Gabriel Antonio

@Bas No, I didn't prepare at all. In fact, I ate a bunch of pizza the day before. The "shaman" told me all was needed was 3 hours of fasting and 4L of water. My woman friend also didn't prepare at all and had a pretty tranquil experience compared to mine. I don't know why that happened to me... They said I might have a disease and am unaware of it. But this is day 4th, and I am feeling very peaceful. Finally. Feels like I am in summer vacation in my childhood because I feel very relaxed in my body. It feels like someone pressed the "Reset" button in me. Hehe...

THIS! Tai Chi helps a lot to allow the energy in your body to flow more freely. Body awareness is key to quieting the mind. And not even yoga has helped gain more sovereignty over my body than Tai Chi. If you are feeling stuck, Tai Chi helps you reconnect to the natural cycle of nature, in which there is no specific effort. Instead, everything flows ininterruptly. I used to have the hardest time meditating, but now it has gotten much better! Tai Chi is a dynamic meditation, if you will. There are so many other variables that can be contributting to your unhappiness... Do you have a true friend? A final tip: learn how to breathe in your abdomen. This can save your life during a crisis. You lie down very confortably, place a folded blanket on your belly. Relax your shoulders, your jaw, and give a big sigh. Now, focus on expanding your abdomen lightly and very gently. Pay attention to the contact between the blanket and your belly. When you are doing this technique, you are taking refuge in your roots. When we go back to our roots, we feel safe. Stay there as much as you need. Thich Nhat Hahn recommends to practice this exercise daily for 5 minutes. In 2 weeks, he says, we will be able to go through emotional storms and leave unharmed. @jjer94 Thank you for sharing your experience

I think the best thing you can do after watching this video is throw yourself to the world. You will have to expose yourself, sorry. Psychedelics can ease off the discomfort, but you'll get used to it. But, sure, there are many other interesting points to be covered about social anxiety. But if I could give you one tip, it would be to take psychedelics with that specific intention: work with my feelings of shyness. You will dive deep into yourself. But I hope Leo posts a video about this subject. It is very fascinating!

@WhiteCongrats I totally related to you. I myself hate telling stories. YES! I know this feeling ahhaha... And I feel like I always break the expectation of the other person because the story never turns out to be so interesting when I say it... Well... I don't think I have helped that much hahaha... because I am basically in the same boat as you are. Some things that come to mind: - When you are telling a story, focus totally on what you are talking about and not the other person in itself. I mean, you can definitely look at the other person and so on, but don't get so distracted by their reaction. - Correct technique while talking also helps. If you speak with your neck, shoulders, and jaw tensed the story won't be appealing despite how hard you try to make it look like it. The best speaker is relaxed, just like when you are yawning. - My intuition tells me that you would benefit from a very unusual Leo's video called "How to Be Funny." The exercises he gives are pretty good, especially the one that you come up with random phrases. I feel like you have to practice spontaneity. You know, one shot, and that's it. Plus, he also gives other exercises such as visualizing yourself talking confidently. Remember: visualize to materialize. But I myself am not a big fan of visualization, but it works... What am I doing to solve this problem for myself? Theater classes. I know. I hate them. I hate exposing myself, but it is working!! I am for the first time in forever am expressing my emotions truly (I was a complete robot in the past ahahah). It is unpleasant and my ego hates doing that. I have a presentation one month from now, and it will be for freaking children. I don't know how the hell am I going to do to keep those little brats (:P) paying attention to me, so it will be a challenge. So, in a way, I feel it is a matter of practicing (tell stories despite you not liking to do so) and you can also can get some help from a professional (like a theater teacher). And the How to Be Funny video is also great. Hope anything helps... I am in this same struggle, but we'll get there

So the "pressure" you are referring to is not physical, right? Like... you don't feel any pain in your body while you're talking. Is that right? Have you ever tried affirmations?

