Gabriel Antonio

Eloquence (from French eloquence from Latin eloquentia) is fluent, forcible, elegant or persuasive speaking. It is primarily the power of expressing strong emotions in striking and appropriate language, thereby producing conviction or persuasion. The term is also used for writing in a fluent style.

Hi, I faced a similar problem a few months ago, when I was big in the do nothing. The key point is to focus on being. Check out this topic: Hahaha, I have gotten so much better ever since that post. Psychedelics helped me a lot. But, remember, it is perfectly fine if you are thinking random shit as long as you are connected to being. Always make sure that your whole body is soft and at the same time firm. Nowadays, I have cut my meditation habit completely because I totally overdid it. After tripping on ayahuasca, I feel like I can connect to being whenever I decide to. Leo mentioned this somewhere. He said something like, "Ok. Now I am going to elevate my consciousness." And all of a sudden, you begin to feel like you are in your safety spot, the place where you can recover you energy, like in those animes like Dragon Ball, you know? Haha... Things can get better much quicker than you think. A strong community of practice is also very helpful.

I'd rather forget... This is an exercise I came up with to practice "supression," which is a mature ego defense mechanism. So here are 20 things I rather forget hahaha, so that's why I am sharing with the world. Goodness gracious, I am such a smart-ass, huh?? Anyway, I like to expose myself a bit to create some emotional impact. I ain't got time to lose. I rather forget that I have hurt so many people, betrayed them, ignored them... I rather forget that I feel trapped inside my mind... I rather forget that the divorce from my mom and dad was the most rude awakening I could ever experience... I rather forget all the negative shit my mom told me when I was a kid... I rather forget that I am actually deeply sad... I rather forget that I simply never feel good enough... I rather forget that I might be unhappy for the rest of my life. I rather forget all the judgements I have heard in my life. I rather forget that I am never tuned in to my emotions. I rather forget that I am neurotic. I rather forget that I have stopped believing in Magic I rather forget that I am shy. I rather forget that I will soon not be here on the planet. That I will be gone forever. I rather forget my childhood... I rather forget about the neverending pain that courses through my body... I rather forget that I will never be good enough, never happy with whom I am. I rather forget that I might be wasting my life... I rather forget that I am always escaping from responsibilities. My Phase: Hakuna Matata

My Experience with Kambô, the Amazonian Frog Poison [Traumatic] Hello, all! Even though I have been going pretty well on the personal development journey, I still stumble upon hurdles that I could have easily avoided. This last Saturday -- 11-6-2017 -- I decided to try out a poison from a Toad called: "Kambô." It seems as though it has become quite popular in the Bay Area. Here in Brazil it is technically prohibited, but it is very easy to find a place that does this job. If you want to read more about the general effects and benefits, you can search them online. The main principle is that this poison enters your your body, and your immune system has to work to reestablish homeostasis. Result? Boost your immune system by brute force, similarly to taking cold showers. You force your system to strengthen. But never would I think that it would be so disastarous. Prior to applying it, I had drunk more than 3 liters of water (which is the top recommendtation for having a "quick" trip). The effects were supposed to be intense but quick, only 15 minutes. But it fucking lasted for 1 day, with 2 days of after-affects. It was hell. The feeling I got was similar to what my friend was telling me about Ibugaina. Low pressure, severe fever, hypothermia, death-like feeling, and delirium. At some point, I felt as if that was a 5-MeO-DMT trip because I can't imagine anything more terryfying than that. I felt like I was going utterly mad. Lobotomy or something like that. And the worst part was that the so-called Shaman wouldn't shut up telling me that I was filled with "entities." He totally overdosed me. And the biggest problem is that, even though I was sick out of my mind, he reapplied the goddamn Kambô, saying, "I am doing this because I like you." Seriously?????? And then when that happen it was complete hell once again. I was not aware that there have been deaths related to Kambo, so I didn't panic even though I took the biggest dump of my life. Seriously, it was scary. I felt like there was an alien in my belly. And it was moving. I think this is called the peristaltic movements. Crazy-ass shit. Another problem was while I was taking a shit, I also felt like vomiting. So it was a pretty messed up situation. And you know the worst part? The fucking "Shaman" was bitching because I was staying too much in the fucking toilet. For goodness sake's, I can't stop vomiting! But anyway... I have to admit that I am feeling very sane and healthy right now. But the experience was completely traumatic and never will I repeat it. The usual dosage are 5 points. The guy gave me 7. And I am extrasensitive for everything (including yopo. I hate that shit.). In a way, this experience was good to remove my existential fear of dying. I kinda went through the process, so I feel prepared to try 5-MeO out. It can't be worse than Kambo. Technically, Kambo is not a psychedelic. But dude... it cleans the shit out of you. You feel so fragile. It is as if you got totally detoxed. Feels weird. I kinda feel sick... But very healthy in a way. Kambo is known for treating depression, cancer, addiction-recovery, panema ("bad spirits"), aids, etc. It was way more intense that I could ever imagine. Leo always warns us about these powerful substances. "You'll get your ass kicked." I wish I had heard him. START SMALL!!! But if I could sum up the whole experience would be Malaise. I hadn't felt sick like that ever since I was a child. You remember when you had the horrible fever? Well, I do. Meet this guy: This little guy will make you go down.

