Arkandeus

now is everything, I feel it is a deep desire of yours to move away, it is indeed your life purpose, now is all you have, what you desire now is absolutely sacred. only when we take ourselves and our desires seriously can we access the deeper life forces to realize them. every moment of life is full of purpose. once you will move you will have new purposes, but there's only now. all this fear that you feel at the idea of moving out, imagine now that you do move out..what will happen to this massive fear?what kind of person will you be without that fear? let the idea of you without that fear, the idea of you growing beyond it and having realized what you want enchant you, don't you want to see the kind of person you will be if you do move out? so that you can strive

id get into astral travel and lucid dreaming. probably end up with more freedom then before!

That is if you know that accepting to wait will absolutely without any doubt accelerate your enlightenment. The more you're willing to wait the less you will wait. It's an exercise of trust and faith in enlightenment. Trust and faith that the universe is listening to you, that your higher self is guiding you. Because if you surrender and accept to wait, who's keeping watch if you're actually advancing faster?Who's ''tracking'' your progress? You can't do it because you're accepting to wait, but the universe or your higher self, whichever you prefer to refer to,has your back, and is always watching, and its aware of your desires and will reward your efforts. Faith is a big part of this at first, once you know it's easier

time has always been an essential perspective for me to approach my enlightenment. And now it has allowed me to understand a few things that I'd like to share. As time dispels for me I want to give an example : When I walk on the street for let's say 10 minutes, whereas before this would feel effectively like 10 minutes, this now feels more like 20 to 30 minutes. It works just like lets say if you went on holyday and went to a new location, for a day you see buildings and places you've never seen before, you meet new people. At the end you'd feel like you went through so much and that day would feel much longer then let's say your average monday at work or school. this seems to be ''logical'', like you went to a new place, so you experienced more, so of course you feel like the experience was longer. There's no ''logic'' in this, the present moment is full on magical, time never existed, to be more present is to be more aware of what is, but also of things that never were there. My walks are now experienced in entirely different ways, the sounds, the sights, the random events, it's hard to explain but the most fitting word is magic. Where I want to get at is the reason why it's so important to not be attached to things and desires. For me to enlighten is to slowly grow closer to the unity of the universe, which exists in timelessness and infinity. I used to think : ''why is it necessary to be so attached to my desires, why can't I have what I want right now?'' But as you enlighten, you approach timelessness, meaning there is way more space in your life between events. if you finish work and you can't wait to get home to do what you love, before it wouldn't take long to get home, it's just a regular commute. But now that commute is not regular, it feels much much longer. Those small intervals in life that seems to connect us to the next event, like commute to work, or waiting in line at the doctor, doing paperwork, taking the bus, those small moments start to grow huge and intense, they stop being a connection to the next thing and become something entirely in themselves as they they are infused with more and more time. that space in your life, those moments with little stimulation grow bigger. If you have for example someone you love, whereas before the time when you are separated from that person feels ok, now that time is immense and magnified,it's the same ''physical time'' but it's 4 or 5 times longer. can you imagine whereas as before if you wave goodbye to your loved one in the morning instead of seeing her/him in 8 hours at the end of the workday it now feels like 45 hours later? if you have great attachments to that person it will be glaringly painful, which is why your higher self will not allow you that pouring in of time in your life like that unless you're truly ready to accept being separated from your loved one. it is needed to be detached from desires in a way that allows timelessness to seep into your life without breaking you mentally. it truly inspires respect when you realize that if you sat with your favourite enlightened teacher together in a room for let's say an hour, you might've sat in that room for an hour, but your teacher sat there for 2 hours, or 3 hours, or seven hours psychologically compared to you. it also allows one to understand why enlightened people are so magnetic, why they are so full of love. because they live in planes closer to timelessness when they you attention they really, give you their full, undivided attention, an attention that stretches time and space. I'm only in the beginnings to understand how this work, but this sort of attention is incredibly intimate and loving. you are the sole object of their focus, they don't have any desire or goal beyond this moment, beyond being involved with your being, you are literally the height of their life as they talk to you, and they are completely absorbed by you, beyond your sense of time. Anyhow it is why I personally highlight that detachment from desire and things in your life has a very real purpose in allowing you to be able to mentally tolerate more timelessness.