@Leo Gura yea, Brazil. the ceremonies have lots of naive spirituality, but if you're able to filter those things out, they are amazing

You can pick up all the flowers, but you can’t stop the spring.” - Pablo Neruda Background I have been using ayahuasca for 8 months, and my life has pretty much turned from water to wine. Actually, it has turned from shit to wine, you know? Seriously… I was such a kid before I started taking. And I don’t mean this is a good thing by no means. I was extremely immature and unaware of how Nature works. Sorry to break it to you, but Nature is much more powerful than you will ever be. Your stupid ego will never come close to the true Power of Mother Nature. For this trip specifically, I set the intention of at some point during the trip imagine all areas of my life individually and visualize how can I improve each area. In other words, I decided to face all the negative situations in my life during the trip so that when I got out of it, my subconscious mind would have the right programs (or better: an update to my subconscious mind). Hehe… The theme of the ceremony was very religious in my opinion. Since it was on the Dead’s Day, the collective intention was: rescue souls from the purgatory. I understand what they mean by those “lost souls.” The thing is, these entities (which the indigenous call obsessors) are not outside but inside. After all, all of our ancestors are still alive in us. We cannot exist without the past. So the ticket for human ride includes all the Karma of previous generations. And guess what? We are our ancestors, but we don’t remember it. But…. anyway…. I wanted to avoid looking at my shadow during the trip, but that didn’t work…. Before the Trip In ayahuasca ceremonies, the people who are going to take it are usually extremely fearful and anxious. This is normal when you are not experienced with the Medicine (which is how ayahuasca is also called). However, as Leo puts on a video, your state of mind before taking any psychedelic interfere in the trip itself. So… What I decided to do was very simple: I decided to practice self-amusement. So I was basically making jokes with my friends, talking a lot with other people, and helping the shamans out. I also practiced Reiki in several people. My main idea was to release my energy before the trip. And it worked. The Trip Itself I made a huge mistake: I wanted to stay by the fire. However, it was VERY cold. When the effects of ayahuasca kicked in, I felt as if I had pnemounia. I was in a bad trip. I felt very bad. I was trying to surf through the trip, but I simply had to pull myself out of the “Force” (which is how they call when you are under the effect of ayahuasca). You have to find the most comfort spot when you are using psychedelics, guys…. Anyway, I summoned strength to go inside (even though I was tripping balls), and I decided to simply rest. I felt like I had a huge fever. The coldness from the air plus the fire caused a horrible reaction in my body. So I simply came to the grips that I was going to fuck up the trip and waste it…. A part of me thought: “The lost souls are attacking me.” This, in a way, is true. Because I felt HORRIBLE. I could feel how human beings have lived for millenia. All the comfort we have in modern society is so awesome… I also remembered what Osho said about talking about spirituality in Ethiopia. No…. First we need to take care of our basic needs… However, after some point I got better and was actually able to explore my Inner Universe Heheh… 5 Insights When you are extremely bored in your house, just distract yourself I often get hits of utter boredom in my house specially at around 7 PM… I get tense and I am not even able to browse the web, or watch a stupid movie…. Cause I get sooo bad… I simply do things SO RUSHLY. Seriously… sometimes I browse the web in such a neurotic way. Anyway… during the trip, I was picturing myself in my house when I am veeeery bored. When I was doing that, I was resisting diving deep into the feeling of boredom and loneliness and meaninglessness… However… I decided to go all the way through. What came was: simply consciously distract yourself when you are going through a storm of negative and dense emotions. Idk, call a friend, decide to watch South Park… and simply give 0 fucks about how spiritual you are. Haha… So… when bored and tensed, do not overwhelm yourself with more. Relax your body and wait for the storm to pass. This strategy is similar to what Leo talks about in the Masculine vs Feminine video. Women usually like to talk their ways through problem, while men usually like to numb themselves. I am heavily influenced by feminine energy because I grew up with my mom and sister alone. And that has definitely not worked. So… let us move the other way around. Yes… I am telling you to distract yourself. Because, really, to me consciously distracting yourself is nothing less and nothing more than practicing relaxation. You do not have to use 100% of your energy. Actually, you should never use more than 75% of your energy, even if your anxiety is telling you: “YOU SHOULD RUSH!!!!!!!!!” No. Nothing special is supposed to