Nahm

You need to express yourself, a lot. It might take a while, but it will work, you’ll begin to feel much better. Therapy? Your friend? Any form of art will do, poetry, drawing, singing, painting, etc. Doesn’t matter how “good” you are at it, the experience of expression, opening up a little, is what helps. You can pm me anytime, don’t hesitate. I was suicidal when I was around your age. I know it can seem like it can’t get better or things won’t change, but that’s just a perspective. You will change, situations will change, life will get easier. You don’t need any one to accept you. You can accept and love yourself. I have love for you, and I don’t even know you. I think you’ve been carrying a lot of mental weight, for a long time. You probably dont realize it, and feel lost because you don’t realize you are carrying the weight. It could also be the case that you live with or spend a lot of time around someone who is just negative and has a negative perspective, and that may have ‘rubbed off on you’ for so long, that you aren’t recognizing it. Again, I was ‘there’. I was diagnosed as manic depressive. But I found there is no depression, without thinking depressive thoughts, and holding depressing perspectives. You get used to them, and don’t realize your perspectives are depressing - you get used to it, and actually think your view is accurate, realistic. It’s not. The feeling of depression, is what you should take as the only sign you need to get clued in that the depressive perspectives are not true. The depression you feel is the product of two ‘things’: You (Truth / Love), and the perspectives you’re holding. The Truth / Love (you) is and will only ever be, The Truth / Love. So, you must listen to The Truth / Love (you) and begin to change perspectives. Stop being stubborn. Take great comfort in saying to yourself and out loud, “I don’t know”. Again, pm me anytime. You will feel better, I promise. Hang in there man.

You are. There’s no subject / object, no causation. To master emotion retrace every sensation to what you did, you are the catalyst, there is no assertion. Practice story telling. There is no face.

@AlphaAbundance You can not escape yourself.

@Mikael89 Never heard of him.

@Aakash You’re not in anything. You can’t get out of anything. There is no in or out. You contain everything, and everything is your illusion. The thoughts about a loop are illusory. The point you’re trying to get accross does not exist, and there is no one to get it accross to.

@Aakash That nothing is happening is your own illusion.

@Aakash There’s no mechanism.

@Aakash When you realize there is no you realizing, that is illusory also.

@Aakash Your direct experience serves to realize your direct experience is illusory. When you realize your direct experience is illusory, that realization is illusory.

@SoonHei The void is you, one, alone, no two, and what is said about it isn’t it.

@Aakash That you see what I mean, or are talking to anyone is your own illusion.

@AlphaAbundance You’re completely fooled and you think this is half assed?

@Aakash That that is where you’re at is illusory.

@Aakash Awareness is illusory. Absence of awareness is illusory.

It’s because you actually are the whole & complete One, so any experience must be an illusion, and must be of duality or twoness; night & day, alive & death, me & you, energetic & tired. Without the duality, there is no illusion. No duality = no experience.

@Shin It only seems like you read that.

Then why call it Christ Consciousness? You have then already veiled your self.

This is true.

Anything you know is illusory, knowing is illusion, including that there is a you which knows this. Otherwise, there is no illusion. But that statement, and the thought you are having about it, are illusionary. Meaning is illusory. Life is illusory. Death is illusory. Nonexistence is illusory. Existence is illusory. Illusion is illusory. That there is no illusion is illusory. Freedom is illusory. Bondage is illusory. Knowing is illusory. Not knowing is illusory. Being is illusory. Non-being is illusory. A word is illusory. God is illusory.

Just imagine if your mindset was of all the wonderful experiences that are coming to you. You’d have laughed at that lady and she’d have winked and laughed with you.

@cetus56 I did but I guess I missed it. Cool idea.

@corndjorn Have you experienced both?

@LordFall Seems like your frustration is with the relationship, but it’s with your attachment to something to be happy. It’s because you think you need it that you’re frustrated. When you get the frustration, inquire into the I that is frustrated, you will see that each time you do this the suffering will disappear quicker. Paradoxically, when you don’t need it to be happy (genuinely, not spitefully), she’ll be quite attracted. She might then become more aware of the inconsistency of her own happiness. If she does some work on it, she might discover connections like self worth or body image issues, and the low sex drive. Also, don’t overlook the simplicity of talking to eachother about it and expressing your emotions. Emotional suppression and blockage is a sex drive killer for woman that men often find it hard to relate to and understand - but if you do there’s a lot of growth in it for you.

@Manjushri Make an appointment & go see your dr. Do what they suggest as far as therapy etc. Take any help available to you.

Very little if any relativity. Enlightenment / awakening experiences help some with addiction, and others not at all. The simple commitment and follow through with daily practices is imo the most effective tool. In truth though, they’re purged when you say they are.