Gabriel Antonio

Great suggestions for videos @AleksM! I also liked that other one you recommended about defense mechanisms of the ego. Dude, I had no idea that there was such a thing called "mature ego responses" hahaha... They are fabulous and have been giving me great results! Sometimes, I simply want to forget my problems, you know? Hahaha... Anyway, this scale is also really cool. Hahaha... Makes a lot of sense! I got great insights from reading it. Haha... @Leo Gura Have you seen this?

Laugh at your devilry Hahahhaa it was so crazy... i have been feeling very peaceful lately, and this can easily be a way to be in my rut, totally in my comfort zone. However... i decided to take ayahuasca again hahahahhaa Dude it is so beyond you. Your “progress” will be so beyond you. When you experience the radiance of God, as Leo puts it, you realize that other people can only offer you peanuts hahahaha... quite literally Anyway... before the ceremony I was talking to a cute girl and I was desperate for love hahaha however I wasnt able to express my feelings, you know? i got stuck (like always) During the trip, however, it came to me that the most important thing is whether or not you’re enjoying yourself fully... seriously, i was glowing by 2 hours of trip... And lemme tell ya: the fist two hours were a HELL. I have been eating a lot of food (even thou it is considered healthy food, it is still too much)... anyway I often say that ayahuasca is like a Mad Mother... the word in portuguese is “brava” which is a combination between mean and loving. Hahahaha, got it! Ayahuasca is a severe Mother. Bam! It loves you! Do you grasp this?? Reality simply loves just like the sun is always shining, God loves you regardless of the shit you have been doing, the shit from your past, and the shit you are currently doing hahahaha you cant escape this Love hahahahhaa Anyway, I feel a deep urge to go take a Vipassana retreat sobthat I can fully reconnect to Nature. It is so fucking obvious when we start to observe nature... so many teachings and we for some reason lost touch of what is like to see the fire. The fire loves you. period. Hahaha Anyway, those shamanic rituals are amazing!! I get a mental ecstasy that permeates my whole body. I get a HUGE body awareness and relaxation. When relaxation is in your body, you realiaze that you do not have to throw away anything. Even negative emotions or thoughts are actually just the excrement, the fertilizer of awesomeness. In our stupid western country, we are taught to “destroy” parts of us, to remove unwanted things. But, as Zen Master Thich Nhat Hahn says, “If we take away all the ugly parts of a person, there might not be a lot left.” So we try to remove, remove, and remove. And then we realize that we’re empty inside. So whatever you’re going through, the key thing is to transform that ugly energy into something more wholesome. Basically you got to become an alchemist (tks Paulo Coelho!!!) Speaking of pratical shit, my life purpose is clearer than ever. One of Leo’s best video is the one about energy. It is an old one, but soooooo true. When you are allignes with a higher purpose, everything works itself out. You begin to summon energy through the Source... and then... you become a FORCE OF NATURE... it is so crazy... it is so beyond you, you have no idea hahahaha you are just a child, and the Supreme Father allows you to think that “you” are the one doing the amazing shitbof yourblofe, but deep down you know that you are nothing more than a selfish bastard hahhaahaha seriously you do jot have to help anybody. For example, I am writing this trip report for purely selfish reasons... hahahhaa i am just sharing..... so always remember that: Before respecting other, first respect yourself. I have fallen in love with Leos video on devilry hahahahah i am such a snake hahahaha seriously it is so frakin funny ppl are a bunch of hypocrites... they fuck up their lives and then they want to give you advice. “i am sorry, but i want to experience this first-hand” Thats what I say to the voices in my head that want to kill me, to put me in a quagmire of shit hahahaha... because thats what the ego is designed to do... all egos are kinda the same hahaha... as soon as you understand the subconscious mind, as Carl Jung puts it, that is the moment you begin to free yourself from its devilry grip hahahaha Anyway... another thing that came very clearly is... stop running away from chaos... seriously chaos is part of being human, of being incarnated hahahah nature has lots of chaos, but it knows what it is doing. Thank goodness i freed myself from stupid antidepressants. We qre going to laugh at today’s psychiatry 200 years from now. We’ll go: “OMG!!!!! Look at ehat they did with so many perfectly fine people” DEPRESSION IS NOT A PROBLEM. Schizophrenia is not a problem. Sure, there are exceptions, but seriously can we at least admit that hearing voices in your head is normal???? The problem is how loud those voices are. They kight be propelling you into great heights. I also became very conscious of my death. Let’s face it: I ain’t gonna be here for a very long time, and i feel the point of this trip (aka life) is to have fun. Laugh at your fucking devilry hahahaha... it is so simple... when you realize YOU are the devil, bam! God starts to manifest. You know why? Because God and Devil coexist. Bam! One cannot exist without the other. It is that simple. If you want to have infinite knowledge, you will also have infinite ignnorance. Sorry to break t to you, but as Jack Kornfield says, the human ride works with combos: sweet and sour, praise and blame, joy and sadness... so as soon as you recognize that First of all, you aint got much time left Second: you have something that is so unique and the world desperately wants that you share your beauty. And maaan... lemme tell ta: ayahuasca makes me fall in love with MUSIC. Hahahaha it is so liberating to play Tabaque (a type of drum from african roots i suppose) the thing is not that you just playbthe instrument, you become the instrument. You begin to see that everythig has a spirit. Each instrument has a spirit. Ayahuasca has a spirit. The sun has a spirit. If you prefer another word, you can say “vibe” the sun has a vibe you know? Speaking of the sun, I also realized that i completely ignore the sun. Just like god... i totally forget that it is there cause I get acclimated... Anyway, if I could point out one place that has been REALLY helping is Brazilian Voodoo (aka Umbanda) dude that place os fucking amazing... it is a complete spiritual practice. You got everything there: concentration, dancing, great music... it is beyond words ahahhaha Anyway... Wins the one who laughs the most. Seriousness is ego thing hahaha DO NOT be loyal to your suffering hahaha “ We live in Paradise. This is heaven!!!!!!! So... why do you take ayahuasca? —someone might ask So that I remember this truth “ I feel so aamAzing... Anyway ... Keep Flowing Just one final thing: stop seeking women if yiu are a guy. Let them get so envy of how good you are feeling that the simply cannot resist anymore. My personal preiorities 1 God (aka Truth and Love) 2 Gabriel (myself) 3 My direct family 4 Friends 5 other people (like you folks hahaha i dont care what you think about me hahahaha) Maybe GF would be an intermediary between family and friends. But remember: you go first. This is all your to enjoy. Nothing has to be thrown away. You just gotta Awaken The Giant Within!!! YES! My Lp is help people overcome shyness through being the embodiment of Tranquility hahaha True tranquility :):):) There can be peace even in the midst of chaos!! Aw... I keep wanting to share so much, but there is simply not enough time to waste here ahhahaha I think thats enough... my main worry is that I get side tracked... so i kept thinking during the trip as to how sum up in one sentence how i can keep my energy in high. I feel the only thing I need to do is keep doing what i am doing and not get fucking side tracked by overdoing shit hahahah it is like this: i fully allow my inner child to play you know?? Because “emotions are much more important than logic will ever be” (Leo Gura) Anyway I got lots of insights. It doesnt end hahaha. And seriously... are you having fun? If not, you are doing it wrong hahaha

