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@Salvijus I will do it! costs a little but thats how it is (first this engineering course and then you can do the shambadhi mahamudra). Good they do online courses. No power to travel there

@Salvijus is Shambhavi mahamudra online initiation also powerful? When do you see changes? I will do this program by sadghuru one day @BlackhawkYou just sound total depressed. You really need help

@Blackhawk @Blackhawk @Michael Jackson @Razard86@Razard86 - - bug Hey Blackhawk, you said you dont have any childhood trauma, this is highly wrong. Everyone experiences childhood trauma, at least your birth brings trauma to any human. It could be that you simply blocked the memory of traumas which happened to you. You could be mental unstable from the beginning. Analyse why. Depression maybe?

@BuddhistLover in 10 - 15 years an ai developed by Chinese government will rule the Internet. Every suspicious open minded site (like actualized.org) will be censored. I think this can happen

@Blackhawk ok sorry to tell you but you seem immature for your age the more I read your comments. Blaming this forum for your bad experience is one hint for this. Overreacting like losing your Job (police dont know anything about lsd) is another. You will keep your Job for sure, no one loses his Truck driver Job because of a medical emergency. It even not happened at your Job. I am not from your country but still feel you just dramatize 130 micro is a good starter dose. Why you still fucked up must be found in yourself and not in this forum. You just seem too immature for psychedelics

@Blackhawk I know you are a bit in shock, but dont give up psychedelics because of one bad Trip. take little steps. 2cb is more friendly than lsd. Take a break until you feel the call. Start with 2cb again, see how you can handle your fear. and then go next to another psychedelic. And so on until you can work with psychedelics in serious ways You will laught about your first lsd Trip one day if you go on. Right now of course this sucks.. Medical emergency can be anything(heart attack, you hurt your butt..) . You are ok. No one will take your driver license because of an medical emergency

@Blackhawk oh man.. But does the police know you took lsd? In Germany Doctors need to take secret what happend to you. And do you feel normal again (besides losing your Job?) What psychedelics you took before Maybe you are Spiritual gifted (even on 300 micro most people dont react so strong)

@Grant6 it comes in waves but which wave is the highest, you really dont know. Could be the first, second or the fifth wave

@Grant6 haha I am also nervous one day before until eating the shrooms. Directly after eating I am not nervous anymore because I am in for a ride. However before the peak I get always nervous again and after the peak also because I dont know if a bigger wave is coming. This is something I dont like from shrooms. On allad I know when I reached the peak and when I come down

@Carl-Richard now it seems he should have worried about

@Blackhawk ok this sounds really Bad. what exactly was hell so that you called the cops? What was bothering you Why Do you think you will loose your Job because of this? You dont drive in your Job, Do you? You said you already had experiences with previous psychedelics? Then I ask me why you reacted so strong on this substance Some more thoughts on this: You have right now an ego backslash, dont worry you will be fine after grounding yourself. Be Kind to yourself, you did nothing wrong. How could you prevent this anyway, you are in good age, had a good starter dose, good setting, respect for the substance and you reached out help here in this forum. You have done everything right and still you had an bad experience. Now it is time to find out why, take a break from Spirituality and come back again in small steps

@Someone here good to see that you are more humble about solipsism. There Was a time after Leos deleted solipsism Video where some solipsism experts rised out of this forum and spreaded their ideology on every thread

@Blackhawk@Blackhawk I am 36. how was your first trip?

@Blackhawk How old are you? Just curious 130 is perfect for first time. Have a good trip!

Believing blindly what authority says(a doctor, a teacher, media)...

@Zaise woah great report!! 5 gr fresh or dried?

@integral Thanks for the Update! I thought She had covid. Because my girlfriend had most of the Symptoms "brainfog, White space, no visuals" after 3 weeks of covid infection. This would also explain her difficult to breath.

@Leo Gura what toxins Do you mean? Can you elaborate? It is just 3 grams. Some heavy Metal toxins or what

@Yali It may be a problem with your technique. Please try again, at 3-4 cm is best absorption boofing technique: https://www.reddit.com/user/WeirdOneTwoThree/comments/98o55b/guide_to_per_rectal_administration_of_opiates/

30 minutes before swallow 4 blue Berry big ingwer pieces (raw). This prevents getting nausea

@Kalki Avatar can you link some Videos? I am just curious. But still dont know where to start and what to learn from this thread

@Kalki Avatar so where to start? Enter his ashram? Whats the point here

A friend of mine broke his leg and now has a big scar on the leg. He has experience with psychedelics. Of courese he did goes to doctors but now after a year of the accident he still want to improve his leg. Also with the help of psychedelics. What psychedelic would fit best for body healing like injuries? Is it even in the realm of possibility to heal such things? @Leo Gura You mentioned one time that 5 meo malt could give you so much power that just by imagination you could cure things. Is this still the best tool? What about DPT? Or shrooms for example

@Razard86 and is your life after such an surrendering to ego death/transcendence forever changed or can you be normal again quickly? I wish I never knew about ego death. Makes tripping always not enjoying anymore because I know deeply the ego death experience is lurking around the corner and can happen any minute.

@Razard86 of course if you can surrender. But what if you feel you cannot surrender and need something to calm down, to hold onto. If your breath is there for you and if it is possible to just follow your breath in this Situation. Thats what I ask me.