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@nistake Too much spirituality can fck your life situation if you are not going fully into it. I really dont recommend spirituality as a main focus to anyone who is not financially free. You will waste alot of time. On the other hand, if you want to improve your confidence, you have to be ignorant. It does not mean being fully ignorant, it means you need ego. You need an ego who is sufficiently obscured. An ego with a pride of its own and self deceived into its own ideas/beliefs. Everytime you do hardcore spiritual work, the light of consciousness crumbles your ego structure. To do spiritual work you need doubt and questioning, which means bringing light into the ego, causing it to die and weaken your personality. So, this means, if you want a strong personality-ego, stop doing spirituality for a year or at least reduce it significatively from your main focus. Cuz when you are into spirituality, you will be carrying doubts and a weak personality, unless you go fully in and get enligthened. But if not, stop watching your ego so much. Only do spiritual healing and questioning of specific areas, the negative ones through contemplation alone. So, how to build a strong-healthy ego? Attach your consciousness by repeating good habits, including some neutral or even bad ones, by not observing yourself. If you can get a job alone and be social every single day, you will get good feedback, social skills and programming of a new personality in months. You wont have to do anything, it will be automatic. But as I said, you will have to sacrifice some of your spiritual habits to become functional in the Matrix as your ego wants. Watch confident people on music videos or associate yourself with them until your consciousness gets identified with watching them unconsciously. Confident is an unconscious thing, it means you already assume you already know. It has no doubts. You have to add assumptions into your awareness to form an armor. Thats why you need to be somewhat dumb. The good news is that those who have never experienced truth and are very confident, are lost and in danger. But those who know truth, can obscure their consciousness into a strong ego and still be aware on some level. You are not fully lost, and yet got the confidence to manipulate the social. Overall, another thing to have a powerful ego is to know your purpose and have a vision. That alone from the inside, even if you have nothing externally, can make you unshakable by the outside. Thats your Drive. Ego is nothing but a driver of survival.

@GreenLight Im almost the same as you, just that im now about to graduate from college. It took more time aswell, but i kinda regret and not regret enligthenment aswell. Fckng dilemma. I want to blame truth for somewhat damaging my future but at the same time it is the medicine to my present moment problems. I might go insane with this until I get some financial freedom. I see so many ignorant and confident guys with almost their whole life figured out, just that they dont have any idea of their inner problems solution (truth). On the other hand I got that solution but no control of my external life. The only thing you and I did wrong on that spiritual journey was not coming out of it fully enligthened. And for me to accept that it was just my preparation for when the real moment of enligthenment comes... Makes me go even more insane or not even knowing how to feel about it. We dont have anything left than to accept this extremely painful crude and harsh reality truth of no fundamental mundane progress by now... Even If I went into full enligthenment at this moment, it wont be sustainable. Its too much energy, time and resources into something of no use in survival. Which I have small control of at this moment. Not even my family is ready for such happening. If it did not happen at an early age like some gurus (21 or 22), fuck it. At least I tried my best... I thought I would be in nirvana by 22. But im not giving up, I will be back after I get my financial freedom. Anyways, being an enligthened prisoner in the physical is just as incomplete. I would say college is not that crucial. Forget about spirituality as a main focus by now. Only do superficial spirituality to strike some balance, but get your ego consciousness back to ground yourself in the matrix and into pragmatism. Get a regular job, invest, grow your capital, keep Investing, then build a traditional business or buy real estate. Then do as you wish and be happy. Ofcourse, this will require your psychological trainning of the subconcious and death of the old personality habits and high focus for it to become real.

@Joshua Pryor Osho book will teach you real meditation. Osho - Meditation, the first and last freedom.

@Peter Miklis Leo is one of the most immature spiritual leaders. His work seems to be helpful on the surface but eventually it will get people more lost and tricked. Forget about all the beautiful realizations, insights, etc. If the source you get the truth from is not awake, you are simply shooting yourself in the foot. Why? When the source is unawake, even if he make good points, he is prone to make guiding mistakes that will backfire any progress do. He doesnt have the total divine vision to do such work yet. Its coming from his mind, Its only partial. Contemplate this. You are asking how to live an awaken life from an unawake person. How much can you trust someone afraid of embodying what he teaches? His ego is getting bigger and bigger each day, which means he is asleep as fuck. And it doesnt even matter how much 5 meo he does. He is trapped in his own net. I am not hating on leo, but on his immaturity. He may have good intentions on helping out, but truth leadership doesnt work like that. And everyone here need to be ware of this, specially newbies. Truth is not for smart or intellectual people. It is for courageous ones. It is a matter of courage vs fear. Leo doesnt have the courage yet. Life will eventually teach him to get some.

Help get this right. Leo keeps saying that infinite love is the deepest awakening, yet I have talked to various realized beings saying that it is very deep but not the deepest. That the ultimate deepest is simply nothingness and love is its first manifestation. Does leo keep saying it is the deepest just because it has been his deepest experience or what?

@blackchair You are not the only one bro. Im about to drop it all too. So much crap for nothing. Im even getting a lil suicidal, craving for source.

@Bodhitree Might work, will check it.

Which good ashram's would you guys recommend for a possible alternative in the future?

I actually thought Julian was heading towards the absolute. He says that only because he has a big veil of maya. The moment he tastes true light, he will see how drunk and foolish were his ideas.

