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You can radiate love. You can go deeper into awakening. You can be playful with life, and make your own rules...

I would suggest getting a therapist for the medium/long term, who can give you a trusting relationship if you can afford this. Find a female therapist even and this would simulate some aspects of dating and trust/being vulnerable around women. Having this stable relationship (even though it's a paid one) can help you spring forward and be more okay when faced with rejections/heart breaks. Basically I'm saying you should try to heal this through a trusting/nurturing relationship because real life dating is all over the fking place, and can easily make things worse. And it sounds like right now you need to fill yourself up first in your love tank.

Are you sure about having no urges? Maybe it's been repressed? I mean it's just how we're wired, it's so built in us. There's nothing wrong with that. That sounds like a fetish. Again nothing wrong with having a fetish.

Yes there's definitely more and it probably doesn't have an ending anyway rofl, but that sounds pretty epic. Keep going you're on the right track.

I mean I guess you can say that's a partial god realization. ?

Sounds like the layer that's just outside of infinity/god realization. I was around there on my first couple trips. Were you on a psychedelic?

Exactly, he just answered that it may actually end his life if he continued any longer. Why would you want him/anyone to push past the point of what they feel is their limit of safety? That's a pretty toxic way of pursuing spirituality.

Hey that's sort of where I'm at these days. I am pretty blissful when doing "nothing". And well most of the times when people are involved there tends to be high and a low so you're always on a rollercoaster with "socialization" and it's usually not high conscious..

Thanks we shall see . Oh wow that's been awhile. Haven't done it outside yet, that sounds like a good idea! Need a sitter for that probably or at least driver...

Oh heck yeah almost always! Some kind of "spiritual orgasm" whenever I play Chopin stuff for example.

Ohh yeah, could be that. On my first two trips, there was some lingering "trauma" stuff that got purged (that was also super insane how quickly because it was so sticky before I tried any psychedelics..), before entering full blown infinity/godhead. I think the come up have gotten more "comfortable" in a relatively short time period. Will try the empty stomach see what that does.

That hits home, seems like the more you awaken the more "what else is there to do" applies.

@Juan Thanks for sharing your take on it! Good point about having the free time before and after ideally and being in a stable mental state. I keep reading about that, I haven't had any issues with not having a completely empty stomach (just semi coz I don't eat heavy meals in general). Are there other reasons for this other than preventing nausea and such? Ok yeah, so I wasn't the only one reading it like that.

Ahahaha this is gold. ?

Thanks for linking this, don't know why I don't recall watching this (I guess it has been awhile). Ditto with the bathtub ritual - I started doing the same thing during trips. ?

@Jahmaine It’s not a black and white thing as you can see. Yes it can be “dangerous” when you do it intensely like that and thus valuable to give out warnings. But also doesn’t mean one should not come back again to revisit if one feels called to, that reason might be unique to each of us and I suppose he didn’t answer that directly, I presume the reasons could be numerous and besides “truth seeking”, there may be highly personal/spiritual reasons. It can be hard to put into words. As an example, I could intuit that even if I had felt the highest awakenings had been achieved, I would still desire to be in that state of consciousness - purely to commune with “myself”, if that makes sense.

@SeekingFreedom Could be a hindrance or a motivator, all depends. I met someone once who said they are an alcoholic and was looking to have a 5-meo trip at an addictions clinic - though he mostly referred to it as to help him work past this addiction. But simultaneously this may open him up to more inner/spiritual pursuits as I have pointed him to this direction. Anything’s possible and depends on the individual. Not too different imo from people with mental health issues who may eventually stumble upon spirituality while pursuing healing work.

That's a side effect usually, and the expansion of love. Just seeking truth for its own sake is also pure joy for some, even if it "horrifies you" what you might discover sometimes.

Pretty subjective thing. It's kind of hard for me to seperate looks from how one otherwise carries themselves. As in, it's possible for me to be very attracted to someone that most people wouldn't consider attractive physically speaking. Mostly a psychological/spiritual thing but the physical aspects could compound it. So I'd be lying if I said looks didn't matter at all.

Are you serious? That would've happened way before all this, if you're referring to "ego death".

I don't think he's suicidal .

Whatever amounts and frequencies you take that's up to your risk tolerance and what you're willing to "risk". But it's good to know roughly what the 'upper limits' might be.

I think you're taking my words way too seriously lol. Limitations of text speech.

Nope. I'm just acknowledging the risk he took. Like some guy who first reached Mount Everest peak and made it back alive. It was a compliment you silly.