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@Anton_Pierre Who endures suffering? Who perpetuates it?

@SQAAD Perhaps you interpret sex as transactional due to emotional avoidance, positing that sex will = happiness. Like an exchange...”If I put in the time & effort to find sex, I’ll get happiness. Discover your true self , Happiness, in acceptance. This is done with or without an active sex life. Sex drive is just one facet to accept. In ‘having done the work’, and feeling great with or without any thing (ex; sex), you’ll exhume a natural attraction, as that is what everyone is seeking.

@Codrina Google about sugars in fruits. No need to overdue it. Fruit can really help curb the condensed sugar habit.

@Codrina Eat fruit.

@MilenaS Yes you can do this. Write it down, start googling and adding notes, forge a plan. Let your life’s dreams infuse your days with direction & inspiration. https://m.wikihow.com/Relocate-to-the-United-States

@nikkikc You do not have “low self esteem”. You have yet to discover that’s just a thought, now. You’re repeating it, identifying yourself with it. Just ask, who is aware of this thought -“I have low esteem” ? Who is aware of this sensation? You are the spontaneous space, the “here & now”, in which thoughts, perceptions, and feelings arise within. Stop identifying yourself in every & any way.

@Javfly33 Sounds like you are the point self inquire would benefit greatly. Ask who am I all day, don’t accept the arising answers / thought. Go ‘behind them’, undercut them, ask who is aware of that thought. I find what you said to be wise. The self inquiry, I believe, will become the dependable bridge you’re looking for.

Lol. Come on man!

@Aakash You are not that thinker.

@nick96 They’re you. Ever-present & identical. Two words for the same infinite being.

@John Iverson Is 10 minutes enough John?

@Psyche_92 That’d be step 1.

@Manjushri Meditation alone is not enough. Self inquire, attend a retreat, take a reiki class, try a psychedelic, read more books, develop more interests. Question & scrutinize reality, inspect yourself, don’t fall for the cover story. Learn about biology, psychology, emotional intelligence, quantum mechanics, etc. Find out where you want to be headed. What is the greater plan which meditation is foundational to? Let your Manjushri out, see what is really wanted. As you go, be questioning your hand. Don’t fall for the cover story. Try to explain it.

Matrix has no use for awareness or love, it’s identity is repetition of finite thought patterns. Do an hour every morning, at least. Let all the thought patterns go, let identification with them go. Find out who’s behind it, who the architect is.

@Aldo Knock knock.

@Sidra I am completely ignorant about your actual situation. Don’t take my comments here too literally. The aim is to contribute to your thinking, not to suggest specific things. You’ll need to ‘make things fit’ the situation you’re in. Maybe some, maybe none of this helps. Maybe an ongoing dialogue helps. Meditation every day. Get your vernacular kosher as not to stir up any more conflict within the family. https://www.spiritualexcellence.com/blog/meditation-in-islam/ Change your perspective of Truth & Islam to be unifying of what you want and what your parents want. Stop looking for differences, start seeing unifications, what connects. Meditation will make this easier, as your current thinking will slow, and clarity & new perspectives of bigger pictures will arise. Given your current age, simply getting older will contribute positively to this also. Start learning about making money online. Learn every aspect of it. Start small. Grow your income every month. Give all the money to your parents. Make a goal of building this income to what would comfortably support you. When you are old enough to move on your own accord, you will have already set up the income to do so. You’ll need incredible focus, unprecedented effort, radical open mindedness and lot of creativity in your thinking, and to maximize the usage of every resource. The internet is a serious resource. Facebook. Etsy. Etc, etc. There are many, many more. This forum is a resource. We are a community, imo. There are many, many more. Take advantage of resource. I suspect you’ll need to turn scarce to no money, into a business. You’ll need to dramatically think out of the box, as well as research some psychology etc as you go. One example (just an example as I have no idea what you’re actually working with there) people spend hundreds of millions of dollars on single art pieces. I am not suggesting you attempt to make money like that right out of the gate, or that you even pick up art as a means, I am suggesting you research into why people do that, and understand the emotions at play, and utilize that knowledge. Perhaps ‘art of a refugee’, as a theme, so to speak. If there is no paint, etc, use what there is...pebbles, mud, dirt, clay, garbage...research this - you’d be surprised what people can turn into art, and surprised how much it goes for. Keep in mind, in large part, people spend insane amounts of money on art - because of the story. You have a most significant story. Another thought....google emails addresses of authors, celebrities, actors, head of big companies, etc. You’ll see the addresses are mostly generic.. john.doe#companyname.com. You could google to find leaders of big companies, and humanitarian driven individuals, and either find their actual email addresses, or take a few blind shots at generic addresses. Format what you want to say, edit it, and send hundreds of emails a day to everyone you can think of / find online. Write to publishers. Seek a book deal. You have a story. Again, this is just top of mind stuff, and hopefully any of it is somewhat helpful. I wish you the best. I can’t even imagine how difficult your situation is. I also can’t even imagine the unstoppable force of a person such adversity will bring forward in you. I believe you can and will find your way though, and I believe your story will inspire many people.

