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@Justine Where ya at with understanding the true nature of suffering?

@Jackthelad Do you want to be right and feel bad, or be wrong and feel great?

@Holly Ann Sorry to hear. ♥️?? Psychedelics can help in that way indeed, also, the patterns of thought which are still unresolved return. A potentially greater vantage seen, or experienced from the trip can help illuminate the truth, which those arising thought patterns are up against. Make a list of every healing experience, and start trying them one by one. See what clicks. The love in you is True. Feeling is never wrong, thought is never true.

All that is known is thought, perception, sensation - and all of those are inseparable of the knowing of them. The knowing of them is inseparable from the knowing. There is not a “knower”.

@OmniYoga Doesn’t really sound like you want a book & more thoughts. Sounds like you want to notice you can believe thoughts, or not, and bring the suffering to an end. There’s some very short explanations of meditations here https://www.actualized.org/forum/topic/17747-nonduality-meditations/#comment-181291 Now is a great time to meditate.

@Spiral_Wizardry_Fan This is more clear. “This place is a dream. Only a sleeper considers it real. Then death comes like dawn, and you wake up laughing at what you thought was your grief. But there's a difference with this dream. Everything cruel and unconscious done in the illusion of the present world, all that does not fade away at the death-waking. It stays, and it must be interpreted. All the mean laughing, all the quick, sexual wanting, those torn coats of Joseph, they change into powerful wolves that you must face. The retaliation that sometimes comes now, the swift, payback hit, is just a boy's game to what the other will be. You know about circumcision here. It's full castration there! And this groggy time we live, this is what it's like: A man goes to sleep in the town where he has always lived, and he dreams he's living in another town. In the dream, he doesn't remember the town he's sleeping in his bed in. He believes the reality of the dream town. The world is that kind of sleep. The dust of many crumbled cities settles over us like a forgetful doze, but we are older than those cities. We began as a mineral. We emerged into plant life and into animal state, and then into being human, and always we have forgotten our former states, except in early spring when we slightly recall being green again. That's how a young person turns toward a teacher. That's how a baby leans toward the breast, without knowing the secret of its desire, yet turning instinctively. Humankind is being led along an evolving course, through this migration of intelligences, and though we seem to be sleeping, there is an inner wakefulness that directs the dream, and that will eventually startle us back to the truth of who we are.” ― Rumi

Infinite being can not experience anything but infinite being, because it is itself knowing, awareness, consciousness. So, what can infinite being do, so that there can be experience? Forget itself. Then, in having forgotten itself, thoughts, perceptions, sensations arise - and are taken to be other than infinite being. Then, infinite being, in the forgetting stage, takes a psychedelic to remember. And there is a “void” - seemingly between the person / finite mind (the forgetting)...and the Truth. Truth = LOVE. So, this void, is a space between the love, and THE LOVE, if you will. How to lesson and close the void. That’s what you’re doing, here, now. It is what you’re focused on, and getting more of. It’s why you’re asking questions. This is what all your choices lead you to. “You’re task is not to seek for love, but Merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself you have built against it........what you seek, is seeking you.” Rumi If you are done suffering, and ready to stop believing thoughts The painful thoughts (memories) are not themselves painful, nor is the factor of painful because the thoughts are true about you. The pain is in believing the thoughts. The “pain” - is that you “on the other side” of that void is saying LOUD & CLEAR.....“That ain’t you.” You’ve yet to realize you have what you want.

@Justine A bit on the rollercoaster of suffering, yes?

@Justine What’s your trip foundation like? Daily practices, theory digested, diet, fitness, dream board, etc? Whatever you’re getting from your trips is priceless, but being seeing as “bad”. What’s the overall message you received?

The actual answer lies in self recognition in thoughts, perception, and sensation, which is being taken for a person, video, story & question. That’d be a good start, seeing through the maya.Then samsara continues to convince, and is ‘burned’ away, purified, Then, thoughts, perception & sensation arise in appearance, and are known as what, who, how, and why this can not be otherwise. Then there is not a separate One to be ‘fooled’ again. Nothing changed or changes, yet all is made anew.

@28 cm unbuffed Just started a very minimal site using Squarespace. Having never made a website before, I found their software to be made for someone who never made a site before. One head’s up if you go that route, use a web browser and the app. Oddly, each has features the other doesn’t. Also, they have made the linking of other sites, accounts, etc as easy as adding a premade button...things like Spotify, Open Table, etc. Best of luck to you! Love to see it when done.

Another great question - ?? ”I am committing to meditation every morning in 2020. But the thought of it is already stressing me out already. You said start with 10 minutes every morning, and work my way up to an hour. That sounds like a nightmare to me. I”m trying to get to ‘what I want’, but how do I deal with already being stressed about meditating when I haven’t even started yet? I feel like I can’t even come up with what I want to put on my dream board, and I can’t meditate to get there either. When I think about it, I get stressed out. You’re saying to do these things but they all seem stressful to me.” Meditation is a time for relaxation of the body & mind - letting go. This means letting arising perspectives go also, including those regarding meditation, wanting, and dream boarding. I understand it can create a mental pickle in a way (prior to beginning), “how can I do the thing that relieves stress, if that very thing is stressful to me before I have even done it?”. The ‘answer’, is that meditation won’t be something you’re “doing”, at least not in the way it seems, prior to “doing it”. The “trickiness” is only in trying to ”figure out” in thinking, what can only be known in direct experience. The discovery of the benefits will be felt and known, not thought. Discovery will not occur in reading or talking about meditation, because that is a ”thinking” & “doing”. When you “do” meditate, the discovery is that everything else in life is experienced as a “doing”, and meditation is a “not-doing”. A complete letting go. A total relaxation. Not an “escape” from anything, but a letting go of everything. Detachment will be discovered as visceral & actual, more so than a thought or any words about it can convey. Some understanding of what will transpire might be helpful, but should not be ‘held’ as an expectation. Today, it might very well seem like “perspectives” and “me” are the same. “This is just how I am”, “That’s just how I’ve always been”. ”Those things are stressful for me”. This is what the word ‘liberation’ points to. Through directly experiencing proper daily meditation, perspectives are more readily experienced - as perspectives. That they are not you, and do not define you - rather, you are aware of, perspectives. As perspectives are willingly let go, by taking attention away the perspectives, and focusing on breathing from the stomach and relaxing the body...awareness begins to be felt and known, and realization begins occurring - “That’s not me - those are just perspectives. They come & go, and I can let them go when they don’t feel good to me, and choose a perspective that does feel good to me”. The benefit, the freedom of this, is immeasurable, and unknowable prior to the practicing. Through continued practice, a perspective which does not feel good, and is limiting, and could have lasted years - will be readily let go in seconds. Further, a day will come, when unwanted, doesn’t-feel-good perspectives - don’t even arise. Also, for “grounding”... When meditating, notice gravity. Not the scientific concept or idea of gravity, but rather, notice the feeling of gravity. Notice the natural inclination is the ‘sinking’, the relaxing, of every muscle. Feel, on the inhale and the exhale, minor tensions in the body. Notice gravity is naturally relaxing the body “downward”, if you will, and upon the inhale and or exhale, the body tenses a tiny bit in specific areas. Breathe into those areas, be “adding them to” or “connecting” them with (in feeling) the stomach breath. Take a deep stomach breath, and feel the tension un-contract, or melt, into the breath. By focusing on breathing from the stomach, attention is already shifted away from thoughts / perspectives. What no longer receives your attention, is no longer present - as what is now present, is what is receiving your attention...relaxing, and breathing. ”Getting to what you want”, from the standpoint of having been focused on perspectives of what you don’t want, is most easily done by making a list on paper, of what you don’t want. Then, write the opposite of each (what you do want), on your dream board. Also, write a few words as to why you want it.

@Consilience Awesome report! Thanks for sharing.

@LfcCharlie4 Thanks for sharing, interesting reading for sure. Had you done anything else prior to the Rupert months & RASA sessions, like retreats, meditation, yoga, psychedelics, etc?

@Nivsch If you want to fly a kite, but you can’t until you’re whole, and you won’t be whole unless you fly a kite - you must change how you’re looking at the situation. If you pick up a hot coal, is any corrective action needed at all - other than dropping the coal? The ’coal’ is perspectives. They come & go. You don’t. Let them come & go. Let new one’s come which feel better than the old ones. Don’t marry any perspectives. If you do, you’ll believe they define you, and that you are partial. But you’re not the content or implication of a thought, you’re awareness, of thoughts, coming & going. Never, ever, has there been the experience of, no-awareness. Likewise, never, ever, has a single perspective lasted. They all come & go, let em go, you’ll love the ones that come....for a bit. Then they go too. And you’ll love the ones that come....for bit. Then let them go too. A point will come when it viscerally occurs to you - I’m not coming and going.

@Spiral_Wizardry_Fan It used to be thought of as the earth, Mother Nature, natural divinity, abundantly growing for us right out of the ground. Why wouldn’t it? Then some folks campaigned a collective perspective of, “drugs” & “medication”, inspired by money, power & notoriety. It’s all going full circle though. Google the statues of Easter Island for example. Giant shrooms made to look like heads. Also the pineal, depicted in everything from pyramids to the pope’s hat & cane. That’s the story though. There’s a bigger story in which it’s all hidden in plain sight, like a real mystery for you to enjoy. Well worth stayin strong for. Consciousness can’t “go backwards” btw.

@LfcCharlie4 I said aaand! ?♥️

Awesome....aaand....maybe there’s no you, which gets finished. Maybe there’s no assertion either.

In feeling. Been there all along. Never leaves. Never comes, never goes. AA started with LSD. God’s will = unconditional love, known via direct experience. Merica removed the LSD. Now God’s will seems to = some outside force / entity.

If you’ve got something you want more, do it. Pursuing what you actually want, is the path. A great ‘wild card’ for inquiry.... “Wait...first - is the answer, both? Are these one and the same, while I’m holding a perspective of duality?” Perhaps I am always exactly where I should be.