Hi guys, So I did the 21-day reprogram the subconscious mind challenge. I did it Now, I have decided to keep doing the 3-minute practice for another 21 days. I did not think of a better habit... But I could probably make a list, but anyway... it is working haha... Furthermore, it has been a week since I set the intention of "using 75% of my energy." Amazing results! I feel more centered, more at ease, and happier in general... hehehe I think I will stick with this intention for the next week, I suppose... Idk... I will be open to receiving a divine intervention as to what intention should I set for my week Thank you :D:D:D

@jjer94 Woooow! Hahahahhahaha! Amazing!!!! This is called synchronicity. It is totally worth it to take the risk and let your parents go crazy... but have the experience... Seriously.... It is so freaking worth it... Especially when you are using it in an actual ceremony... It is amazing... The energy is so high consciousness that you Awaken by osmosis at some point ahahhaha... just kidding, but if you can put up with the discomfort of not pleasing your parents, dude... it will be amazing! You will go: "Holy shit! Why did I suffer so much??? Let me just enjoy this thing... Hahahaha...." @Natasha Hahaha.... it is so simple, right? Hahahaha... I had to take ayahuasca to see the power of this simple practice. As Matt Kahn puts it, "Whatever arises, love that." Hahah.. So simple... A good way to practice this is through self-reiki. You simply unblock your energy through the Power of your hands. You become an instrument of the Divine. You don't have to do ANYTHING. Actually, the less you interfere, the better... Then... You start feeling how good it feels to heal yourself. All healings happen inside... Dude, it is going to be so beyond you. Hahahaha.... You will be amazed by the power of Love. You will feel like a child again, but have the Consciousness of an adult. But, anyway, hehe, it is a journey. You will figure things out. Actually, the Universe will figure things out. Therefore, the Universe will figure the Universe out. Hahahaha... mindfuck... Just stick to this path

