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@AceTrainerGreen Go deeper! jk

@Shin ?

@Tistepiste There isn’t an ego. The why question is asked from the level of reason & rational thinking, and seeks a satisfying “why” answer. But that “why” answer will also be in the level of reason & rational thinking, so that could go on forever, in a relativity loop. There is much more than reason & rational thinking.

@MiracleMan You totally got this. Keep relaxed. ♥️

@MiracleMan The retreat is not a cure. There’s no surgery performed, no medicine prescribed. It’s time away from the addictions you mentioned which you fear. It is time aware from the addictions you mentioned, which you need. Nothing will “fix you”. You will fix you. You are a self healing unexplainable miracle. It happens internally, organically, right after the distractions. But it is true, if you stop doing things, and just sit there, soon enough the healing begins, on it’s own. All you must do, is nothing. Yes go hiking for the wknd with friends!

@moon777light It’s a message, stop projecting it onto other people, they aren’t a part of it. That’s running from the message. Do not run too long, you don’t even know what you’re running from - could be nothing, look and see. All is well, I promise.

Don't be so certain the panic attack is something to fear. This unknown you're fearing could be a tremendous amount of loving you've been denying yourself for so long you, that you forget you adapted to being without it. Gotta look and see though. It can be helpful to notice, in terms of the fear of suffering, that you already are suffering. If you've been hard on yourself for a while, there's a good chance a love flood in coming for you. Find the time to sit and surrender. Don't make it find you.

@Aaron p Make tea, don’t eat em. ?

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=X8D19HukfeA

Loving is the way to discovering loving.

@Elysian You doin ok? Just checking on ya. Love will reign today. Give away your umbrellas.

Kinda suspicious, how you entered this dream, right when there are humans, asleep, and you awakened, and psychedelics & practices available. Just saying, in billions of years, right now...? Not sure you’ve stomached the truth yet. Maybe.

The stress & anxiety are being triggered by what you’re seeing, not created by what you’re seeing, Look into yourself, embrace the suffering, don’t avoid it - that just expands & perpetuates it. Look out for these traps too... I’m suffering, but it’s so that one day I’ll no longer suffer. Which is just like... I’m not happy now, but it’s so that I’ll be happy one day. It may sound feel like a freight train is coming for you, but it’s not, it’s love, and it will clean you right out. You were already suffering Max, personal development did not start the suffering. You were wise to look, keep looking within. Keep coming back to yourself. You are not suffering, you are that which is aware of the entire experience. Everything is fine when you think it is, and everything is fine while you think it’s not. “All is well” is not a variable, it is the truth. You gonna relax and allow? That’s the variable.

@Eric Tarpall Quite insightful ??

@K VIL That’s it then. You haven’t experienced linear time. It’s conceptual. The concept was experienced. It’s always now. I think we so readily believe the false time perspective because everything seen changes, and the seen body changes, and we identify with it, and then believe we are experiencing the passage of time. Without a thought overlay, the belief in separate “objects” changing, the belief I’m a separate object changing, - then there is just the appearance of changing. That you are being, has never changed. What was it like, not being?

Start with the distinction between directly experiencing the past or future, and experiencing a thought in the present, about past and future. Try it now. What do you find?

@hikmatshiraliyev What is it? What’s on your mind?

?? ♥️ That is the better point I suppose. That simple truth is foreign.

@Preetom Beautiful. @Freyah You’re limiting to appear as knowledge and asking if you’re conceptual, like one might ask a mirror “does this hat look ok?”. Yes and no.

@Serotoninluv Me too btw. 20 years of practices was nothing with psychedelics.

Good to hear. Working nights is rough. That “blockage” you have with meditation.....notice that resistant thought about working nights, is just a thought, and let it go (awareness of breathing from your stomach). It’s just a thought, it is not actually ‘working nights’ preventing meditation - just a thought about working nights, reoccurring, triggering, etc, that is the point of meditation, so consider not giving up on it. See this difference and meditation would be renewed. Relief! With a catalyst like being out of whack with the circadian nature, you could really empty your mind in 4-6 months. Try meditating twice a day for a week. “I focus on my breath and if any thoughts come up then I try my best to pass them without any judgment. And then again divert my focus back on my breath”. (There’s no effort in breath awareness)

@Tony 845 Sounds like you’re overthinking 1/2 as much, and having 1/2 the anxiety. Great, but of course you want to be fully rid of overthinking & anxiety. Perhaps continuing practices such as meditation, along with getting an understanding of why you’re continuing to overthink, would be a good idea? That enlightenment is just going to suddenly happen and cause a problem in your life, is over thinking. That’s a thought. It’s not true, you don’t have to believe it.

@Tony 845 That makes a lot of sense, and it’s great to hear. What about thoughts like, enlightenment could jeopardize my security? Or, fully awakening could mean big changes which could negatively impact my happiness, and the well being and quality of life for me and my family? Are you beliving thoughts along that avenue, or no?

@Tony 845 Did the vacation question lead to the anxiety comment?