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You’re not wasting your life, you’re discovering our source, and the discord & alignment of thoughts & perspectives therein. It’s good. Let go of the struggle for motivation, if and only because, it’s not working for ya. See that the energy & inspiration of our true nature arises like a cork let go. Less is more. If what the brain is producing is in question, see a nutritionist & a neurologist. Maybe an issue is resolved, and maybe not, but even if not, you have put a concern to bed. The experiential accumulation of discord is felt as present momentum. Antidepressant can help ease the discord, which can help ‘get you back on your feet again’. There is nothing wrong with shorter term solutions which help you & help you get your life on track. I suggest the longer term is communion, or, understanding & fully receiving the guidance that you are always feeling, and ultimately of course self realization. Much love. Let go of discordant thoughts - but in spirit, don’t give up. It’ll all get better, and it’ll all make sense, and it’ll all propel you forward in life like you’ve yet to taste. And it is Good. God is Good, sofa king Good. Emotional Guidance.

@Wildcattt555 The body can’t interpret emotion. This is like thinking an antenna can interpret the radio frequencies it’s receiving. The so called finite mind interprets, and misunderstanding of emotion is unfortunately how emotion is suppressed, how guidance is refused, and how suffering continues. I would look into the key distinctions between pain & suffering, and I found the Buddha’s teaching on this matter to be clearest & most precise. In understanding and interpreting emotion accurately, and by accurately I mean by how you feel, an end is brought to suffering. Pain is of this world, and may or may not happen, and pain too can be transcended as of course pain too is ultimately you. But if these words resonate, start with that key distinction. Emotion. Our chief want of physical, emotional & physiological well being is identical my friend. I’m no adversary, I feel it too. Also, strong determination sitting is a misnomer in some, in many, contexts.

‘Blocking’ isn’t in question here, it’s just matter of points & adhering to the guidelines. I agree, it seems like a ‘cry for help’. I offered help in the form of info & resources. Talking with someone was included & mentioned. Perhaps ‘such as a therapist and or psychiatrist’ would have been clearer and I appreciate that. I do feel trying that would be ideal, and also see it doesn’t ‘work’ for everyone. In a ‘cry for help’, also, just talking with a friend or family member can be very helpful. Not instead of someone else, in addition to. I posted in response to your post, after posting to the op, or, matter at hand. If helping people, offering resources, being someone someone can talk with, all oriented to ending suffering including psychosis, and actualizing communion with our source in peoples’ life is narcissistic, more please. And I have worked with and helped more people out of suicide ideation that I can even count or remember. Someone committing suicide is as much my responsibility and within my power as someone calling me fuck face. Also, I actually do appreciate & cherish feedback. I find it most helpful. In the future, please don’t even allude, just straight up call me out on any horsehittery. But also, in all fairness, try in direct experience what I suggest first. Then the feedback is constructive, helpful. I make changes all the time to those resources from the most precious feedback I receive, both above & below, so to speak.

@Wildcattt555 As always, take full advantage of all resources available, including & not excluding, this forum. Exactly how do you mean “fuck face”? Not sure if it’s name calling or complimentary. For good measure, the guidelines are as always, at the top of the page.

Not sure our man @Terell Kirby was really heard here.

@Leo Gura I’m sure it’s great. My comment was more oriented to tips, healing, release and self realization. Got nothing against crazy mind fuckery.

Your words.

It’s not about finding a better concept imo, but letting conceptualizing go.

Repressing emotion is driving the mind nuts trying to justify and make sense of experience. ‘It’ projects what’s felt, onto others, wether that ‘others’ is “evil entities” or “other people”. These are all beliefs and emotionally discordant misinterpretations, and are to be let go vs weaved into grandiose thoughts stories of entities & reality, as that just keeps the suffering loop going. There is no ‘side of you which is overactive’. It’s thought activity, and meditation is the remedy. If meditation is too difficult, emotional understanding & expressive journaling, and ideally talking with someone for means of expressing & being heard, are the remedy. None of the stuff you’re trying is working because you have to release the old interpretations (suffering, discord) and humbly acknowledge you’re making it all up as you go. Notice this thread as an example. There was no thread about evil & evil entities in this place, and now there is because you created it. Don’t ‘beat up on yourself’, as that’s just creating more discord. Just acknowledge this in a witnessing manor. The practices suggested (along side letting go) do result in seeing through all of this suffering. And it’s important to stop talking about outside entities, and start properly maturely addressing the rumination and misunderstandings. Much love, I hope this is received as such. Receiving love is the overall theme, the key. ?

@axiom Nice & thanks for sharing, interesting read! The nausea is from the flesh of the shroom and skews the whole trip. Never eat mushrooms, always make tea. It extracts the active ingredient and removes the nausea from the experience (very big difference). Never take more after the initial dose, it’s trying to hard / based on ‘getting’ (ego). Relax & trust the universe will reveal perfectly, as it is perfection. Surrender to Good-Timeness. (2.75 + .75) Never take 3-4g. Either less than 3 or more than 4. 3-4 is the mental limbo zone, the deconstruction of the ‘finite mind’ (thought attachment) & the current momentum of resistance(s), vs clearing through or breaking through that deconstruction completely. Go prior to 3 for a great time and or insights, and more than 4 (maybe more than 4.5, or a solid 5) for breakthroughs. The nausea and the limbo zone factors (imo) combined skews the experience a bit. Think in terms of thought & perception mixing (hallucinations). This leads to interpretations like your partner being a figment of you imagination, vs ‘that’s’-God-mf’ing-Rejoice. (And of course, not two, the Beauty of ‘it All’). For good measure… with a proper foundation of daily morning meditation, expression journaling (dream journaling also a big plus in the trip prep regard), and acute understanding of emotions, there’s no (finite if you will) hallucinations, fear, anxiety, general mind fuckery, etc, cause there’s not the presence of the thought activity of there being a finite self (illusory), just the One & only Psychonaut that Is. ? That limbo zone is thought loopy, and the so called finite mind can’t let go because it’s really only thoughts, about ‘losing my mind’, which is just fear (use emo scale). (Tea: chop into tiny pieces, boiled a large mug’s worth of water, then simmer the pieces in it for 15 mins, covered, then filter through a metal mesh strainer a few times. Use a metal or more ideally wooden spoon to ‘squish’ the active ingredient completely out of the flesh. Add a tea bag, and if you like, some honey.) Maybe take it a bit slower in terms of incrementally increasing vs eatin a few more like it’s popcorn. Also, slower makes it easier and safer to trip alone which is superior ime. Just some tips. Thanks again for sharing. Keep on keepin on. ??

Really thought this was trolling, but from looking at your other posts that isn’t your style at all. Definitely pump the brakes on this plan. Much more meat on the clarity bone around awakening etc to go before you proceed imo. Not meant personally of course. Mad respect for the inspiration & passion. I firmly feel if you give it a year or two you’ll be super glad you waited. Some bells really can’t be un-rung.

Perfect. ?

@Tim R Stop being cryptic, no one here understands.

@WokeBloke Model is a thought. I don’t have a model. I is just another thought. There is also no ‘causer’ of thoughts. Model isn’t a thought at all. I have all of the models. I is most definitely not just another thought. There is in fact, a thinker, causer, maker and creator of, thoughts. Thought will not do for the inquiry. If I keep taking all this candy I’m going to end up overweight. Please understand.

There’s no thinker of , creator of, or maker of thoughts, so, no. That thought could certainly appear, but alas, it’s just another thought, albeit about there being, a thinker of (or maker of) thoughts (or not). It seems thoughts (concepts) will not do for such an inquiry.

@WokeBloke Sounds like you answered your own question. I’d keep that up in your shoes.

@WokeBloke What’s a who.

I don’t know any of that. I know conversationally I like to be on thin ice with comments like my previous Jesus ‘quote’.

In hindsight it is seen I could be more clear. I am a puppet. To insulate against this occurring again I’m going to utilize caps… I AM A PUPPET. If there’s any remaining question do let me know. There’s still bold, italics, font size, images maybe, etc.

Right. Why though? The hell difference would it make? Instead inspect direct experience for / of these things you claim, a you, a your position, responsibility, thought generation, a your view, etc. What is a self referential thought. Only cessation will do. (Ok back to bowin. )

No! That’s a projection of assumption, and is not direct experience. That there is someone buying into anything is also an assumption. It is the ‘lens’ of pretending one has been, where one has not yet been, so to speak. More of a veil than a lens. (Bowin out as not to contribute to existential rumination)

‘The one who experiences thoughts’ is a thought.

Don’t keep trying to liberate of it. Hear it out. See what it’s got to say. Really though. No jokes. @lmfao No name calling sir.

Who’s thoughts.

@Shin (Original scripture) Jesus: “Fuck ye!??“