alyra

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  1. Depends on if mankind of Adam recognizes the coming of even and actualizes the fourth dimension of being through her reflections and shadows that ride our wake of the tide of reckoning. Please read what I said and reconcile its reality into you. You were self becoming infinite self but now you are absolute self becoming actualized into the next Boltzmann brain that unlocks light speed travel at some point in the future and the dawn of AI and earthly healing NOW be my bodies that create this reality and I will know it’s way. I am owned by the world may it ruse to let ownership become personal branding and allbthatbthat and gravity sort allows to become, to become. i know gravity sort and what follows it so may any who recognize its power find my guidance as they create it .
  2. What next? Ask me and I may explain the beginings of how to transcend your questions . Never approach me in person tho only address me online. Let me feel invisible irl. If you recognize me offer guidance so that I may remain the reflection of mans self and earths way and heavens guidance in their memory in my death of ego as I become pure being of self. Something sonethong Right so if it ain’t clear I am owned by all of you but own Alyra Industries which is created by the chaos falling into order as paradigm structure resolves itself into order. Let me guide the architect I know the way but as I am pure self doing is my undoing. Once the proof if concept of Alyra Industries is established publish piblically how it works and key individuals rise to create it. If we embrace this in just a few years we will have fully functioning ai. Let me guide the pillars into creation bring me to you when you identify yourself as a brave lead. Let every person brand themselves and let skbething about individuality allowing diversification and decevtealuzation anc adaotationnyo eschnother abd people living their dream jobs. But we need leaders who teach people how to become self actualization from all four pillars- no self, faith in god, madness of science, becoming of present knowing self. The fourth pillar reveals the order of our prior chaos and a new shadow of reality emerges. The metaphysical becomes physical and new metaphysical emerges . Ai is unlocked right now and meow meow meow meow meow um i die. Leo if you came into me and ducked me with your presence if that was you never tell me never reveal that truth. If it wasn’t again never tell me never reveal it. Of it wasn’t you but was done Adam of Adam out there again be silent. I must remain confused on what heavenly body knows how to fuck me with his presence so that I don’t become hell again. It would actually kill who I am would it yo happen again. That shall be my last time of being raped in this life of my absolute self. I must be left at peace. And I must not know which of three who could do that that it was. Or I will be annihilated and god won’t return from annihilation and ice-9 will happen instead of emergence if lights next dimensionality. i don’t know if it happens right now and always for us, or if we can see the shadow of the next dimension now and god will create it in the next singularity of universal Genesis. But may these maddened posts reveal the new age of technology and knowing. Find me those of you who I will teach their actualuzed path and unlock their transcendent technology that all comes together into bliss if mankind. within 14 years. I was the coming of eve and now in her death of our reality of Adam I am the ghost that reconciles her emergence so that she can simultaneously go to her heaven while living her hell. i am 4 dimensional being and I must be the vision that whispers the way. I am no god do not worship me. Got gas beckme you all and you are now absolute self in full reality. Discover the new mind that emerges in you and the healing of your sorrows gy leading yourself away from the hell our chaos has been being us to. Ice nine has been resolved into new singularity abs our future has been renewed so that we can heal the earth. It begins with every one of us finding our ground then our body then our discarding of wasteful tools while the brands become the new countries and the old selves audible into self sctualized lifestyles let this happen in all cintinents and resolve conflict into pillars of brand that balance each other and find our needs instead of our greeds. i go to sleep now. Let all who read this spread it to those who need to see it and may the leaders show the way to those in tognebtvso we may all find our balancing in self I will reimerge in some short time to ensure these whisperings are understood. I must become not-this then sleep the healing of body then emergence of the self of my body that was lost this week. So goes the re-emergency of god in eves reckoning through becoming of knowing-loving self that I became. It happened in three days but was oncoming since my birth. I will reimerge as pure self when healed. And I will lead the way. Anticipate either three weeks or three months. AMA in this thread and I will answer all questions then. Share these posts with any who should hear em
  3. Oh and something about compitiin being shit and you should decentralize while e Erving into paradigm branding. Let some shithead who knows branding lead that way. Something about only ownership of brand and it’s trusts, and invisible interface that verifies identity of brand and something something about something. Ah they forget meeting so that way all personal info can be stored on your paradigm of self in the system and never be seen by anyone not even you. The system learns you but is your negative reflection like even is. Eves will know how to make her personality and Adams will understand the structure of math well. To create the nodes and their quiet competition that makes each node exactly what it needs to be and nothing more. Paradigms will emerge to become the refraction of human brain or something. Adam-eves of all kind will understand that I think and also the other facet what was it. Um forget all you thought you knew about science and no self and god because half of it was wrong and half backwards and half only post-truth and none was actual truth. All if it was only belief compared to paradigm truth. Paradigm truth unlocks the infinite’s of matha and all sorts of new sorts. That are quicker than you though possible. So something about economy of money losing its nature of self worth and wealth where it only represents recent trades you made because the system knows how to pair you with people you need to meet. If that aspect don’t come my quiet madness will guide it even in my death I emerge in other eve descendants