happen. Self-Amusement: The Key to Overcoming People-Pleasing I often forget to enjoy myself in life. I take everything so seriously. I take my ideas seriously. I take people seriously. And really… I am fucking tired of fighting social anxiety, shyness, or however you want to call it. This is just a stupid label I have accepted as truth when I was 12. “Oh…! People are telling me that I am shy. Ok… that means I am shy... “ BAM! I believed in a silly idea and that has become a self-fulfilling prophecy. However, it is so natural to have moments that you are shy… but at least in Brazil, people always point out when you are quiet. “Oh what happened????? Why are you so quiet today???” Fuck you. Haha… it is as if I am all shitted, and someone farts at me thinking that the situation will get better… Anyway… do not focus on the reaction of people… the key point is: are you enjoying yourself? If others want to share happiness with you, great! If not, fuck'em -- life goes on. I feel like self-amusement should be one of my top 10 values. It is so fun… Small Strategic Changes I don’t want to change all my life around. Instead, I want to change strategic things, and I allow myself to relax afterwards. A successful person and you basically do the same things, but there are specific actions successful people do that yield 80% of their success. Examples: > Define my Top 10 Values > Open up my voice (my throat is always tense and my voice is always concentrated on my chest area. > Set priorities Regarding instilling new small daily habits: discipline your inner child a tiny bit everyday, and then let your innocence play. Finish. Period. Accept Hell Accept chaos. You do not need to throw away anything. The Universe knows what it is doing. So even if you are going through hell, realize that it is part of the purification process. If you can be with the chaos and the emotional discomfort with equanimity, it is just a matter of time before you see yourself feeling in Heaven. Life is tricky… it works a lot with contrasts. For example, give a big grin. A huge and forced smile as much as you can. Ok. Now, go the other way around. Totally sad and notice that your mouth goes go all the way down. In other words, a huge smile and a huge frown coexist. The happy face cannot exist without the sad face. Btw - one of the minor insights I had was to allow myself to make more facial expressions, even if they are “negative.” So really frown my eyebrows and lift my them up when I feel like, I am secretly scared of getting facial expressions... Just STICK To This Path Leo usually says that at the end of his videos. Now I understand why he talks so much about that. Your transformation will be totally beyond you. In fact, you will notice that you stop existing after you have clean yourself from all the shit you have build up ever since you were a child. When you empty yourself, Nature starts working through you. Simple as that. So, in a way, just focus on immersing yourself so that your subconscious mind learn through “osmosis.” That is why is so important to have a community of real friends who are more experienced practitioners. Just by being in the presence of some individuals, you learn things on an energetic level. Anyway, the greatest mistake you could do is take yourself too seriously and worry too much about how you are feeling now, today. Do not focus so much on the present moment. Focus more on your vision. So you change your self-talk: How You Can Change Your Self-Talk >>>>>>> When you change yourself truly, when Nature enters you; you simply feel good. You do not have to prove that you are feeling good. You simply have released your pent up energy, and now you are allowing Nature to work through you. You become a channel of “Divine Will” (as Matt Kahn puts it). Remember: awareness alone is curative. You ain't need to do anything. At some point it will become so obvious that a bad behavior is doing you harm, but you got to be willing to allow yourself to make mistakes. Otherwise, you break the cycle. And you become a slave of your bad habits. Why? Because you repressed them, and when they come back... they come in nastier forms. So... don't hold yourself back. Leo said in a video: We learn by fucking up. That is pretty much true. I am planning to write a trip report of a ceremony I went 4 months ago that I simply embarrassed the shit out of me and basically destroyed the ritual for everyone. I got kicked out from that place, but at least I experienced what it is like to be completely rejected and criticized. Hehe... If I keep doing all the shit I am doing, I am set for good... Cold showers, ayahuasca ceremonies, daily habit of affirmation, meditation group, Tai Chi, prioritize my work, participate in volunteer programs for children, and cultivate good friendships. I have built momentum to do so much shit... I am set for good. Haha It is just a matter of time… My next adventure to practice radical action will be taking Kambô, a venom poison that cleanses your whole body. I will write a report of it when I take it (this week or the other). “You can pick up all the flowers, but you can’t stop the spring.” - Pablo Neruda

