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  1. @realname If you imply that "the present moment" is defined as "the moment in which the perception of it is to take place" (as you do in your question, if I read it correctly) and you also assume that there is a delay, then perceiving the present moment is necessarily impossible. Don't know what kind of answer you are hoping for with this question. The "present moment" people above are talking about has a different meaning, maybe a much more vague one, maybe with more vague of a time frame, I don't know. Maybe it also has a technical meaning. I suspect it must have one, because I doubt that deep transformations like people all over the world have experienced since forever would happen from and within vague notions. Another angle to look at this: You seem to imply that what you are trying to do there is to perceive the present moment as nothing but a moment in time, as something which has no other properties than being a specific point on "the absolute timeline". I don't know about you, but I can perceive tables, trees, the colorful darkness when I close my eyes, sounds coming out of my headphones, but I don't feel like having an organ which would allow me to perceive "a moment in time" and I'm not sure how to make sense of this notion on a phenomenological or ontological level.
  2. So why can't you be part of what is going fine as it is, from "the absolute perspective"? If someone hangs off a cliff and screams for your help, will you say "naah, everything is just going fine as it is"?
  3. Why do you think you can't help the person?
  4. Post a song of yours and I'll give you some feedback By feedback I don't mean what aspects of the song are well or not so well done, I rather mean how you might approach improving from where you're at now. The thing is, without knowing anything at all about what you're doing, it's not possible to tell what strategies would be best for you at this point.
  5. My first experience: Very slight effects, very calming and enjoyable. My second experience: I was being torn in half, I was a house, I was several people, I was no one and nothing, I couldn't believe what was happening, had very unpleasant physical pain all over my body, feared I might not "come back" without psychological disturbance or damage, fought against it, tried to prove to myself what was real by moving my body, which was really difficult. It was terrifying, although interesting as fuck, because I didn't expect something like this to happen (thought my dosage wasn't that high) and I had never experienced anything remotely like this from other psychedelics or dissociatives. When it was over, it felt like a super weird bad dream, that I couldn't clearly remember anymore, unpleasant physical and psychological after effects were present for quite a while. It felt like a completely useless experience, because it didn't feel like something I could integrate with the rest of my experiences in any way. Later I thought I could maybe explore it again in terms of "ego death" and I might discover something there, but this consideration is purely conceptual. The experience didn't feel like something "true". I'd be interested to see though, if the fear would be there again in the same way. But I'm afraid of the physical pain and of being psycholigically disturbed for days. I wouldn't know in what setting I could feel physically comfortable. During the trip, every position was very painful, lying, sitting, standing, moving... Any tips?
  6. #6 How Emotions Are Made - FINISH (sort of, final reviewing still left to be done) Yaaaaay, I've read the last four chapters, thus finished the body of the book. Not too enthusiastic about it though (yet), for the following reasons: 1) I couldn't come up with notes for every chapter, which were supposed to concisely summarize what was being said. For some chapters, I rather wrote down what it was about, without explaining it in a comprehensive way. For some chapters, I just quoted striking paragraphs. And for two chapters I have nothing at all. 2) I don't feel like I really got the message of the book. I think I wasn't able to really think through in my own mind the main important processes in their entirety of how emotions are made according to this book. 3) I'm not completely done yet, as I'm about to explain. Just wanted to record this intermediate result to allow myself to take a step back and recognize it and take a little break from it to focus on other things. ***** My goal was to read and finish the book and I have done that. So this much is good (more than I had expected actually). I have to keep in mind that I didn't read the book for the book, I read it to learn committing to a decision. Still, I feel like I can extract more value by taking one last step, which will consist in the following points: - There are two appendices I still want to read. Maybe they will help elicit some understanding of some points where it's still missing. - I feel like I should at least make another effort to come up with better notes for those chapters where I slacked. - Evaluating the 3 questions I set out in the beginning: 1) Can I finish this book, when I decide to, or will I let other things get in the way and thereby find out that I should choose my goals more wisely? - Yes, I could actually finish it. Choice of goals will be addressed in the final review. 2) What practical use can I make of the content? - So far none that I could think of. It changed some beliefs I held about emotions, but I don't see any practical benefits from this yet. 3) Will I notice any difference in using my voice in everyday life? - I can kind of make myself believe that I notice slight gains, but I've also spent some time in a community of climate activists lately, which probably has more effect on this than reading a book out loud. I will still do this more in the future. - One more thing I could do: Asking other people who have also read the book certain questions that are still left unanswered for me. - One more thing I wanna do: At least once, I want to think through in my mind the whole process of how emotions are made according to this book, with a clear image on an ontological level for each component that is asserted to be involved. If I won't be able to pull that off by the time of the final review, I'd like to come back to it at some point later in the future. But way later, like weeks or months or half a year later. ***** After writing the above, I can see more clearly that I actually made a successful step towards learning to commit to a decision and finish something I started. Dealing with the specific content of the book is more of a bonus and not the main point here. I didn't expect to finish a book I don't particularly care about just because I decided to do so. And I didn't expect to write such long posts about the process of reading it. This shows me that I do have some willpower and energy and time after all. Maybe, if I learn to channel these resources correctly, I can achieve more than I currently think I'm capable of.
