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Weirdly enough, numerology has really helped me a lot along my journey. Very often when I make a big decision and need reassurance, or overcome something I was struggling a lot with, I see a specific set of numbers somewhere. 1111 when I realised some truth, or am getting more in alignment with a truth. 2222 when I am moving from one chapter or subchapter of my life to the next, and that I'm shedding old skin. 123 when I am improving at something and taking steps. 666 when I have something I have to work through. I have a strong intuition that these numbers actually are trying to help and assist me. Perhaps I'm deluding myself, but I have observed the same thing happening so many times, like a scientist would when trying to establish something for example, that I cannot deny the synchronicity and phenomenon. Observe for yourself what these numbers might mean to you and contemplate them. All the best.

Healthygamer has been one of the few blessings of 2020. They have helped so many Twitch-streamers with their mental health. Teaching meditation, yogic and pyschological theory, and overal helping raise people's consciousness. This stream after recent events has brought me to tears many times. Byron 'Reckful' Bernstein was one of the people that helped me a lot in getting through dark times in my teens. The guy was so kind and open. It's so sad to see him be consumed by his darkness and on July 2nd end up taking his life. I hope this can help some people

@Arcangelo That's ok, friend. I understand The pandemic really is a difficult time. I hope you're ok. If you need to talk to anyone, feel free to message me.

@Loving Radiance That's hard to simplify to be honest. When you go through the diagnosis process, there is a screening for lots of different things. If you end up passing over a certain threshold , you are labeled to be on the spectrum. The things I struggle most with are: Not having an inherent feel for how to behave in the world and in the context of social situations. From a very young age, it has been a race of trying to copy and imitate as best as I can. I suppose being good at this is what's gotten me to 20 without people giving me comments that I might be on the spectrum. But having this as a conscious process, instead of an intuitive thing, makes it very energy draining. Rapid sensory overload, I get overwhelmed very fast. I have a very atypical way of processing information. Unless I consciously try to, my mind has the tendency to always think in black and white. Having a ridgid set of rules concerning how the world works and how situations are ought to go. If something differs from how I imagined it to go, I experience heavy cognitive dissonance. Luckily I have grown the openness to question all this, and temporarily be free from it, but the baseline and modus operandi of my mind is to be extremely attached to these rules and imagined future.

@Heart of SpaceI hope you're ok, friend. If you need to talk to someone about it, feel free to reach out to me. Much love.

Cool thread, interested to see what gets posted here

@Arcangelo First of all, I find the way you approach this thread a bit insensitive. I shared what had happened because Byron's death sparked a massive mental health shift in a lot of online communities, with that mainly being Twitch and the gaming sphere. I grew up watching him, and he helped me a lot through difficult times. I'm very sad he's gone. Also, with this thread I was sharing the resource that is HealthyGamer.gg. This is a company run by Dr. Alok Kanojia, a psychiatrist that trained to become a monk, and now dedicates his life to help people gain more understanding over themselves. He is someone that shares a lot of good info about meditation, yoga, psychology, neurology, and more. For people who grew up on the internet and knowing what kind of mental place most people are on here, his contribution towards health and growing in consciousness is beyond valuable.

@Rilles How would you go about releasing such vows your psyche made and is built on?

All of the ones listed above, and more, were shared on my school from a young age. My parents too are what I would say a mixture of orange moving into green, so the values from school and at home were not very discrepitant.

Has been quite the awakening growing up and realizing that schools are not by default like this. I grew up in a more or less stage green country (the Netherland), my school was very open and liberal.

Any tips for how to have a consistent meditation habit but at the same time keep it conscious and deliberate? Throughout my 4 year meditation journey I have noticed that it's very difficult to have both Consinstency gives you constant practice but also has the characteristic of after some time making you go through the motions instead of consciously choosing to meditate. On and off meditation, on moments of inspiration, gives me real conscious and good sessions, but at the same time makes the habit inconsistent and leaves me with days where I feel overwhelmed because of a lack of processing that I get through meditation. Interested to hear your thoughts.

This might give a different perspective

@LovingYou that’s a fair assumption to make from my first post. I do feel that meditation is really important and one of the ‘realest’ moments of my day. It’s one of the things that I want to dedicate my life to. The inconsistency more so comes from the tugging of my ego. I get real, real strong ego backlashes

@electroBeam Intention is real good advice. I have tried it a little before, but never actually committed to it. Thank you @Shiva99 I do feel like meditating whenever I have the drive to has something special. But, a plethora of different people keep advocating for consistent meditation. I'd like to understand why. Leo talked about it a while back, and have felt some sort of obsession to do it ever since. Mind you I was 16 at the time, so I didn't think much for myself back then.

