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@Durka_Durka. Im reading the book right now He says doing the stems alone is enough, the rest will come by itself. Just keep doing the stems, by this exercise u will bring the content slowley into ur conscious. Dont force it into ur mind throughout the day

On that self esteem part: Read "the 6 pillars of self esteem" by Nathaniel Brandon if you havent jet

@Rilles very interesting.. this happens to me too, 2 friends from middle school, they appear in my dreams every once in a while. I also have no contact to them too anymore

Cbd gives me more calmness in sozial situations and relaxes me in a subtle way, haven't tried it yet for medical purpose

@2000 Can you share some source?

@pluto I also experienced this, after the 2nd hit as I was starring into the collour and patterns, thoughts came into my mind about a changa trip report i've seen on youtube. He spoke about trickster entities and stuff. Just as the tought came to me, the patterns also formed into these trickster faces. They did looked a bit scarry but i was aware about this thoughs getting projecting into the trip and stayed completly calm and even enjoyed the phenomena, thought its really cool it was even possible

Last night I smoked N,N-DMT (Changa blend) for the first time of my life, had a wonderful expierience and felt like sharing. Pls apologize for my weak english grammer ^^ I have experience various psychodelics in the past, so this wasnt my first trip. So my flatmates, a friend and me just finished watching a Jim Carry movie on Netfix and were chatting and figuring out what were bout to do next, as our friend surpris offered me to smoke some DMT with him (i guess he only offered it only to me cause he knew i am into psychodelics and the others not). I got excited (and a bit nervous), but of course I said yes So we made ourselfes comfortable in my room, got some water and turned up backroundmusic. He loaded up the pipe and took a hit then passed it to me. First I took some very small puffs just to test the potency of the blend. I hardly noticed anything, just some shift in awareness but could not point my finger on it yet. I loaded up another hit, smoked and passed it to him. This time I hit it a lot stronger, hold it in my lungs as long as possible and blew it out again as I struggled for air. Imediatly after exhaling i closed my eyes and vivid colours started to whirl in front of my inner eye, also slight patterns started to build themselfes out of nothing. My body started to feel very light and comfortable, I enjoyed this second hit. But also some strange stuff happend with my body. It started to twitch everywhere, it was kind of unconfortable. Quick I noticed that it only happened when i was lost in my own thoughts, as soon as i focused on my body itself the twitching stopped and I felt super relaxed again. We talked a bit about what we were experiencing and after 5 to 10 minutes he loaded the pipe for the 3rd time. Now I flet ready for a real hit. He smoked and passed it to me. I lighted up and took 2 big hits of the pipe, layed down and hold my breath for like 15 seconds. With every second it felt like the DMT high loaded itself up, like a slingshot was stretched more and more till i exhaled and the slingshot catapulted me into fractale land a matter of seconds. First there were very bright yellow-orange collours swerling around. Then super high definition fractiles started to build themselfes in front of me. It was just so amazingly beautiful, I could not belive what i was seeing. My body at the same time felt like it was dissolved into nothing. Then something quite remarkable happened. Deep red collour got mixed into the yellow fractiles and form the middle of my chest a feeling started to explode and rushed through my whole body. It was the feeling of pure love, every cell of my body was filled with it, every muscle relaxed to its fullest. I even felt my blotter relaxing and thought i would piss myself, luckily it did not happen hahaahah But suddenly my ego starts to interfere and questions if I am even ready for such a deep experience. Doupts arrise about all kind of stuff. I immediatly felt the effects of the resitance, wich made me anxious and terrified for a second. I quickliy realised the stupidity of all the doupt and remebered to go with the expierience and got back to the wonderful trip. For a couple minutes I rested in in this state as it faded slowly. I was totaly mindblown, one of the most beautiful expierences i ever had. Afterward I felt very connected to my friends and felt graditude. Also I felt, and still feel more connected to my "higher self", more authentic and calm. So there were no big insights but it was totaly worth it. We talked again bout the trip and half an hour later he left and I went to sleep. Deffinitly going to try this again if I get some quality stuff. Thanks for reading, peace Here a picture of what my "love fractal" kind of looked like

Patience, Patience & Patience Keep meditating, years will probably go by. You will have more and more glimpses of feeling connected. Once ure 'there', you be so glad u dont need the drugs anymore. Otherwise you will be chasing for the rest of your life and never be satisfied. Use psychodelics here and there to refresh motivation and insight, but stick to the daily practice

@Hafiz go for it, u wont regret that personal and spiritual growth you'll get… wich money could never buy

As long as money is your biggest concern then absolutly. Any mental problems?