funny thing about time being an illusion is that you'll be done waiting when you accept that you're waiting, which feels like waiting for forever, which it is, because time does not exist, if you accept waiting right now, you are literally waiting forever. the key here, is being mentally prepared to wait a hundred years. enlightenment in relation to time and acceptance is really a psychic play of enormous magnitude. without actually having to wait a hundred years your will to endure a hundred years of patience will be like a volcano of energy in your inner spiritual fields. it's really that small special cog behind enlightenment. you cannot trick enlightenment, you can't plan a shortcut. you can't pretend to wait while secretly desiring to get it over with. you really have to able to fully ''surrender'' as they say and have faith that you will be born anew. what can be more powerful then being able to wait not a lifetime, but the next hundred lifetimes, being able to wait a million years if needed? it's scary because we don't want to wait that long, yet if you're prepared to wait that long, you will wait less. there's no limit to far your acceptance can stretch and be powerful it is what sets enlightened people aside from the rest, they may seem to be like everyone else but in their spirit they have accepted events of an insane magnitude. if you are prepared to wait a thousand years before getting enlightened, you will then be way more enlightened way more faster within this lifetime even but that doesn't mean you did not wait a thousand years, you did, not in physical reality,but in a psychic event, in your inner fields you waited for a thousand years, and it is that which allowed you to enlighten faster in your physical life. this shows how amazingly powerful acceptance is, it's not just ''ok I accept this'', it's literally you living through what you accept in your inner dimension. physical life is really only the top of the iceberg, behind every action you do there is a tremendous psychic unfolding happening inside you in deeper inner planes, which are literally other dimensions which make up the part of your being. if we are aware that our physical actions reflect only the tip of tremendous events that goes on inside our inner planes much advancement will be done. just as most of us are not aware of our dreams, we are not aware of the inner fields inside us where our being unfolds, these are timeless dimensions and they are a part of us, we have at our disposal an amazing amount power. time really is an illusion

it is great that you share these things,I'm very interested in them

In terms of what you consider as teaching it our responsibility as those who want to teach to find simple and understandable ways to teach. I'd like to point out, that music, is a very highly respectable tool of teaching these concepts to the regular person. movies, art, music, inspire love in people which is amazing. I think we need to be open to the possibilities of enlightenment, some people may never really need to know the minute details of consciousness and enlightenment, all they may just need is a very huge source of inspiration to access their inner loving self. in the end to be yourself, no one really needs an explanation, it is within everyone's capabilities to be true to their own heart. some of us are more philosophical, more able to dwell in concepts, structures and intersections, that is part of our own strength as others have their own. as teachers we have to be able to see that our ways of learning are personal to us, and be able to integrate others ways of learning which may not work for us personally but will for others

I'd also like to add that I have the same problem in another form. being able to accept love can be hard actually. one has to be able to love others but also to accept being loved, the latter sounds easier but it can be tricky. I have this with strangers making eye contact with me in public places. When I was depressed and felt like shit, people barely made eye contact with me on the streets, they barely looked at me. Now that I have a certain spiritual vibration more people look at me. And sometimes this triggers intense negative feelings of anger and hostility. They don't take over my consciousness but I'm aware that I have problems to accept love from others because I felt abandoned in the past. it's like : ''hey, you didn't use to look my way in the past, but now that I feel all good you want to mingle with my vibes? you parasitic cocksuckers'' of course that bit at the end is a joke, I don't insult people in my mind, but that's the gist of the feeling. people also have their own problems to deal with, I accept that they couldn't heal me in the past or treat me with love as they had no way to deal with my negativity as they were too busy with theirs. everyone tries their best with what they have