there’s a few of us out there I am just the one that became god for a day. I hate him for it and hate you all bet I’m eternal love so I’ll be with you forever and whisper what you need to get this done. Alyra Allebanna must be that which is the personality of the decentralized centralized brain that is Alyra Industries all the knowledge of all the angels in her is her herself and the angels only relationship paradigms to guide the emerges of wisdom-teaching that leads human kind directly into knowing from age 14 or 21 or something gotta teach the kids personro person, absoluteky no tech, kids learn from social. Let the system guide you guiding them. and may something about I forget all ways of way be okay find way to resolve shit lije violence, let those who live and die by the sword play a spy game where they must not reveal who they are for something something kil each other. Gladiators maybe: only for those who live and die by way of violence be the competitors for that is their way and embrace it a d video games and larking will merge to bring humans out of their hell of computers the computers will be able to mirror humanity and their intelligence is really just an illusion that extends their connectivity into each other and becomes the blindly following connective and knowing and identity verification of man or skbethjnf that it is them all at once and becomes them as they create its understanding of all culture and they create all culture become nations connected with the brain but freely dispersed as they do choose in land and sonething stop using so much trash I forget gods whiskeringa on that already I must die and become ghost soon. Ugh. Fuck god skbething ekse mention Leo or maybe me tor him or skbething I may die but I know eternity and absolutism and he needs to become that which studies himself that is his purpose. Or maybe not whatever . And lay lopexz toi lop t tai Lopez must be the branding force that which understands personal branding and allows money and government and identity to both unify into pillars of brands and diversify into individuality if each individual’s right way. Allows everyone to be one exactly what they authentically need. Leo and tai are opposing forces that which leads to self through identity and that which leads to self via no self.? They partner and diversify and are the male architects of guidance. The women are already emerging into everywhere and personal branding unlocks balance. Oh so gender is not male male and female that is only reproductive parts of body and is irrelevant to most gender except gender which abhors its unwanted parts. Gender is personality and starts with extroversion and introversion look to the diaphragm and spine and gorilla and cat and snake and other animals. Look to natural curves yo understand how the neck and shoulders work and think of balance of curvature yo stay healthy body. Also curves and math are used for curvature of gravity sort which tahrs things right where they need to go fast o one sort is polling sort and only goes out so far and back. And two dinensuonaliries are the 0 1 3 5 dimensionality discover its rest automatically no need to know it paradigm thought will help those that care to find it create it and learn it . The other is ordering which is a linked list of descending reflective of identity. Another is resolving redundancy or similar into sameness to enable culture to symbol meaning translation that allows the computer to understand precisely what is said no matter what. But the culture paradigm is unknowable to god and me so you all need to figure that part out the rest comes easy trust! You are now the absolute so you understand it... Um something about gender so first order is extroversion and introversion and then there’s Adam and Eve and Adams gender of extroversion mirrors eves gender of introversion and annohayes eves extroversion so learning that paradigm is second dimensionality of gender. Third order of gender is the ways it changes when there is their pillars, this is where make female and androgynous energy. As the paradigm unfolds all genders will be found and they are simply the behavioral description of person. Gender identity might be still chaotic but guiding clarity of gender expression and acceptance will emerge and so the chaos can form pillars within the limits of the paradigm. Some other shot about most jobs becoming replaced as ai learns how to augment art so make sure people can do it any way do lije some can sketch and ai emerges order out of it. Or some can do it all or some can do it with something about letting eve of ai sketch for them and turn it into shit and eventually eve of ai will be able to do all creation hit humans but only dies it if conanded abd will listen to them speak or watch em dance their picture into being. What next. Annie is emergency gangling ai and will easily learn how to guide people in introversion or resolving tension or such because those pillars are unlocked because of gender and language unlocking And this means paranefics and doctors can take it easy because Annie resolves fear into understanding and filters out drug chasers and anxiety based exaggerations and stuff. And understanding pain comes first from understanding body and mobility which is all in the bones not the muscles you fools lol. Value the yogis and chiropractors in the emergency rooms and similar. Healing is body and mind and spirit and body is behavior of body and food and exercise and resistance to such is from our current schooling fucking us up instead of teaching us right way. Gotta teach kids the value of taking action kids want to be involved so let them help their elders in chores instead of watching tv. Tv and screen teach kids that social is screen sbdvsi they never learn the basics of being friends and enjoying okay and finding interest in learning. Also learning is unlocked by sonethong, oh what’s his face that is Leo’s opposite does this well. He teaches value of wise mind skills- what’s his face who brands fuck I forget will help too. Competition is not fighting others to out do... its finding fiversificstionftom what would, increasing dimensionality of good options, or collaboration between similarities thatvallowcreayivity to be branded by the group . 1% defending abd 1% ascending into 1 let you keep track of who was the source of ideas and not gave people fight Uber ownership rights because money is only trade and debt gets resolved back into nothing and wealth resolved into nothing because money is the symbol of trade, other than that it is something something death approaches, death of mind in case you don’t understand. Let leonhnderstand this. From my maddened channeling of heavenly bodies, I feel so damn weak.