@Nemo28 I went through this. Be careful. Be ware of all the spiritual advice you take before trying to apply it instantly into your life situation. Every inner move changes everything else. Be strategic of when you want to practice effortlesness. Not much when you have duties or time pressure. It will gradually grow if you practice it, but if you have an ego it will still not work to apply that truth in the dream. To be effortless is a high luxury. Thus, you must not have ego for it to be automatic and permanent. Its difficult to explain, you have to see it for yourself. I got into many troubles following that too when I was new into spirituality. Take time to relax, and organize your life through right contemplation for when and how to integrate spirituality into your present life situations. And yes, witnessing changes everything. It even changes your aura, body language, vibration, and perception in the eyes of others. Practice witnessing when you are by yourself mostly, not socializing. At least initially, when you are trying to get the pull off your old tendencies. After momentum, you can do it anywhere, since it will be more relaxed and natural. People wont understand whats going on with you. People, including my mom, have thought I had mental problems by my drastic behaviour changes, but i knew I was alright lol. The fact that you can control your complete inner world/experience is terrifying to others in ignorance.

@Dark_White @Bazooka Jesus My life situation doesnt support making spiritual work, specially my enviornments. I wont explain the whole matter, yet I understand what you are saying. I need someone to help me with my basic needs and some guidance while I only meditate 24/7. Even if they try to get me in some doctrine, I can reject it internally and just focus on my work. We are all in society, yet we have the choice to decide to follow its culture or not, which is the biggest cult of all. And, thats why im asking for a good place in the first place, lol.

As you know, the pandemic is changing the wage slavery into a higher level of freedom. So, I wonder if any of you could share sites that publish real remote world wide jobs that may or may not require a degree.

Not easy, but crazy and useful.

I have been trying to gain inner spiritual momentum, but it has been pretty difficult. My ego has become pretty hard and I think it also has to do with the world energy Shift (3D-5D split). Im good contemplating anything but my ego. The moment I focus on my ego it gets crazy. And also creates stress. Just as when focusing on the "I am sense". The only method that has worked in the past is pure meditation, but it has been difficult aswell with so many things to do. Leo speaks of 5meo, but that will only give you temporary awakenings. And those succesful with kriya were initiated face to face into it. I dont wanna mess with it randomly and fck my self more. Any recommendations as to how to gain inward momentum with so many layers of conditionings and things to do? How did you initiated yourself?

@Understander Thanks for sharing. I get it. Am illing to surrender. The thing is that I wasnt aware of karma mechanics in the past. Everytime I surrender and realize the truth and false just as you mention, karma is right behind me waiting to attack like a tiger to its prey. Ready to blind me again. Ready to create more karma on others that then they will project on me for me to create again and enter in a karmic cycle. Unless I manipulate and surrender at the same time, I will continue in the cycle.

I have seen it, but not read it. What do you mean by insight? Because the law of one book is full of insights but wont help me stay in source.

I once wanted to just go and live in an ashram, which I may do in the future. (Any recommended place?). But its lil bit difficult due to my current situation. Im making my life of a monastery right now again. Simply wanted to see if anyone here knew some tricks to get initiated and accelerate the process aside trying RASA sessions which im about to.

@Understander @Carl-Richard @Dancer I just want permanent source realization (stability). Im tired of drama, karma, spiritual theory, psychedelics, sex, money, relationships. I dont care if my society kills me or I get homeless. I want permanent freedom.

@Dancer @Carl-Richard @Dancer The bs my ego projects was absorbed by my enviornment. Yes, the majority is just my projection. But you have no idea what enviornment does. I used to think enviornment did not matter. I challenge you to be surrounded every single day with a hood for a couple of years, were all they speak and do is extremely survival driven. Competition, name calling, being alpha, fckng girls, drinking, smoke, drugs, being a street man, dominating you, bullying, etc... But the most uncomfortable part is bothering you every 5 minutes, meaning approaching your space to talk, call or touch you just cuz their ego is programmed like that. Now imagine that x20 a whole collective ego surrounding you like that and you are only one trying to be out of all that. Then recieve daily copy paste of their projections no stop and then get entangled with them and all that crap. After your survival mechanism gets triggered, gets you asleep and you get a taste of that come and say its all just projection. And yes, Its still projection on a part but to get out of that, saying such thing wont be enough. You will need to learn how deal with it on physical and mental level to then reach spirituality. You have no idea how many ppl I had to cut off just to properly start doing spiritual work. Its no as simple as it seems for many.

@Dancer Its true, am not out of it aswell, lol. But as much as its our responsability, you cant negate the enviornmemt affects you on energetic levels. The very moment I changed jobs, I have not been able to mantain non duality. External conditioning has been pretty strong were I work. If they sense you are not like them, you are in red zone. It was actually my survival mechanism that kicked in and started absorbing all their beliefs to survive. Ofcourse I was not in a strong conscious position at that moment. Not to excuse, just saying my actual experience. Enviornment do matter.

@Brandon Nankivell @Dancer Those hippies must ve been drunk in love to create such impact. Nice.

@Dancer It actually is more bs for my ego, am aware of it. Holding external stuff on my awareness is what built my ego. But at the same time, I wont deny I have been noticing people's personality and egos getting more contracted. My family is the best example of that. Just like the virus, I have not seen it neither experience it. "Holding that awareness might help". But at the same time its just molding my perception and building more ego... Fck it all.

@RedLine The teaching itself is not advanced, applying it, is. Try becoming intuitively aware of your highest excitement this very moment and just follow it blindly as your whole life (World) crumbles and people think you are going insane. Then after that excitement gets burned and you identify a new one, go follow it blindly again. Your life will look like a mess to your mind and others, only if you have a very developed level of faith, intuition and consciousness will you be succesful living that lifestyle. If we all had our needs covered and money was not a problem, maybe we could all be like that. Right now that could cause ww3. Imagine someone low conscious as putin misinterprets the teaching and press the nuclear button out of excitement, lol.

@roopepa Exactly. Osho speaks of it in his book, emotional wellness, just as you describe it. Its good for getting momentum, but it might be limiting at some point. Truth is beyond all feeling. It is prior to it. But yes, fck all this philosophy and theory. Its more conterproductive than productive.