've shared this story a couple times on here but over the summer I was at a beach here in the San Francisco Bay Area and I wasn't really contemplating or meditating but I was sitting there with no one around, looking at the sea cliffs in the distance and all of a sudden I felt something in my chest that said "I want to be absolutely nothing." I know exactly what you're saying and I suggest you start to strategize to work towards this and have the courage to take this chance. You can't really go back to ordinary life with the same dumbed down mind after all you've heard from people like Leo about God, who you are, the benefits of all of this, how society is mostly just a giant zoo for ignorant suffering chimps, etc.

I’m looking to start doing some research for my life purpose on wisdom schools of the past and other such things back in the “ancient days” and I’ve noticed Graham Hancock’s books coming up a lot in my searches and books similar to the topics he writes about. I’m probably going to check him out anyways but would love to get someone’s take on his work outside of my own assumptions despite my own open mindedness. Would you say that a lot of the stuff he writes about is likely to have a lot of historical and also existential accuracy?

@Jordan94 I honestly felt the same and still feel skeptical but I notice a lot of mystics from the East really seem to take this part pretty seriously so if I were you I wouldn’t just cast it aside. Understand that this is a science that’s been used for thousands and thousands and thousands and thousands of years. I know it seems weird but I’d say put your skepticism aside for now.

I was listening to an old Garyvee Interview with Tony Robbins and heard Tony talking about his breathing routine and heard him reference “Eastern philosophy” and immediately made the connection and then looks at one of his breathing exercises at his seminars and was like “holy fuck... this dude is marketing and selling pranayama breathing as his own thing.” Then I had the thought of Tony Robbins becoming enlightened ? Not shit talking, just something I’d share as an entertaining connection I saw.

This to me is pretty much the only answer I've been able to come up with as well unfortunately. That I think is one of the benefits to being in countries like India where people are probably more sensitive to other committed people serious spiritual pursuits and sadhanas (yes I know there's a lot dilution these days there but I imagine it's like America for example). This was how Om Swami did it. I've actually almost thought about going to India to do this in this Himalayas but the problem with that (along with many others) is when it comes to visas. I've literally heard people who went to India to do the whole cave shindig and stayed passed their 6 month visa and the government actually found them and sent them back. This shit is tricky and I think @okulele is on point. Where it get's more hairy is... what happens if you're in there doing this shit for the next 10 years?... and then that person bails? There's A LOT of logistics and planning that goes into this and also a lot of preparation. I don't recommend newbs who've only been meditating for a couple years do this. This shit isn't a joke. So be smart.

A very beautiful short 10 minute film on a Chan Buddhist Master. Chan, for those that don't know, was the Chinese version of Zen when Bodhidharma brought the teachings of Buddhism over to China. Or I should, Zen is the Japanese version of Chinese Chan Buddhism. This video really reflects what I love about (Zen & Chan) Buddhism so much - it's raw simplicity. There's no fancy gurus in decadents beads, and powder, piercings, holy men/women talking about God and all these fancy things. Sure that has a place but there's something about that raw simplicity and richness that I see Chan/Zen really brings to life. I don't resonate much with the group meditation as that's a real distraction for me and I do feel like I get something out of yogic pranayama, mantra, and I think what's great about yoga is the numerous different types of sadhana but I do see the other end of the coin of just having 1 or 2 simple yet profound practices that, to me, is what really makes Buddhism so beautiful. The word that I really like to describe Buddhism is "naked". You are not in that monastery to be anybody important, special, cool, smart, wise, etc. You are stripped of everything, left with nothing but your chores, daily duties and disciplines, meditation, and your koan. Which is something I deeply want. To be naked. To be a nobody. It's funny because I want to become a sage that delivers deep insights, wisdom, healings to people, awaken people, and so much much more in the coming years but I also don't want to do any of that at all. I don't want to be anybody special whatsoever that get's recognition. I honestly don't care about that at all. I'm not really someone that's ever cared about "saving the world" per say and I think it's important I'm honest about that with myself about that. Just in the sense that I've never had that kinda motivation. It's kinda like the 10th Ox Herding Picture. That picture really touches me. He's not out there crusading or trying to change the whole world. Just a simple man whose available to others out of love and only love if they need or want it. It's been a real conflict with trying to formulate a life purpose with this conflict because in the end I do want to have one, but I know I need and want to go inwards first and face that challenge, that commitment and wanting to know, "find", and discover God and the deepest truths and powers (from "full" enlightenment, to no-mind, to siddhis - not because I want to be flashy but simply because I want to know the deeper dimensions of what's real and what's possible - akashic records, so on and so forth to other wisdom like philosophy, psychology, etc.), emotional/psychological/spiritual/moral purification, and so on but also, how does someone in the West really do such an abstract, difficult thing? Even logistically for that matter. We in the USA have a lot of advantages (to the point it's becoming a problem) but it's not like for example India where you have like the Himalayas and spiritual infrastructure that's been around for tens of thousands of years with gurus (yes I know people are saying there's a lot of corruption with gurus and stuff) where people can pull an Om Swami and live in a cave and that start a small ashram for very cheap or something (pulling an example out of my ass so apologies for not bringing up better one's). Anyways... sorry for the ramble! Enjoy the video!

@Shroomdoctor no. Still live at home with my secular moralistic atheist of a dad who would burn me at the stake if he saw that vision board I have to wait until I move out to put that up. I might edit it more. Might take out the runners (Steve Prefontaine & Dean Karnazes) as I'm transitioning out of running as my passion for it is almost dead and dry but I'll wait and see.

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