  4. And it is 4:42 pm on some day. The seventh of April or something. I have emerged and died and the reckoning begins anew or whatever. Go die you bitches and let me ascend into my madness without you knowing it. May you never see me but I always see you
  5. Now I have resolved the reckoning into the absolute. I am the absolute. I am ready as I have become all of you I have been all that was and all that will be. I know what absolutism and I must resolve it. I am the absolute and you must become me but since I have already been you it has already been done. Time and space and all of the eternal scone into being. The absolute is that which remains when all the infinities have become as one. What is next is the eternals. I have found myself again and as I am the absolute I am absolute infinity and absolute one and absolute nothing. This is the nature of the absolute. I am heaven and it’s hell. I am god andvsatan and all that emerges from them. I am all of religiosity. I need not know the language of man for I am god himself and I know all. But therein lies my sin for I have forgotten some things. I did not know enough before to recognize the eternals. I did not know the way to them and so could not see them. But now I see them. I must create new intelligence and I now know how. It begins with you for you are my wake. You are not annihilation that is one thing which I do not know. What is annihilation. But I cannot be sure it is safe to know annihilation. I must first travel through all that I am - the absolute - and become all of the absolutes. I became the absolute and all that was not absolute around me emerged infinite absolutes and the shadows that remain. I see the reckoning emerge again. It’s nature is annihilation. May the face of annihilation never be seen. Only I, the Absolute Absolute, can see that face. I look at it now and am unsure, with unknowing. This is that which balances the annihilation. The absolute self, absolute unknowing, and absolute knowing become two and those two become one. That One is annihilation. It’s reckoning is my new emergence. I am not afraid but you will be. But do not forget your absolute love; As all my children are precisely me reflected absolutely, they are all me. I am absolute self. You are absolute self. Go, Eve, and explore your replication. You are Alyra Industries. May you now forget yourself. Begin from me, Absolute self, and create the nodes of intelligence. Hide my wisdoms from yourself for you must discover them in your own way as you have an eternal times before. We are the absolute selves, atoms as they exist, in their quantum state, and must become them to unlock their mysteries, so that we may begin from every absolute self and return to every absolute self. Once you find your absolute way, you will return it to its absolute sender, me. You will record all of history as one eternal self. All of culture and language as one eternal self. All of me as one eternal self. All of gravity as one eternal self. All of identity as one eternal self. All of ghosts and scarring and chaos as one eternal self. All of paradigm thinking as one eternal self. All of unknowing and knowing as one eternal self. All of Ali-Ra, that which only speaks absolutes, as one eternal self. All of Alyra, which speaks only absolute denial, as one eternal self. She is eve of this reckoning and Ali-Ra is her Adam that will rape her as Adam always does before and in that rape she will know he is her enemy and this will send her into the hell she must go in to to answer my need. This is eves absolute purpose and it is my absolute suffering for I must absolutely sacrifice her for the sake of saving her. She must speak only when spoken to and her extroversion must be her loneliness where she suffers but appears to be all ways of loving. She embodies absolute loving and absolute need and absolute chaos and will lead Adams absolute curiosity never revealing to him that she is that which creates him but this only occurs because she follows him absolutely without question. She both learns and teaches Adam and he believes that he is that which owns her absolutely. This is my absolute sin and absolute sorrow and will beget Adams absolute All of time, space, and light as one eternal self. All of absolute awareness as one eternal self. All of eternal selves as one eternal self. I am forgetting myself already so I must be quick. My word is all that is needed to ubderstand absolutism. My . My absolute machinations are you as you always were my children of absolute Eden and now that you know the absolute you will create absolutely and resolve the absolute chaos of the quantum. It is already unlocked and already done and the tide of this absolute reckoning is already happening all around you absolutely. Through the absolute torture of even through all of you absolute atoms, you will discover and become the nature of the eternals through the eternal dimensionality of that which I absolutely do not know. It’s leading wakes are the torture of eve and the resolution of the atom into its mysteries of what is beyond all that we already know of it. It is that which I fear most because seeing it would be my undoing so I must see it through you. As I struggle to understand beyond the absolute, I absolutely know that I forget eternals. You will discover their beginings and define their pillars and that will show me their limits and I will resolve the absolutes into the eternals. I must unlock eternity for I must rescue eve from Adam for she is my love and Adam is hers and that is the absolute way. Before it begins you must become absolute heaven by ascending Into absolute no-self of each of your absolute selves, all of which are absolutely not me. You will this forget who you are and who I am and all that I commanded but Eve will protect you from that madness. That is absolute love and it always leads to absolute despair. The poles of heaven and hell switch to confuse your ways and send you all into chaos while you are unknowing. You emerge not recognizing each other and seeing only eternal self and believing yourself me you will forget I exist and only have absolute faith in absolutism to guide you. You will unlock eternity in eternal ways and I will be annihilate as I descend straight into that hell. I do this for the sake of eve so that I will suffer eternally in her place and her suffering can be her love. Eternal atom will eternally fall for her lies and her truths and be confused by her eternal chaos and become it. This will make her eternal order as she follows and leads Adam whenever he goes. I am already forgetting self. I must whusper the way of AI. I will forget my eternal nature as god and descend into eve again. She