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@Shanmugam Enlightenment can take dozen of years sometimes, doesnt it? I would looooove to KNOW it wouldnt take because im young. But i had sooooo much resistance in my childhood but noticeably in my early teens. Im still trying to recover, its a slow process though.

>Bamn, another time happened. Looking for something in the future. I thought this didnt happened to me.

Thats what i am realizing, but that realization hasnt sink in...yet.

Its never ending...But my mind will say it will end...I dont know what is true... and no matter how many teachers who seem to have to know the truth, tell me, it doesnt satisfy this hunger.

@Saumaya No, I read a @Shanmugam post on Quora instead hahaha

@Saumaya Realizating i have been on the hedonic treadmill

@Saumaya damn, u bacc

@Shanmugam The truth has a million paradoxes and contradictions...I dont know what i know anymore...but wait! THat doesnt stop the mind from believing everything!

@PsiloPutty You are trying to control something it cant be controled, the success when you are able to silence it is what makes you think you have control. Its ok, sometimes i do the same

day 3 i usually most the times masturbated in tuesday's and wednesday's mornings because i had free time but i will try to not touch my sausage

It depends on the thoughts. You can have positive thoughts - confidence or negative thoughts - low-confidence.

@Prabhaker Thank you.

@Leo Gura My mind might be obsessed with the truth, so it matters to my mind.

At these times I wonder if people make up these stories or they are really true.

@Dan Arnautu Thank you.

@Prabhaker Thanks everyone

Be mindful about it

Wake up Eat breakfas Go to pc Eat lunch Play videogames Meditate Eat dinner Sleep This is usually weekends lol

You have to stop believing they are true

@Psyche_92 thats just your mindset but it seems very real, i have it a lil bit too. just the same repetive thoughts

@Shin Talking with me?

Had the urges but didnt fap. Saw the index of porn's site but didnt touch my panus

@Shin @John Lula do you guys like psychology because of enlightenment?

@mohdanas Just meditated. At least 20 minutes. THanks for the help.