@Javfly33 ?♥️

@28 cm unbuffed You’re whole & complete. You talk to a girl, she’s responsive. You’re whole & complete. You’re whole & complete. You talk to a girl, she is not responsive. You’re whole & complete. What’s “risked”? What is the risk you are taking? “Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.” Rumi ”They will not say here it is, nor there it is, as the kingdom of heaven is within you.” Jesus

@28 cm unbuffed Well, is that what you actually want right now?...to get a hooker, and risk getting an std? “Fuck it” - What is it ? “It” might be your conscience - what you actually want. “Fuck what I actually want, I’m going to do this instead”. “Where's love in all of that?”

@Javfly33 You’re thinking you need to resolve your thinking. That’s just more thinking. You can let it go and do whatever you want to do. You never have anyone’s thought about you, ever. That’s you thinking about what people are thinking about you. It’s separation thinking. You are thinking you are a self, loving your self. The beauty of the hyphenated word “self-love”, is it points to that which you are, to what is, to This. Not that which you could or should do, or believe, or find. You are already that, and there’s nothing to think about. You can do what you really want to.

@Raptorsin7 A little cautionary love perhaps....♥️ Daily meditation is most important. One who says “I don’t know how to let go”....and yet “I don’t meditate”...is tricking oneself. If you do a psychedelic, do so just for the experience, just because that’s what you want to do - not because it will fix anything, nor bring happiness. I’m not saying do it, and I’m not saying don’t - I’m saying tune into your intention. Uncover beliefs, just for the experience of uncovering beliefs. Just to explore. Not to “solve” anything. Nothing is wrong. Nothing is in need of solving. You don’t need anything to feel happiness. You are already enough, as you are, however you are. It can be a sneaky trap... adding a new belief, that beliefs are preventing love. How to let go of beliefs...sit and relax - meditate. The urge to do, achieve, ‘get things done so I can feel better’, ‘get busy doing so I can feel good about myself’ - arises as tension in the body. Breathe, relax, let it go. Happiness is what experiences that thought. Love is what experiences that thought. Do not believe the thoughts. You are already the awareness of thoughts. Don’t believe them - choose from them - create with them, by focusing on thoughts that feel good. Don’t buy into an arising idea... “If I do X, then I’ll feel happy.” A reliable question, always in this now - how does what I am focusing on feel ? Am I choosing the thoughts which feel better? Am I letting go now, vs choosing a thought “This will fix it in the future. I will feel better when X”. An example....”When I lose twenty pounds, I’ll feel better”. That belief is enough to miss that I already, immediately, feel good, as I am consciously choosing self-love for my body. Notice the intention, feel the intention, of self-love. This is not quite the same as identifying within the body, and feeling better once it is “fixed”. The “plan”, the “unfolding of it”, is just for the enjoyment of the experience, just for the feeling good of it - not to “solve” any “problems”. If there is a “problem” - it is “problem thinking”, or, the perspective itself: “there is a problem”. There is not a “problem”, you are already whole, complete, infinitely worthy. Consider the common misunderstanding of desire, and attachment. Someone who attaches feeling good to “when I get a convertible car”. They feel the desire, the drive...when they get the car, and they feel good. But the ‘new car experience’ soon becomes ‘the same old car experience’...the feeling good was attached to that which comes and goes (the car)...and so the feeling good too, comes & goes. Then, the desire to feel good arises again, and is attached to another thing: “when I have more money”, “when I know my life purpose”, “when I awaken”, “when I am enlightened”... Fill the dream board with all that you are wanting - and let it go. Be done with it in thinking. Let go of “how “. Keep the focus on why - for the ride, the thrill, the feeling of experience now, not in a future. Don’t second guess the universe. What you are wanting is indeed coming. Notice resistant thoughts, and let them go. Don’t believe you need to “solve” them. Let them go. FEEL the desire. Let the thinking go, and feel into the journey itself - the Right Now of it. Feel the desire, because it feels great & exhilarating. Feel the aliveness - the vitality of feeling. The inner being is always shining through. You’re always attracting. The world, so to speak, convinces one that happiness is attained in the future. Meditation ‘un-teaches’, ‘let’s go’ of beliefs, & the habit of future happiness thinking follows - gos - ...leaving one present now. People believe they must struggle and suffer to better their situation. This is an idea of the self, an idea of me. It’s a self limiting reductive belief. The self is what all experience transpires within, ‘where’ all that comes & goes, comes & goes. When one is believing happiness will come in the future, one is subtly attaching to the idea of self worth, that something need be done or accomplished, to be worthy of feeling good. That one is “earning”, rather than attracting. That one “needs”, rather than wants & creates what one wants, happily. Now, is fine as it is. Any beliefs that something more is needed for happiness, can be let go of, now. If there is resistance, it is felt. It is felt when the thinking ”I must hustle, strive, do, so that I can be happy” arises. Un-attach from those thoughts, because of how they feel. Let them go. You can be happy now, fully satisfied now - and excited for more - thrilled for what’s coming - Now.