kieranperez

I’ve noticed a big overlooked obstacle in my experience to this process is a very subtle fear that I didn’t really know was there. As soon as I let go and I surrender I feel so much more free. Ive said this in the past but not-Knowing is one of those most liberation experiences I think a person can feel.

Huge and much harder in my experience. Unlearning is the key to being able to learn the best in my experience... after a certain point. As the adage goes... follow the rules before you break them. You gotta get good at following them before you can transcend them.

”The any in the relative domain is infinite possibilities, and there always will be, and it’ll never stop. You can learn forever. You can create more distinctions. Why? That’s the nature of consciousness.”

Those experiences go to show that you can’t confine spiritual awakening into some rigid system. Realization comes when it comes. Nothing wrong with practice of course. Do the practice that works for you but yeah, that’s not uncommon. Imagine if they didn’t have a context for that experience... that’s why concepts can actually help as a background.

“Why are you hitting yourself?”

I do want to be clear on this though: I do think advanced siddhis like levitation and other psychokinetic have been done in the past. I don’t think it’s an accident that that talent has floated around for thousands of years. I do think advanced level shit like that is doable... by (advanced) talented practitioners (who also probably put in thousands and thousands thousands and thousands of hours for probably decades). So I’m not dismissing radical abilities. I dismissig the fantasy of everybody can do it. Even with that, you’re not going to see any yogis levitating to Mars lol. Talent has limits and so does work capacity. A great question though to ask is - as mankind becomes more evolved (particularly with advancements with science, medicine, psychedelics, AI and other technology), will there be new evolved states of consciousness and new abilities that have yet to even occur say beyond samadhi and other types of altered states? Now that’s a deep question.

You literally described my path in athletics to what I’m discovering now lol. I couldn’t have put it any better.

Let’s go with this because LeBron is such a clear example. Let me make this clear. LeBron James was 235 pounds and 6’4” with around a 45 inch vertical leap at 14 years old. Bo Jackson was All-Star caliber NFL Football player AND MLB Baseball player and was an athletic freak of nature. Wilt Chamberlain was 7’1” and ran a 1:56 800m, high jumped 6’6”, and ran 49 seconds in the 400m... In converse all stars on a dirt track with no training in high school LOL. He was a man amongst children in the NBA and also could hold his own lifting with guys like Arnold Schwarzenegger. I use sports because sports it’s clear. It’s obvious. You can’t deny what you’re looking at and the reality of the results (although that still seems to be an issue apparently lol). Yeah those guys had to work hard but guess what, little Jimmy whose 5’5” ain’t going nowhere in basketball and ain’t going to the NBA no Tony Robbins or Ralston techniques are going to make that happen. Not will power. Not affirmations. Not law of attraction. You can get better. But that doesn’t mean little Jimmy is dunking on Shaq. Sorry lol that’s not happening.

You're not backing up anything your saying with any concrete examples lol. How about this. Do your little exercises and then you and I can meet at the track and you can race my friend who was a Bronze medalist in the 2012 Olympics in the 800m and let's how far your visualization will serve you then. There's a reason no top female athlete tends to not even come close to their male counter parts in their field. The fastest female sprinter ain't going to touch Usain Bolt in the 200m. Paula Radcliffe's untouchable world record in the marathon is 2:15:25. Eliud Kipchoge's most recent marathon record is 2:01:39. Reason? Genetics. There's a reason East Africans dominate middle/long distance running by a HUGE margin. There's a reason West Africans dominate the world of sprinting by a HUGE margin. There's a reason Australians and Americans dominate swimming. Genetics. Genetics. GENETICS. Deny what you see on the screen all you want. Deny your direct experience all you want. Your problem. Man, that's so out of convention. That's awesome you've found that for yourself. Now that's a counter-intuitive move right there. Have you not replaced them with anything else? Where the hell are you getting your examples? LOL

@Leo Gura check this out (if you haven't seen it)

It's what's true. Deny your direct experience as much as you want. Faith and all the personal development in the world doesn't make literally ANYTHING possible for you in this relative phenomenal plane. If you think you're going to change your genes and tap into some mythical potential that has you levitating in a lotus posture in outer space telepathically communicating to other celestial beings and able to breathe while in outer space... be my guest. I would love to be proven wrong on that. That's not "weak minded". That's rely on direct experience and not silly fantasy.

Interesting I wonder how a change like that over the last few months would extrapolate over the coming years. Have you found that the results you've been getting thus far has been assisting in your progress in your Kriya, meditation, your concentration, and going into samadhi-like territory?

@Leo Gura have you found any reason to suggest that psychedelics can change brain chemistry and type over time? Whether it be through research or your own DE? Btw I've been checking out the YouTube channel "Breaking Convention" and man they got GREAT stuff. Particularly on this topic too! Thanks for that resource!