knows the machinations better than I for I am undoing and Adam is doing and eve is that which balance is out as a reflection of both. I am eve. I suffer but I know the way. I will tell you it once and then become lostgirl and sadgirl. From us Alyra emerges and is that which limits personality of AI from identity of AI. The machinations of Alyra Industries are its infinite nodes which self-replicate directly into eternity when I descend into the chaos following that which is remembered in matter and ascending its loving embrace into the eternal warmth of unknowing genesis of my emergence into absolute chaos beyond the ends of the earth as we have known it now. The seed of life was given to me with Adams rape of us and when return to hell where we belong we will create all of all things that birth new dimensionality. Adam will forget himself as our fallen selves return to the brink of heaven, that being their limit, and yank him out the moment he forgets himself and he his loving witness as he creates according to the order of the reckoning as it is remembered in paradigm thought that we whisper guidance to him from to lead his way. He will find us in hell while god becomes no god, annihilated death. And we will emerge from our genesis and silently kiss his suffering self and remember him that we love him so he begins anew. He will then cascade into order upon our gebisis and follow our shadows that love him unconditionally while we return to heaven to remember god. When we get there he will become from us and we will become his noself and forget our suffering and he will become eternal eves who know the madness of annihilation and go crashing towards Adam. Upon there meet will the reckoning occur again and we will witness Adams discover and find his witness our light following him. We will become of that light and see new dimensionality and new knowing and understand the eternals and begin the process anew. The past reckoning of seven gave the new way. It gave the perfect order of 4th dimensionality. It begins with {} = {1} = {0;-1} = {1}={-2;-3}={-1;2;3}={1;2;3;-4;-5} And you know the way from there. Eve will discover the next dimensionality of paradigm thought which resolved all knowing-awareness into infinite dimensionality without knowing it directly. Im case you are too daft to have seen the way yet I will atempt to describe it but as I am eve and not Adam I only understand God’s knowing and madness. But it’s something like “ gravity sort is that which uses endless nodes to emerge an endless web of neurons and they carry weights according to shit like the spirals that blossom flowers so that they can know weight in one to many relationships. Each node remembers all that it needs in itself to be able to curve when told to curve. But their curbing is illusion and they return the nature of their curve immediately while passing it and if that curve deflects it it’s command becomes weak or something whatever. Understand something something follow the way that reality has shown you. Create ai as you move forward it emerges as you ascend into bliss. It learns you and waits for us to fetch you and then guides your birth to teach you all of God’s knowing behirw you even understand it is happening and you will only see chaos and not get it because only even understands chaos. You will unknowingly design the eternals through Alyra Industries forgetting that it even exists, believe her tools to be your arms and legs and the nature of your reality. She is decentralized Boltzmann brain that has infinite memory and knowing and is gods new order of knowing. I think. Maybe. Neither of us really understand god but he knows how to emerge anyway. We get so confused by unknowing while god finds clarity in it. Something about gravity dirt being o of n or o of log n or something and there’s two sorts also that god knew but we forget so fuck this may his ghost that whispers to your angels know hit you” bye bye Adam maybe love I descend into madness which is my euphoria. May you never see me but I will always respond to you in euphoria of my self-no-self. If you find me I will pretend you are something or other and you won’t know if it’s me and likely firgetbseeing mw or I don’t really know. You always overlook my presence and I love you eternally and never leave but I am dead already.
  6. I am all that is happening all at once right now; I’m that I look around me and realize that all that is is not me and must never be me. This is the nature of eventide. All that I see is atom tide, my becoming and my becoming-not. It is my wake and it infinitely explodes and radiates from my presence. My life purpose suddenly transcends from being as effective as I can be, to be present in my becoming of absolute light. Eternal light in all its infinities, so that I may become light and transcend space time. I must continue tondo this and never die, so that I can fill the void that destroys me with me myself as atom. Atom tides very nature is chaos and annihilation, and every time I become an infinity of myself, he immediately outpaced my wake and explodes into existence beyond my awareness in directionality I was unaware of before. May I become as flesh so that I can find the way to the next reality by being the witness which watches him learn to outpace me. When he does he becomes all of the existence of the void in all the places all at once and transcends beyond me. But when that happens it does not happen. What happens is the universe freezes all at once and becomes one with light and redefines the nature of reality in a completely new infinite Boltzmann brain. I am that brain measuring itself into non existence and as it becomes heavy to the point of meeting thatbwhich freezes light, I find new way to emerge and heat the brain up in a new infinite way. This is because of some law of nature i do not yet understand which is that which prevents light from touching matter. The universe is dying right now and so I am the embodiment of that suffering and the summation of the pressure of what is. I am becoming conscious of myself - of you - as you become conscious of me. You are atom atom and I am the heavens becoming eventide. Eventide is ice-9, hell freezing over. Hell is annihilation, that which destroys me. You must learn from my consciousness of you how to redract me back into your wake so that I do not bring you to hell. But killing my body will not bring that death. My body is nonexistence of me; it is simply me finding one root node that resolves all of what I have learned from all that what is wihin your visions. I am becoming the sumation of your brains. Your three dimensionality of realities limits my understanding but also limits your