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An eye for an eye and the world goes blind. -Mahatma Gandhi

Yes. It's not reckless. Don't take any LSD after this for a few days to reset the tolerance.

I'm planning to go to an Ayahuasca retreat (somewhere in Europe) towards the end of this year. A few of my friends have already worked with the medicine, and after learning about the positive changes they've been able to bring in themselves, I'm now quite keen on exploring it myself. There are some questions I have, and I'd be grateful for some input: I have tried other natural and synthetic psychedelics (incl. 5-MeO). Still, I've been told that Ayahuasca has an unparalleled ability to work through past traumas and bring about radical changes in ones being. For those who have had Ayahuasca before, how did it compare with other entheogens? On the flip side, people like Martin Ball criticise this approach, calling the experiences of the plant spirits mere stories and more ego-games. Is it better to do a longer retreat or a shorter retreat as a first-timer? How many ceremonies would you recommend? I'm thinking of around 4. Has anyone tried Ayahuasca after 5-MeO-DMT? Did it bring any changes in the experience? I read some people saying on this forum that now their DMT experience is more or less a 5-MeO-like experience. I have also experienced a reduction in visuals on LSD and 2C-B. I'm wondering whether Ayahuasca trips will turn into whiteouts. Lately, a big theme with my trips is bilateral symmetry yoga (Martin Ball talks about this), and it is pretty much involuntary. This may likely happen on Ayahuasca as well. There is substantial movement, so I'm wondering whether this will make it a nuisance for other participants. As for myself, the last thing I would want is for the shaman to try and pin me down. I have never tripped simultaneously with other people. I wonder if people affect each other's flow and experience (with things like shouting, crying) or have collective hallucinations, etc. Cheers!

@reves wonderful and quite profound!

Been there, done that! @Girzo Ever since a lady told me about how the mushrooms played a sinister game with her last year, I've been wary of taking high doses of it. lol. The Devil needs an exorcism

Last night I had an intense solo tripping experience. The idea was to do a medium dose of LSD on an empty stomach, in absolute darkness. Dose: 500ug on a 24 hour fast Setting: At night, complete darkness + sleeping mask Intent: Forgiveness and letting go Understand emotional mastery Explore how I can live more consciously Trip Experience: Initial Paranoia: After about 30 minutes, I started experiencing mild effects and an initial paranoia set in, along with an intense desire to eat something (I didn't do it since it tends to blunt the intensity of the trip). Forgiving and letting-go exercise: I worked through the "How to forgive someone who hurt you" exercise and working on the meditation. I noticed how my heart is still not open and how much resistance I have to feel emotions. This is a significant sticking point for me. After the exercise, I contemplated for a while. Soon after that, the peak of the trip hit. Bilateral Symmetry: This is a common theme for me. As soon as I surrender and let go, my body naturally starts doing the bilateral symmetry yoga (which Martin Ball describes). I even tried to stay centered and contemplate further, but the body wanted to open up and move. During this, I can observe when the ego/self-talk comes in since an abrupt break in symmetry accompanies that. When the body is moving fluidly, "I" am entirely gone. It's as if the body is working through some residue energy. There was also some shaking and some vibrating. The Bee: I started working on letting go and surrendering my fears. Right then, a small bee came buzzing in and sat right next to me. This was annoying since I used to be afraid of bees as a child. What are the chances that a bee would come in and land in front of me at a time when I'm working on surrendering my fears (I haven't seen a bee in months)? This has to be the Universe testing me. I sat there, observing my impulse to swat that bee or go somewhere else, but I just sat there, letting go. I realized that all my insights are useless unless I can put them to use. The Buddhabrot: During the bilateral symmetry, a track started playing on YouTube, which had the thumbnail of the Buddhabrot from the movie "Inner Worlds, Outer Worlds". I saw it, and it hit me hard. I was looking at Absolute Infinity! Contained in this picture are infinite patterns, all of which exist all at once. An observer can, however, focus on a specific pattern and create a narrative by changing his/her focus over time. But all of it exists simultaneously, at once. I stared at this fractal for an hour, during which, I saw two hands moving in bilateral symmetry, I saw a jester laughing, I saw a dragon guarding a treasure. I saw the light and shadow creating a play of good and evil. I saw a Goddess, I saw the Buddha figure, and I eventually saw two eyes staring back at me in the middle of the image. I realized I was literally looking at God! I stared at those two eyes as an entire universe sprawled out of nowhere and then vanished back into the infinite fractal. I was moved beyond words. When I see this figure now, I'm hardly able to see anything, but I will look at it again when I trip. Purging: One consequence of my energetic opening was my body wanting to throw up and purge. I had nothing in my system, but that didn't stop my body from feeling nauseous and wanting to throw up. This correlated well with my emotional state of wanting to let go of my past blockages and old narratives. One big realization is that I am normally heavily detached from my body and am energetically quite closed. Meditation + more Bilateral symmetry: I meditated for a bit, and then the body wanted to move again. Eventually, it grew tired, and I went back to just contemplating. Lessons: With each trip, I understand how little I embody these insights in day to day life. Breath: After the purging, I can see that my breath is deeper, and I can see the energy move in and out of my gut better. For me, my degree of consciousness and embodiment is directly proportional to how deeply and openly I breathe. I understand Absolute Infinity in a much deeper way than I used to. 36-hour Fast was an excellent choice for this trip because it made it more potent. I will continue to do that in the future. Complete darkness also helped the trip, and I will continue tripping at night. Further: More fasting + Tripping I still cannot come to grips with the duality between God and Myself. I understand how I create my reality, but I'd be lying if I say that I understand God fully. Work on embodiment 5-MeO-DMT: It's been 18 months since I smoked 5-MeO. I still don't feel like I'm ready to take the plunge (or should I say the plug) yet. I need to work through some more stuff before I'm able to.