@Bas No, I didn't prepare at all. In fact, I ate a bunch of pizza the day before. The "shaman" told me all was needed was 3 hours of fasting and 4L of water. My woman friend also didn't prepare at all and had a pretty tranquil experience compared to mine. I don't know why that happened to me... They said I might have a disease and am unaware of it. But this is day 4th, and I am feeling very peaceful. Finally. Feels like I am in summer vacation in my childhood because I feel very relaxed in my body. It feels like someone pressed the "Reset" button in me. Hehe...

THIS! Tai Chi helps a lot to allow the energy in your body to flow more freely. Body awareness is key to quieting the mind. And not even yoga has helped gain more sovereignty over my body than Tai Chi. If you are feeling stuck, Tai Chi helps you reconnect to the natural cycle of nature, in which there is no specific effort. Instead, everything flows ininterruptly. I used to have the hardest time meditating, but now it has gotten much better! Tai Chi is a dynamic meditation, if you will. There are so many other variables that can be contributting to your unhappiness... Do you have a true friend? A final tip: learn how to breathe in your abdomen. This can save your life during a crisis. You lie down very confortably, place a folded blanket on your belly. Relax your shoulders, your jaw, and give a big sigh. Now, focus on expanding your abdomen lightly and very gently. Pay attention to the contact between the blanket and your belly. When you are doing this technique, you are taking refuge in your roots. When we go back to our roots, we feel safe. Stay there as much as you need. Thich Nhat Hahn recommends to practice this exercise daily for 5 minutes. In 2 weeks, he says, we will be able to go through emotional storms and leave unharmed. @jjer94 Thank you for sharing your experience

I think the best thing you can do after watching this video is throw yourself to the world. You will have to expose yourself, sorry. Psychedelics can ease off the discomfort, but you'll get used to it. But, sure, there are many other interesting points to be covered about social anxiety. But if I could give you one tip, it would be to take psychedelics with that specific intention: work with my feelings of shyness. You will dive deep into yourself. But I hope Leo posts a video about this subject. It is very fascinating!