@Leo Gura Thanks for the support! No, I always take it in ceremonies. I have found a place 2 hours from my house that has ceremonies 2x a month and has a top-quality ayahuasca, and it only costs R$50 (= US$20) per ceremony. To give a small glimpse of what a modern shamanic ayahuasca ceremony is, you might want to check out this video: The environment is very high consciousness. Everything is designed to give the best experience possible. Plus, it is perfect for making good friends and also for dating, because there are a a lot of beautiful and high-consciousness women in those ceremonies. The ritual lasts from 4-8 hours usually. And it is in complete silence. So those places are great for people with social anxiety (like me). You open yourself up during the trip in solitude; then, afterwards, you are feeling wonderfully and highly social. You can also buy the ayahuasca and they deliver it by mail, but it is the same price as going to ceremonies. My plan is to brew it in UDV next January. I think that @ajasatya has experience with that. I think that when you help them brew it, you get to take some ayahuasca home. I would love that ahhaha... I feel like using it every week if I could. Ayahuasca ceremonies are like a huge high-consciousness party. But they do not recommend taking it weekly, because you lose the visuals after a while of constant use. However, many indigenous use ayahuasca like people in the US smoke pot. everyday, multiple times a day... Btw - The throwing up effect feels amazing for me. Seriously, it feels as if you are throwing up a fucking demon hahaha. It comes from the bottom of the abdomen. In Brazil, there are also rituals of Shrooms and San Pedro... @Nahm Yes... but a lot of us are totally disconnected from nature. Even though Trump is also nature, but he is a very fucked-up nature. Like a very polluted river. I got no interest in that.

Enlightenment, hello????

YES! Thank you! That's because your chest has become like a dirty basement. Haha... When you get accustomed to breathing from the belly, you will go: "Holy shit! How come have I never used this area??" To me, deep breaths helps me in the beginning of pranayamas to center myself. I usually take only 3 vigorous breaths. But then, as I practice the pranayama, the natural tendency is that the breath becomes more and more relaxed and calm. Thank you for the post!

@Lynnel okay, fine. but incorrect technique can cause to a lot of damage. seriously, if you're going to do solo without any guidance, you are most guarantee to fail. if you are like most people who have almost zero body awareness, you will mess it up.

Hi guys, I have been doing really great with the psychedelic trips. I feel more curious in general. I really got a thirst for knowledge hehe... Anyway... what I want to share here is my intentions short term, medium term, and long term. Ok... let's start with the short term intention. Duration: 1 week Just keep the rhythm flowing... So I am going to focus on not getting paralyzed by mistakes but instead to keep flowing, keep playing the music despite the wrong notes. Hehe... This intention was inspired by me learning how to play atabaque. It is so freaking funny to see that Life has a tempo, you know? That you got to keep the rhythm... you are totally allowed to slow down, but you gotta keep the tempo going... or else... BAM... you get totally out-of-sync with reality... I am going to experiment this week to focus on the musicality of life, the constant rhythm that is ever present in all activities. You know, you are always in the Present... you just don't know it. Hahaha... But anyway... the important thing is to always flow, you know? Fuck right notes, just focus on the rhythm. If you want to hear more about this topic, check this video out: medium term intention: Duration: the full cycle of this moon (20-30 days) Soft but firm So... I learned in Tai Chi this awesome concept that you should always maintain your body soft but at the same time firm. It is the perfect balance, tending more to softness than firmness... Hehehe... It is like Capoeira.... You gotta loosen up... Long term intention Duration: Life Purpose Overcome my own shyness and help others do the same by me embodying Tranquility. seriously this life purpose has been putting every little weed in perspective... all the nasty details that happen in the small picture...! but... when I remember my life purpose (aka, long term intention), I get more energy... It is amazing... Hehe... So this is it... I feel grounded with those intentions on the back of my mind so that I can always pull them up when I need some guidance, you know? Hehe... We get so freakin' lost... HAhahahaha... The path is so simple. It is the path of relaxation. The person who is more relaxed wins... Hahah... You are totally unaware of how tense your body currently is... It is CRAZY, lemme tell ya... But anyway... remember that there is always room to relax a bit more, but remember that your spine should always be erect. And, of course, the shoulders should remain loosy-goosy. Hehe..

my new intention : have fun 18-10 to 26-10 right wrist red bracelet let us see this shit hahaha...

