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@QandC This is pure imagination.

@Kalki Avatar It’s feeling over perspective.

‘Along side meditation’ in the sense, no self, no mind, oneness, yes. Along side as in during meditation, like a psychic or telepathic experience that happens during the formal sitting practice, no. It’s the same as a car, a boat, or a tree. I hear you on the woo woo factor & just for clarity sake, I’m not suggesting anyone believe anything I’m saying. Things of course do have a way of going full circle, and what once seemed woo woo can be later actually be experienced & realized to be most practical & necessary.

@QandC In the sense ego is the illusion of a knower via attachment to subject object & self referential thought, spiritual ego is the same but with God, spirituality, consciousness, etc… all spiritual stuff. I’d say it’s a good & advanced place to be on the path. Maybe you are experiencing the temptation ‘to know’ & ‘be the knower’, to play conceptualizer of ineffable inconceivable truth. Wouldn’t blame ya if so. Nothing is more tempting.

@Pateedm Yes indeed. The first time was just dumbfounding & a bit shocking to directly experience the actuality. I don’t recall previously even considering wether I believed in ufo’s or not. Now I find it awe inspiring, connective, intriguing, somewhat exhilarating… more meaningful as in fullness/feeling/experience, vs meaning as in has a point to it. I hear & feel what you’re saying about the intimacy / serendipity of it. I tend to lean to ‘wonder what’ll happen next’, than a message from what I’ve seen. I’ve experienced enough that I’m comfortable that if there’s a message as in anything actionable, I’ll definitely receive it clearly, if & when. There are narrative thoughts that arise of course, about the potential implications, but so far it’s just awesomeness of experience.

@QandC Welcome to spiritual ego.

@Loving Radiance ? @Gonzalo Awesome. I experience the same… and I can’t, and or just don’t mention it or explain it typically. It just sounds off putting apparently. When you look up at night do you see the ‘dome’ of sacred geometry, and or the ‘crystalline’ other side of it so to speak? Also (just curious & sorry if I missed it) do you ever know people’s thoughts & what they’re going to say before it happens, like you hear it psychically and then vibrationally… and while we’re at it… have you seen through walls by chance? As far as any of the concerns, discomforts, ailments, I’d treat them like you would any other and see a doctor if desired or needed. Ime that is only related in maybe the sense of it freaking you out at first. Just stomach breathe, relax and enjoy it. Also, ime, you can ‘turn’ any / all of it off anytime simply by not being mindful / interested in it.

If you say so God.

The awakening of every last person on this planet.

@Kalki Avatar Confidence is the natural & wonderful feeling of having unfettered of self doubt etc, not a doing / something you’re doing. The monkey mind narrative about you doing it is unnatural & discordant (suffering). It’s like taking credit from yourself… yourself feels, awkward, odd, about this. The narrative feeds the fear of what other people might think of you, while there is no actual such separative experience which justifies that, so again, it feels off. Imagine going to Disneyland and having the entire place literally to yourself. And then worrying about what other people, which are not there, think, about you. If there is discord, it’s not with Disneyland.

By what’s manifesting or by how you’re feeling.

Fucking beautiful brother.

Insight is incommunicable became it’s spontaneously (‘now’) made up / isn’t actual / there’s nothing ‘there’ actually being pointed to. Could be said the variable is believing the arising thoughts or not, but that isn’t insightful at all.

Breathe in love, breathe out narrative.

Know & feel the peace of being & deep relaxation in meditation, then there is more acute awareness & feeling of the relativity in your days and it is found there aren’t any negative emotions.

The essence of being.