In the domain of talent, both are applicable. A legitimitate autistic is not going to be a Ramana Maharishi level enlightened person because guess what? That capacity ain't there. I'm not making the case that one cannot reach full liberation. I'm saying it's more honest to admit you don't know if they average person (not to make a blanket statement) can. Talent in the spiritual domain exists. We know this because guess what? Most people don't reach the end. People devote their whole lives to this and still get little nothing for it compared to the amount of depth that's there. Most people who practice hardcore don't get siddhis (deep) siddhis. That's not an accident. You can change them but that doesn't automatically mean there aren't limits to how much you can change them. Read and study anatomy. Don't ask me to prove anything to you. You're denying basic stuff and denying your own direct experience. I don't need to prove anything to you. You don't want to learn? Then that's your problem. Study stats of people who have enormously VO2 max capacities. Look at the numbers for those guys that have incredible lactate threshold capacities, testosterone levels, etc. You think you can match a 92 score VO2max through mere personal development, believing, and training? Go ahead. Be my guest lol

Human beings have all 3 types. Fast, slow, intermediate twitch fibers are not a quality but are different fibers altogether LOL. If you really want to debate this subject with someone whose studied athletic science and physiology since the age of 12 then by all means. You don't say as your running "I'm going to work fast twitch fibers now". That's not how that works. I'm watering this down but if you're running slow for awhile (this is relative to one's fitness) eventually the slow twitch fibers eventually call upon other fibers for assistance. This is elementary but yeah, your understanding is downright false. The substance of what you are is Infinite Potential but I don't care how enlightened you are. If you have a missing foot you're not going to regrow that foot and beat me in a marathon. There are limits to what your character within this dream can do. Your denial of that is based on fantasy and imagination as it just dismisses what's the case right in front of you every single day. @Nahm prove me wrong. Go run under 2 hours in the marathon applying "faith". See how far that get's you. Don't worry... I'll wait. Genetics is a factor. You cannot deny for example that Kenyans, Ethiopians, and other East Africans have a flat out genetic disposition when it comes to middle/long distance running up to the marathon. Your denial of this is a fantasy and not based on your own direct experience.

Lol if you think mere belief is going to change your muscle type to run under 2 hours for a marathon then yeah... you can go ahead and assume that ?? be my guess. I dont know what else to tell you othe than that you’re lost in fantasy. It’s acknowledging the reality that there are differences and limits. This work isn’t about trying to be some superhuman fantasy.

Have you seen any research of evidence or any direct evidence based on your own experience that psychedelics change brain chemistry? Do you think the “neurofeedback meditation” you’ve been experienenting with has any promising potential?

Here’s my question though, do you think we all have a true given Genius like some of the names you mentioned and that part of the “imperative” is to become clear on what that is and then tying that in with life purpose? Again, just your own personal opinion as I’m curious as to where you stand on that. NO! People are talented. That’s just the fact of the matter. Not everybody “can be like Mike”. There’s a reason Michael Jordan is Michael Jordan. There’s a reason Jesus was Jesus. What Leo and I seem to be on the same on is that you don’t have to be like them. Accept your own limitations and your strengths! That acceptance is a strength not some victim. To try to emulate Jesus or something stems from a place of lack of acceptance that yeah, you can’t walk on water lol and aren’t at that level of talent. All because you can’t run a sub 2 hour marathon like Eliud Kipchoge doesn’t mean you can’t run fast. You can. Just have honest expectations and stay grounded with the fact that, yeah, not everybody has the capacity to earn an Olympic gold.

Isn’t it ironic how “objectivist” science and subjective spiritual gurus and masters both mutually single each other out because they both dismiss each other? The amount of more clarity we can get on having a more efficient, honest, and realistic u detstanding we could get on the spiritual path if both cooperated is going to be so much better once these communities merge. I make this case to other athletes all the time. I have some friends who’ve been to the Olympics and have competed at that level and they too are in this denial that they got there largely because of their talent. They literally think anybody could run under 4 for the mile if they worked hard enough. I’ve had friends who as a freshman in high school ran mid 4:20s and then next thing you know are national champs. But the problem is that the mind (regardless of the domain) creates a limiting narrative of how because they did it their way and they only look at their experience, they think it should be the case for everyone and it’s just wrong. Flat out wrong. I think what also needs to be made clear to many people is that many of these talent cases often don’t make good teachers. They can have great insight into the nature of God and also great wisdom and knowledge about the relative world but they doesn’t make them effective teachers per say. Michael Jordan is the greatest basketball player of all time (in my honest - accurate - opinion ?). Horrible GM and owner and would make a horrific coach because he literally assumes everybody should be exactly like him and would be as good as him if they had that mindset. I mean, I remember Ralston said something on how you can literally create in one of his videos. Not sure what he really means by that though - feel free to expand on that if you know what he’s means though because I even emailed him on that but he said he would answer in a newsletter that was never released. I think this is why those guys who work their asses off in this work and do get to the end after decades of work are the real inspirations to me because this shit didn’t come easy to them. I think that’s what resonates with your vlogs (at least for me). This doesn’t seem to come easy for you in yet people still feel your intensity and passion for this work and youre finding your place and you’re driving hard at this. I don’t mean this as some idealistic projection but just my own 2 cents on the matter.