I have experience with that. Part of what we call "spiritual awakening" is in reality a sharpening of our senses. In my first awakening experience (2015), I became highly sensitive through the practice of yoga. I was also smoking cannabis in a ritualistic way. Dude... I became highly aware of everything. Very alive, you know? I was so freaking mindful... Anyway... what blocked me in my "monk phase" was the fact that I got aversed to the world. That is, I would not be able to desensitize. Therefore, I was picking up on everybody's vibes; I would think everything was personal... It wasn't looking good... I was becoming the environment... So imagine what type of energy I was embodying... The lowest kind. Let me share with you my story. I had my first big samadhi in nature. Then, I went directly to the chaotic city of Santa Rosa (which is literally in total chaos right now due to firings). When I was in nature, I had that profound and mystical experience. I became extremely sensitive. This is great! You gotta be tune in to your senses fully to savor the details of life. But... the problem was I did not know how to turn off that sensitivity button. And trust me, sometimes we simply gotta numb ourselves... especially when we are in a busy city. Otherwise, it is simply too much stimuli... we are not supposed to handle so much... Our number 1 obligation is with ourselves. Period. Fuck other people and fuck the world Long story short, I wanted to sustain a samadhi experience in the city, but I did not have enough foundation to do so. So instead of feeling Absolute Peace, I was in a complete chaos. Why? Because I became everything, yet I still needed emotional healing. so I was projecting my own pain onto the world around me. So I feel like what I could have done is to simply take it easy and... seek emotional support before it is too late. I am not saying to go to a psychologist nor a psychiatrist. Solution: What helped me the most was a meditation group I go to every week at the local park. Some folks there have been meditating for more than 20 years. So they know what they're talking about. And... it is almost impossible to get crazy when you have a strong sangha. This means, going to the meeting every single week. To me, group meditation is much more important than solo meditation. Sure, group meditation is not enough by itself. But at least you get some emotional support, which is what 99% of the world desperately needs. I feel like the best way to deal with so-called psychiatric disorders is to own them. I owned my paranoia hahaha. Now it works on my behalf. I also owned my shyness. Your inner demons can become your inner guides. Haha.. Strangely enough, I owned paranoia through psychedelics. In some trips, I have gone SO FUCKING CRAZY that I am just not afraid anymore. I have seen the worst. And it ain't that scary, seriously... So it turns out my "self-referential and psychosis" crisis were actually a part of me that needed healing right away. It could not wait any longer. So right now, in 2017, I am working on building a strong foundation so that I can handle the Infinite Power that I saw that it is readily available for us right in the present fucking moment. Not in 10 years of hardcore meditation. Not with 100 psychedelic trips. Nah, nah... Right now... But anyway... sometimes we simply cannot see the miracle right before our eyes, but it is there... It has always been there, and it will always be there. Ha... whether you "believe" in it or not... But, anyway, my point is that there are some basic things you should keep in mind... Some red flags for False Awakenings: - You are not taking care of your basic needs (not brushing your teeth for example) - You are being extremely harsh and rigid with yourself and others - Huge neurosis (A lot of pain, and it feels like you are not easing them. It feels like you are the one causing that pain to build up.) Anyway... we do not need to awake quickly. This ain't a race. To me, freakouts happens to people who are attached to perfectionism. Spiritual obedience is a fucking joke... God is always laughing his ass off... Just look at the fucking sun. BOOM! But anyway... this is a touchy subject. It is really weird to stay sane when you are one with your college professor. Hahaha... seriously.... it is fucking weird. That happened to me in 2015... I was sitting in class and then... BAM! I was the whole room. Hahahaha... it is super fun if you can handle that. If you are mentally weak (like I was)... it is freaking scary as fuck! Hahahahaha.... The main point is don't take it all so seriously... It is a joke after all... And nothing special is supposed to happen. If you are going through a rough moment on your spiritual journey: > slow the fuck down > watch stupid shows on netflix with a sloppy posture > binge on your favorite food without guilt Remember: not taking showers and being mean to people have nothing to do with spiritual awakening hahha... self-torture is the opposite of True Freedom (a.k.a., enlightenment)... I feel like the worst thing you can do is to play the role of a depressed person, or a schizophrenic person. I have met many perfectly healthy people who act out on a stupid role of a disorder. The schizophrenic guy. The depressed girl. The shy teenager. > You are much more than labels. You are everything. So do not limit yourself. < At the same time, learn how to tame your inner-dragon. If it is totally out of control, turn it off completely until it is not overwhelming you any longer. Then, start again... Hahahaha... that is a very subjective subject In essence, the inner dragon has to work on your behalf. You are the boss here, okay? 4LL Y0U N33D 1S L0V3 8D 8) ;D IDK if anything that I wrote makes sense... but I felt an urge to share... Stay safe children