“Although I would like our world to change, it helps me to appreciate those nights and those dreams. But, my friend, I'd sacrifice all those nights, if I could make the earth and my dreams the same. The only difference is to let love replace all our hate.” - Mark Tremonti, Scott Stapp

They seemed like subtle uppers & downers, band aids on secondary symptoms of underlying emotional discord. Not for me per se, but some people swear by em though, so it’s really a matter of direct experience. If I were in your shoes I’d try L-theanine and Pharma Gabba. Significant enough amounts to feel & know the effects, not more than the manufacturer recommends. I’d continue meditating & expressing by writing or any creative interest, and I’d talk with a really good therapist, and ideally one well aware this is all mind who can quickly help you get to the bottom of things. I’d also eat (drink) this 3 or 4 days, having as many / as much as you want. Not a weight loss intention at all, but a purification, an opportunity to see the difference in comparison to whatever you’re eating. I’d of course talk to your dr, get blood work done, see what they say too.

@Thought Art Indeed. Sounds like the real Thought Art is standing up. You’re an endless Well of better & better ideas. Let go, empty of it, and you will see. This.

@BipolarGrowth "All of humanity's problems stem from man's inability to sit quietly in a room alone." - Pascal But for those who do… oh my fucking God. Miracles.

Nutshell… you’re obsessing, focus wise. Get anything else in front of ya. I hope it isn’t heard offensively, but that is a lens, a framing. It’s ‘on you’ so to speak. There is no limitation to the number of ways you can look at such situations. One of them, worth consideration imo, is that you’re thinkin you know better than infinite intelligence. Brings trusting in the universe to mind. Unfetter of unfitting perspectives (suffering) like pairs of shoes that are too small (pain). Opportunity is fluid, not subject - object…. never ending, no beginning or end. Thought is subject - object. There is a bigger, more inspiring, more passion evoking opportunity already present, underway… but experience is one whole. One perspectival experience must be let go, so that the same substance (reality) can be the next. The ‘trouble’ is it’s like trying to see if the refrigerator light is on when the door is closed. Can’t visually see it. I don’t mean this sarcastically, but I really think it would help… hold a hot coal (or something similarly unpleasant) in your hand, directly experience the holding, the response, and the dropping. Again, no offense I really hope, but, drop that “in my ego mind” bs. That creates a false experiential emotional divide or distance. That in and of itself is subtle suffering. Own it, thus you can drop it. You are in control of how you feel. That is great. Though, I’d be much more picky with how you’re framing it up. That sounds like motive, avoiding unwanted, as compared to passion & inspiration of wanted. Focus on unwanted does not create. Focus on wanted is creation. If that’s ‘received’ - don’t think about it theoretically, actually, effortlessly, just for the right now feeling of it - focus on wanted. You are most worthy & deserving of feeling amazing and experience everything you desire to. Ok now I’m admittedly being obnoxious, but… you really wanna be with & work with someone like that? My man, you are the creator of this place. The ten thousand things are in truth unconditional. There is not a moment to waste dwelling & loathing. That isn’t you. It is not indicative of your magnitude or nature. You got this man. It’s a good wake up call, a great reality check. The very best is almost always at first seemingly cloaked. Hang in there, you will see, and it will be mind blowing. The greatest hardships in life make for the most meaningful inspiring lives.

@BipolarGrowth Losing ‘my mind’.

Sense pleasure is love, manipulation & judgment are suffering. There’s no such thing as loss, nor a you which could be “made selfish” or less capable of love, or further away from God. These beliefs = the suffering. Leo is your apparition, your mirage, the great favor, shaking you up & out of your slumber. See if you can recognize the projections onto him are the expression of your suppressions. It is good. See & feel the depth of the kindness, the purity of the goodness. The recognition one is judging, believing the thoughts over or instead of feeling / alignment, claiming One are two, is the liberation.

@Demeter Beautiful! Thanks for sharing!

No one is alone in the universe, everyone is whole & complete, perfectly fulfilled, as the universe (only thought is to / seems to be to, the contrary of this). This place is a literal expression of love, which is why meditation & expression, emptying the cup, is so key to connectedness, oneness, authenticity, and just simple real - happiness. You aren’t interpreting nonduality ‘wrong’, you’re missing that’s judgement, and that is fear. It feels off because it is way off. Nonduality is uninterpretable. The practices, like grounding, meditation, expression (not thinking) are the way of, to & as peace, love, understanding, & True happiness.