@jjer94 @Natasha Great insights! Relationships really are a contract. That's all. Problem is, we do not define the boundaries with the other person. So it becomes a huge mess. This gives rise to lots and lots of unecessary suffering. Have you ever done psychedelics? I see myself in you. I was in your shoes a year ago. And now I am living pretty much in heaven hahaha. Of course, the healing journey is multifactorial, but I owe 80% to ayahuasca. Seriously, psychedelics are an awesome catalyzer for healing. You simply remember that you are in heaven; that you are Absolute Infinity. This way, almost all of your problems and emotional baggage are simply dissolved. The Buddha defined enlightenment as "the end of suffering." It is crazy. You get a glimpse of that Consciousness when you are tripping. You simply dissolve TONS AND TONS of emotional BS on a whim. You just gotta let the medicine cure you! Hahaha If you decide not to try it, or if you can't; I would only suggest you to not try so hard. I am talking to myself now hahaha. You can't brute force healing. Do some energetic unblockage technique, you know? Or... simply get together with a True friend. hahaha. You can find trustworthy people in shamanic ceremonies, in your local yoga studio, or a meditation group. I feel like what you need the most is unconditional love and support, you know? So that we bring your innocence back to life. Hehe. And you start to see the beauty of this world once again. I warn you: it might take a lot of time to do it without psychedelics. The results are going to be frustrating as fuck. But... they work. Just got to stay patient... Or... take some ayahuasca Hahahaha... IDK if this helps in any way... but I felt this urge to share with you what "has helped me along my journey" (as infinite waters says).

what I learned from Leo's Devil video: the quickiest way to enlightenment is laughing at your devilry _________ Trip Report [AGAIN :P] Guys, I have fallen in love with ayahuasca. Hahahaha... I feel like now I understand what it is like to turn inwards. It is fucking clear. Another thing that is clear: whatever you ask for, you receive it. Third thing: your concentration skills are inexistent. That's it... I am being as incisive as I can.

"The doorway of enlightenment doesn't open for a being who is going on with his spiritual life with ferocity and hyperactivity. The doorway of enlightenment and supreme liberation opens within a being who demonstrates relaxation." - Matt Kahn

@Vitamine Water hahahaha I am so terrible. I male people torture themselves haha this insight is very true! it is like taking ayahuasca. If you think too much, you ain’t gonna do it. good job!

@AdamDiC Hahahahah! That's the spirit, boy! At one point your mind will try to convince you that cold showers are not that necessary. I mean, they are not "necessary," but if you have committed yourself to this practice, then just fucking do it. The cool thing is that after you pass the initial stages of self-actualization, you do not have to throw away anything. You simply start to include everything! It is amazing! Because the thing is: you will never get away from your ego. Resistance will always be there. You can't escape that. I have already tried, and it only made me feel miserable. However, a good dose of self-discipline is extremely healthy and necessary to keep yourself sane! So... don't take yourself too hard and just trust the process. Cold showers = best way to wake up Your life is going to be so amazing if you keep on this path! Don't overdo... Always remember this: Am I being neurotic? Am I trying too hard? Remember: practice your will-power muscle every single day, and this will sum up during the years until you are ready to realize that You Already Are. But, until then, I wish you all luck and serenity!

The thing is: you can always argue in both directions. Hahahaha... That's why it is kinda pointless to argue about paradoxes. You can always play the Devil's advocate, you know? So why on Earth would you waste time on proving others wrong? Seriously... We are the shadow also, okay, but what is that going to do for you? This is like a never-ending cleaning job. When you really allow Love in, the shadow simply cannot resist. Hahaha, it is miraculous! You simply stop rationalizing, theorizing, and talking nonsense because all you want to do is To Love. Hahaha, anyway, this is something that you feel. There really is no need to focus THAT much on the shadow... Just silence it... And do the I Love You's. Hehehe... When we begin to tap into the REAL love frequency, we only want to put out the nicest words. Why? Because it feels amazing! In essence, it is time to focus on Feeling Good NOW!

Breathe deeply. Practice yoga. Cold showers are not supposed to be pleasant. You are training your “I dont give a fuck” muscle. e@Gonda Everything can be used as an escape.

Hahahaha, I just read the original post today. HAhahaha it is ridiculous how many times I used the word "fuck" It is just that... It was so magical... I feel like we understand our own selves better through seeing ourselves through the other person. During the ceremony, I was judging people very heavily. And then it came to me that I was actually judging myself. So, in a way, you can see things in yourself faster when you're interacting with others... I don't really know... Haha... What came to me very clearly after the trip was done is that what people most need is recognizition and loving approval. We have become so selfish in giving attention... We just want to prove that we're right... And... everybody wants to be right... _______________________ Continuation.... I was freaking out before I drank the Magical Tea (aka ayahuasca :P), and everything looked so good... Fire represents unconditional love... Anyway... maybe this experience was so intense and liberating that now my ego has come back in full-force ahahaha. Anyway, I didn't really talk about the masculine vs feminine images that came to my mind. I don't really understand them, to be honest. This trip was a huge hug to my heart. I thought it was going to be scary as fuck, but it was just the opposite. Everything is here to help... I have been struggling a bit to readapt to the 3-D world. But the challenge is to incorporate this level of consciousness to "my" life... I really don't feel love right now, which is okay... It is so good when it happens, though... Ecstasy is your only option... but, as the book says, It is very easy to isolate myself and fall into a huge ego backlash. It is so crazy... I was in heaven 3 days ago, and now an equal amount of force is being put upon me in the other direction (shadow). It is hard... but I am just keeping in mind to stay calm and trust the process... Two things I forgot to mention: > Power of friends As Thich Nhat Hahn says, "Without a Sangha, we cannot go very far." I attribute 90% of my "success" to two friends I have been seeing frequently. They are helping me soooo much... To keep my calm... To keep my vibration and thoughts on a good level... Self-regulating everything. I love the internet, don't get me wrong, but the type of pleasure you get from real heart-to-heart connections is incomparable to online communities. As a friend says, there can be infinite internets, but they will never substitute the power of a real sangha. I would still be suffering too damn much if it weren't for these two friends. They accept myself and my shadow. Everybody who sees me think I am a "radiant" guy, but seriously they have no idea Hahaha... Whoever has a lot of light also has a lot of shadow. And I am very fortunate that these two friends are embracing me, giving me loving attention (even when I am a dick to them)... I don't feel worthy of their friendship, because I really don't do much to them. By as one of them says, "Your presence is enough." I love that... I don't have to do anything, you know? Just relaaaax... but at the same time stay firm. Relaxed but firm. > Decisions The ceremony was all about decision-making. This insight came to me: Decide. It doesn't matter the result as long as you decide. The worst thing that can happen is getting stuck and paralyzed in the deciding process. You know that paralysis by analysis sort of thing? For example: I was very unsure whether to go or not to the ayahuasca ceremony. I would have guilted myself if I hadn't gone. I would probably say, "Oh... I lost that opportunity. Shit!" However, my mind is so stuck in the "judging mode" that it doesn't matter what I do; it always finds a way to say that it is wrong. It is set on the "negative" pilot. So... whatever I do, I tell myself that it is wrong. As you can imagine, this drains my energy A LOT... So I feel it is a matter of deciding and stop thinking about it later on. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx You Already Are. You can't escape this truth. Hahaha... Getting in touch with this truth will melt away TONS of problems. At the same time, you will still be who you already are... Hahah.. crazy... I don't know about you guys, but I first experienced the Truth when I was 7. Whenever I use psychedelics and my ego dies, I go, it is so fucking obvious Is this "Truth" a secret to anyone? Seriously... I am glad that I am slowly getting less attached to Ecstasy... it really is like a roller coaster. You achieve heaven, then you go back to hell. Then heaven and hell. Heaven and hell... I feel like what I most want is to care for people, listen to anything they want to share... You know... It is like the story of a man who was going to have a surgery and was going to lose his voice forever. He said: Obviously, there must be a sweet spot between listening and talking. Passive listening can be great for healing the other person, but you got to be aware that it takes a lot of emotional labor to do so. If you are unstable and someone is purging at you, you will either start giving random advices (as if someone needed that) or you will get stuck in your mind and become highly negative and judgemental in your mind. However... if you are feeling pretty well, you can do it! Hahahaha! I just remembered one thing. I was feeling so much love for Leo. Hahahaha! Remember the mushroom video that Leo says he had more love for the pubic hair in his bathroom than a mother would have for her son? Yea... so I was feeling that... People are looking so beautiful ever since that trip... Dude!! Just remembered another thing: at one point during the trip, I looked at my feet. This thing is so FREAKING weird. Hahah you got no idea how weird your feet are. Jaja... Today, I had a lot of synchronicity experiences, but I know that the brain loves to make random connections I know how you feel... It sucks... I feel the best thing is to consciously choose to block any low-quality thoughts, you know, as an mature ego defense mechanism. Life is too short to worry so much hehe. Anyway... your feedback was good actually hahaha

