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@kieranperez What are your thoughts on this... And these... https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/23715-i-want-to-work-from-home/?do=findComment&comment=262685 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/26227-how-do-you-make-money-online/?do=findComment&comment=296516 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/25332-ways-to-make-money-online-not-business/?do=findComment&comment=284111 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/26691-the-theory-of-getting-rich-online-in-a-nutshell-thread/?do=findComment&comment=306699 https://www.savethestudent.org/make-money/10-quick-cash-injections.html https://www.forbes.com/sites/jrose/2018/04/24/make-money-online/#3af0f36b4954 You might have already seen these things, but maybe there’s some content in there to at least get talkin and narrow it down to something. I feel for ya man. For what it’s worth, you’ve had some major breakthroughs, so I wouldn’t be surprised if there was some ego backlash happening too. I know you have actual things you need to do, just saying, if you haven’t, take time to watch that video for sure. Let me know if I can help at all.

@Leo Gura This would be a game changer for the population at large. The demystification, via demonstration, is like the greatest untapped reveal still unseen really. There is very little info online, and yoga studios are not representative of real yoga.

Look into (youtube) how the Gregorian calendar started, clocks made, set in agreeable for trains, etc = “time”. Being appears to be hair growing. For any useful application, it’s hair growing. In terms of identity, seeing through the duality of life & death (illusion), nondual awareness, and the actuality of being...it’s being. There seems to be experience, and within that there seems to be movement, and just like an apple has no meaning - we are the meaninger’s - we apply the thought “time passing” to the changes which appear to be experienced. Another way to look at it, but possibly too out of range for relativity of realization of the illusion of time (helpful though maybe), is infinite uses self to forget, allowing for a finite experience - so the only possibility of the finite experience, from the finite view, is “towards” infinite. Any path any human can take, is the path of expansion. Not in actuality, but again, from the finite perspective. In the simple sense, this is why there even is “I’ll be happy when....this job, that girlfriend/boyfriend, that house, that car, etc” and once any thing is achieved, or any object is created or purchased, then there is the next “I’ll be happy when...”. After fulfilling enough desires, the charade becomes all too obvious.

Unconditional meaninglessness. ♥️

@LoveandPurpose I think so. ?

@SQAAD Heal people. Take a reiki class. Sounds like a natural.

@Elia Gottardi What does “responsible” mean to you? Why is any of that scary to you? What meaning has any thing? Where does meaning transpire?

If you weren’t thinking, there’d be no dilemma. There is no dilemma.

@LoveandPurpose It’s a classic case of both. Read The Alchemist by chance? Enjoy the beautiful things, mind your spoon.

@Lynnel Ok, gotcha. I didn’t know about that regional difference. Thanks. I’d say, given you’ve done 2-3 g’s, that there is a threshold, referred to as ‘the hero’s dose’, usually 4-5g’s to 6-7g’s. There is a radical difference between the 2-3g range and the 4-5g range, contingent on relativity to you and your entire life. I’d agree with what’s been said already in this post. 4g and up opens consciousness previously unknown and unfathomable. You might experience what is far beyond “parallel dimensions and entities”. Be safe.♥️

Great insight. Very significant. In hopes of deepening this realization... How is thought experienced? Individual, always changing? How are ‘things’ or ‘objects’ experienced? Individual, always changing? Is there an example of an object, of a thing, which never changes? Is there movement within you? Are thoughts actually movement? Is anything actually moving? Are there “pieces”, “in there”, “moving”? Of course not. Thought is not movement. (That would be just another thought - which it sounds like you ‘see’ already.) Yet - thoughts appear to change. Just as the walking ants appear to change. Botantical life appears to change. Is a rock changing? It does not appear to be changing. Are thoughts, ants, plants, and rocks changing - or are they change - which appears as thoughts, ants, plants, and rocks? Are these things finite, or is there change - appearing as finite things? How could you know? What, in your experience, has never changed? Also.... Consider seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touch, and awareness. Is your experience of these unidirectional? Is one first, before all the others? And... Does something really die if there is stillness, or is the stillness what all changing things, all objects, and the duality of life and death - are appearing in? What is aware of this?

@Lynnel Do you mean you took 2.6g? As in two and six tenth’s grams? Are you using a comma where a period goes?

@Lynnel Can you clarify “2,6g” and “4,1g” and “2,6”? Are you talking about dried shrooms?

@stevegan928 Some of this might be useful. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/17747-nonduality-meditations/

@Zigzag Idiot There are no self realized beings. ♥️

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They said “atoms” our whole life. It’s love. “Forgive them, they know not what they do” ? ? ? ?

@Ish1919 Your thinking doesn’t matter. Stop pretending it does. Let em all go. Write down one thing you want to stop, and one thing you want to start. Find out if you can follow through. See if you have free will or not for yourself.

