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Lol maybe Teal should start an online forum instead ...

@Jonsey you're welcome! Best wishes to you.

@RMQualtrough sounds like pretty strong ptsd symptoms...

@Jonsey Seasonal jobs like fruit picking and farm assistant... They seem to always need good people. If you survived Amazon that should be pretty alright for short term..

I wouldn't work for them if I had the choice... (And I have indirectly so know a bit of what you're talking about). I think even McD is better in a sense...

@Nilsi That's my trips these days... thanks for sharing this.

Kinda reminded me of Howl's Moving Castle...

I'm sorry for all that work and for not getting the result you wanted.. sometimes it is like that with dental and other health issues, re-assess, and re-do.. can be frustrating. Hope it works out for you in time. Meanwhile you can still reduce the toxicity that you put into your body.

I think a therapist can help you with it too if you are open to that.. some kinda reprocessing.

Love.

Hmm.. based on that I'll just point out that there is often a link between gut health and mental health (https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC7510518/).

That's great! Sounds like you're very self-aware and know intuitively what directions to take. I'm not sure if this applies.. but when I first did psychedelics it revealed to me some remaining grief I still had around my past, it blasted out into the open and I feel like that "pain body" has finally dissolved. Not sure if it has helped you that way. I would also recommend psychedelics + therapy approach, sometimes can help to talk to someone about your trips.

Lawl, if it was gonna happen it probably was meant to be . For me was actually a huge relief in many ways, took me off these supposed "hamster wheels" that weren't actually of the highest priority in retrospect (they were at the time to go through the stages). Priorities have shifted in a positive sense, so it's not necessarily that you will fall into nihilism - there's more to dig if that's where you end up at with spiritual work. There's no "need" to do anything, but the Love, Beauty, Truth, will let you know what the right actions are. And you just flow with that.

@Mz Hyde @Sine ?

@Jodistrict Thanks okay, was reading some more of it, very cool. It also makes sense that the "set and setting" can contribute.

@Jodistrict Wow thanks for sharing that! Great to know. Not that I can convince some people to take it..ahaha. Do you think that could potentially be extrapolated too all/most psychedelics? And do you think that it's more of the particular plant/biochemistry or what was gained from the altered state of consciousness that is giving health to these people?

Talk therapy, self-therapy/research. What do you feel is the source of it? Look deeper into that.. basically, the willingness and courage to face whatever comes up. Anhedonia is sort of a numbing of what is underneath the surface..

@Mikey Doesn't apply as much here, OP clearly said it was a lack from his environment growing up, that's not something to blame OP for. Though yes ultimately they are responsible for the healing that is needed.

It sounds like you're actually quite clear on what you need right now. Despite knowing the limitations of, and having personally gone to various therapists, I still highly recommend finding a suitable one (and don't be afraid to go through a screening process with each), and that suitable one you would know because you are looking for the love you may still be chasing to get from another. There's absolutely nothing wrong with you still feeling the desire to be loved by another in the relative. I can intuit based on what you wrote that it was simply not given to you when you were younger and we absolutely need love to form the healthy ego (before attempting to drop it..). I recommend the above because.. one can easily get lost and trapped in chasing "romance" only (or even friendships), only to get re-traumatized because people have a very limited capacity to love in general, and relationships are meant to be balanced in terms of energetic giving and receiving. Retreats are also generally not designed for this direct form of love and care, the desire to be fully seen and loved for who we really are, that a therapist/caregiver can give. I am speaking from personal experience.. and want to let you know that wholeness and complete healing is available to you. Once you find it, it will rapidly open up the "next steps" to you. Don't give up!

LOL someone's gonna come in here and say something like... "Actually, you are God."

@Kalki Avatar I can relate to what you say and I consider myself a pretty sexual person too.. it's just not very good without the right connection (like I have more fun by myself these days most of the time, as most guys I ran into don't know how to connect on a deep level, devoid of love, and/or not spiritual). The sexual aspect is not the only kind of connection available, depending on how you like to define it. I can get pretty "high" from an emotional/love connection without sex or even being sexually attracted to someone. But it's not a black and white thing.. the love connection can very easily lead to sexual connection as well. And it merges.. what is sexual is also emotional and spiritual.

What @Michael569 said, also other health problems can contribute to that as well. It's more like a symptom of something else to investigate.

Late to the post... It's poor women/families who are gonna be the most affected. Yet another blow to the less privileged group.

Yes especially the empaths I think..

Not related to psychedelics but reminded me of this clip: