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@Wekz What a wonderful share! Congrats!

@Serotoninluv Like when you ‘peel the onion’...tears.

@Serotoninluv ?

@Truth Addict ??? Love ya!

Direct experience is always king.

@winterknight Thank you! ??

@Mikael89 Awakening is far more radical than has yet crossed your mind. Imo, you are well ‘on your way’ as of late. ?? Get that kensho bro.

@Aeris Right in the feels. ♥️

I know, right? Can you even imagine what transcending your current position to the realization you are all of everything which ever occurred? Can you grasp how liberation feels? Probably not. But, there’s a fail safe for you, which you are not taking advantage of. You are not the first to suffer, you wil not be the last. But there are millions of people willing - dying to - help you. If you need some milk, you don’t curse the grocery store, you take the first step out, towards it. Liberation = Happiness, bliss, truth of self. The difference between talking the path and walking the path can never be communicated. But, see the obvious simple logic, that you can start taking steps, that you must.

@Shaun When I was about your age I did see several therapists. The therapy didn’t help in this case, no transference, more offerings of Amway schemes , but the choosing to stop blaming other people, videos, what have you, was a major paradigm shift, resulting in a major “breakdown” / “transference to Nothing”, in which I lost my name. In a nutshell, it was a big step closer to what I needed, along with other efforts in accountability for my own well being, resulting in realizing I needed to chose radical responsibility, over complaining. Best I can remember (24 yrs ago) I don’t think I was aware I was almost constantly blaming & complaining, thus creating the very perspective in which I was experiencing the suffering, just like you are creating now. The perspective creates the suffering, the suffering is fear, the fear prevents the inspect of the creation of the perspectives. A circle I would not wish upon anyone. There’s a paradox which is tough to swallow, but when the fear & protective mechanics of survival are inspected and addressed properly by inspecting the creation of your perspectives, the paradox dissolves revealing the love it was all along. If you had awareness you are creating your reality, you would of course not relive the past, nor use it to filter your creating of now. Notice no one awakened plays the victim role, and try to make that connection. In a hindsight clarity, you’d be well aware you were deeply asleep, and were not aware you were creating. Notice - you can not rationally deny, all of your choices have led you to this exact here now. You can not both be in a thought story of self / past, and present here now creating. Because in actuality, there is no you in the thought story’s (though it is insanely convincing there is) there is no you to resolve anything in such thought stories. The opportunity for resolution is always present, you must not continue running from it. Here now presence is the “resolution”, to leaving to the past or future via thought stories. Face it, see what it is, now. You are one, not both of those “you’s”, if you will. Create the reality where you let the past go, actually, then you see, then your trajectory of realization is pointed to Wholeness. You are the understanding, that’s why it feels so good and releases falsities. The understanding of the fragmentation you’re creating is itself the recognition of you true being as what was formerly referred to as the fragmentation. It is worthwhile. Taking all the help and resources available to you is the key. Humbleness, humility and peace - “more of true being / self” - are always found within this, wether the methods per se “helped” or not, it’s about you seizing this life of yours. It’s about the choice to move forward in admitting the fear. Anything inspected amply dissolves, fear is not exceptional at all - you’re creating it. You can stop in any given moment, though I acknowledge it is easier said than done, it is away’s nonetheless the truth. Trauma creates a greater void, literally, between thought story you, and The Light You (pls forgive the linguistic of separation). You can forget who you really are, but you can not actually not be who you really are. To pretend you can, is suffering. The you that you think you are has no creating power at all. It a thought, just like the thought ‘toaster’. It’s not a toaster, it’s a thought. Actual you is present indeed, right now, you are just aware of this. As such, you are The Creator, and you can forget this, but you can not not be The Creator in actuality. The painful, painful, painful! Paradox you’re choosing to dance with is the denial you are experience exactly how you’re choosing to perceive. This literally expands void, as all is ineffable truly, - imagaination, Mind, etc - your choices of self denial, God denial, your whole solipsism theory, the rejection of assistance and love from everyone, etc - you are painstakingly expanding the void. The only thing that will enable you to feel better, is to lesson your void, to admit for yourself you are indeed choosing your perspectives, and to begin choosing perspective which are authentic - aligned with your sensation, rather than against them. The practice is so fundemental and apparent, you’re missing it. Simply feel as you say something negative about yourself, and something positive. Notice how it feels, and listen to the sensation. Allow all of life to be so simple, cry out, punching bag out, run out, scream out - whatever our style - but let it out with certainty. Where you’re at is too much for one to bare and resolve alone, because your primary paint of your suffering is the topic of Alone. It’s toooo much. People can be helpful too you know. Perhaps that’s what you stand to discover so innocently. But we’re all here, and you are not alone. You are choosing the perspectives of this, because it seems the hurt is too much to revisit. That is a misunderstanding, which you could do without recreating anymore. If you’d like to chat lightly, nothing heavy introspective, just an experience of a different perspective, I’m up for that today. If not, at least consider why you would not accept the ear of one who lived through the hell. I created it too. I didn’t know either. Either way, thank you very much. I am most appreciative of you.

@seeking_brilliance Heaven is a pinch boring, so it is Good.

Do you see teachers who openly talk about this as misleading? Rupert is a good example. He is understanding of the ‘my’ ‘experience’ situation, fully understands the sorting of this is for the seeker to discover, and thus talks about his wife, son, Malfred, etc, openly. How is he misleading people in doing this? Thanks! ??

@Truth Addict Neither. Was sincerely asking you because I don’t see it.

The way you’re seeing it is what suffering ‘actually’ is. You’re recreating it daily via reactionary perspectives. Create perspectives instead. No one is making you chose the perspectives you’re choosing. You are doing that. It takes a tremendous amount of effort to withstand Truth to this degree for so long. I really do feel for you man, and hope you get some professional help asap.

@Shaun Ever notice you ignore the stuff you are unable to spin? Seems like that’d be a clue that maybe your suffering is created from your chosen perspectives. Some comments on this thread seem to me, to be too truthful for you to weave into your current narrative, and are thus ignored. Just kind of wondering if you are able to see that in any way...? And even more so, that this is in the same vein of what the shrooms revealed to you... (or that you could see this in hindsight rather)?

@Leo Gura That’s a rather perfect list imo, and a ‘how’ vantage point from those / on those would be one hell of a video.

“Try saying... thank you, I have no complaints”. Eckhart Tolle

Just start really small, like a half a gram of shrooms. You’ll still be in control of yourself, and you’ll know a lot more from the direct experience than from what you’ve read and heard about psych’s. Also, it might be helpful to talk through the fear, to get some understanding of it. When we take time to talk through what’s on our minds, trips tend to add more clarity around it. ...and have fun, it’s as serious as you make it.

@Truth Addict How’d I put words in your mouth, or assume things you didn’t say?

@Truth Addict My apologies, really, I didn’t understand you were saying something you didn’t think was true. Did not see that. I’d say true is what suffering points out. @Preetom Thanks!

@Truth Addict I thought you said they all stem from the belief that no belief is true. No worries man. Was interested in what you were saying. Wasn’t saying you should have to etc. @Preetom ...If you get what he’s saying, could you break it down to my level maybe? Thanks

I don’t mean anything. I asked if you could provide examples to further explain your statement. No worries if you can not, or don’t want to, just found it interesting. Thanks. ??