i have fallen in love with Reiki. i want to be on reiki mode 24/7 hahahahah because it feels so amazing and pure... heart-centered Awakening!!!!!!

@Emerald thank you for taking so much time and energy to write this! wow!!! lots of useful insights hehe

Great topic! I have also experienced with releasing way too much emotional baggage. You can go nuts. The thing is, guys, you cannot brute force healing. My experience with breathing techniques is that I can become highly neutoric in trying to solve every tiny problem in my life, you know? Anyway, a healing tool that has been MUCH more effective than breath-work is Reiki. It is so simple, yet so gentle and effective. Haha... Anyway... Breath-work is extremely delicate. Therefore, you NEED someone to guide you. Otherwise, you will mess up with your whole energetic system. Haha.. Yoga classes are also great to release some emotional baggage. But I do not mean "gym-yoga". I am referring here to "spiritual yoga." Hahaha... Or energetic yoga... IDK... To me, those breathing exercises can be somewhat neurotic. Seriously... if you mess up with pranayamas (aka breathing exercises), you will most likely cause a brain damage. Check out this article, yoga-freaks hahaha: http://swamishivapadananda.typepad.com/swami_shivapadananda/2010/10/danger-of-excessive-pranayama-yoga-breathing.html I have never done this holotropic breathwork. I checked some things on youtube. It seems very similar to what I am studying. Let me repeat something: you can cause brain damage. It is no use doing spiritual practices if you are not rooted in Love. I would say the safest way to go is through Reiki. But do whatever your body is telling you. Hehe...

Wow!!! You can sense the power of Consciousness in you hahahaha. You have tasted from the Source, haven't you? Hahahahhaa... Congratulations!!! You are a unique form of God.

Simples as that...

Great suggestions for videos @AleksM! I also liked that other one you recommended about defense mechanisms of the ego. Dude, I had no idea that there was such a thing called "mature ego responses" hahaha... They are fabulous and have been giving me great results! Sometimes, I simply want to forget my problems, you know? Hahaha... Anyway, this scale is also really cool. Hahaha... Makes a lot of sense! I got great insights from reading it. Haha... @Leo Gura Have you seen this?