  7. It doesn't make sense to judge a dosage of lsd from the number of tabs. Some contain 80mcg, others 400. Taking notes while tripping makes sense, because all the thoughts might be lost afterwards. If you have to publish the notes in this forum during the trip might be debatable, but I'd like to hear what exactly is the problem with these particular posts. As for the 2 beers, he is an (ex) alcoholic, so you have to take that into account. People have all sorts of dogmas about psychedelics. And I do think it's best to follow them. But I don't think it's necessary to always immediately freak out if someone doesn't. On the other hand, @Joseph Maynor you have to take into account what this looks like to other people: Guy randomly drops 4 tabs of LSD, drinks beer, sits in a public park and types his thoughts into this forum. Just doesn't make you a very good role model I guess Maybe you could have explained some of your experience and decision process which lead you to do this trip with this dosage in this setting...
  8. Short term: Binaural beats. Long term: Tell your father how you feel and get out as soon as possible.
  9. @St Clair Now I'm curious in what direction your style has evolved @Shroomdoctor If you're not afraid of making investments, I might have a suggestion for you: I don't know what style you sing, but I love drone ambient. And when I bought a delay and a reverb pedal, a whole new world opened for me. Here is an example: https://www.dropbox.com/s/os68z3wwnumgjy9/Voice.mp3?dl=0
  10. @St Clair Can I hear some of your playing? I also want to realize my potential on the piano, but there are still things which hold me back and keep me from committing to it fully.
  11. What are your personal dreams? What work would you have to do to achieve them? What emotions keep you from doing that work?
  12. #5 How Emotions Are Made Read chapters 8 and 9. Wasn't at home for a week, that's why I didn't keep on reading for a while. Everything is going more or less as planned. Didn't really get the essence of the 8th chapter. The writing seems so vague to me... Not a huge deal though, I'll try again to capture the essence of each chapter when I finished the book, maybe it's going to be easier when seeing the whole picture. I noticed that writing the headline for each chapter into my notes definitely helps. ***** Notes on chapter 9: Chapter 9: Mastering Your Emotions Keep body budget in good shape: - Eat healthy - Exercise - Proper sleep & rest - Body contact (e.g. massage) - Yoga - Get sunlight - Spend time in greenery - Have houseplants - Take care of your living space - Read good novels, watch good movies - Set up regular lunch dates with a friend taking turns treating each other - Have a Pet - Take Walks Increase emotional granularity by increasing emotional vocabulary by: - Taking trips - Reading books, watching movies - Trying unfamiliar foods - Try on new perspectives - Learn new words for emotions - Invent own emotion concepts - Describe experiences, feelings/emotions with greater granulartiy In the moment: - Move your body - Change location/situation - Recategorize emotions into physical sensations - Deconstruct your "self" - Mindfulness meditation - Cultivate awe (being in the presence of something vastly greater than yourself) *****
  13. You can either figure out ways how to make them pay or make the money which will give you the opportunity to do them. Or even live without money. That's three options already to realize your dreams.
  14. You could start right now with figuring out how to get there. Why would you think it's impossible?