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@SoonHei ♥️

Nothing is not some thing, nothing is everything, as everything is infinite. Nothing is undefinable, because it’s everything. Think - the whole is all that is, as all that is is the whole (being), rather than the whole as just a sum of all parts. The whole is conscious of itself. There’s no actual “parts”. The duality you’re referring too, about the ball, is helpful conceptually. Duality is also deeper, as it’s the means in which The One can appear as two or more “things”. This is everpresent as “reality” is duality. Think of cellular division for example, one magically and inexplicably becoming two, and then looping as two people magically and inexplicably appear to ‘make’ another, one. Also, imagine a fresh banana, ripe and ready to eat. It seems solid, and separate from other things. But then imagine the banana sitting in the road, in the hot sun, for a few days. It would be discolored, gases escaped, rotting, etc. The point is you could see that it was never actually a separate “thing” - that it was relative all along (to the air, the heat, the light, etc). So, even though there are solid, separate things in appearance - that is duality. In actuality there is the entirety of relativity, the whole, being. Just for fun, and to get a deeper idea of this, take a few minutes to try to pinpoint the actual point in which a banana you eat is no longer a banana, and becomes your body. “oh shit. My body’s just relativity?!” Love it exactly as it is though, and you might experience the absolute as well.

@Tony 845 I went through this, it took over a year to complete. My advice is that it is actually mind / mental, vs physical, in terms of finishing out the rollercoaster of it. The faster old habits, both actions and mental patterns die off, the faster it finishes. Also, definitly consider doing creative things as well. Learn guitar or piano, just basic chords, and write songs, whatever “quality”, that doesn’t matter. If you don’t, start singing. It’s all about you expressing yourself creatively. The development that transpires in thinking patterns actually finishes the job, and is awesome bt. Watch some emotional / creative movies too. I’d search What Dreams May Come, and watch that and maybe some more that are “related to” that movie. I’d also start listening to Abraham Hicks. There is a perspective there that takes a while to understand, but it might be the fastest catalyst for you specifically. Probably all sounds weird, but that’s what I’d do. Knowing what I know now, it could’ve been only a few months’ process. Also, if there was a person / event in your life, which you feel wronged you, shorted you, or in a lasting way left you disadvantaged, in the sense, you can’t go after what you want in life - you would need to let thinking patterns and emotions related to that die. If that’s the case, it’s a bit of suffering to go through, but then you’ll be more so ‘through it’. Again, if this is the case, consciously acknowledging the person/event as still limiting your perspective, and acknowledging to yourself you are ready to let it go and move on, will be enough to trigger the purification of the old views associated with it.

It’s “of mind”. There’s no objective reality.

@Mikael89 Ya. Doesn’t matter when the “results” are observed, but it does matter if they are. Have you thought about the implication of the double slit, quantum erasure, “relativity”, nonduality and the law of attraction / no assertion? (In the cumulative sense) @Arthur Great post!

@kieranperez What are your thoughts on this... And these... https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/23715-i-want-to-work-from-home/?do=findComment&comment=262685 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/26227-how-do-you-make-money-online/?do=findComment&comment=296516 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/25332-ways-to-make-money-online-not-business/?do=findComment&comment=284111 https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/26691-the-theory-of-getting-rich-online-in-a-nutshell-thread/?do=findComment&comment=306699 https://www.savethestudent.org/make-money/10-quick-cash-injections.html https://www.forbes.com/sites/jrose/2018/04/24/make-money-online/#3af0f36b4954 You might have already seen these things, but maybe there’s some content in there to at least get talkin and narrow it down to something. I feel for ya man. For what it’s worth, you’ve had some major breakthroughs, so I wouldn’t be surprised if there was some ego backlash happening too. I know you have actual things you need to do, just saying, if you haven’t, take time to watch that video for sure. Let me know if I can help at all.

@Leo Gura This would be a game changer for the population at large. The demystification, via demonstration, is like the greatest untapped reveal still unseen really. There is very little info online, and yoga studios are not representative of real yoga.

Look into (youtube) how the Gregorian calendar started, clocks made, set in agreeable for trains, etc = “time”. Being appears to be hair growing. For any useful application, it’s hair growing. In terms of identity, seeing through the duality of life & death (illusion), nondual awareness, and the actuality of being...it’s being. There seems to be experience, and within that there seems to be movement, and just like an apple has no meaning - we are the meaninger’s - we apply the thought “time passing” to the changes which appear to be experienced. Another way to look at it, but possibly too out of range for relativity of realization of the illusion of time (helpful though maybe), is infinite uses self to forget, allowing for a finite experience - so the only possibility of the finite experience, from the finite view, is “towards” infinite. Any path any human can take, is the path of expansion. Not in actuality, but again, from the finite perspective. In the simple sense, this is why there even is “I’ll be happy when....this job, that girlfriend/boyfriend, that house, that car, etc” and once any thing is achieved, or any object is created or purchased, then there is the next “I’ll be happy when...”. After fulfilling enough desires, the charade becomes all too obvious.