@rogi 97 Ok i think i got what you mean. Just last week i had a situation very similar to yours. Lemme explain how it felt to me. First off, for a good week, i was beeing veryvery rigerous with my mindfullness practice throughout the day, this probably contributed to the following: So I was in a coffeeshop and just got my coffee in my lunchbreak. As I put in some cinamon in it, beeing as mindfull as i could possibly be, suddenly I felt a very strong detatch form my body. All the movement felt like it was coming by itself, not from "me". I was astonished and just watched myself walking outside without "giving any commando" to my body. I also wondered, just like you I guess, whats gonna happen next? I sat down and just watched the happening. Everything felt completly effortless, no doing by me was involved. After about 15 minutes it weard off again as I had get to work and focus on other things. Sounds familiar?

@rogi 97 Forgetting is a normal thing dat happens to everyone. Please elaborate on wich extent you forget.

Hej there, I would often feel this incredibly stong itch sensation on my cheeks (face, not but) as i enter deeper states in the meditation practice. Anyone ever experienced anything similar or same? Any guess what that is or where its comming from?

@Nahm I dont use any of the mentioned items. I googled a bit and found others wich describe the same phenomena, some interesting theorys have been posted in the following, have a look if youre interessted: https://www.vipassanaforum.net/forum/index.php?topic=238.0 https://www.dharmaoverground.org/discussion/-/message_boards/message/4037474 could be a dukka nana, could be something else.. i'll probably never know

@LaucherJunge No definitly no flow feeling. Its steady located on like ~7 points on my cheeks @Nahm My mind is bugging me cause i didnt describe the phenomena well enough.. the sensation is more like a mix of extreme itch & bite, it usually stays till the end of the session. I dont scratch while meditating. Sometimes it changes how it feels in a kind of pressure like feeling where I dont have the erge to scratch anymore, still its strongly present and i hardly can ignore it. Afterwards I did scratch my face. Any other ideas, or still "mind checking if body asleep"?

@Nahm Sounds legit, thx for reply

@Max_V He didn't ask what it is, so i think this didnt answere anything. i'll try @alldayloop" what's the point of taking this enlightenment work seriously? Meaning doing all these meditation practices, concentration practices, retreats, yoga, etc..." Through councesness work you'll gain a lot of positive charakter traits, here just a few: Retreats: boost all the following qualities by x100 Concentration pratice: better focus - get less discractet, means more results in less time - IN BASICLY EVERY CATEGORY OF LIFE Meditation: more patience, eliminate negative behaviour patterns, calmer mind, more self awareness, reduce depression, regulate moods, reduce anxiety in General,... the list goes on and on and on The acctual point, i think, is to reduce suffering to Zero. But what im tryna say is, you dont have to reach enlightenment to BETTER YOUR LIFE BY A SIGNIFICANT! Hope this helps a bit

Sounds like you think you have to be councess all the time. Drop the notion, its ok to regress at times. Progress isnt linear upwards.

For me i guess addictions.. and fear of it not working out and loosing what i have

Sounds like sleep paralysis Google it up. And also astral projection, i've read there are some good techniques to get into an astral projection from the state of sleep paralysis

@Geog Hi geog i suggest u to just keep meditating, focusing on the breath sensation on the nose. while i was on a vipassana retreat i heard someone asking the same question to the teacher. The uncouncess mind is reacting on the intention "focus on breath" by tring to "help" by trying to control the breath, as it is the default mode to act instead of letting go. more often it will just klick, and u will let go of controlling. Just give the mind time to rewire its habbits.

@Lauritz Thats exactly how it felt to me on 4g of mushrooms haha the afterglow was one of the best feelings i ever had, just blissed out of being here now

@Damir Elezi I recommend the book "Radical Honesty" by Brad Blamton. He does a good job elluminating how lies, restraining Information, keeping secrets and not hurting someone elses Emotion is backfireing on you and everyone else in your life.

@Shin Here some purposr i discovered form myself. (And i think some others can confirm) When i fap, i dont only get 10 seconds of bliss, also the time afterwards i feel calmer and more clear headed. This effect is stronger the longer the breaks inbetween. On the other hand, if i would fap daily the "afterglow-effect" would almost completly be lost.

@Argue LSD itself is not legal but there is a legal option u all can order in the normal web. Look up 1P-LSD. It comes from the same chemical family as lsd. Its assumed to be a lsd prodrug, wich gets transformed to lsd in your body. So basically LSD is legal. U can also try Al-Lad, Eth-lad and 1A-lsd. Peace!