Nahm

Welcome to the forum! Take your authority back by realizing how you gave it away. Inspect what you are avoiding with your utilization of contemplating using psychedelics - and then reconsider a trip. Tighten up your diet & daily practices, read, research & inspect direct experience for yourself. The distinction between what you’ve heard and direct experience will only become more and more critical. There’s no problem with that, careful not to believe there is. That is one such important distinction. All are just signs, pointing, saying ‘there is more to all this than appears’...don’t conceptualize, inspect - feel. Godspeed. ? If you want to be comfortable with being unsure, acknowledge to yourself ‘sure’ & ‘unsure’ are thoughts you’re believing. In both media & your thoughts, listen to how they feel, rather than believing the content.

"Our enemies act without conscience, we must not.” - John McCain

@Metahuman Sounds like you’re getting stuck on paradigms & the duality of thought, and thus recreating reoccurrences of spiritual ego. Let the stories & grandiose conceptualizing go, and scrutinize & inspect thought, feeling & emotion. Get understanding via direct experience of the basics of being a creator down first. Then create with intention & purpose, rather than getting sucked up by creation. The ordinary is the magical. The ‘living of the ‘regular’ life’ is ‘where it’s at’. There are phases, stages, of ignoring life, responsibility, etc, focusing on nonsense. Look at them, not away.

Welcome to the forum. You are creating your reality, it can be everything you want, so much so that you already are / it already is but you aren’t realizing this yet. Take complete responsibility for creating perspectives & emotions, and for all of your choices thus far. Sounds like you’re currently getting stuck in initial paradoxes, flirting with solipsism & nihilism. Open mindedness & inspection is key to mind expansion & transcendence of paradigms & paradoxes. Inspect direct experience, the path is inward & backwards. You can definitely joke with your friends! Don’t fall for that trap. You are not alone in this world! Don’t fall for that trap either. Notice how you’re framing things up, such as saying you’re alone in the world, yet using “what people paint it to be” as a measuring stick. Notice you are creating “problems” & “solutions”, and experiencing what you’re creating! Also notice you’re claiming you’re present / aware yet creating “HUGE emotional mood swings” - creating experience you don’t even want, while saying you’re aware. No one would every consciously choose not to feel good. Don’t settle for labels like ‘crazy’, ‘ego backlash’, ‘trauma’, ‘disturbing’, ‘losing my mind’, & ‘mental disorder’ - inspect what is actual! Transcend the paradoxes you’re getting stuck in. Never ignore or underestimate the fallout of remaining unconscious, from lack of inspection. Lives go by too quickly for that. Appreciate the many levels of sneakery of thought, and give much more importance to nuance & the distinctions you’re making. Realize, feel, the satisfaction & inspiration as you transcend these ‘things’. Don’t settle for what doesn’t feel good by labelling or using ”your self”, or “other people” in your thought narratives. There is no such thing as a ‘true thought’. Transcend thought, by ‘going prior’ to it. There’s nothing to know, yet plenty yet to understand about oneself. Peel away every write off. You’re creating it all. ? Enjoy the ride!

@lostmedstudent Wasn’t trying to make a point. Sometimes a question brings about clarity, an answer. In this case, it did.

There’s nothing you need to do about that.

I did not receive a message from you. Listen to it. Focus on thoughts that are in accord with feeling. Utilize every resource available to you.

‘Trying’ is a thought. You’re already & always getting emotional response. You are not missing anything.

@The Monk Ask the emotional response.

@The Monk ‘My body’s emotional response’ is a thought.

@The Monk Yep. How can you tell if a thought about yourself feels good?

@Javfly33 Yeah. Change is a thought.

And not even. ?

@Javfly33 And there’s no way to stop it?

There’s no such thing. That’s your thought, which arose. How bout some humility here? Other than feeling, how can you tell if a thought about yourself it true?

@Javfly33 Have you started?

Humans don’t have awareness.

I didn’t ask about an it, I asked about you. Other than feeling, how can you tell if a thought about yourself it true?

Other than feeling, how can you tell if a thought about yourself is true?

Bad feelings is a thought.

“There are only two mistakes one can make along the road to truth; not going all the way, and not starting.” - Buddha

It’s what the world needs most, but alas, it is the light which limits.

I hear you & I feel ya. I was literally beat to death once, and brought back by doctors in an icu. Life’s weird, I get it. My advice is, tell the story of what you want, only. Reality becomes it. Never believe another thought about yourself which does not feel good.

You are imagining this, it goes how you imagine it will.

Making something awesome out of nothing, is the greatest feeling there is.