@WhiteCongrats I totally related to you. I myself hate telling stories. YES! I know this feeling ahhaha... And I feel like I always break the expectation of the other person because the story never turns out to be so interesting when I say it... Well... I don't think I have helped that much hahaha... because I am basically in the same boat as you are. Some things that come to mind: - When you are telling a story, focus totally on what you are talking about and not the other person in itself. I mean, you can definitely look at the other person and so on, but don't get so distracted by their reaction. - Correct technique while talking also helps. If you speak with your neck, shoulders, and jaw tensed the story won't be appealing despite how hard you try to make it look like it. The best speaker is relaxed, just like when you are yawning. - My intuition tells me that you would benefit from a very unusual Leo's video called "How to Be Funny." The exercises he gives are pretty good, especially the one that you come up with random phrases. I feel like you have to practice spontaneity. You know, one shot, and that's it. Plus, he also gives other exercises such as visualizing yourself talking confidently. Remember: visualize to materialize. But I myself am not a big fan of visualization, but it works... What am I doing to solve this problem for myself? Theater classes. I know. I hate them. I hate exposing myself, but it is working!! I am for the first time in forever am expressing my emotions truly (I was a complete robot in the past ahahah). It is unpleasant and my ego hates doing that. I have a presentation one month from now, and it will be for freaking children. I don't know how the hell am I going to do to keep those little brats (:P) paying attention to me, so it will be a challenge. So, in a way, I feel it is a matter of practicing (tell stories despite you not liking to do so) and you can also can get some help from a professional (like a theater teacher). And the How to Be Funny video is also great. Hope anything helps... I am in this same struggle, but we'll get there

So the "pressure" you are referring to is not physical, right? Like... you don't feel any pain in your body while you're talking. Is that right? Have you ever tried affirmations?

@Leo Gura yea, Brazil. the ceremonies have lots of naive spirituality, but if you're able to filter those things out, they are amazing