Laugh at your devilry Hahahhaa it was so crazy... i have been feeling very peaceful lately, and this can easily be a way to be in my rut, totally in my comfort zone. However... i decided to take ayahuasca again hahahahhaa Dude it is so beyond you. Your “progress” will be so beyond you. When you experience the radiance of God, as Leo puts it, you realize that other people can only offer you peanuts hahahaha... quite literally Anyway... before the ceremony I was talking to a cute girl and I was desperate for love hahaha however I wasnt able to express my feelings, you know? i got stuck (like always) During the trip, however, it came to me that the most important thing is whether or not you’re enjoying yourself fully... seriously, i was glowing by 2 hours of trip... And lemme tell ya: the fist two hours were a HELL. I have been eating a lot of food (even thou it is considered healthy food, it is still too much)... anyway I often say that ayahuasca is like a Mad Mother... the word in portuguese is “brava” which is a combination between mean and loving. Hahahaha, got it! Ayahuasca is a severe Mother. Bam! It loves you! Do you grasp this?? Reality simply loves just like the sun is always shining, God loves you regardless of the shit you have been doing, the shit from your past, and the shit you are currently doing hahahaha you cant escape this Love hahahahhaa Anyway, I feel a deep urge to go take a Vipassana retreat sobthat I can fully reconnect to Nature. It is so fucking obvious when we start to observe nature... so many teachings and we for some reason lost touch of what is like to see the fire. The fire loves you. period. Hahaha Anyway, those shamanic rituals are amazing!! I get a mental ecstasy that permeates my whole body. I get a HUGE body awareness and relaxation. When relaxation is in your body, you realiaze that you do not have to throw away anything. Even negative emotions or thoughts are actually just the excrement, the fertilizer of awesomeness. In our stupid western country, we are taught to “destroy” parts of us, to remove unwanted things. But, as Zen Master Thich Nhat Hahn says, “If we take away all the ugly parts of a person, there might not be a lot left.” So we try to remove, remove, and remove. And then we realize that we’re empty inside. So whatever you’re going through, the key thing is to transform that ugly energy into something more wholesome. Basically you got to become an alchemist (tks Paulo Coelho!!!) Speaking of pratical shit, my life purpose is clearer than ever. One of Leo’s best video is the one about energy. It is an old one, but soooooo true. When you are allignes with a higher purpose, everything works itself out. You begin to summon energy through the Source... and then... you become a FORCE OF NATURE... it is so crazy... it is so beyond you, you have no idea hahahaha you are just a child, and the Supreme Father allows you to think that “you” are the one doing the amazing shitbof yourblofe, but deep down you know that you are nothing more than a selfish bastard hahhaahaha seriously you do jot have to help anybody. For example, I am writing this trip report for purely selfish reasons... hahahhaa i am just sharing..... so always remember that: Before respecting other, first respect yourself. I have fallen in love with Leos video on devilry hahahahah i am such a snake hahahaha seriously it is so frakin funny ppl are a bunch of hypocrites... they fuck up their lives and then they want to give you advice. “i am sorry, but i want to experience this first-hand” Thats what I say to the voices in my head that want to kill me, to put me in a quagmire of shit hahahaha... because thats what the ego is designed to do... all egos are kinda the same hahaha... as soon as you understand the subconscious mind, as Carl Jung puts it, that is the moment you begin to free yourself from its devilry grip hahahaha Anyway... another thing that came very clearly is... stop running away from chaos... seriously chaos is part of being human, of being incarnated hahahah nature has lots of chaos, but it knows what it is doing. Thank goodness i freed myself from stupid antidepressants. We qre going to laugh at today’s psychiatry 200 years from now. We’ll go: “OMG!!!!! Look at ehat they did with so many perfectly fine people” DEPRESSION IS NOT A PROBLEM. Schizophrenia is not a problem. Sure, there are exceptions, but seriously can we at least admit that hearing voices in your head is normal???? The problem is how loud those voices are. They kight be propelling you into great heights. I also became very conscious of my death. Let’s face it: I ain’t gonna be here for a very long time, and i feel the point of this trip (aka life) is to have fun. Laugh at your fucking devilry hahahaha... it is so simple... when you realize YOU are the devil, bam! God starts to manifest. You know why? Because God and Devil coexist. Bam! One cannot exist without the other. It is that simple. If you want to have infinite knowledge, you will also have infinite ignnorance. Sorry to break t to you, but as Jack Kornfield says, the human ride works with combos: sweet and sour, praise and blame, joy and sadness... so as soon as you recognize that First of all, you aint got much time left Second: you have something that is so unique and the world desperately wants that you share your beauty. And maaan... lemme tell ta: ayahuasca makes me fall in love with MUSIC. Hahahaha it is so liberating to play Tabaque (a type of drum from african roots i suppose) the thing is not that you just playbthe instrument, you become the instrument. You begin to see that everythig has a spirit. Each instrument has a spirit. Ayahuasca has a spirit. The sun has a spirit. If you prefer another word, you can say “vibe” the sun has a vibe you know? Speaking of the sun, I also realized that i completely ignore the sun. Just like god... i totally forget that it is there cause I get acclimated... Anyway, if I could point out one place that has been REALLY helping is Brazilian Voodoo (aka Umbanda) dude that place os fucking amazing... it is a complete spiritual practice. You got everything there: concentration, dancing, great music... it is beyond words ahahhaha Anyway... Wins the one who laughs the most. Seriousness is ego thing hahaha DO NOT be loyal to your suffering hahaha “ We live in Paradise. This is heaven!!!!!!! So... why do you take ayahuasca? —someone might ask So that I remember this truth “ I feel so aamAzing... Anyway ... Keep Flowing Just one final thing: stop seeking women if yiu are a guy. Let them get so envy of how good you are feeling that the simply cannot resist anymore. My personal preiorities 1 God (aka Truth and Love) 2 Gabriel (myself) 3 My direct family 4 Friends 5 other people (like you folks hahaha i dont care what you think about me hahahaha) Maybe GF would be an intermediary between family and friends. But remember: you go first. This is all your to enjoy. Nothing has to be thrown away. You just gotta Awaken The Giant Within!!! YES! My Lp is help people overcome shyness through being the embodiment of Tranquility hahaha True tranquility :):):) There can be peace even in the midst of chaos!! Aw... I keep wanting to share so much, but there is simply not enough time to waste here ahhahaha I think thats enough... my main worry is that I get side tracked... so i kept thinking during the trip as to how sum up in one sentence how i can keep my energy in high. I feel the only thing I need to do is keep doing what i am doing and not get fucking side tracked by overdoing shit hahahah it is like this: i fully allow my inner child to play you know?? Because “emotions are much more important than logic will ever be” (Leo Gura) Anyway I got lots of insights. It doesnt end hahaha. And seriously... are you having fun? If not, you are doing it wrong hahaha