You co-create each moment. You don’t even know how much power you carry. It is an in-the-moment power. Just by you being an instrument of Peace, you begin to transform the world. Actually, you don’t fucking do anything. Haha. That’s the beauty of the practice. You think “you” are doing the greatest deed, but actually you are just an instrument of the Absolute Love. You can change your state so quickly… it is a CLICK. And BAM! Heaven is revealed. This was my main insight during the trip. Now, let's go to some other ones: Just fucking accept being bored... As a technological-oriented person, I oftentimes fail to appreciate the simplicity of what is already being given to me. Seriously, why do I keep wanting so goddamn much? I fail to appreciate the power of patience. What does that mean? Sometimes nothing will happen, and that is wonderful. So, in a way, if I am feeling bored out of my mind, if I think, “Oh my goodness, this person is so boring. I think I am going to die of boredom”, BAM! That’s a sign to stay with that boredom instead of running away by doing something else to make up for that unpleasant feeling. ___________________________________________ As you may know, there is only You here. You are God. But that is just the first part of the story. The second part is that I am also God. Everybody you walked by today is also God. The question is: are you listening to people really? Or are you stuck in your own little universe? We often want to be heard, but we don't want to listen. To be successful with women, you don't need to be that alpha-macho guy who talks very confidently, sometimes the most attractive thing you can do is to listen... It is so freaking funny... people start projecting "godly" attributes to you. ___________________________________________ Trust your vulnerability Sometimes the simple intention of “wanting to understand the other party” is enough to make yourself and the other person happy. Have you ever had that feeling of being in a group and everybody wants to talk, but nobody is willing to listen? I have been focusing a lot on “building self-confidence.” This is great, but I can easily miss the target by trying to improve myself too much. What I have found is that people (and especially women) like me the most when I am focusing on being natural. This means that if I am not feeling well, it is perfectly fine to be honest about that. If I am low on energy, I do not have to pretend that I am with high vibes. No… instead, I am learning to be more human, you know? ___________________________________________ Stop being a goddamn micro-managing boss! As Jack Kornfield puts it, Guys, I don’t know if you have watched Leo’s video on self-love. If you haven’t, watch it at least once. The energy of unconditional love is so strong that it instantaneously melts away tons and tons of your ugly emotional and personality problems. Trying to run away from your personality by focusing on an ideal self is a fucking waste of time and energy. Think of it like this: you have an Army of Angels living in your subconscious mind. Just give commands to yourself, and that army will work for you. You will think that you are doing wonderfully in your life, but actually it all boils down to the subconscious mind. Or do you seriously want to do it all alone? Self-improvement can lead to many traps. You can become highly neurotic. Why? Because you can put yourself under a microscope. It is just like getting addicted to cleaning. Don’t get me wrong: cleaning is great, but accept that things will get dirty again. On the other hand, when you decide to focus on your heart space, everything starts to auto-balance and auto-correct. What do you prefer: auto-correction, big results, and easy [Love] OR manual correction, poor results, and stress [ego-driven self-improvement]? “I got to take massive action to change stuff in my life” >> Ok, Ego, thank you for your concern. But seriously Love will melt away all problems. Haha. Sorry to break to you, highly masculine-oriented folks here on this forum… I would love to say: “Go ahead and do 4 hours of meditation a day, and your life will transform.” Sorry, but no. I am also accustoming myself to practicing love. As Leo puts it sounds fruity, too soft… Unconditional self-love is the fastest way to enlightenment. And when I mean unconditional self-love is: you love yourself regardless of what you are doing. Stop seeing yourself like you are some kind of enemy. Creating partitions in your mind of “the good me vs the bad me” is a direct road to hell. Separation is the greatest illusion… Good and bad… Sweet and sour… God and Devil… All two sides of the same coin. They need each other. Lightness needs darkness. Enlightenment is not an excuse to be mean to people. Sometimes the highest form of sophistication is to be an extremely simple human being. as fragile as you are… We often carry this armor of survival... we simply don’t allow ourselves to let it go, you know? I am talking, now, to your subconscious mind: you are safe. You are safe to be whoever you feel like it. You are safe to express yourself. You are safe to be you. Trust me, you are not a monster. Or if you want to live your life thinking that you are the “enemy”, go ahead and do it. But know that telling yourself those kinds of things are as effective as saying to a 5-year-old “You are a little monster. I will discipline you.” And then you spank that 5-year-old. Good job, Ego!!! It all comes down to lack of love. ___________________________________________ Thank you, Leo!!! During this trip, a lot of things that Leo says came to mind. I was like, “Yes! That makes perfect sense! Thank you for the courage to having the guts of saying ‘You are the Devil’” Trust me, guys, a lot of things that Leo says makes zero sense today, but its meaning will be crystal-clear 5 or 10 years from now. Just take those bitter pills and shut up… ___________________________________________ Greatest fear... I also worked with my greatest fear which is to go crazy. I feel like my insanity waves were