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I'm sorry to hear this and it sounds like you're also pretty isolated. There hasn't been a "magic solution" other than some protection from spirit, eg I am aware how developed or undeveloped someone is with brief interactions generally. And that generally means there's basically almost no one around who is operating on an equal-ish field. If you can find even 1 person who sort of gets it I think you should keep them in your life some way. Getting the survival side handled much as you can will help too, eg I don't know your line of work but the work you do attract different kinds of people and some better than other lines of work. (Finding "equals"). Not to shit on low wage jobs but it generally doesn't attract the most developed crowd for instance.. certain blue collar jobs are also brutal and very stage red/blue.

Thank you this was healing to read.. I'm dealing with a very bad one right now who is extremely smart and good at acting when they have to. Basically a "demon". Since I am extremely connected with spirit it didn't take much to alert me what was going on, but other people don't have this ability to sniff out how a criminal operates quickly. To actually prove things might require police assistance which isn't available until one gets something from a judge. Literally exploiting the system's loopholes due to lack of affordability of lawyers for this particular situation. It's a "gang" preying on poor and under-educated, mentally challenged people and absentee landlords. Absolutely disgusting to watch and I've gotten physically sick a few of times already dealing with this person (the internal thief that made it possible). It's a very bad spirit when you're dealing with someone that's absolutely committed to their actions with zero signs of remorse. The underlying attitude of "whatchu gonna do about it?" They really do exist.

Time and Space were both created at the same moment, they're as much a construction of your mind as everything else here. The Big Bang was the moment you decided to "leave" Heaven and God behind to be something else and somewhere else that which created a different kind of mind I call the "Ego-mind". As you tried to leave it generated certain "negative feelings" and diminishing of the Love you came from, which ultimately led to how this universe runs. You then split yourself into all these forms and forgot all about where you came from in the process. It was created in such a way that was quite convincing that it's "real". So now you really think you're a body, and so everytime you "die" you are compelled to come back here due to thinking this place is real and you're a body. Everything was created by thought though not actually carefully designed, so atoms and things are just a byproduct of a thought of this dream world. You made all forms and the dream scripts partly to distract yourself (a convincing dream) so that you don't have to think about where you actually came from. And although you tried to leave there are marks of heaven/God/spirit here due to your origin. And it's really like a "movie" you're in, and it's also from the view of "eternity and timelessness" a "movie of the past". This requires serious ego dissolution to awaken to..

That's also not hard to understand if you keep awakening. It just seems so maybe right now. Your mind is capable of understanding everything in this universe and beyond this universe.

Its actually not that hard to understand it, things are fairly robotic in this universe. Seemingly different lives are actually not that different and have predictable patterns. Once you understand the different kind of minds that exist here you can understand everything. Forms are mostly a distraction that make it "seem complex".

Yes, and that Love goes very deep. If you just keep digging with Love you'll find heaven.

What you describe is mostly Yellow into Turquoise to me, though we may well have different ideas of what those entail.

You're prob not looking closely enough at that, and what is your definition of being helpful? Ok sure you can argue Jeff Bezos give you seemingly cheap products with basically free deliveries, but at what cost to their workers and their lives? And as well to potential small business owners? I'm not saying there aren't situations where it's like a "win win", but those aren't common is what I'm trying to say.

Getting fked over by devils may also speed that process along.

It's a spiritual problem (but I understand why people think it's biological, in the materialist paradigm, it's simply not an adequate explanation). The Ego at its full swing literally wants to kill people like me with light and not go along with their deep corrupted mind. And it doesn't have to be literal murder though that could also be, but other ways like making it almost impossible for you to make money and survive in this world, socially isolate you, or psychologically abuse you so much that you either commit suicide or go insane, or all of the above. There is a "spiritual warfare" happening just almost nobody is picking this up.

LOL yeah tell me about it, after just being literally told to "just drop dead" and getting hung up on for having a disagreement. The amount of darkness and devilry I've directly faced in this world is disgusting, and yet I am still trapped by these sorts of people "in my life" and cannot truly find a way out of them. Because it's literally one after another to no end. Just when you think you found a good person nope turns out they're a fake. Rinse and repeat. If I run out of options one day I might try to get myself into a mental institution, at least people there are supervised or some shit.

That's all. Cheers!

People with money (which is also equivalent with power) are generally very organized and basically collude with each other to keep the system in their favor, who can put on an act infront of cameras but really "stealing" from people. Your Jeff Bezos of the world are still worshipped by the masses. How likely are they to change when things have been going so well?? (Eg, that they both get away with exploitation and being exalted as some legitimate leader). Poor people have little resources to organize and are also bad at it often due to lack of communication and cooperation skills, and that by definition if you're "poor" you're literally in survival mode and have little time to spare to organize. They are also prone to anger as a result of these things which allows for some narcissist who knows how to manipulate this anger to their advantage.