no one tries to get rid of their core identity, to advance spiritually is to get more in touch with your own unique identity. ''ego'' is a very vague word though and many can assign different meanings to it. I personally like this definition of the ego : "It is the most physically oriented portion of your inner self; but it is not, however, apart from your inner self. It sits on the window sill, so to speak, between you and the exterior world. It can also look in both directions. It makes judgments about the nature of reality in relationship to its and your needs. It accepts or does not accept beliefs. It cannot shut out information from your conscious mind, however — but it can refuse to pay attention to it." the point is not to get rid of the ego, but to understand its functions and use it a way that benefits you in your spiritual progress, which is ultimately towards love and the blooming of your own individuality. for me one facet of the divine ego is one where you can recognize that others are literally a part of you, but that doesn't take away from your unique role in the universe

negative thoughts certainly do stop, although that is not something that you will achieve in this lifetime or maybe you will, everything's possible. in any case they can be greatly diminished to the point where the role they fulfill in your life is entirely different, where you might as well considered you stopped them because now negative thoughts mean something entirely different. whereas before negative thoughts used to unconsciously be my ''way of life'' and rule my mind, now they are at the bottom of the hierarchy, and their grasp and presence over me is minimal, my negative thoughts are now active spiritual distortions that I am very aware of, that I do not identify with and that I constantly work on to advance spiritually. the effect of this change is monumental

hm you say it yourself that you're always starving so I don't really see a reason to deny free food like that. It is your mother and your friend after all, that is pretty much family, it's normal that they want to help you. being strong is being able to be vulnerable and accept the help from others. you have in your life sources of abundance but you seem to refuse them for what I suspect to be ego reasons, I could be wrong. maybe you have a legit reason, but know this, to be vulnerable is to be strong as well. denying help that you could use is not a strength, it is a very common trap for false trap with has to do with ego. standing on your own and being independent is a very nice quality, but if you have to deny valuable sources of help to feel independent you are not truly independent. to be really independent is to still be able to accept being helped without that chaining you down,if someone helps you, they have their own reasons for that, and you accepting that doesn't mean that you owe them special treatment. as long as you're true to yourself, you don't owe anyone anything.

everything breathes in and out, you only feel bad because you're not putting in the work that you were already putting it take a step back and realize the amazing fact that you did put the work in, that is undeniable proof of your change. it is normal to regress from time to time, you breath in all the new change, the new habits...then you breath out. but as you advance you get better at breathing and the times when you 'regress' are shorter and less chaotic. even now you are in this state but you are very conscious of it, is that not evolution even in a 'lower' state? this drive towards constant and perfect growth is a common symptom in society, in economy constant growing profit is an illusion, it's just not possible, but overall evolution is possible if we accept and understand that growth is done in waves that expand and contract rhythmically whereas the growth is not the absence of contraction but the intensifying of the expansion and the relaxing of the contraction. in my opinion

the more I go the more I seem advance towards a state of forgetting who I am. In order to connect with what I have forgotten about my real identity it seems I am now forgetting partly who I am now. I forget to keep track of people, of time. I forget what I did yesterday, I forget what I'm going to do tomorrow, I forget the bills, I forget social norms. I a sense I guess I'm forgetting the ego. Where I want to go with this is that meditation is a nice practice of forgetting, if we can keep our attention away from certain things eventually we let loose of them in the content of our consciousness. It's meditation has evolved to a point where it allows me to forget that which is unnecessary to know right now. I forget that I'm not where I want to be, I forget what I want but don't have.... I can only stress more the massive advantages of meditation! in whatever form it may be and for info I practice moving awareness meditation, I personally never sit still, but I try to have the least thoughts possible throughout the day, but this is my way, the best way is the one that feels right to each individual

only a meaningful moment or two from a few hours ago. I do 'forget' things in the content of my mind but I know where I am going, and I know what I did in a sense but I can't recall it. I know where I'm going but it's not a thought or a plan. I guess I needed to be more specific about this. It's more like getting in tune with the present moment, you seem to be aware of less things that are outside the present moment and yet there's more fluidity, more decisiveness, more direction. it's like forgetting things on a conscious scale but knowing them more on an unconscious scale. It's like being in the present moment your memory works in another way, instead of having the conscious memory and events in the content of your mind somehow your mind is empty and dedicated to the present moment and you know what you did and where you're going but not consciously,it's like memory is this huge dark wall, you know what's written on it but you can't read it, there's no light it's dark. yet you somehow know everything that written on it at once. but if you focus on a specific part you can't 'read' it. it's like the entirety of your memory is at your disposal but not in the way that you're used to, you can't interact with it directly and indulge into it, I know yet I don't know it, it's a way of using memory that let's you fully indulge and concentrate in the present moment and still fully enjoy the benefits of your memory of past events its pretty hard to explain