@Psyche_92 How’s your daily meditation going?

@Kiko Imagine someone verbalizes judgement to you for the thing you most do not want anyone to know. The thing you are terrified of being judged for. What happens after? Would you be arrested? Admitted into a therapeutic program? Would certain people know it was you behind something that impacted them?

@phllip103 Learn & understand what anger and sadness are. All else is avoidance / procrastination. Let it out. Write about it. Clarity arises, always does. Possibly helpful....some studies suggest will power is 100% upon awakening in the morning and diminishes through out the day. So if you want to make changes, put them first. I got up at 4am (only needed to get up at 7) for a few months, exercised, lost 60 pounds, did an hr of meditation every morning, read the books I’d been putting off, started tia chi, etc, etc. You can do this man. Put it first. If you truly can not find your way to this, just start writing (with brevity) what you want to change, on paper, multiple times a day. It is easier to change a habit in this way, before actually changing the habit. It’s changing the mind that matters.

@zeroISinfinity ?So Good!? ?

@Charlotte God is Good. You are not a thing which moves through time, a thing with a past & future. You have created a universe which moves through you, in naturally sharing your infinite selfless Love. Your infinite Self. You have always been safe, magical, untouchable, immovable, and True. In this limiting & limitless Sharing of your Self, you will only ever find a deeper knowing of your own Infinite Love. Your Good is inherent, intrinsic and inseparable from Love. Entertain thoughts as you might, in truth, they all serve you divinely. A concern is in itself the undeniable evidence that any thought which does not affirm your absolute worth, is not, can not, and must not, be True. Self doubt, simply will not ever resonate, period. The feeling of discord found in any doubt of any kind whatsoever - that feeling is only possible because God’s Love is Total, Complete, & Whole - without exception. Even the faintest thought of worry is immediately met by this Assurance, resulting in the feeling of discord. Know this now, in this exact moment, right now. You get to choose; but, you can not entertain thoughts of doubt, and Resonate in God’s infinite Love. This is the divine evidence of Truth & Love. The Higher Self you seek has never once ever joined you in a thought of Self doubt or disparagement. Not ever. God is not a ‘caravan of despair’. There is simply no need to trust because there is no need to question. Every moment has told you so clearly you are worthy, and no exception will ever be made to this, it is not possible. You need no thing to know this, and so you are free to experience anything you Will. In every thought of Love, of Joy, in Confidence, and of Compassion - your Source has been with you, unequivocally, instantaneously, In Full - without exception, without dilution. When you Love, Being is Here - never once in half-measure, but in Full. With an absolute perfect record, your Source joins you in This. Your nature is that of an unconditional creator, a Lover of all beings, of all things, of all experiences - whole, complete, and Knowing of Love. So Knowing indeed, that you will share and create, with your infinite exuberant Self, in all Beings, for all eternity. You are deserving of all good experiences. Your worth is immeasurable, just as your desire for peace, love & happiness for everyone is infinite.

@sausagehead You can most assuredly heal man. Gotta start choosing well being over other things.

@Peter124 Anytime, and congrats on doing the work. Here’s very short article that I think will give you some peace of mind too... https://www.sonima.com/meditation/emotions-during-meditation/