It can be tricky being a politician, if you're too far left or too far right than the general population you risk your life in danger. It's not uncommon for them to get violent threats I hear..

The more you awaken the more you intuitively know these things without any books. Other great artists are better references (their work which may not be some instructional book). And who knows.. maybe a few of them will lead you back to God with their art .

The "Overton window" in America has not shifted enough for that but maybe soon. In Canada it's starting to shift more and more to the left such that even the so called conservative party is somewhat "progressive".

Spacious awareness is a good starting point (like Eckhart Tolle?), there's more to this awareness (aspects and magnitude, etc), so keep digging! I've been awakening the past 3-4 years now I guess, I'm now 33.

Sounds nice, that kind of thing can be challenging without some initial capital/funding and/or partnership. Hopefully you have some connections to help you get started.

On that point and bit of a tangent since we're talking about corporate greed. Uber should really be banned/made illegal for tricking people into working less than min wage (knowingly or unknowingly). Or some kind of disclaimer stating "You may be working under the min wage after expenses". It's odd to me almost no government seems to care about this rampant phenomenon of practically free labor. And it does matter these kinds of apps are allowed to exist because it does take away potential jobs that would pay more fairly to delivery drivers. Another case of clever devils flying under the radar of law enforcement (labor laws).. though really not that clever, anyone who has done some basic taxes knows how to calculate vehicle expenses divided by mileage, plus your vehicle's worth (divided by mileage). In some cases you're actually losing money. It's just that nobody wants to give a damn to shut them down.

Almost nobody wants to really wake up, aka return to heaven and be one with their brothers, so yeah the higher you go the more likely you're really alone in this world even all the spiritual people you can't connect with. Technically I shouldn't be complaining about this situation, but if I don't then nobody will ever know about this situation.

The silver lining is that this was prob one of the best "bonding experiences" you could have for an online forum. I think I would "know" if something bad happened.. it didn't feel that way so I wasn't too alarmed overall.. but on the other hand if something bad did happen and your forum was down on top of that there're not many ways to get in touch with everyone again. So hopefully for the people (besides Leo) you like to reach out some point you've asked for a back up contact info, that would be my suggestion..

Just ending your current life/body will not automatically get you to heaven. There's more work before that if that's what you want. So basically whatever your last shroom trip was, that might be roughly where you end up in terms of your state. It's very likely you'll just come back again to another life and do it all over again from a baby.

I looked that up, I see, that was not what I was thinking of, that kind of word def trips me up at times (where it can get mixed up with conscience). Well.. to me the concept of "genetics" is made up just like how birth and death is made up. I see beings in terms of kinds of mind and stages of awake-ness mostly.. which relates to ego. You can come into this world already quite ego-less (maybe you were just hanging out as an angel or some higher spirit/angel prior to coming here for example). That's as far as I can recall in terms of my "past life", I can't prove that to anyone though. And I also don't remember more of my past lives. But you can def do a lot of spiritual work in a life time if you wanted. There's usually more than 1 factors for that. I just mean that if you're already high conscious at a young age the kind of bullshit one has to go through usually to make lots of money (as the primary goal) just won't even interest you. So I'm saying a very awake person is more likely to be not that wealthy because that's not their goal, nor can they stomach taking a lot of money from others (such as some people do with what I consider to be "essential services").

Mostly not that helpful but I had some brief periods where I almost couldn't function during my awakening journey, and it helped for those blips so I only recommend it for short term use I guess.

What kind of jobs are you thinking about that would pay well for that? I can't think of many except maybe psychologist/therapy but they're not that high conscientious to me due to how much money they charge people (so it's a catch 22). If you're really high conscientious you couldn't even be a psychologist. It's kind of bizarre where you either end up in a low wage situation or something like hundreds of dollars an hour. That doesn't make any sense really. To me it's generally tied to the ego, how much ego someone has, the more ego generally the more they only care about money/material pursuits often at the expense of everything else. The more ego is also more lack of consciousness. It's almost too predictable too like from a high view most people just seem like robots/zombies to me when they prioritize money over everything else. And I'm not talking about low/mid wage earners.. It's very hard to be honest, there's no normal life if you go hardcore on it. If you go to the deep end you're kind of at the mercy of some of the few people around you. I mean yeah there's always low wage jobs you can do just to get by but that's really not a good use of your time if you can avoid that. Determinants.. I say it's the evolution of your "soul"/mind over many lifetimes, and sometimes who you might come across on your path can play a big role if you were receptive. I don't know, I just mean Leo had a different kind of income set up than most people, he's not trading hours for a wage or working for a boss/firm, it sounds like he worked a bunch in early years along with actualized and then now actualized pretty much pays his bills on autopilot. This is very unusual not something most people even most creatives can just pull off. That's just my observation.