You can pick up all the flowers, but you can’t stop the spring.” - Pablo Neruda Background I have been using ayahuasca for 8 months, and my life has pretty much turned from water to wine. Actually, it has turned from shit to wine, you know? Seriously… I was such a kid before I started taking. And I don’t mean this is a good thing by no means. I was extremely immature and unaware of how Nature works. Sorry to break it to you, but Nature is much more powerful than you will ever be. Your stupid ego will never come close to the true Power of Mother Nature. For this trip specifically, I set the intention of at some point during the trip imagine all areas of my life individually and visualize how can I improve each area. In other words, I decided to face all the negative situations in my life during the trip so that when I got out of it, my subconscious mind would have the right programs (or better: an update to my subconscious mind). Hehe… The theme of the ceremony was very religious in my opinion. Since it was on the Dead’s Day, the collective intention was: rescue souls from the purgatory. I understand what they mean by those “lost souls.” The thing is, these entities (which the indigenous call obsessors) are not outside but inside. After all, all of our ancestors are still alive in us. We cannot exist without the past. So the ticket for human ride includes all the Karma of previous generations. And guess what? We are our ancestors, but we don’t remember it. But…. anyway…. I wanted to avoid looking at my shadow during the trip, but that didn’t work…. Before the Trip In ayahuasca ceremonies, the people who are going to take it are usually extremely fearful and anxious. This is normal when you are not experienced with the Medicine (which is how ayahuasca is also called). However, as Leo puts on a video, your state of mind before taking any psychedelic interfere in the trip itself. So… What I decided to do was very simple: I decided to practice self-amusement. So I was basically making jokes with my friends, talking a lot with other people, and helping the shamans out. I also practiced Reiki in several people. My main idea was to release my energy before the trip. And it worked. The Trip Itself I made a huge mistake: I wanted to stay by the fire. However, it was VERY cold. When the effects of ayahuasca kicked in, I felt as if I had pnemounia. I was in a bad trip. I felt very bad. I was trying to surf through the trip, but I simply had to pull myself out of the “Force” (which is how they call when you are under the effect of ayahuasca). You have to find the most comfort spot when you are using psychedelics, guys…. Anyway, I summoned strength to go inside (even though I was tripping balls), and I decided to simply rest. I felt like I had a huge fever. The coldness from the air plus the fire caused a horrible reaction in my body. So I simply came to the grips that I was going to fuck up the trip and waste it…. A part of me thought: “The lost souls are attacking me.” This, in a way, is true. Because I felt HORRIBLE. I could feel how human beings have lived for millenia. All the comfort we have in modern society is so awesome… I also remembered what Osho said about talking about spirituality in Ethiopia. No…. First we need to take care of our basic needs… However, after some point I got better and was actually able to explore my Inner Universe Heheh… 5 Insights When you are extremely bored in your house, just distract yourself I often get hits of utter boredom in my house specially at around 7 PM… I get tense and I am not even able to browse the web, or watch a stupid movie…. Cause I get sooo bad… I simply do things SO RUSHLY. Seriously… sometimes I browse the web in such a neurotic way. Anyway… during the trip, I was picturing myself in my house when I am veeeery bored. When I was doing that, I was resisting diving deep into the feeling of boredom and loneliness and meaninglessness… However… I decided to go all the way through. What came was: simply consciously distract yourself when you are going through a storm of negative and dense emotions. Idk, call a friend, decide to watch South Park… and simply give 0 fucks about how spiritual you are. Haha… So… when bored and tensed, do not overwhelm yourself with more. Relax your body and wait for the storm to pass. This strategy is similar to what Leo talks about in the Masculine vs Feminine video. Women usually like to talk their ways through problem, while men usually like to numb themselves. I am heavily influenced by feminine energy because I grew up with my mom and sister alone. And that has definitely not worked. So… let us move the other way around. Yes… I am telling you to distract yourself. Because, really, to me consciously distracting yourself is nothing less and nothing more than practicing relaxation. You do not have to use 100% of your energy. Actually, you should never use more than 75% of your energy, even if your anxiety is telling you: “YOU SHOULD RUSH!!!!!!!!!” No. Nothing special is supposed to happen. Self-Amusement: The Key to Overcoming People-Pleasing I often forget to enjoy myself in life. I take everything so seriously. I take my ideas seriously. I take people seriously. And really… I am fucking tired of fighting social anxiety, shyness, or however you want to call it. This is just a stupid label I have accepted as truth when I was 12. “Oh…! People are telling me that I am shy. Ok… that means I am shy... “ BAM! I believed in a silly idea and that has become a self-fulfilling prophecy. However, it is so natural to have moments that you are shy… but at least in Brazil, people always point out when you are quiet. “Oh what happened????? Why are you so quiet today???” Fuck you. Haha… it is as if I am all shitted, and someone farts at me thinking that the situation will get better… Anyway… do not focus on the reaction of people… the key point is: are you enjoying yourself? If others want to share happiness with you, great! If not, fuck'em -- life goes on. I feel like self-amusement should be one of my top 10 values. It is so fun… Small Strategic Changes I don’t want to change all my life around. Instead, I want to change strategic things, and I allow myself to relax afterwards. A successful person and you basically do the same things, but there are specific actions successful people do that yield 80% of their success. Examples: > Define my Top 10 Values > Open up my voice (my throat is always tense and my voice is always concentrated on my chest area. > Set priorities Regarding instilling new small daily habits: discipline your inner child a tiny bit everyday, and then let your innocence play. Finish. Period. Accept Hell Accept chaos. You do not need to throw away anything. The Universe knows what it is doing. So even if you are going through hell, realize that it is part of the purification process. If you can be with the chaos and the emotional discomfort with equanimity, it is just a matter of time before you see yourself feeling in Heaven. Life is tricky… it works a lot with contrasts. For example, give a big grin. A huge and forced smile as much as you can. Ok. Now, go the other way around. Totally sad and notice that your mouth goes go all the way down. In other words, a huge smile and a huge frown coexist. The happy face cannot exist without the sad face. Btw - one of the minor insights I had was to allow myself to make more facial expressions, even if they are “negative.” So really frown my eyebrows and lift my them up when I feel like, I am secretly scared of getting facial expressions... Just STICK To This Path Leo usually says that at the end of his videos. Now I understand why he talks so much about that. Your transformation will be totally beyond you. In fact, you will notice that you stop existing after you have clean yourself from all the shit you have build up ever since you were a child. When you empty yourself, Nature starts working through you. Simple as that. So, in a way, just focus on immersing yourself so that your subconscious mind learn through “osmosis.” That is why is so important to have a community of real friends who are more experienced practitioners. Just by being in the presence of some individuals, you learn things on an energetic level. Anyway, the greatest mistake you could do is take yourself too seriously and worry too much about how you are feeling now, today. Do not focus so much on the present moment. Focus more on your vision. So you change your self-talk: How You Can Change Your Self-Talk >>>>>>> When you change yourself truly, when Nature enters you; you simply feel good. You do not have to prove that you are feeling good. You simply have released your pent up energy, and now you are allowing Nature to work through you. You become a channel of “Divine Will” (as Matt Kahn puts it). Remember: awareness alone is curative. You ain't need to do anything. At some point it will become so obvious that a bad behavior is doing you harm, but you got to be willing to allow yourself to make mistakes. Otherwise, you break the cycle. And you become a slave of your bad habits. Why? Because you repressed them, and when they come back... they come in nastier forms. So... don't hold yourself back. Leo said in a video: We learn by fucking up. That is pretty much true. I am planning to write a trip report of a ceremony I went 4 months ago that I simply embarrassed the shit out of me and basically destroyed the ritual for everyone. I got kicked out from that place, but at least I experienced what it is like to be completely rejected and criticized. Hehe... If I keep doing all the shit I am doing, I am set for good... Cold showers, ayahuasca ceremonies, daily habit of affirmation, meditation group, Tai Chi, prioritize my work, participate in volunteer programs for children, and cultivate good friendships. I have built momentum to do so much shit... I am set for good. Haha It is just a matter of time… My next adventure to practice radical action will be taking Kambô, a venom poison that cleanses your whole body. I will write a report of it when I take it (this week or the other). “You can pick up all the flowers, but you can’t stop the spring.” - Pablo Neruda