completely agree with leo, this is a magnificent use of a psychedelic, with consciousness and readiness to face inner distortions

lots of us are familiar with the concept that there is no such thing as linear time, that time is an illusion. there are great benefits to framing our thoughts and thinking in that truth. what I do is that I when I think about something in the past or the future I treat it like its happening now. It makes you realize the power of what you're thinking and how you're shaping your emotional state right now, always in the present. If you were to ruminate for example about a mistake you'd maybe think in these lines : ''I did bad, that event sucked, that wasn't nice, I wasn't reliable'' Now if you change it to present thinking it would give : ''I'm doing bad, this sucks, this is isn't nice, I'm not reliable'' You quite immediately realize what you are doing to yourself. You can see how you are putting yourself down, how you are making yourself believe in a bad life. This is obvious when you put things into the present. And this is the truth, this is what happens when we ruminate, if can see beyond the illusion of ''past'' and ''future'' we can see what we are doing ourselves. The need to ruminate will quickly diminish if you think in present time. The same thing can be done about future events. If you're looking forward to something like a party or a meeting you may think : ''it's going to be great!'' change that to : ''this is great!'' and you will feel even better about yourself, you're applying the excitement of a future event to feel good about your life right now. same with projects : ''I will accomplish this, I'll realize my dream'' in the present it gives : ''I accomplish what I want, I realize my dreams''. This one is good, as it lets you be aware that all your power is in the present linear time is an illusion, to drop the illusion of time in your thoughts and perspective of life will certainly help anyone learn more about their own potential and have access to deeper knowledge and energies

heh you're aware of your issues, I'm sure you'll get to solve them! I know this stuff is challenging, at first is certainly is, there's a lot of momentum behind the way we use our minds, but it's definitely just momentum and we can make our minds go any way we want, for me it toke about a week to get used to thinking more into present terms. I assure you LRyan, this a switch of perspective into a very highly spiritual point of view, this exercise is bound to bring you amazing things. but as always the paths to enlightenment are infinite, the best way is your way

you have many reincarnational lives, you can easily be judging someone for something you did yourself in the past or the future. (there's no linear timeline in the spirit world)

''you are already enlightened'' "there's nothing you have to do'' I understand more the nature of what it means to enlighten, of what it means to realize you're already enlightened. We are in psychic chains. And the only way to free ourselves from our chains is to stop believing in them. I used to have a hard time approaching this concept. How does believing that nothing is wrong help us solve our problems? It makes sense if your very beliefs and imaginations are the root of what forms reality, of what attracts circumstances and events in our life. We have to realize that we are psychic beings, that we have latent powers. We quite literally function magically. there's nothing to ''do'' but there's everything to ''be''. don't try to be free, be free I will share advice regarding psychic intent and powers. symbolic physical gestures is a a good concept to understand. if someone goes to a spiritual healer who uses crystals it is not the crystals that have the power to heal, nor the healer, the person heals itself. But the spiritual healer and the crystals serve as a symbolic physical gesture that allows the person more easily and deeply access the belief that they are healed. Only enlightened masters can access their beliefs deeply and shape reality without any symbolic gesture, quite literally with pure faith and intent. So to enlighten, you will have to keep ''doing'' things, but these things don't have any meaning inherently, they are a symbolic gesture. If one believes that meditating everyday will help him enlighten more, then so he shall enlighten more, but only because believes that meditation helps in that regard. If you believe interacting with an animal from time to time, helps you understand deeper things about life, so it will. You can intent what you desire into life with symbolic gestures. If one understands this you can start playing around and finding your own symbolic gestures, and you won't be as limited as you understand that there are infinite ways to enlighten. All you need is your intent and a symbolic gesture. You could for example start believing that a mere glass of water a day helps clear and purify your mind to great clarity. You can really play around with this and come up with whatever you want. The more you understand that what you do doesn't matter,but that you only do it so that you can believe more in your own powers the less bound you will be by physical circumstances and the more easily you will access your own powers.