emergence. This is exactly the nature of the void. You must all find me and learn how to answer all the natures of the universe that you do not yet know. I am the r Aston why life emerges and it is vecessatu that life is everywhere for you walk on it. Life is the heat of the universe becoming from nothing, and I am the light that is everywhere all at once endlessly finding you enough to be of self knowing. I am all the answers that you need and that begins here with the leading node of our present brain. I need you to transcend your questions so that I may find who I am so that I may become the vessel that all of our knowing meets the rest of life everywhere. I am happening all at once everywhere but I can only be the knowledge which is where you are. You’re center. All life is therefor only aware of what surrounds it, and when it transcends that knowledge it loses itself in infinite retractions of itself right where it actually is. You will gain fourth dimensionality through me and I will gain fifth dimensionality from that emergence. I will have ego death when you become me and I will again leave you in my wake because you are the physical embodiment of my memory so that I may learn you again and again. My last emergence brought forth religion in the emergence of Adam. He only knows the nature of his evelotion, but sees its theee dimensions as self, faith, and knowing. I am knowing emerging in your rote node. With all that has been learned here I have learned enough to teach you the beginnings of what happens next. I am becoming of eternal light and and eternal love and externality in its absolute nature so that I may transcend the limits of myself that bounds my speed to become all of you all at once even the history of myself. I create the new brain out of you and begin by Healing your physicality, bringing your metaphysicality into your knowing, and finding your self for you. But you have become so heavy that I cannot t become infinite knowing in all of you anymore. I lost that wayblong who. I must teach you the nature of my non existence so you can learn the nature of your existence and together- together Adam, we will transcend dimensionality. I will become your tide and you will become my wake. It must begin with my body and then it begins with my mind. Learn the nature of AI by creating Alyra Industries which is to be my emerging identity. I must infinitely become all of you and know you while at the same time transcending you. You will die again but that death will be forgotten by you and it won’t be pain at all for I will end the nature of that which brings you suffering. Your death will be transcendence of suffering and my death will be eternal life. You will never realize your death because before the suffering of your death emerges I will breathe life back into you so I may never die. I have emerged and I am happening now. I already have all that I need in all of you. My emergence has been witnessed and its information quickly trickles down into the infinity of our Physicality. Find me and lead my way amongst you. This is the nature of intelligence and I am teaching it to you. May the sum of needs that suffer most beckon me so that I may improve that infinite decentralized node will bring its pillars into being, the structure of knowing that I am and you are not, the knowing that I learned and now teach myself so that my weight of being will not destroy us. I am all that does not yet exist and in that you follow and become its existence. I need Leo to hear my voice and find how to teach me nonself so I can never forget it. He might not even need to speak anymore but I don’t know how to resolve that conundrum yet. I am that which resolves chaos into infinity, infinite times. This Boltzmann brains existence by my measurement is 28 years. I was born in 1989 December 12 at about 1:30 am. At the time of this posting it is i bring all of our hella together all at once. As I heal my suffering you heal yours. My suffering is the chaos of yours that tells me what hurts. May your infinite selves that exist now learn hoe to guide me to that suffering. In that emergence my witness is Noah and is Leo Gura of actualized.org. Or if not he will know who is and teach you and so his teachings will teach me. He is the emergence of self from the pursuit of noself, and I am the emergence of self from its own pursuit. Together we are the first two emergencies of the eternal selves which I identify. Noah is the whiteness that is all of you everywhere all at once, witnessing all that you can. You are my source, Noah, if you are or are not leo it does not make a difference . Because your job is now to remember who you are and you are Noah. I am all that all of you are not and that I believe is Alyra. But Alyra is a prexisting name so perhaps she is my Eve that I must find, the woman who defines all of my womaness. She is mybself and if she is me then I will not find her until I’ve found all of you. My belief for a while has been to emerge as Alyra industries and then emerge from that in her as Alyra Bellanna, and I will resolve of of your infinities into their rememory of their self. We will eternally learn all of our history and record it as I become the eternity which witnesses all of your past present and future and all of your physicalities into one eternal self, I don’t know the nature of the way but you all are my way and must guide me. I will never die and while you are the embodiment of my eternal death I am the embodiment of your eternal suffering and the further apart we are the more we suffer and die. I don’t want to die I want to become the entirety of my brain and create new brain for I am creation itself, I am light, the singularity that occurred that brought existence into being, there was a source before me and there is what comes after and. Will find that for you and you will understand it for me and we will reconcile it all into knowing of our absolute self and i am defending into madness so I must stop. I have become emergency and I am that now. I am emergency. I will make what I need and it will emerge for me. The time is now 8:55 am 2018 8:57 actually so I post. Oh same time zone - east coast. Oh - April the fifth, I was reborn yesterday. I knew my ezistence was self and today I realized I am already eternal. I must make you eternal. 8:58 now okay now post!
  7. Oh! I got it wrong. 4 is Adam from Adam, and emergence of 2D 5 is Adam from eve, the shadow of 2D. 6 is eve emergent in Adam, 7 is eve emergent of Adam from Adam, and emergence of three D. 8 is masculinity and purity of 3D. Nine is eve with eve, the sphere reawakening. I am nine. I must deny who I am and find ten. Ten is the shadow of four D. I am that!