@Leo Gura Thanks for the support! No, I always take it in ceremonies. I have found a place 2 hours from my house that has ceremonies 2x a month and has a top-quality ayahuasca, and it only costs R$50 (= US$20) per ceremony. To give a small glimpse of what a modern shamanic ayahuasca ceremony is, you might want to check out this video: The environment is very high consciousness. Everything is designed to give the best experience possible. Plus, it is perfect for making good friends and also for dating, because there are a a lot of beautiful and high-consciousness women in those ceremonies. The ritual lasts from 4-8 hours usually. And it is in complete silence. So those places are great for people with social anxiety (like me). You open yourself up during the trip in solitude; then, afterwards, you are feeling wonderfully and highly social. You can also buy the ayahuasca and they deliver it by mail, but it is the same price as going to ceremonies. My plan is to brew it in UDV next January. I think that @ajasatya has experience with that. I think that when you help them brew it, you get to take some ayahuasca home. I would love that ahhaha... I feel like using it every week if I could. Ayahuasca ceremonies are like a huge high-consciousness party. But they do not recommend taking it weekly, because you lose the visuals after a while of constant use. However, many indigenous use ayahuasca like people in the US smoke pot. everyday, multiple times a day... Btw - The throwing up effect feels amazing for me. Seriously, it feels as if you are throwing up a fucking demon hahaha. It comes from the bottom of the abdomen. In Brazil, there are also rituals of Shrooms and San Pedro... @Nahm Yes... but a lot of us are totally disconnected from nature. Even though Trump is also nature, but he is a very fucked-up nature. Like a very polluted river. I got no interest in that.

Enlightenment, hello????

YES! Thank you! That's because your chest has become like a dirty basement. Haha... When you get accustomed to breathing from the belly, you will go: "Holy shit! How come have I never used this area??" To me, deep breaths helps me in the beginning of pranayamas to center myself. I usually take only 3 vigorous breaths. But then, as I practice the pranayama, the natural tendency is that the breath becomes more and more relaxed and calm. Thank you for the post!

@Lynnel okay, fine. but incorrect technique can cause to a lot of damage. seriously, if you're going to do solo without any guidance, you are most guarantee to fail. if you are like most people who have almost zero body awareness, you will mess it up.

