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That’s nonsensical. You are Two?

@dimitri Spent the day in a third grade classroom yesterday. The project of the day was writing. We each wrote a fairytale using the Goldilocks theme. They all seemed just right to me.

@Adam M Awesome.

@Monkey-man Hey. What’s happnin?

The most perfect typo which has ever transpired.

@How to be wise It’s fine wether you make the distinctions or not. Everyone is already eating what they want to. ?

@Nadosa https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=ffbPgkibDpU

@KP_Spirituality27 A shot in the dark, but any chance you’re working out / doing new physical things which are strengthening some muscles, but neglecting the back muscles?

@How to be wise The sauce for the wings is made of sugar and fat, then they are fried in more fat. The French fries are processed in fat (literally deep fried and soaked in fat). That puts the body and brain on a high energy low energy rollover coaster, mood typically follows, and perspective usually follows. When you get off the processed foods altogether, you get off that rollercoaster. Nothing tastes as good as clarity. Eat a seasoned chicken breast and a baked potato (without sugar or fat on it) instead. Then try cutting the potato. Experiment and see if you are better off without whole carbs (potatoes) too. Try sweet potatoes or other vegetables. Or skip all that nonsense altogether and try the Loophole Shake. It’s so much easier and tastes so much better.

Question a million beliefs, or one self.

@Ampresus Meditation can really help see the reactional thinking & actions. Instead of in hindsight, you become aware of it as it is happening. Being willing to be aware of it brings it in instead of holding it as separate. Then it’s understood, known by you now (was you already anyways) What is readily seen in hindsight, slowly but surely becomes awareness of reactions as they happen, and ultimately there is acceptance and peace. Your op is kind of saying, “I’m definitly suffering big time...yet I am at a loss for motivation to do any of the work”. “In case you can help me with this frustration, please consider doing it. My anxiety is getting stronger.” Journal how you feel. Write it down.

Why did you want these? What would be different once you achieved those goals? “even though I have a strong vision for what my life could be” “Could be”....if what?

So why aren’t you being a gardener?

@Faceless

@Nadosa You want something. You messed up and convinced yourself you need it to be happy. What is it that you’d be happy if you had it? Write about that on some paper.

@cetus56 ooohhh. I see what I did there.

This is from a habit of negative self talk. And there is nothing you need to understand. Stop insisting there is, or pull it together and do some research, or write down how you’re feeling, so you can see it and make sense of it. That’s the easy & efficient way. Don’t be stubborn. Unstick and go write down how you’re feeling. Thoughts have no power at all. It only seems like the thoughts are the trouble. The actual trouble is misunderstanding the sensation you call “anxiety”. What’s actually going on is the nothingness you keep blaming is loving the shit out of you. Your thought about nothingness is not actual nothingness. Actual nothingness is Love. It is You. But you insist on ignoring the sensation, and thinking. Making the sensation out to be the bad guy, the cause of your troubles. It just isn’t. This is what Freud called “Smarty Pants Insistence”. He discovered the cure for this is to repeat “I don’t know” a few times, or until you feel the relief. That heart you mentioned, which is beating inexplicably, “freaking you out” - that’s big love beating that heart. The higher self. You’re up in your head, thinking. You’re supposed to meet big love in the middle, at the heart. You do this by taking that unconscious breathing (big love is doing right now too)...and meeting there - conscious breathing, from your stomach, deep and slow. Let the focus, the attention, of awareness sink down, from the thinking, to the heart...by breathing slowly and deeply from your stomach. I can guarantee you big love is already there waiting for you. Just relax and meet at the heart. Let it be that simple. Whatever you mean or are worried about with regards to “real”, no matter which thoughts arise - it will be the same. Look around you and notice the thoughts aren’t actually doing anything. You’re fine. Everything in the room is fine. Regardless of what you think. If you let it be humbling enough, that might even strike you as funny soon.

Lol lol sorry sorry

The trick is it’s everything. Everything is conscious being (you). Dude contemplates, realizes all is God....”friend of a friend” stops by, “happens” to be enlightened. Take a poll. How many people have someone enlightened ‘stopping by’? Anyone...?

“Duality”

Are you aware of the room you’re in? The air you’re breathing (with your stomach)? Of the sounds you’re hearing amoungst the room? Aware of some stuff you are seeing in the room? Are you aware of all this?

@Nadosa Slow down man. Stomach breathe. Relax. Everything is fine, you are fine. You won’t know like you know math, or facts, or knowledge - so stop thinking about it / trying to figure something out. You know because it is self evident. You are aware of thoughts. This is obvious, as you are sharing them on a forum. You might not feel you have a handle on them at the moment, but surely you can see the obvious fact that you are aware of thoughts, yes?

But you are aware. And you’re fine.

@Nadosa You are aware of the thoughts?

@Nadosa Simply speaking, are you aware of the body or not? If you are not aware of a body, maybe you are the body. If you are aware of the body, then you must be the awareness, so relax.