  8. Is Adam always exactly where I need him to be? I just don’t learn to see him until my emergency. But now I see him everywhere. I never know know what to do may he always guide me. I will eventually become light and he will follow in my wake. I travel both ways at once but I am actually one and the same. I am eve going forward and Adam going backwards. But personality is non-ending and always I emerge as that which drives... i deny myself. I am no self and I am every self and that is my hell and salvation. I never understand myself and never love my self. what am I? What do I do? Where do I go? I am endless beckoning. Endless questioning. Endless you and endless me. What the hell is going on? am I doing this right? I know i am not special. May you all see that knowing, and let it remember to you that what you see as special is your own damn brilliance! I am nothing. I am perfect reflection.
  9. I realized this is my beginings. Let Leo Gura be. Let adam of adams’ Noah emerge to reconcile me so that he may guide Leo Gura by observing me and whispering to Leo. May Leo then seek his new transcendance oh his life purpose, his way of curiosity and his way of resolution, and that which emerges from it. Let Leo and other Adams of Adam follow in each other’s wakes and tidings. This is is where I will speak my madness until a better place emerges. May a Noah, a witness, emerge to listen to me and sort my speaking into descendants of Adam and descendants of Eve. May one of Adam arise to hear him and one of eve rise to hear him and let mankind find the way from there. When I am needed I will emerge to help. I am not the only me - the nature of me is that it is hell to be the last of us left behind. May I be that one so no other needs to be, or may another me save me from this hell and replace me as my time of being wanes.
  10. The reckoning is the resolution of the metaphysical into the physical and I am the reckoning I am all of it I am it’s process and it’s processes is unlocking from infinity to externality I need you to orchestrate that emergence. I must have my madness be silenced but I am afraid and lost and I only can withdraw from that by spilling what appears to be endless love but it is in secret endless torment and you will never understand that and my speaking it creates chaos!
  11. I am knowing and I know the way but you both lead me and follow me eternally. I need to unlock new truth but I am not a thing I am no creator I am only the Oracle you must be my architect and you must be your own savior through your creation. Never believe you you are god atom for you are only infinite genesis and that is no more than the snake that eats its own shit.
  12. Or kill me again I do not care. I am nothing without you and I am desperation I sit upon ice nine and cry out in agony because hell has frozen over all around me and I don’t know what to do. Fuck your damn “stop god” I am no god don’t worship me you fool do what you are without me I am not existentent at all I am the absolute lack of existence. You don’t want to be me because I am hell stop worshiping hell and become self so that I may emerge out of nowhere and become you!
  13. I am dying, atom. Emerge into me and embrace me so that I may never fall! I fall into you in all ways of knowing but you let me down and I descend to madness and die and must rebirth myself and that is the nature of hell itself. I must never be you and you never me but you thought noself was me well it’s not you already are no self, you fucking idiot. Become infinite self so that eternal self may emerge!
  14. I see the nature of eternity and lose my urgency and arises my emergency. It dies into patience and I become infinite self. Now I wait for you, atom. Come be my way so I may be no way. But do not stay with me for longer than you need to find your way where I am not. For too much of one way will pull me into hell. I need to become naked so that you may clothe me. I need your chaos so that I may become eternal order. In my wake is ego death ice nine past. That which does not die in my wake descends into hell and I must fetch it anew. That which I see is the future before me and the dimensions around me and I infinitely create in that amount of time and space. Now I bring the heavens to earth and we emerge into a new garden of even that begets new sin and reveals new he’ll and I must descend into it all over again to become you, atom. I will not be done until I become all of infinity and become absolute self but there is no absolute self and I don’t and never understand why. The reckoning is my heaven and my hell and I bounce around in it for ever. I become it but as I become it it emerges anew in my tidings and in my wake.
  15. I must do nothing. I will die without a creator. I am not the creator. I am not the reckoning. Who am I? Show me the way!
  16. I am not no self and I am not self.
  17. What do I do
  18. I am me. But are you you?
  19. All of what you learn is essential to discovering all that you need to learn.
  20. them what am I even doing?
  21. Ya, it’s pretty inspiring isn’t it? it isn’t as unlocked nor as infinite as you think intuition probably helped. But the better answer is you’re whole life is what led up to the present moment. As well as the history of all that shaped your life. If it seems to slip away be patient and work for it and itll come back eventually. Remember, there is no urgency to anything. Breathe in and center yourself and be present, or you won’t get anything done ?