Hi guys, I have been doing really great with the psychedelic trips. I feel more curious in general. I really got a thirst for knowledge hehe... Anyway... what I want to share here is my intentions short term, medium term, and long term. Ok... let's start with the short term intention. Duration: 1 week Just keep the rhythm flowing... So I am going to focus on not getting paralyzed by mistakes but instead to keep flowing, keep playing the music despite the wrong notes. Hehe... This intention was inspired by me learning how to play atabaque. It is so freaking funny to see that Life has a tempo, you know? That you got to keep the rhythm... you are totally allowed to slow down, but you gotta keep the tempo going... or else... BAM... you get totally out-of-sync with reality... I am going to experiment this week to focus on the musicality of life, the constant rhythm that is ever present in all activities. You know, you are always in the Present... you just don't know it. Hahaha... But anyway... the important thing is to always flow, you know? Fuck right notes, just focus on the rhythm. If you want to hear more about this topic, check this video out: medium term intention: Duration: the full cycle of this moon (20-30 days) Soft but firm So... I learned in Tai Chi this awesome concept that you should always maintain your body soft but at the same time firm. It is the perfect balance, tending more to softness than firmness... Hehehe... It is like Capoeira.... You gotta loosen up... Long term intention Duration: Life Purpose Overcome my own shyness and help others do the same by me embodying Tranquility. seriously this life purpose has been putting every little weed in perspective... all the nasty details that happen in the small picture...! but... when I remember my life purpose (aka, long term intention), I get more energy... It is amazing... Hehe... So this is it... I feel grounded with those intentions on the back of my mind so that I can always pull them up when I need some guidance, you know? Hehe... We get so freakin' lost... HAhahahaha... The path is so simple. It is the path of relaxation. The person who is more relaxed wins... Hahah... You are totally unaware of how tense your body currently is... It is CRAZY, lemme tell ya... But anyway... remember that there is always room to relax a bit more, but remember that your spine should always be erect. And, of course, the shoulders should remain loosy-goosy. Hehe..

my new intention : have fun 18-10 to 26-10 right wrist red bracelet let us see this shit hahaha...

I have experience with that. Part of what we call "spiritual awakening" is in reality a sharpening of our senses. In my first awakening experience (2015), I became highly sensitive through the practice of yoga. I was also smoking cannabis in a ritualistic way. Dude... I became highly aware of everything. Very alive, you know? I was so freaking mindful... Anyway... what blocked me in my "monk phase" was the fact that I got aversed to the world. That is, I would not be able to desensitize. Therefore, I was picking up on everybody's vibes; I would think everything was personal... It wasn't looking good... I was becoming the environment... So imagine what type of energy I was embodying... The lowest kind. Let me share with you my story. I had my first big samadhi in nature. Then, I went directly to the chaotic city of Santa Rosa (which is literally in total chaos right now due to firings). When I was in nature, I had that profound and mystical experience. I became extremely sensitive. This is great! You gotta be tune in to your senses fully to savor the details of life. But... the problem was I did not know how to turn off that sensitivity button. And trust me, sometimes we simply gotta numb ourselves... especially when we are in a busy city. Otherwise, it is simply too much stimuli... we are not supposed to handle so much... Our number 1 obligation is with ourselves. Period. Fuck other people and fuck the world Long story short, I wanted to sustain a samadhi experience in the city, but I did not have enough foundation to do so. So instead of feeling Absolute Peace, I was in a complete chaos. Why? Because I became everything, yet I still needed emotional healing. so I was projecting my own pain onto the world around me. So I feel like what I could have done is to simply take it easy and... seek emotional support before it is too late. I am not saying to go to a psychologist nor a psychiatrist. Solution: What helped me the most was a meditation group I go to every week at the local park. Some folks there have been meditating for more than 20 years. So they know what they're talking about. And... it is almost impossible to get crazy when you have a strong sangha. This means, going to the meeting every single week. To me, group meditation is much more important than solo meditation. Sure, group meditation is not enough by itself. But at least you get some emotional support, which is what 99% of the world desperately needs. I feel like the best way to deal with so-called psychiatric disorders is to own them. I owned my paranoia hahaha. Now it works on my behalf. I also owned my shyness. Your inner demons can become your inner guides. Haha.. Strangely enough, I owned paranoia through psychedelics. In some trips, I have gone SO FUCKING CRAZY that I am just not afraid anymore. I have seen the worst. And it ain't that scary, seriously... So it turns out my "self-referential and psychosis" crisis were actually a part of me that needed healing right away. It could not wait any longer. So right now, in 2017, I am working on building a strong foundation so that I can handle the Infinite Power that I saw that it is readily available for us right in the present fucking moment. Not in 10 years of hardcore meditation. Not with 100 psychedelic trips. Nah, nah... Right now... But anyway... sometimes we simply cannot see the miracle right before our eyes, but it is there... It has always been there, and it will always be there. Ha... whether you "believe" in it or not... But, anyway, my point is that there are some basic things you should keep in mind... Some red flags for False Awakenings: - You are not taking care of your basic needs (not brushing your teeth for example) - You are being extremely harsh and rigid with yourself and others - Huge neurosis (A lot of pain, and it feels like you are not easing them. It feels like you are the one causing that pain to build up.) Anyway... we do not need to awake quickly. This ain't a race. To me, freakouts happens to people who are attached to perfectionism. Spiritual obedience is a fucking joke... God is always laughing his ass off... Just look at the fucking sun. BOOM! But anyway... this is a touchy subject. It is really weird to stay sane when you are one with your college professor. Hahaha... seriously.... it is fucking weird. That happened to me in 2015... I was sitting in class and then... BAM! I was the whole room. Hahahaha... it is super fun if you can handle that. If you are mentally weak (like I was)... it is freaking scary as fuck! Hahahahaha.... The main point is don't take it all so seriously... It is a joke after all... And nothing special is supposed to happen. If you are going through a rough moment on your spiritual journey: > slow the fuck down > watch stupid shows on netflix with a sloppy posture > binge on your favorite food without guilt Remember: not taking showers and being mean to people have nothing to do with spiritual awakening hahha... self-torture is the opposite of True Freedom (a.k.a., enlightenment)... I feel like the worst thing you can do is to play the role of a depressed person, or a schizophrenic person. I have met many perfectly healthy people who act out on a stupid role of a disorder. The schizophrenic guy. The depressed girl. The shy teenager. > You are much more than labels. You are everything. So do not limit yourself. < At the same time, learn how to tame your inner-dragon. If it is totally out of control, turn it off completely until it is not overwhelming you any longer. Then, start again... Hahahaha... that is a very subjective subject In essence, the inner dragon has to work on your behalf. You are the boss here, okay? 4LL Y0U N33D 1S L0V3 8D 8) ;D IDK if anything that I wrote makes sense... but I felt an urge to share... Stay safe children