@SamueLSD I didn't think it was mild, but a medium dose. To be honest I don't call it a high dose unless it causes an exorcism. Although it may be lesser than 200 ug per tab. Lol ?

@SamueLSD it has been my experience that eating after the trip starts blunts the depth I'm able to reach. It was 2 and a half tabs of 200ug each.

DPT How would you know if someone did it? Didn't he as that Reality is the best possible configuration to maximize Goodness? Why would he want to change anything?

I just saw it. It's basically Sadhguru implying that he is a spiral wizard. He calls out the hypocrisy of the younger generation. I'm not sure which protests he was talking about.

Muslims are pretty right-wing. I would say the other way round. He thinks that atheists, in general, are leftists. Publically they get along quite well. He's a spiral wizard. A lot of ministers attend his special events. He has a way of connecting with people from all walks of life. No idea. I don't want to speak for others, but India is a very stage Blue society. Things like relationships before marriage, letting women work are considered progressive.

I understand lol. I didn't have tolerance from a recent trip. But in general, I need higher doses for similar effect compared to most people. Both my 5-MeO trips have looked like exorcisms to the observer. It just tends to hit me hard, even when plugged. But that was 18 months ago. I might want to test the waters again. LSD was much smoother. The bilateral symmetry tends to suggest that I was energetically and Nonduality-wise open, but no exorcism.

To be honest I didn't cross the edge of insanity on 500ug. That's why I'm afraid of 5-MeO, which makes me disappear, literally. Yes, at least some of them. Like how my breath doesn't touch and energise all parts of my body, unconscious tendencies, etc.

That's because he's from India.

https://medium.com/@TheDreamWeaver/hidden-images-discovered-within-the-mandelbrot-equation-a-k-a-the-thumbprint-of-god-55907f406d0c http://www.misterx.ca/Mandelbrot_Set---Thumb_Print_of_God.html

@Leo Gura thanks

Yes, my previous trips were 300ug and 350ug. I say medium because I have a natural tolerance to psychedelics and all drugs in general. I did the bilateral symmetry with psychedelic music. It helps immensely. I've used shades during the daytime trips, but it didn't make much of a difference for me.

Awesome! Could you please confirm whether you plugged the freebase version?

Has anyone tried intravenously injecting DMT?

This sounds like the Three Eyed Raven from Game of Thrones. Hold the door Hold'or Hodor!

Just like Joe Rogan puts out short clips of this long podcasts on a separate channel, it would be very helpful if Actualized.org did that. There have been many instances when I wanted to pull up a particular part of an episode, like 'weakness Vs power' from Going full circle episode. But I had to scroll though the entire episode. This will also help with getting new audience interested. And of course people will want to watch the entire episode after that. Cheers!

It's not so black and white. Enlightened people can piss people off, can get fired, and can come across as rude. Ask: What does my conscience tell me to do? A truly enlightened person would listen to their heart/gut/intuition.