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@Bufo Alvarius I think you’re slipping time in as a property of infinity, in a constricting sense, subtly. Time is appearance of absolute infinite, nothing is happening, and so nothing is happening over and over either. “Relative” is only conceptual. Relative = relative to “me”, me being a human, which is actually absolute infinity.

@Bufo Alvarius Only if you first deny that it is you, which amazingly, you can.

@Bufo Alvarius If there is infinity, it must be you. Infinity = Being. It is not ‘some number of times’, etc. It’s you, God, now. All the reincarnation, etc, etc, is just abstraction.

Infinity has nothing to do with numbers.

That’s all there is. It’s you.

@ShugendoRa That leaves you with 19 hours everyday to find another means of income.

Watching videos that disturb you, insisting that it make sense so you can be happy = overthinking & suffering. It’s literally choosing suffering, and pretending it’s the world’s fault, while perpetuating it and sharing it with others. So sneaky.

“Isolation” and or “loneliness”...are fear of the actuality of nonduality (a veil)h. A fear of what is conceptually unknown, but turns out to be what you Know more than any concept. You’ve been calling Enlightenment with a Mandy-sized-meta-megaphone. Now that phone is ringing (kinda proportionately to your calling of it) , the ‘ringing’ sounds like fear, so you’re hesitant to answer. Pick it up, say hello? Just see who’s there, no biggie. Or don’t. But don’t not answer and spread your “not answering fear” around to those who love you unconditionally, who need you unconditionally. The ‘addiction’ will play itself out. You’re getting a lot, growing a lot, it’s useful. The perspective “addiction” denotes a sense of lack of attention elsewhere. If you could snap you’re fingers and one or two things would just be magically ‘taken care of’, what would they be? Opening the mind, going from dualistic asleep, to nondual awakened....you reach a point where understanding and Alone meet. If you seek enlightenment, yet still desire to be understood by another, inspect that desire. Get to the root of it. Why do I want / need to be understood? What do I gain when I’d understood? What would I lose if no one understood me again? Also, notice the Flip from thinking about what other people are thinking about you and what you’re thinking about yourself - to your actual experience here now. Stay in your actual experience. Thinking about what people are thinking about must go. Consider understanding someone, versus saying “you don’t understand!” to someone. Do you see how off putting that is? It only happens when you’re thinking about what they’re thinking about. It’s inherently insulting. With your dad...if you said “I’m crazy!”, and he’s been seeing a you which is liberating, freeing, filled with love & happiness...he’d probably laugh and say just be careful, or something light & similar. But he’s seeing emotional suppression, and he’s probably concerned for you. That is a very different “I’m crazy!”, and there is no need to put your dad through that. It comes on the foundation of needing to be understood. Accept that and do the work yourself. Don’t bug dad. He’s got his own experience. Be a positive manifestation of Love & Truth, bring that into his experience. Side note, be selfless to you hubby and kids. Then, when you’re filled with love & tears, and you’ve realized your grace & selflessness - then - through it in the garbage, and realize you haven’t even scratched the surface of the Love you can be in your family. You would not trade them for the world, so, don’t. There is a pace where you can have you cake and eat it to, a Right pace if you will. You’ll find that groove. The awakening is usually followed by big ups, and eventually big downs. The value of daily meditation, 30 mins, and hour a day - is really shining here. It becomes the Right, in the storm. Ya call the storm without the Right, it’s gonna be rocky for a bit. Smoother times are coming, all is Well, all is Divine. That made you who you are, This is too. Be patient, LOVE yourself unabashedly. I’ve seen only one other person which I would say was inexplicably “given” the gift of awakening. By given, I mean without years or decades of practices, trips, etc. Do not use your gift as ammunition to feed into thinking it is a “curse”. It is not a curse.

@Farnaby Just noticing that with the anxiety & panic attacks the weed induces and you see the opportunity to face that fear & understand it. If you bring the insecurities & hypochondria into that same perspective, I think you’d understand & realize resolve. Welcome those states in, and learn what’s happening, just like you ‘learned to surrender to altered states of consciousness’ with regards to anxiety & panic. It’s so paradoxical, but by not liking something about ourselves, we have misinterpreted. Then we create and perpetuate the repression of the emotions telling us, essentially, our interpretation was wrong..., then by labeling it ‘insecuritiy’, ‘hypocondria’, etc, we miss that the suffering is the avoidance. Sure hope you take this in the helpful suggestion way it’s intended. Sounds like you’re doin the work. ??

@Moreira What do you really actually want, which to you is honestly doable / possible - within your realm of realistic for you? How specifically do you know this ‘what you want’, and how often & how deeply are you envisioning it / fantasizing it / seeing positively about it ? Have you made a dream board which you are taking time each day to tend to? Are you infusing your dream with the manifesting power of your word? I’m asking from a perspective of if you establish what you really want, and create that dream within you, and infuse it with love & passion, it will materialize over time. You will shed delusioned emotions along that path. It starts with your dream / vision. That is your map. Then you proceed, And overcome all adversity. Some considerations with regards to the inquires above.... How is your psychology with money & happiness? Which do you value? Which do you really want, really need? How to transition. How much do you need to make while you get momentum going in the direction of something you want to be doing? Are you diverse in understanding how resistant thinking drains energy? Do you listen to your emotions always, or do you often continue thinking in a manor which does not feel good? Two people could do the same work, same hours, side by side, and one can be exhausted at the end of each day while the other has plenty of energy to do many other things. One’s vision for one’s life, and the undergoing of it, make all the difference in energy. The smallest step - simply writing what you want on a post it note and putting it where you see it daily, can begin to change everything. Consider the energy of someone working aimlessly & hopelessly at any job they don’t like, assuming they’ll probably “do this” until they’re old - in comparison with someone working at that very same job, but with a vision, taking small steps towards that vision each day, seeing the job as the means which is making their vision become a reality. Such as saving dream seed money, learning how to inspire people, observing & digesting what behaviors managers employ; which motivates and which demotivates, etc. Simply put, practicality landed you there, and you’ve outgrown that. Clearly you have more desire. The very first step is stating that it is possible. Then being attentive to what you have been inattentive to.

@Peo The consciousness work you do is what’s behind the realizations from marijuana or psychedelics. If you didn’t empty, they can’t fill, and you end up in terror town. Your OP sounded to me as if you’re thinking the substance is what’s “doing it”. It’s not. Like the realization you can run a marathon comes from having run a marathon (actuality). You’re the whole show, not the person. The person is in consciousness, claiming it as it’s own. By consciousness work, I mean removing all the barriers “you” have put between you (claimer) and You (Actual).

@arlin Learn online or through reading (1%), but definitely experience a few sessions, and take the classes (99%). Google. There are practitioners in your area.

@Tom T I concur. Lots of mystical experiences with reiki. Great post.

@Rigel ??

@zeroISinfinity ♥️?? ?

@ivankiss ??

@zeroISinfinity Instead of demonic it should say “you’ve gone to far you animal!”. ? @ivankiss Awesome diagrams. Speaking of breath and vibration...singing? @now is forever I hear you on the initial counter reaction. It’s not uncommon. It is quite a mindjob.

@ivankiss Delightful! ♥️ And check out some Ester Hicks.

@seeking_brilliance Excellent. @Thanatos13

Literally doing nothing. Big Love is always purifying, always ‘expanding’, always innocently, unconditionally, selflessly - literally - Loving the Shit out of you.

@Truth Addict I’m not trying to convince you of anything. My aim is to be helpful in your awakening. It’s clear I am not. Love you! ♥️

@Truth Addict I do imagine it to Be.