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Excellent work right there man. Love the courage in sharing ??. What a paradox indeed.

@Ingit Me neither.

@Charlotte Sweet, good luck! All is well regardless, lot of great advice here. Like @SgtPepper said, no calling 911, the come up might be uncomfortable, but it’s completely worth it imo - and don’t take too much too soon - and above all else, trust the universe / let go - same thing.

Nice! See what answers come. Write em down so you are positioned in bird’s eye view - zoomed way out - clarity. Take a look, then walk around the block and just observe nature, let the whole ‘issue’ go. Then when you get back, take a fresh look. Do this a few times maybe. Also consider contemplating, what am I in control of really, right now? There’s a trillion little processes occurring, beating my heart, breathing life into me - and I’m gonna claim like, 2 or 3 things “I’m” doing...that I’m in control of? Maybe everything really is fine, and I just got caught up thinkin, worrying. How’d that happen again? (It’s ok if the seriousness which called for the inquiry and contemplation turns to ridiculousness and laughter) Maybe this “other” 99.999999% of you, the you beating the heart, etc, is funny like this. ”Do’in the work girl”! Really awesome. ❤️

@Ingit lol. What do you mean by levels of real?

@Emanyalpsid Ok. ??❤️

“In your head” there’s potential for more confusion. On paper, things become clear, plain - easily seen and more easily understood....a means of releasing it. Seeing the steps, of how they created fear in their life, and how you did in kind, can be revealing, and releasing. Through understanding you create the fear, now, and how.....it disappears. What happened in their lives, which emotionally, was not faced, - was suppressed / avoided. And an “ I “ created in the process. What is it they would say “This happened to Me” . The chirping of birds did not happen to you. The passing of clouds did not happen to you. Oh but this.....this happened “to me”. What is their this? What is your this? And what is the difference between now without thinking about it. and now, with thinking about it. Is the identifying with that of the past, a lens of fear on the now? What keeps it in now? Also, you can baby step it with the shrooms. Take .5g. No biggie. Just a peak to get comfy. (Make tea! Don’t eat em. They’re toxic, causing a nauseous stomach, which skews thoughts and the whole experience).

@Charlotte Research, write down, understand, where and when they ignored their sensations, suppressed...created the fear. And when you adopted it with regards to them. Not in the head. On the paper.

Yes, totally understandable. This is all a story. Awakening came from roughly 20 years of meditation, studying self, sciences, qm’s, religions, epistemology, philosophy, then psychedelics, then “I heard of” Leo / actualized. The order you put the events is your version, your interpretation/assumption/projection. The bottom line is, only you can realize the paradigm of science and materialism, there is much more, and it will only serve you in the development of your website, and ultimately, helping others to awaken. We are together in that, no doubt❤️??. If you don’t value my opinion, stop inquiring into it. No worries here. I wish you only the best. Any direct answers in brevity... What are my “beliefs” you speak of, the ones “defended”, the “cornered” situation? What is it you think “I” am afraid / scared of? How do you see I am disconnected from reality? (Please be specific, brevity) I read your website, before the first comment. Why do you keep referring to it? Just say what you want to say. Also, what do you mean when you say “the nonduality experience is real”? And why do you keeping wanting evidence, when you are already it ?

@Charlotte Your mom and your uncle. Grab a piece of paper & a pen. You are The Unraveler. Kids will be talking about your super power of un-knotting for decades to come.

And what’s it feel like? Not what’s it think like. what’s it feel like? Are there ‘levels’ of real? Are there ‘levels’ of delusion? what’s the feeling tell you?

“Welcome to the real world”, she said to me, condescendingly, “take a seat, take your life, plot it out in Black & white....they love to tell you, stay inside the lines - that something’s better, on the other side”. ”I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world, just a lie we got to rise above”. J Mayor

Suffering is the norm, so people don’t realize the average diet, average weight, average degree of overthinking, the average stress level, average # of pills taken, the average level of fitness, the average level of dreaming - etc - etc. Suffering has so deeply become the norm. Suffering is a-maze-ing oneself. Liberating one’s self from it, is connective; amazing.

Can we talk about the fear?

@Ingit The difference is the impression the ‘perceiver’ is other than what is perceived, that you are a little thing in a great big thing, in awareness of the illusory nature of this, is realization, you are the “great big thing”, there are no little things, or things at all.

@Emanyalpsid Grandiose assumptions via projection of fear. Completely backwards, and self sustaining of falsity. None of what you said is true, you just think it is so from lack of direct experience in the very matters you speak of. You’re at the right place, why dismiss it? Look into yourself. You will be glad you did. Read through your post, and separate between what came from thinking & beliefs; accusations, assumptions, & projections...and what you know from direct experience. This is a very eye opening and difficult thing to do, it’s the begining of liberation. Who cares about “breaking your statement to not write again”, or what anybody thinks about you, or science, or dogmas, etc. Find the truth, about you.

@kev014 Awesome. It’s a facinating balance, the dream is. Real enough to be convincing, exciting, adventurous & not so real we overthink, missing the liberation and love. Sounds like it’s not lost on you. ??❤️

@cetus56 nice! Never heard that one. How but this nugget of lyrical wisdom via J Mayor...always gets me in the feels... “Why is it not the time? What is there more to learn? I shed this skin I been trippin in, And I never quite returned.”

@cetus56

@cetus56 ?

@Shadowraix When one no longer desires that the coin flip, it flips. Lol.

@Timotheus I’ve always felt this one did a good job capturing the alone / sadness / Being / joy. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=_a1LogyX9Uw And this will will getcha! Lol https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uJpvUTDB4Ps And this one, - I know, you’re thinkin don’t go there!, but go there man. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IYzlVDlE72w If you are being honest with yourself, and you believe you can still take more... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=IuUDRU9-HRk K. That’s enough Tim. No mas! No mas!.......alright buddy, but you asked for it.... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1SiylvmFI_8 Seriously, this is the roast beef of sadness. Kitchen’s closed brother. Don’t have to go home, but ya can’t stay here.... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=hLQl3WQQoQ0 You must be one of those pain is pleasure folks at this point. Alright. Have it your way. Take your medicine..... https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=1HRa4X07jdE

Why don’t you?

Actuality’s joy, veiled, is psychology’s sadness. . Transiton is confusion for a bit in the deconstruction. Great work man.

@kieranperez Take life one thing at a time. Isolate your next most logical step and proceed with mindfulness and enjoy it. Don’t think about your whole life, and the media, and think on fitting all that together, etc. Way over taxing on the mind, takes away the enjoyment of right now. Relax. Put how you feel first and everything will appear to slow down. I know you have a lot to do. You’ll be doing it either way. Enjoy it.