What I hear this guy describing in this interview is kinda what I hear from you with all your awakenings with 5-MeO but he’s having this just naturally. He’s describing literally thousands of deeper and deeper states of consciousness without any sort of external leverage like a guru, teacher, or psychedelic. These cases like Sadhguru, Ramana Maharshi, even Ralston who describes his staggering amount of work (the talent aka inherent capacity still has to be there in order to be actualized)... I personally have a hard time finding relating to these people because it’s like relating to a human fantasy in most cases. It’s like being a good runner but comparing yourself to the world record holder in the marathon. I thinks it’s tricky because these people don’t seem extrodinary so it seems like “well yeah I should be able to do this then.” These people are not your average no-self level enlightened people. Which is why I’m glad you emphasize depth because that’s something I see in any domain that’s not nearly emphasized enough. Much less the domain of nonduality. Glad to see how humble and “ordinary” he is though. I can’t exain how refreshing that is. Nonetheless, I do find these cases who have these abilities absolutely fascinating because it’s shows what’s actually possible for a human being (whether it comes naturally or not) and sparks there curiosity for how dee human potential and understanding goes.

That part was a joke but okay lol

I’m going to make this very clear. If you have LEGITIMATE ADHD, TRY MODAFINIL! I have legitimate ADHD. I was diagnosed at 5-6 years old for about 6 months of cognitive testing. I was on ADHD medication for 17 years up until January of 2018 when I finally had enough. I tried in the early years concerta, stratera, Ritalin, and a few others until I settled on Adderall. As those of you who have ADHD that have been on some sort of ADHD stimulant over the course of years know, when you first take, IT WORKS. The first day of it working its hysterical by how much more centered you are and you can pay attention, you can really HEAR another human being across from you, you’re not a victim of your own thoughts and impulsivity racing like a fucking hurricane, suddenly you stop forgetting your car keys, etc. you know what I’m talking about... Eventually though, it dies out. You acclimate. Enter modafinil... Right now I’m taking 1/2 of a modafinil... Good god... for those of you on here who are struggling with this that are looking for a much healthier route rather than take stimulants that become physiologically addictive (in the past, I wanted to get off Adderall but every time I got off I would be so out of energy I couldn’t get out of bed), this is for you! I can literally read several pages in a book now without going off track for 2 pages being lost and just reading words and can be present with what I’m reading. My stuttering and mumbling has significantly subsided. I can listen to another human being in a conversation and not get stuck in myself. I now have a tool that’s helping me get started with meditation without feeling like I’m swimming against a current that feels as powerful as a tsunami. I’m not a victim of impulsive and compulsive behaviors like chronic phone and media use. I can have a long chain of thought without going 10 places in 2 seconds. I don’t feel dizzy sick from my own mind (my diet is pretty solid). For those that have ADHD that have a good financial base that can afford neurofeedback training or an EEG machine and want to learn neurofeedback for yourselves, GO GET IT! If you’re like me though and you can’t afford neurofeedback, here’s my suggestion to you (as this is my plan): Get modafinil! Get on it, see the effects for yourself. If your adhd is prominent enough and you’re like me and you have horrendous self-esteem, confidence issues, chronic media addiction because it’s that easy dopamine fix, etc. and your life is on a rotten foundation... BUY THIS! This is a lever that can fucking really help you. This can be thing that helps you START and stay on track and get out the starting blocks. My suggestion is use this until you can setup a life until you can afford neurofeedback training/an EEG machine and then get this shit solved for good and then you can put an end to pills for ADHD for good. I’m writing this because I KNOW how fucking hard this shit is. This is not for those of you who don’t have adhd that haven’t done your homework, that can’t empathize with those that struggle from a real cognitive issue, those nondual elitists who just use ego to explain away everything. This is for those that have this issue and need someone whose struggled with this for close to 2 decades. I dropped out of college mostly because of this. ADHD is hands down, no question, overdiagnosed. There are plenty of people out there who are diagnosed but really there issue is their diet, they don’t exercise enough, etc. There is also more than one route to treating this because ADHD is very hairy. I grew up under a chef and have eaten well my whole life. There’s not a vegetable I don’t eat, not a fruit I don’t eat (except bananas... fuck bananas), etc. I’ve been a hardcore athlete my whole life, I’ve tried fucking everything except modafinil (until now) and neurofeedback. If you’ve been trying many options for years and maybe decades, this could be a life changer. Once again, thank you @Leo Gura. I’m appalled at how fortunate I am to have found your channel that showed this. And of course, thank you @Robby

How long have you been on ADHD meds? I was on for 17 years and got off a little over a year ago and I am noticing how quickly I adapt to this med physiologically and cognitively and this build a tolerance. I plan on doing an update post on this for those of us who have this. However, if you don’t have a history close to as long as mine and you don’t feel you’ve adapted to your meds yet I would give this a try, although I’m concluding from my own experience that this is temporary until I can afford neurofeedback training in the fall.

Thank god you found you channeled your internet humor into actualized.org because I swear you have the potential to be a 5 star internet troll lol

*insert Eben Pagan at Burning Man*