Hi guys, So I did the 21-day reprogram the subconscious mind challenge. I did it Now, I have decided to keep doing the 3-minute practice for another 21 days. I did not think of a better habit... But I could probably make a list, but anyway... it is working haha... Furthermore, it has been a week since I set the intention of "using 75% of my energy." Amazing results! I feel more centered, more at ease, and happier in general... hehehe I think I will stick with this intention for the next week, I suppose... Idk... I will be open to receiving a divine intervention as to what intention should I set for my week Thank you :D:D:D

@jjer94 Woooow! Hahahahhahaha! Amazing!!!! This is called synchronicity. It is totally worth it to take the risk and let your parents go crazy... but have the experience... Seriously.... It is so freaking worth it... Especially when you are using it in an actual ceremony... It is amazing... The energy is so high consciousness that you Awaken by osmosis at some point ahahhaha... just kidding, but if you can put up with the discomfort of not pleasing your parents, dude... it will be amazing! You will go: "Holy shit! Why did I suffer so much??? Let me just enjoy this thing... Hahahaha...." @Natasha Hahaha.... it is so simple, right? Hahahaha... I had to take ayahuasca to see the power of this simple practice. As Matt Kahn puts it, "Whatever arises, love that." Hahah.. So simple... A good way to practice this is through self-reiki. You simply unblock your energy through the Power of your hands. You become an instrument of the Divine. You don't have to do ANYTHING. Actually, the less you interfere, the better... Then... You start feeling how good it feels to heal yourself. All healings happen inside... Dude, it is going to be so beyond you. Hahahaha.... You will be amazed by the power of Love. You will feel like a child again, but have the Consciousness of an adult. But, anyway, hehe, it is a journey. You will figure things out. Actually, the Universe will figure things out. Therefore, the Universe will figure the Universe out. Hahahaha... mindfuck... Just stick to this path