Unconditional meaninglessness. ♥️

@LoveandPurpose I think so. ?

@SQAAD Heal people. Take a reiki class. Sounds like a natural.

@Elia Gottardi What does “responsible” mean to you? Why is any of that scary to you? What meaning has any thing? Where does meaning transpire?

If you weren’t thinking, there’d be no dilemma. There is no dilemma.

@LoveandPurpose It’s a classic case of both. Read The Alchemist by chance? Enjoy the beautiful things, mind your spoon.

@Lynnel Ok, gotcha. I didn’t know about that regional difference. Thanks. I’d say, given you’ve done 2-3 g’s, that there is a threshold, referred to as ‘the hero’s dose’, usually 4-5g’s to 6-7g’s. There is a radical difference between the 2-3g range and the 4-5g range, contingent on relativity to you and your entire life. I’d agree with what’s been said already in this post. 4g and up opens consciousness previously unknown and unfathomable. You might experience what is far beyond “parallel dimensions and entities”. Be safe.♥️

Great insight. Very significant. In hopes of deepening this realization... How is thought experienced? Individual, always changing? How are ‘things’ or ‘objects’ experienced? Individual, always changing? Is there an example of an object, of a thing, which never changes? Is there movement within you? Are thoughts actually movement? Is anything actually moving? Are there “pieces”, “in there”, “moving”? Of course not. Thought is not movement. (That would be just another thought - which it sounds like you ‘see’ already.) Yet - thoughts appear to change. Just as the walking ants appear to change. Botantical life appears to change. Is a rock changing? It does not appear to be changing. Are thoughts, ants, plants, and rocks changing - or are they change - which appears as thoughts, ants, plants, and rocks? Are these things finite, or is there change - appearing as finite things? How could you know? What, in your experience, has never changed? Also.... Consider seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touch, and awareness. Is your experience of these unidirectional? Is one first, before all the others? And... Does something really die if there is stillness, or is the stillness what all changing things, all objects, and the duality of life and death - are appearing in? What is aware of this?

@Lynnel Do you mean you took 2.6g? As in two and six tenth’s grams? Are you using a comma where a period goes?

@Lynnel Can you clarify “2,6g” and “4,1g” and “2,6”? Are you talking about dried shrooms?

@stevegan928 Some of this might be useful. https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/17747-nonduality-meditations/

@Zigzag Idiot There are no self realized beings. ♥️

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They said “atoms” our whole life. It’s love. “Forgive them, they know not what they do” ? ? ? ?

@Ish1919 Your thinking doesn’t matter. Stop pretending it does. Let em all go. Write down one thing you want to stop, and one thing you want to start. Find out if you can follow through. See if you have free will or not for yourself.

@Shir Breathe deeply from your stomach and relax your body, head to toes, over and over. That’s your thing from now on. You are a stomach breather, and you relax. THEN you proceed. You op sounds to me like you need to understand what you can change, and what you can’t change. What you can control, and what you can’t control. You’ll feel great just getting some clarity on that. Get a piece of paper and a pen, and make two columns. “Can Control” & “Can’t Control”. Be honest, and write the things on your mind down on the paper, in one column or the other. It’ll feel pretty good just to get this stuff out of your head and on paper. Then you’re in a bird’s eye view, and things appear much clearer. Then, pick just one thing you can control. It might be eating healthy. Pick one little change. An example might be, instead of buying / eating Cheetos, I’ll buy bananas. Just do that one small change. Notice the feeling of empowerment from that one small change. Focus on that feeling, hone into it, milk it, expand it, get to Know that feeling. Then, in a day or two, pick one more little change. This may sound trivial, or insignificant, but I assure you - you making even the tiniest changes, and seeing that you are indeed in control of everything needed to get feeling better - that is the most powerful force there is. It is in me, and it is in you. Don’t bullshit either of us. Tap into it. It is as simple as just getting started, with one little change. Also....if I’m hearing you right, you made a common error. You started a belief: “I can’t be happy without X”. Sounds like for you, X is kids and or a significant other. But, of course, guess what... Kids are great one day, and bust your balls the next - they make you happy and not happy. Significant others are lovely one day, and a pain in the ass the next - they make you happy and not happy. The point is, lasting, true happiness will not come from anyone, or anything. It will come from you, taking care of you, and loving you enough to start to get a little disciplined about making some changes, and taking better care of yourself. If this is right for you, if it’s helpful, pm me anytime. This will pass, everything does. It is flat out awesome how good you will feel, from just starting some changes.

@purerogue Well said man. @SoonHei You got the theory down and then some. More is not progress. IMO, you are at peak thinking - the ceiling of thought. Now, transcend the thinking, into awareness. What’s your plan? A new practice? A retreat? Psychedelics? Is ”I don’t know” where you’re at? What’s the plan?