all a self-fulling prophecy. Plus, I trusted what others said about me. Two years ago I was highly vulnerable and I ended up opening myself up to the wrong people, which made me feel unsafe -- as if there was something wrong with me. I was sick emotionally, and the other person was also sick. Not helpful at all… ___________________________________________ Feminine vs Masculine Energies I achieved some amazing states while I was on the psychedelic experience. I am exploring masculine versus feminine energy. It is so fascinating to study the two poles. Yin, yang. Currently my favorite Leo's video is "Masculine vs Feminine" It makes so much sense! Very enlightening video! This paradox is so beautiful. ___________________________________________ Do not dismiss the seeking... I could tell you all: don’t force yourself too much, don’t get lost in all the seeking, just Be… However, this is very easy to say in my position. I am so laid-back and happy now, because I went through the experience of fucking things up, screwing up the whole process because I was rushing too much… And, now, I have simply relaxed the fuck down. However, that “journey” was necessary… And what I notice is that I dismiss that in others. I think to myself, “Oh my god, why does this person make so much effort?” This is especially true to enlightenment. Enlightenment shouldn’t be your number 1 priority. Let it come naturally… Hahaha… but do whatever you are doing. You might think, “BUT WHAT SHOULD I DO?????” Anything… seriously… This life is a trip. Yes, it might be painful, unpleasant, annoying as fuck; but it is worth it. This life only is true because of Love. Seriously, why would You have invented this whole thing, if it weren’t for Love? You might dismiss the power of unconditional love, unconditional acceptance, and unconditional positive regards towards yourself; but those are the things that will bring you results at least 10x faster, stronger, and more intensively than neurotic self-improvement. Results start to pouring in... It will rain blessing... And plus... it will be in a smooth way. Soft is the new strong!!! But…… if you want to go the other way, the way of pain, go ahead and do it. If you think you “have to” suffer, this is your choice. Love is always here, whether you want it or not. But the question is: how can I be more loving towards myself? > Invoke the Divine and forward your emotional bullshit to It. If you’re like a scientific type of person, like I am, you might disregard this. I choose to believe in higher forms of intelligence and I ask for their guidance. Sometimes I go, "Buddha, use me in this moment. I can't take it by myself... Work yourself through me." By setting this simple intention, my actions start to automatically change. By believing, you co-create it. > Unconditional gentle self-talk It is rather sad how I usually talk to myself. I am kind of like my worst enemy. So... I am now treating myself as I would treat a 5-year-old. My inner child doesn't understand logic, rationality. Therefore, I should treat it accordingly, you know? So... lots of fruity self-talk > Allow all thoughts to pass through you without judgement When was the last time you allowed yourself to think whatever your inner child wants? We become so fearful to think as spiritual seekers. It is like, “OH MY GOD! I HAD A THOUGHT! SHAME ON ME!!!!” This is obviously an exaggeration, but this happens in a smaller scale on your mind -- as if there was such a thing as failing. Tell me: how are you supposed to fail? Maybe the only way to fail is to fall into the traps of the Great Illusion. But even so, Existence loves you regardless of that. Existence doesn’t fucking care; it just fucking loves you. ___________________________________________ Random thoughts When was the last time you watched the FIRE? This is a perfect example of a Masculine Love. Fire simply warms you and is beautiful. BUt….. we run and run and run… You already are the fire. Don’t listen too much to other people. They are really talking to their own selves through you. If people are bashing out at you, they are talking to themselves. If people are praising you, they are talking to themselves. You probably need people right now. And let me tell you: relationships are messy. ___________________________________________ Let’s face it: you ain’t gonna solve all your bad habits in one-go. Just fucking trust the process… I have been on the self-development journey for 3 years. And the results are amazing… maybe the greatest trap of this journey is to take yourself too hard. Yes, sometimes you are too damn soft and lazy, but have some goddamn compassion for yourself. You have listened to so much bullshit ever since you were in your mom’s womb… You picked up all that anxiety, negative self-talk on a cellular level. Deep change does happen in an instant, but don’t expect change to happen. Don’t expect enlightenment to happen. This ain’t your job. Your job is to sit and do your practice. Don’t worry if you practice seems weak, it will build up naturally. It is very helpful to have a sangha to practice with. You will learn most of the things by osmosis. What I would tell to myself of 3 years ago is: practice self-development for 3 fucking minutes a day. And the rest you allow your subconscious mind to do the hard work for you Hahaha. Your subconscious mind is like an army. Just give some commands daily. I warn you: if you overdo shit, you will get aversed to it. Right now, I am pretty aversed to meditation because I tried too freaking hard at it… The trick is not caring so much… A little strategic change can bring the greatest result. Success is measured by inches. A highly developed human being is pretty much similar to you, but there are some strategic small moves they do daily that triggers those beautiful results. Stop being such a hard worker, and become a smart worker. Patience, patience, and patience. Be fucking consistent! You will find your way. Just fucking relax… Hahaha… easier said than done. Enjoy the journey! You co-create it.

