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I’ve been ‘there’ too. Rough as hell. I feel for ya. Chat with me today. Got nothing to lose. ?https://www.actualityofbeing.com/sessions-donations. If it’s presently unaffordable, there’s no charge, no problem. Talk with uniquely trained experts who also actually really do care... http://www.suicide.org/hotlines/international-suicide-hotlines.html https://www.opencounseling.com/suicide-hotlines http://www.suicide.org/international-suicide-hotlines.html There is a ‘bounce’. It can and will get better. The greatest, most fulfilling worthwhile lives are almost always preceded with a ‘bottoming out’ such as this. It can transmute to an amazing and beautiful liberation. 24 imo is very specifically the roughest age. You are loved my friend, and there is much love with you, for you and within you. It indeed feels ‘off’ to deny what is. Indeed, there is another way.

The inevitability isn’t the mistake, it’s the karma. Self referential thinking feels off because it is off. That you can think you is more of a belief, a hypothetical which isn’t actual. The discord felt ‘tells you’ this. ‘You’ can ‘push on’ and continue, and the discord will ‘get louder’, again, making alignment ‘with’ (as) the true nature ‘inevitable’. Wether that is ‘the best of both worlds’, or ‘during this lifetime’, or “otherwise” is what’s in question. To be, know, experience, the ‘best of both worlds’ inherently, inevitably, requires the actuality of the silence, or clarity, which is literally that which is appearing as the thoughts believed, aka monkey mind, thought attachment, or, self referential thinking (the belief ‘you’ can ‘think yourself’). Listen to the whisper, the body mind will thank you, so to speak. Focus on what you want to create & experience. It feels Good to pop these bubbles of beliefs. Feel the relief in the shift of orientation from “thinking about yourself”, to what you want, and understand the emotions being experienced. If interested in a method or practice of shifting from the ‘stoppage’ or ‘stuckness’ of self referential thoughts, spend a few minutes day improv writing and expressing. Making a dreamboard is a great, easy, effortless way to be more focused on what you want, than what you believe you need. Only in the focusing through the lens of need did you end up sending the pic. As a separate self that is regrettable and painful, as it jeopardizes happiness. As happiness (silence, clarity, true nature) you created that experience, just like you are now, and will apparently continue to ‘do’.

The proper way to deal with being in love, is loving being in love, imo. Might be some remnants of thought attachment (identity, identifying, trying to weave a new identity) playing out. Inspecting those thoughts on paper might help with ‘seeing’ that they’re just thoughts.

@Brandon Nankivell An illusion being something which seems like something it isn’t... the illusion in this case would be that there are, or could be, “enlightened humans”.

Awesome.

“I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world, just a lie we got to rise above.” John Mayor

“Something reached out and touched me, now I know, all I want, is the best of both worlds.” Sammy Hagar

Save money now my ordering tissues by the case on Amazon. Keep eating clean. Make a dreamboard. Focus on what you want, instead of what you don’t. (This is thinking on your behalf, not others) Express, everyday. Express blame, but do not exhibit the behavior of blaming to or upon someone. Meditation for an hour every morning, and a half hour again every afternoon. Start with five minutes twice a day and increase incrementally, in accordance with the emptying of expressing, everyday. How these work in unison is only in directly experiencing, not in thinking about doing this. After a month or so of this, when you’re feeling way better daily... watch some movies where people get hurt, so you can see how you ‘mirror neuron’, or, feel as if how you feel were because of what you’re watching (the movie)... but pause the movie, and breath & relax, until you see that you are fine, and what’s happening in the movie isn’t happening to you. (Talking about pg, pg-13, of R rated movies here, not wild dark web kind).

@Charoverocd Is it possible to experience reaction and impulse, without reacting / following through with impulsive behavior and actions? If so, what would happen in such a case? If not, what prevents this from being so?

@acidgoofy Woah, woah, woah! Just gonna walk in and drop the nuke like that?! ??

Born is a belief. ... one appears as two; the sphere of the world, and the sphere of the lens by which to experience the world. Then one believes thought defines perception (monkey mind). You’re not a monkey though. A monkey can only react, and can not experience reaction, but not react (apparently). To stay in the impulsive reacting, sexually and any other, is to stay asleep in twoness. There are no males or females, no masculine or feminine. It only seems so identified as in the world. There is no reason to pop these beliefs.

Oh my dear friend, arrogance is no match for well being.

Excellent. A beacon shining through countless piles of utter nonsense. Beautiful.

Actually ‘can’t think the way to the thought detatchment / no mind’, and “Samadi 2: It’s not what you think” sound very similar. Almost exactly the same. No one is noticing the defending of no agenda nor appreciating the sermons. ??

@Loving Radiance Perfect.

? Beautiful. Now I gotta switch it to formless can not know form.

The illusion is that it’s yours. The rest is just appearass.

Yes, still a story.

We’re you not so vehemently nonsensically believing in such separations, you indeed would be experiencing a body with a penis with a phat ass, precisely as you desire to be. There is no need to realize you’re everything. Recognizing the beliefs is ample.

@Zeroguy You one airy mofo.

If ‘you’d like to be conscious and feeling fucking amazing 24/7’, simply notice you’re idolizing consciousness. Idolizing a concept. That stands to be recognized in regard to the Hindu. (Generalizing) To them this is seen as hypocritical childishness.

Give up thinking about other people judging you, as ime this will go on everyday for the duration. Only gets ‘deeper’ ? Also, try not resisting it, but not reacting in any way. Complete absolute drop of mental & muscular effort / doership / self referential thinking. Bliss will hit so hard you’ll literally just lie down on the floor wherever you are and sleep. (Careful)

The fat ass, or even a phat ass, is appearance. That there’s a you attracted is an illusion. You already are that phat ass.