Exactly, I am a human and I need to survive too. I have a lot of things I want to do with my life, and a lot of problems I want to help find solutions to, and so I value my life. Veganism has showed not to work for me, my body doesn't tolerate it. So I eat what my body feels like it needs to survive and feel good. Also, you are shoving a lot of extrapolated assumptions into my mouth that I haven't even given you my perspective on. I don't support factory farming whatsoever, and only try to buy what's local, well cared for, and organic. You probably have your contentions with that too, but I value it. Next to that, I told you that generally I value human lives more than animal lives because they are capable of more good in the world. This is simply a fact. If we are not going to argue about semantics here, a human has a lot more creative power that he could put to use to evolve the world than an animal. I acknowledge each animal playing it's own essential part in the ecosystem of nature, but what I'm trying to say is that humans can go beyond their survival, whereas animals seem to not be able to. Concerning your point about a human who is not capable of 'anything positive' and perhaps is equal to an animal in how much they could accomplish (which is a very small percentage of people, but let's entertain the possibility nonetheless). I'd say that's a really difficult topic. We can take that to nasty extremes like the ideas of eugenics and genetic favorism. I'd have to think about that more. But right now, if you were to put two people at gunshot: one being a extremely disabled person who some would label a 'vegetable' and one being a well functioning human being who is ambitious and deeply involved with projects that could help evolve society forward, then I would always pick the person who could mean more for the world. But then again, this is difficult and I'd have to think it through more. And finally I want to say to you, that morals are entirely groundless. There is nothing upholding them except human minds. No person has the same conceptual structure in their minds as someone else, which means there is nothing objective about them. This does not mean you cannot be a well functioning person while realizing this. Even all the more so I would say. Because at that point you are open to everyone's perspective and experience, and ultimate love has the chance to fill you, because you are not conceptually defining it and sticking to that, but simply letting it be. You can see that everyone and everything is just doing their best and their part.

@Scholar I understand what you're trying to do, but these two are not analogous. Mine involves killing animals for nutrition. Yours involve impingement on freedom and perpetrated acts of violence towards other humans. In the relative sense I do not view humans and animals as equals. Simply because a human has more capability to do good and positively change the world than any other animal ever could.

@Aratrok Suppose carnivore is stage yellow (and I'm not saying it is), would you accept that?

@ivankiss I understand that viewpoint completely. Although I do urge you to try to see why that is. It comes from a place of love. Love that gets distorted into hate, because they genuinely think that their perspective is best and is the most benevolent and loving one. They lose themselves in their morals and values to such an extent that to them they appear objective facts of the world. So, if you follow that, you can see that they are acting exactly how they're supposed to act, coming from how their inner psychology and belief structure is set up. In that sense I respect them, because they are rigorous in standing up for what they believe in, and you can see the passion oozing off from their behavior. But, often they fail to see that that bleeding heart passion can sometimes turn people away from entertaining their positions. I'm not saying that one viewpoint is better than the other, but what I am saying is that openness is the only path to finding out what's real.

@Aratrok I'm not going to play these word games with you. I was vegan for some time, and I know what you're going to say. "It wasn't a well planned vegan diet", "It wasn't a whole foods plant-based diet.", etc. What I am simply stating is that for some people, even though they plan their diet perfectly and try everything, their body does not like it. And so they need to expand what they can eat in order to satisfy it.

@Aratrok Vegan.

@Aratrok The diet doesn't work for some people. Every body is different.

@Michael569 You're welcome, I'm glad it helped. It did a lot for me. I miss Byron a lot. Also, I cannot help but feel bad for not having responded to some of your responses on my threads in the past. I do really value your suggestions. Sometimes I feel too overwhelmed by all the replies and I end up ditching it. Sorry. @Preety_India Yeah, he was an awesome guy. Rest in peace.

@Danioover9000 I don't think so. If you have followed his stuff from the start, you notice him sharing kriya yoga techniques and specified meditation techniques that are not too far out of the comfortzone of the listener, but might have radical effect. Can you expect mostly stage orange people to be open and ready for deep metaphysical and spiritual topics? Mostly, no. It is best to meet people where they are, and give them teachings that have a good balance between radicality and inside comfortzone. If you have watched his content closely, you can notice he hides his 'power-level'. Guy was a monk for some good years in India, I even have the assumption that he was under Sadhguru.

@Danioover9000 Did you watch the entire thing? Holy shit it got inspiring and jawdropping near the middle and end. Doesn't have to be existentially explanatory in order to have the effect of increasing consciousness. For people with depression, this can help a lot

@Carl-Richard It is. I had this strong intuition about somebody like this coming along. It needed to happen. Whether it was me, him, or someone else. I'm so glad that he is able to help the community I love so much.