i have fallen in love with Reiki. i want to be on reiki mode 24/7 hahahahah because it feels so amazing and pure... heart-centered Awakening!!!!!!

@Emerald thank you for taking so much time and energy to write this! wow!!! lots of useful insights hehe

Great topic! I have also experienced with releasing way too much emotional baggage. You can go nuts. The thing is, guys, you cannot brute force healing. My experience with breathing techniques is that I can become highly neutoric in trying to solve every tiny problem in my life, you know? Anyway, a healing tool that has been MUCH more effective than breath-work is Reiki. It is so simple, yet so gentle and effective. Haha... Anyway... Breath-work is extremely delicate. Therefore, you NEED someone to guide you. Otherwise, you will mess up with your whole energetic system. Haha.. Yoga classes are also great to release some emotional baggage. But I do not mean "gym-yoga". I am referring here to "spiritual yoga." Hahaha... Or energetic yoga... IDK... To me, those breathing exercises can be somewhat neurotic. Seriously... if you mess up with pranayamas (aka breathing exercises), you will most likely cause a brain damage. Check out this article, yoga-freaks hahaha: http://swamishivapadananda.typepad.com/swami_shivapadananda/2010/10/danger-of-excessive-pranayama-yoga-breathing.html I have never done this holotropic breathwork. I checked some things on youtube. It seems very similar to what I am studying. Let me repeat something: you can cause brain damage. It is no use doing spiritual practices if you are not rooted in Love. I would say the safest way to go is through Reiki. But do whatever your body is telling you. Hehe...

Wow!!! You can sense the power of Consciousness in you hahahaha. You have tasted from the Source, haven't you? Hahahahhaa... Congratulations!!! You are a unique form of God.

Simples as that...