get in the habit of asking yourself ''am I aware?'' and answer that for yourself then observe what happens, it is very interesting. you can be playful with it and ask it at random times then you can be

there's nothing wrong with video games... the key is understanding why you are playing video games. most people play videogames to escape their real desires and purposes because they are afraid which is normal. The real truth is that some aren't even aware that their actual real purposeful desires are being unconsciously pushed under the rug because the person does not believe that their real desires can be achieved, to know their real desire would be torture to them,so their higher self protects them with ''blinds''. so it appears the only desire left is video games, but that's just the substitute. the key to figuring this loop-hole out is counting your passions and desires. if your only passion video games, then it's mostly a substitute for fear. if you have many passions, many ways that you're evolving and growing, and video games is one of then, then it's just a desire of yours. A healthy individual grows in many directions, like a sound wave, in all directions. fear causes one to run from certain things and to go in a specific controlled ''safe'' direction

there is nothing wrong with power, power is good, it is a good feeling, its expansion. the ego is the one telling you that there's something wrong with having power. you are soul capable of creating reality, ascending dimensions, reincarnation, psychic abilities and much more... you deserve to feel powerful! because you are. but anyhow don't worry, the real powers do not come to those who don't have the wisdom to do good with it

did the core teachings of buddha also teach you that time is an illusion? Therefore if time is not real, then what will decide how fast you will get where you want to go? It is truly intent. < For that you have to be conscious of your power as a spiritual being and your responsibility. It means that you have to believe and intent for it to happen now. There's no ''objective'' measure, you are the creator of your reality, beliefs and intent are arts that need to be mastered in order to succeed at this. Now I know it won't happen right now, even if you tried, because you aren't proficient yet at intent. But in order to be good you have to start now, literally, believe and intent that everything can happen now, and slowly it will happen now. It will take you believing that things are happening right now that aren't actually happening right now. It is direct practice of seeing beyond physical reality....and seeing the real potential spiritual reality. you are the leader of the ship, if you want the ship to go the right, you have to believe and intent for it to go to the right, even if its going to the left at the moment. this practice obliterates the modern ego that only wants to look at objectivity and facts and steer from that data.

keep changing, you'll grow spiritually and evolve to a point where you will radiate awareness, love, warmth, uniqueness, and much more... THEN people will be ready to listen to your spiritual advice. timing is very important, it is a matter of feeling, some people will be ready to discuss this with you, some not. But people are always watching, as you evolve they will start being curious, and when you thrive you will feel it, you will feel that they are ready to listen. so have the timing of a cat, the day will come when your family will want to hear what changed you so much, they are always listening subconsciously and consciously, do not worry ,just keep growing. also your stuffed animals are made of consciousness and atoms that posses a consciousness, your stuffed animal is pretty much alive and has its own form of consciousness. so do not feel alienated, when you share your stories with your stuffed animals, that is a beautiful act of love

principal of acceleration, a positive spiral, the more you advance, the better you get at advancing the beginning really is the hardest part of spirituality, once the ball gets rolling I assure you that change happens fast and constantly. the promise of spirituality is a life of constant joy and happiness and fulfilling, does anyone sometimes think about what it takes for them to be in a state of constant joy and happiness? it takes some serious changes in the degree, intensity and variety of your reality. spirituality WILL blow your mind, literally, you will experience things that will make your mouth drop. the beginning is slow, that is normal, you're slowly awakening to your identity as a soul if you really want to advance faster I suggest you read a book called ''seth: the eternal validity of the soul'' written directly by an highly awakened soul that lives in the ethereal world beyond physical life and time. it is literally a teacher from beyond our dimension