You Already Are

great analogy!! the only reason I think we are here is because of Love, cause seriously if it were for Truth, there would still be nothing hahaha. Matt Kahn says we are here just to show how miraculous we are.

@Shrek_Of_Justice That's so cute! Hahahahaha... Guys, I was very unsure about the title of this topic. I did not even notice that I had written "fucking" twice. I just felt in the moment... Maybe psychedelics is a good thing for you folks hahaha... When you enter the Love Frequency, you stop caring about those minute details...

INTENTIONS FOR MY BRACELET Ok, guys, so I stole an idea from Leo. Haha. So, you know how he usually gives the suggestion of putting on a wristband to remind of him of something? So the wristband is like a reminder. 1- Activate intuition 2- When in doubt, go back to the heart 3- use 75% of your energy 4- drop your jaw 5- relax your body 6- am I able to do this? 7- decide and don't look back 8- smile 9- keep flowing 10- breathe from the spine 11- metta 12- be the true me 13- be soft 14- make facial expressions 15- belly breathing 16- ask 17- be curious 18- try to understand 19- numb yourself 20- be kind I got some ideas here, and I am going to experiment with number 3. So I am going to expand on the chosen one (:P) I oftentimes am too lazy. Or I become overproductive. So it is always like this: I feel good; then I start doing TONS of stupid shit. Why? Because I want to use my energy. Hahah. But this always backfires. Fist thing: my work becomes shitty (I try too hard and prevent myself to get into a state of flow). Second thing: my body, my mind, and people around me rebel against me. My body becomes achy and low on energy; my mind becomes as rotten and lazy as never; and people around me get irritated and scared because of my anxiety (in the stage that I am working really hard) and my isolation (when my body and mind rebels against me. So I end up getting into a state of complete reclusion, which is awful for building good relationships with people). Therefore, I have decided to use 75% of my energy so that I am not a lazy twat, nor am I an overproductive weirdo. Hahaha. A perfect sweet spot between both of them. A spot in which I am able to serve the world and myself and also use that energy wisely so that it fucking lasts... Hahaha. Anyway, I hope that the other intentions also get integrated automatically. Haha, that is what I am hoping for. I am going to focus really hard on using 75% of my energy, and my guess is that the other 19 will also happen. I will do this experiment for a week. So from Oct 3rd to Oct 10th. If you want me to expand on a different intention, I would love to do so. Just write here which one you'd like. How's the reprogramming your subconscious mind challenge going? Great! I will definitely change the affirmation after that challenge is over. I feel like it is losing its power, I don't know, or maybe my ego is trying to convince Me of that. Hahaha... I don't know But I will do it till the end. I kinda cheated today, but that's ok! I don't know what else to write here. So I will leave. Bye. Stay in the NOW with a loving attention.

Great topic!! I think a better word than honesty is sincerity. Be honest with yourself. I feel like sincerity means that you are a fucking human being and are suscetible to mistakes. So why on Earth are you going to share "everything" to others? Let me give you an answer in advance: they don't fucking care. Sometimes we use "radical honesty" as a way to be mean to others. We have to be honest with ourselves, fully rooted in the body. Or else... BAM! You fall into a huge trap: to live from the outside-in. No, no, no. Let's live from the inside. I was practicing radical honesty full hard-core in the beginning of this year. I DO NOT RECOMMEND. I destroyed lots of relationships. On the other hand, it was pretty interesting to dive REALLY deep into FEAR. I had some Awakening experiences after some crazy-ass blunt truths. Hahaha... but, seriously, it is so fucking painful... If you want to experience a Rude Awakening, feel free to dive into absolute radical honesty. People will hate you, you will feel crazy. I feel like we need to be aware of a huge trap in Awakening, which is to get stuck in phase 1, which is the masculine side, you know? The second phase is a very tricky especially for men: be kind to people. A lot of men find this fruity, but it is 10000x than any neurotic highly-disciplined practice. Hahaha... I only exhausted my ego to know that the reason why we are here is to spread loving-attention. So, in a way, I feel like you need to use the "mask", you have to "play your role", you know?

with a lot of care. you have to treat her like a 5-year-old. would you tell blunt truths to a 5-year-old? you demonstrate a good intuition, so I guess it is just a matter of practicing patience. you have to be extra-careful with her, seriously. like, treat her very very nicely. with unconditional love. if this is too much, just set unconditional love as an intention.

