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@SFRL Yes. In Truth, you’re a cat, tripping balls.

@Meditationdude For what it’s worth, having taken 6+grams of shroom tea many times, and 30+mg meo a handful of times, both insufflation & vaporized...the shroom trips were far more powerful. Probably because I did only the shrooms 20 - 30 trips before trying 5-MeO. Sounds like that’s where you’re coming from. I know it’s not the popular testimony, but you might actually find the outcome to be the opposite of what you’re thinking. Meo is quite powerful and also particularly smooth imo, compared to the mindfuck jungle shrooms can be. Meo is also very dialed in to just being / consciousness.

@Shadowraix awesome.

@winterknight Great thread. Thank you!

@Max_V You too! Thank you! ?? Meditate every day, notice when you’re mixing, relish in the great feeling of presence, & liberation from thought stories. Perception will change, fear will be understood and reduced. Insights will come more often and you will begin to see the connection between them and sensations and thoughts stories and clarity. Things like retreats, trips, more intense practices, etc., will become much more approachable, obvious next steps.

That is yet another thought story about you in the future. You are not in that story, you are not in the future, you are awareness present right now - aware of that thought. Notice the relief in being aware of this. Meditation slows the mind down, and you can see “the mix” coming a mile away. “The mixing” actually causes the turbulence, creates it. Stay with the sensations, not the thought stories. One is always true, the other is never true. Have the balls to Listen. You are directly aware of thoughts, you are directly aware of sensations. In mixing them, you forget you are what is, aware of thoughts & sensations.

@electroBeam That’s confusing because you are present and aware, now. You are actually not in that thought story. In not noticing this, you suffer as if you were. Notice how mindbendingly simple this is, that by acknowledging what you just typed is just a thought, and only a thought.

@Max_V The sensations are direct connection with Truth/Love. If you don’t listen to Truth, it’ll turn your stomach. If you don’t listen to Love, it’ll burn your heart. Direct experience is nothing like living through thought stories. It is the clarity you seek. The inward path, into sensations, as such, will ‘set you free’. Begin being attentive to this mixing of sensation and thought stories. Notice thought stories take you for a suffering ride, via ‘you’ in the story, others, past and future. Learn to be present here now, but cutting all the false baggage.

See where you’re cutting your circulation off. If it’s your ankles put the bottoms of your feet together instead of crossing them. Make sure you’re sitting on a cushion made for meditation.

@Dylan Page You and the world are literally made of Love. The best illusion is the illusion there is no illusion. God’s Love is so perfect, you don’t think you’re God, and are convinced this is somehow a separate physical reality. You created the greatest possible adventure by forgetting who you really are. Find out for yourself. Nothing is more worthwhile.

Because the sensations tell you the thoughts are false, that there is a higher truth at play, but you aren’t listening to them. You’re mixing the sensations (heart burning, tight stomach) with the thought stories, and experiencing dread & guilt. This is rendering you helpless. The liberation in scrutinizing your direct experience is more freeing and radical than you have yet inspected. In misunderstanding thought & sensation, you’re avoiding the sensations, by mislabeling them as dread and guilt. They’re actually guiding you by Truth, always. Don’t power through them, stop and listen.

@DrewNows Just mod stuff. Lol

@Max_V Do you see how the sensation is not guilt or dread, but burning heart & tight stomach?

@Max_V Are you noticing you originally described the sensation as dread and guilt.... But when tasked to isolate it in direct experience, the sensation is burning heart, and contracted stomach.

@Max_V Where, specifically, in the body, is the sensation, and in a word or two, what does it feel like?

@Max_V First let’s address the inner world clarity, then the ‘big stuff’. What is the sensation you are experiencing, in a word or two?

@Preetom So sweet and simple, really nice. Your signature line is insanely true! Lol

@Surfingthewave For every one. ??♥️

@Max_V In a nutshell, your itching for higher truth which makes sense of these things that do not make sense logically. You want something satisfying now, about the girl, but you don’t want to investigate direct experience. There are things you can do right now, meditate and calm your mind, exercise, pray for her and her family, donate to a related cause, talk to someone, or just do something fun and or relaxing to change your state. You are experiencing sensations mixed with thought stories, and feeling the feelings of the you in the thought story, not actual you, awareness of the sensations and thoughts. Short of getting hit by lightning, or a major psychedelic breakthrough, this mixing of thought story and sensation will repeat over and over again, until it is examined and recognized as it is in direct experience. It does not sound like you’re in the mood for any investigating to realize the clarity. If I am wrong about that, let me know and we can break it down.

@Marinus Yes, have you made a dream board? All birds, one stone.

@DrewNows Who determines skinny & fat? Is it “in the Bible” so to speak? Written in hieroglyphics in a pyramid? Who determines this has to do with beautiful, not beautiful, attractive, unattractive? Of course, you do. The relevant question is, are you aware that you are creating your own reality, or reacting in conditioned thought patterns? To what extent are you aware that you do? Is your ceiling “societies norms”? (Cause that’s actually up to you as well) There’s no escaping you are the dreamer, even in a dream. Especially in a dream. Identified as body mind though, the world is quite screwed, everything appears ‘relative’ to “you”, right under your nose. In awareness of defensiveness (offensiveness) & protectiveness (needing to be understood & other to see things “my” way, or there is something “wrong” with them). Ain’t no body tryin to experience the death of their own identity though. Well, one maybe. There is no infinite regress, because there is absolute. (♥️)

@DrewNows Because beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and there are not-two.

@Dino D ?❤️

@Neet Spend a few days away, alone, and relax & let go. After a couple days, I think you’ll know.

@Emerald I understand where you’re coming from, and it is entirely up to you. We don’t see it the same way and I can appreciate that. I was a bit more coming from a place of the discussion being relative to ‘repelling and being the self’.