@Shir Breathe deeply from your stomach and relax your body, head to toes, over and over. That’s your thing from now on. You are a stomach breather, and you relax. THEN you proceed. You op sounds to me like you need to understand what you can change, and what you can’t change. What you can control, and what you can’t control. You’ll feel great just getting some clarity on that. Get a piece of paper and a pen, and make two columns. “Can Control” & “Can’t Control”. Be honest, and write the things on your mind down on the paper, in one column or the other. It’ll feel pretty good just to get this stuff out of your head and on paper. Then you’re in a bird’s eye view, and things appear much clearer. Then, pick just one thing you can control. It might be eating healthy. Pick one little change. An example might be, instead of buying / eating Cheetos, I’ll buy bananas. Just do that one small change. Notice the feeling of empowerment from that one small change. Focus on that feeling, hone into it, milk it, expand it, get to Know that feeling. Then, in a day or two, pick one more little change. This may sound trivial, or insignificant, but I assure you - you making even the tiniest changes, and seeing that you are indeed in control of everything needed to get feeling better - that is the most powerful force there is. It is in me, and it is in you. Don’t bullshit either of us. Tap into it. It is as simple as just getting started, with one little change. Also....if I’m hearing you right, you made a common error. You started a belief: “I can’t be happy without X”. Sounds like for you, X is kids and or a significant other. But, of course, guess what... Kids are great one day, and bust your balls the next - they make you happy and not happy. Significant others are lovely one day, and a pain in the ass the next - they make you happy and not happy. The point is, lasting, true happiness will not come from anyone, or anything. It will come from you, taking care of you, and loving you enough to start to get a little disciplined about making some changes, and taking better care of yourself. If this is right for you, if it’s helpful, pm me anytime. This will pass, everything does. It is flat out awesome how good you will feel, from just starting some changes.

@purerogue Well said man. @SoonHei You got the theory down and then some. More is not progress. IMO, you are at peak thinking - the ceiling of thought. Now, transcend the thinking, into awareness. What’s your plan? A new practice? A retreat? Psychedelics? Is ”I don’t know” where you’re at? What’s the plan?

@LiakosN Maybe you’ve just been asleep, unconscious, doing some lower conscious things that you don’t want to keep doing. Then you decided to do something about this. ??The practicing might be increasing awareness. When awareness increases, it does so in whole, or, accross everything. So, more awareness of the enjoyable things, no problem. But becoming more aware of things you’re doing that you don’t want to do, or becoming more aware of negative self talk that you are tired of - that feels depressing. Why? As you continue to practice, you continue to raise awareness. With more awareness, you’re not going to keep those unconscious conditioned behaviors going. So, they are going to stop. They are a part of you, and when you stop repeating them, that part of you starts dying. Nobody, and not even a repetitive part of anybody - dies without a fight. We are programmed to survive. The depression is like mourning. Like something is actually dying. Let it die. Why? Cause love is what’s “pushing it out”, or “purifying you”. Love fills in where that action or behavior dies. Why’s it gotta suck so bad though? You’re being brave. You are caring about yourself, more than you were. You’re facing the fear. If it was easy, everybody would do it. Almost nobody does it though. But you are. There’s some beliefs you identified with about yourself. They were never true. They didn’t feel good. Let love clean em out. Remember - the practices are not causing the suffering. You were already suffering, that’s why you started practices. So stick with it. You’re already suffering - get something out of it. Don’t quit. One day, I promise you, somebody will be suffering in exactly the same way. There are only two outcomes. You went through it, so you know, and you can help them - even if it’s just the knowing, the conviction in your voice which they sense and think - well, if he could do it, maybe I could to. The other option is, you quit. And you don’t know. The breathing might be the right practice, another might be better, I don’t know - but the bigger picture here is, you’re done with somethin. You had enough and you’re doing something about it. I know it’s hard, but don’t quit. You are worth it. Don’t settle for ‘depressed’ either. Really let go. Scream, cry, yell, do push ups - whatever. But, let it out. Love is on the way, you will see.

I can change anything in my life, it seems hard when I think of a lot of changes. I’ll pick one. I’d like to try some different fruits and veggies, and see which ones I like. It’d feel good to just start a healthy change. It’d feel good just to start exercising. If I just do 10 push ups and 10 sit ups, I bet I’d feel good that I started. Tomorrow, maybe 11. Maybe I’ll message a couple friends, and just say hi. Maybe ask them how they are. I’ll pick the one thing I’d like to start a change with, and make a post asking for suggestions. That would be a change in itself in the direction I want. I’ll pick one book today that I’d like to read. Tomorrow, I’ll read 10 pages. I bet I’ll feel really great just seeing how a little each day starts to add up. I’ll begin to acknowledge I’ve had some negative thinking patterns. I know I can do one little change at a time. If I feel overwhelmed, I know I can relax my body and breathe for a few minutes. After a while, I know things won’t feel to overwhelming. I know I could use a little discipline in how I use my time. I remember why I want to make these changes. I’ll hang something, or set some reminders. I know if I am reminded often of what I want, I’ll start to naturally feel some inspiration. I think I’ll be ok. I know it would serve me well to be patient with myself, and it’s ok if I get frustrated. I can always take a break for a minute. I learned a lot from procrastination. I learned not to go too fast, and to think kindly of myself. I learned it’s better to read one or two pages, than to think about reading 100 books. (That kind of inner game)

All you’d have are answers, words. Instead.... What is awareness?

@Arkandeus The hardest, most worthwhile things to learn, often start with, “fuck that!”.

@TheAvatarState “Other-than-the-absolute-sense” is your illusion, is what was pointed to. Of course I understand your narrative. It was just a pointer of nonobjective reality. ??? You really, actually, literally, are, the “screen”.