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11:18 27/09/2017 Life seems more bearable lately. I love that I have been able to control my ups and downs. I am fed up with rollercoasters It really is a matter of just relaxing the fuck down, you know? Allowing yourself to make mistakes... allowing ALL. It is that simple. Allow your mind to go to anywhere it wants to. You do not have to train your mind. Let it run loose like a wild animal, but never leave it unattended. You got to be there. Think whatever the fuck you want. You can even exaggerate thoughts. It is so funny! But what I have discovered more and more is that true joy comes from alternating being in the presence of others with the sole presence of YourSelf. You don't even have to say a word, but to allow yourself to be exactly as you are (when you are alone) and to allow the other person to do whatever he or she wants to do. Seriously, allow them to every fucking thing haha. Scream, cry, be passive-aggressive etc. In essence, you are seeing everything, but you are not giving in to low vibes, if you will. You are transforming it by becoming an oasis of silence... you are now an alchemist. You now know how to get the best out of the worst. It is all an energetic game. The words you say to yourself most often dictate how you feel. The more emotional labor you can apply to affirmations, prayers, metta practices; the bigger the results. So... really give yourself to the moment when you are giving those beautiful commands to your subconscious mind. Enter the moment completely, be gospel-like enthusiastic and faithful. LIVE YOUR LIFE with all your imperfections. We love them all! Just fucking live this life. Things will get better. Trust me, I Know.

Great topic!! What I find that helps me the most in dating is: not focusing on being self-confident, but instead focusing on being natural. Hehe Thanks for the work you put on this topic! Female vs Male psychology is fascinating! I am learning a lot about myself by understanding the world through the Female eyes Almost all our behavior is chimp-stuff hahaha.... Anyway, thank you once again!!!

I can totally relate to this topic. I was in your shoes 1 year ago. @Mad Max Great post!!! Amazing insights!! The inferior ego is scared off its mind to give in to "addictions" (e.g., ice cream, TV watching, drugs etc.) THIS IS NOT AN ADVICE FOR ALL TYPES OF EGOS. But, seriously, taking into consideration this forum, I'd say that your advice of allowing yourself to give in is useful for the majority of us. My Take on This! Theoretically, I am kind of in a similar situation as you are right now. I am 21. I live with my parents. I work 2 times a week working in a super easy, rewarding, and aligned with-my-purpose job. I don't have a college degree (nor am I in college). So maybe if we compare you and me the only difference is that I am working with something related to my purpose. So go after your purpose. Take any action related to it. Just fucking start! The rest will figure itself out like Magic. Haha. Take some RADICAL ACTION, dude! I was feeling as hopeless as you are exactly a year ago. After I start meeting with real people and making decent connections with other human beings, BAM! I finally started to feel good again. I see myself in you. You can totally make things better. Just fucking believe, dude! Seriously, imagine you were from the evagelical church and you were fighting against evil inner demons, hahaha! Your life depended on you fucking fighting that shit, would you do it? Or would you allow them to eat you up? Hahahahaha! I am just kidding... or am I not? Anyway, dude, realize that this is a fucking phase. Yes, it fucking sucks. But it is a phase. The future will work itself out by its own. Maybe Life is trying to teach you something... - are you patient? or are you always unsatisfied with the present fucking moment? - do you force yourself to be kind? if you do this, stop right now. You DID NOT come to this world to be a bitch to anybody. Forcing kindness actually backfires. You become like a bitter lemon. - do you allow yourself to feel, talk, and think however you want to? - do you listen a lot to "authority" figures in your head? KILL THEM! this is a wide-spread type of schizophrenia, 99% of us have. introjected parents. it is CRAZY! We all have fake, devilish and distorted versions of our mom and dad (or a random authority figure) inside our heads. You know that cartoonish version of your parents you had the Fear Mind gave it to you when you were very small? Well, if you don't remember, good for you! If you think you are still being influenced by this "scary voices", or if you are unable to function in society because of childhood traumas, go take some fucking psychedelics! most people still carry this heavy baggage from their childhood -.- i myself am working REAL HARD on feeling good again. psychedelics done in a proper manner allow you to tap into those types of fear and kill'em. So... I feel like it is all a matter of mindset. Seriously, maybe you can simply choose to see how fortunate you already are. First of all, you have a fucking shelter!!!!! So many people are DYING because of the cold... right in this fucking moment... children are about to die due to malnutrition... so... if you still wanna bitch about everything and how you haven't figured out the tiny details, go ahead! (This is called reverse psychology. There is a part of your subconscious mind that does the opposite that you ask it to do. It is fucking CRAZY!) - do you take RADICAL ACTION? That is, are you able to get off of your fucking mind and throw yourself to the world in small bites? It ain't that hard. If college is something important for you, have you visited any college? if your life purpose is important: do you repeat it to yourself at least three times a day? If being independent is important, is this REALLY your desire? or is this something you got from other people? just to finish off, here is a final question: is your life really THAT bad? is living with your parents THAT bad? in my case, I certainly don't like to be in such a comfort zone here in my parents' house, but actually when I am simply present for once ahaha, I realize that, "Hmm... it is actually quite pleasant. It is just that I am an ungrateful bastard." I tried to be as clean and straightforward as I could. Haha. Maybe I put a lot of effort on this post Hahahahaha! I always overdo shit