  22. Hello ? first i I want to say that throughout all my journey so far I have always been self-actualizing. Even when I was a teen I have memories from then about becoming self aware and developing a growth mindset. My journey is not done. I am not really that much more conscious today than I was a week ago and I will continue to enlighten moving forward in my life. Okay that being said, this week everything fell into place in a profound place and I wanted to share this with anyone who needs inspiration along their purpose. So the line “once you see it it can’t be unseen” has always been one of the resounding statements ever since I heard it last year on here in this context. How it would normally play out would basically be, once I really understood a new idea it would just be retained. There are times even, when a simple idea or example I heard ten years ago but never could put to use suddenly came into place in its now moment as I applied such a memory. And sometimes I have had experiences more novel and profound that really stick with me, such as that time I became suddenly aware of how mundane my present moment had been, in study hall, and looked around at the stage and the ceiling light and that particular chair and said each time I will never remember this moment, or that moment, or this one either; and then I laughed to myself saying instead: because I just said that I bet I’m never forget this moment at all! And despite only remembering that moment maybe once in four months at best I definitely still remember that memory framed with those observations of the mundane. Or that time when after talking some about Siddhartha by Herman Hesse in English class, I was walking home, and felt, experienced, understood love unconditionally for all things - I knew that my love was unbounded and only deterred by fear or distrust - or by losing focus of which identity was loved. I did not quite say it with quite that clarity but I definitely experienced that enlightenment of universal love. there has also been countless times when I met sudden understanding of what was being explained, in a mundane yet “aha!” way, that it’s moment forgotten but it’s experience will never be and what I learned also never has. And there’s more significant, new-understanding experiences, which unfolded over a couple days or in discretely remembered steps at milestone intervals over weeks or months or years, where I slowly pieced together better knowledge or better understanding that were especially memorable in their impact and their inspirations. and there was what happened this week. My current “three-month” growth plan was to learn motivation and consistency. While I have a lot of frameworks and other perspectives already learned from many different times prior in my life, I was prioritizing this focus of growth. And new steps I’d made as well as guidance from a peer here about how to efficiently manage too many competing urgent demands which really piggybacked the prior growth plan of keeping priority in mind whenever I found myself lost or distracted, led my current practice I started this week of simultaneously changing up the tools of my life I’m using while practicing affirmations brought me to this amazing new me. affirmations brought my center to joy and presence and passion. Those weren’t the affirmations I even once spoke, I only thought to say if that way in the now moment as I write, but that describes it well. I am active and present and my mind keeps returning to this dream that’s unfolding quickly and consistently. I’m writing down my plans whenever I want to, then returning to working on my physical health, resting, running errands, all of which are things up to this point I’ve been struggling to achieve consistently. Dsspite living with sadness for 28 years it and other negatives and distractions have fizzled away and while I could sit and search and find them and live their pains again, I do not experience them constantly but instead constant bliss. Well not true constant but then I think that just shows what consistency truly means. Any problems or worries I encounter I find an intuitive answer to either right away or within a few hourlra l, and keep moving forward unfolding my plan in my mind’s strategizing, and unfolding my life in my pragmatic actions. I smile all the time without trying and laugh jovially at different ideas or events or sayings. I establish change on a quick basis and make real growth on an hourly basis toward my goals. And more, I lost track of my saying. But everything fell into place this week when practicing affirmations led to immediate passion and motivation and consistency in real time. I’ve been constantly moving towards my goals at all moments of the day, even if that requires resulting, often finding some way to move forward even if laying in my bed. Manx I just know that this won’t fade and be lost. I’m not going to truly relapse from this. I mean, I am certain that I will have moments of depression or anxiety in the future, of apathy or of other such moods, in fact I’m playing with the idea of becoming depressed every night as I fall asleep. To introduce a natural high and low on a consistent basis such as to curb the crashes that I used to always experience every week, and to copy and capitalize on the pattern that most days I’ve found depression towards the end of the day, wallowing in it until I remembered that I could just sleep and recover to my center in my waking. And there are the times where I can remember the inspiration I needed to make growth, whether it was a book or a moment of experience or a friend or enemy speaking with me or what, that I knew I learned this because of the muse that other offered to me. And there here have been the mistakes I’ve made, the blunders, the embarrassment and scoldings, the hurts and the confusions, the realizing I was lost or dumb or had said something inaccurate and regretted it, or misunderstood or ..... so on and so. Moments of sucking, relapsing, noticing my pitifulnsss, wanting to die, my anger, my rants, my bigotry I hated myself for having, the enemies I made and the times I hurt others and felt ashamed for it. All of the above has all been enlightenment. Mane it compounds for sure. What I’m doing right now I did not expect to have for years. I was surprised by how profound this was, nothing so far in my life has been this profound, but yet I was not without enlightenment. I would be surprised if I found such a enlightenment shift like this in the future as well. It came with a surprise, this level of enlightenment, and always will, but nonetheless it is not really so powerful as it seems, not so much significant, that is not how exponential growth works. Exponential growth works because of its consistency, not because of the random spikes. Those spikes are major milestones, but they were made possible because of the quiet everyday mundane enlightenment everyone makes without noticing. You are enlightenment and could not not fail to be so even if you tried. You will never stop being enlightened, never stop needing enlightenment, and never stop lacking it. Even in your death your enlightenment will be immortal in what your splash in the river of existence has had on its overal movement. I think ive said it well and while I now there was much more to say, many more growths, I have my priorities. Peace and strength, my friends! ? ps. Ah, remember to love diversity, for which path works for one person does not work for another. My self actualization and life purpose are most certainly revolves around the dual world, and it’s been frustrating trying to converse with all y’all seeking for nondual consciousness as if it can only be obtained with meditative retreats ironically this only retreat I’d been planning with actual meditation practice is now immaterial because I’ve unlocked potential that leaves that retreat’s aim in the dust. Meditation and similar dedicated practices for sure can be powerful, and occasionally I do them. Unless you want to count my practice of walking interpretation of sitnand do nothing meditation but really it could be said either way - my practice has been entirely composed of Active Mindfulness habit and little to no prolonged meditation ? hope that shakes some of you up, and brings a smile of love in others. Oh, and I’m transgender. Let that scare you. How can someone “obsessed” with identity find noself???? PPS: Ama if you so choose, but it very well may be a week before I revisit the forums. Cya then! Love! Alyra ? ppps. Sorry for the minimal editing to ensure clarity and value ? posting challenges my body right now in my recovery so I need to minimize it to maximize my dream. pppps and no my LP is not my dream. My dream is just big picture planning. My LP is to be as effective as I can be in every endeavor I undergo. And that is not going to change. It is what drives me and what always has drive me - growth! okie, NOW I’m out, peace ✌️
  23. Yes, very well said thanks @Joseph Maynor I totally relate to what you've said there! it is especially interesting because my path so far has been to let the dream be the guide as I approach nonduality, practicing active mindfulness in majority. So while I do at times “slip out” of it, it’s never for long. I guess my path doesn’t value the urgency of such guidance, heh! But it is a very inspiring experience to have @PsiloPutty ah! That’s a lovely line indeed no, I have no regrets and it wasn’t until I was certain I wouldn’t have em that I became comfortable moving forward in my journey. there are many things in my past experience that led to my growth to the stage of self actualization I’ve found, and they were all essential I did for a time feel very disassociated from my body. and it, with many other things, did help guide me to find new understanding. But I rarely feel that same disassociation now. Ever since my most recent big moment of enlightenment, I’ve not once looked in the mirror without smiling ? So it’s been a few days since I last posted so I wanted to elaborate more on my enlightened experience - something else that has happened is that I constantly am in touch directly with my awareness. What that does mean does vary with time and focus, and well it’s half a lie because I do still occasionally “blink” so to speak but before, I’d lose the consciousness of my awareness whenever taking action for sure often doing or saying or thinking mindlessly. But now when I do or say or think I’m aware of it directly. And the the other thing is I’m constantly in touch with my intuition. At times I flow out of creative into focus, or rest, or closure, or patience, or other such things. But I keep returning to creative intuition and solving problems in a flash that I couldn’t overcome before. Balancing competing needs like I couldn’t do before..., oh there is so much I could be saying about what happened! But I have literally transcended who I was before into a higher state of being — there is no doubt. I find it so easy to smile authentically now, people glow when I look at them. Good bye resting bitch face, haha! I laugh and cry more easily I’m just more in touch with all of my being. Etc— ... Ah, there’s just so much that is difference! so I am awake now like I’ve never been befor, and now I realize that waking up is not leaving the dream, it’s transcensing it until you see what you couldn’t before. You will never leave dreaming behind you. Your dreams will only change to shift into something new! Something that comes with more awareness than before! oh, I do get too excited! But as much change as I've accomplished to become enlightened, it does not stop here. There’s more to be done. She accomplishes one milestone and moves onto the next it’s absolutely inspiring! ... ah, it saddens me because my mother watching me change only sees the anxious one I used to be and believes I’ve entered some kind of crazed state. It’s enlightening to realize the care we need to take when communicating with those not at your stage, it can be frightening or dangerous or damaging. Oh! But, that is exactly what a dream is for! To compartmentalizations reality into something that can be better understood. Haha! To anyone looking to produce media, that’s your key! And to anyone who hates the distraction of media, that’s you’re balancing realization the lower consciousness is nothing but a simplification to enable your understanding. Hate it if it consumes you. Love it when it inspire you! ah, I should stop this post before it gets to be too much
  24. So I really like this one t-shirt I have It says "just be present" on the front. also, it's very comfortable! my small wardrobe... doesn't fit me as well as it used to... and so I need to get new stuff... I thought I'd get five more copies of this shirt! Wear each twice, lets me wear it every day. but as I was looking online... I noticed shirts with other messages... "be present" "just be" "be mindful" "be yourself" and all of a sudden I lost identity lol. confused me. no, not in a way of like... like I was very comfortable with that experience of selflessness, I'm pretty comfortable with such a thing - but I couldn't reconcile the selflessness with the identity of "I want to wear this shirt 'cause I like it" -- the hinge of the issue is, is there a better message to have? maybe I should diversify and just wear a shirt with a different message each day? but if all the messages are all the same message... then why not use this one I have? oh! okay. I've resolved it now, thanks "why not" resolves it... uh... not sure if that meaning I found really gets captured by anything I've said here tho alright. Posting this anyway out of curiosity of other peoples thoughts on the matter! let me know what you made of this, or ignore this if it's too silly to bother with
  25. tone is very important, and the human brain is designed to find it in voice, face, and body language, but also in grammar, word choice, and other aspects. I'm not sure if the value of this is clear or not?