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2016, oct 9th healthy meals happiness sharing bike rides meditation self-inquiry & dharma contemplation deep talks compassive listening actualized.org contributions today i gave a free yoga class to a woman. she's on her 50's and we've been doing this for a while. she has 3 herniated discs but she feels MUCH better now. her flexibility and muscle strength are increasing and she's becoming younger. her eyes shine! after the yoga class i also taught her the practice of zazen. we practiced together. she said that it was hard but she also acknowledged the fact that zazen is what she needs. then i headed to meet a friend of mine. we ate açaí while he was talking about some bad stuff that was happening to him and his parents. i just listened to him. there's nothing much to do in these kinds of situation. i just listened with all my body. in the end he said that he wanted to practice meditation and i invited him to the daissen-ji sangha, which meet on mondays. then i came back home and invited the ashram residents to a free-style meditation in the darkness. there's no form to grasp. just sit and observe whatever happens. i could feel from bliss to agony. pretty interesting! i watched leo's new video and i was amazed by his extensive accuracy. incredible video! then we went to a free choro concert near by. it was AMAZING! the musicians were so good. my perception of reality went kinda crazy but it felt good. i love the impersonal and meaningless taste of reality. i continued the actualized.org subtitle work. it's going to be a long run!

2016, oct 7th and 8th meditation happiness sharing bike rides actualized.org contributions self-inquiry & dharma contemplation healthy meals deep talks after working quite a lot on leo's vid subtitles, i spent these days with my girlfriend. she's simply amazing and i'm so grateful for having such a person walking by my side.

you hesitate to give yourself a meaningless name and start introducing yourself with that for a long period of time (1+ year). where does that feeling come from? would you face this leap of identity detachment for real? i mean, can you do it TODAY? why wouldn't you?

you can just pick a simple name right now and start visiting meditation centers around with it. it's fun!

yes. i've been in the present moment for almost 1 year. it's the end of suffering.

i can only talk for myself. the way i solved this was leaving home and learning how to enjoy my life. as i kept going further, i found more people that enjoyed their lives. those who are actually nice to be with are those who enjoy their lives. and people like that value being surrounded by people who enjoy their lives. so the best i can do is enjoy my life. everything else just flows easily. we're not special because of the knowledge we have. we're special because we're alive and we can appreciate it.

i feel exactly like that because i follow an academic career in the computer science field. everything flows so softly. my rhythm is so slow and i have time to live well. in 2014 i was selfish and ambitious and it hurt me a lot.

2016, oct 7th healthy meals self-inquiry & dharma contemplation insights university career investment yogasanas meditation happiness sharing on the bus to the university i had an insight about the function of a spiritual name. my birth name is arthur and my spiritual name is iago. most people, after receiving a spiritual name either start to develop an aversion for the birth name or continue attached to it. i introduce myself as iago but some people still call me arthur. some people ask me which one i prefer and i tell them to pick one of them. as a result, i found out that having a spiritual name and not developing attachment nor aversion to it can be a strong vehicle to dismantle ego-identities master class was pretty good. we're learning some ninja tricks about the gaussian. its funny because the professor is italian, the class is spoken in english and we're brazilian. on my way back home i had an insight about the pathless path. after a certain point, we have to quit following masters. when we finally understand the importance of the direct experience, it becomes the only thing that matters and we have to learn our way to induce our own direct experience. i paid the zen retreat fee! i'm in! it's going to be fun the yoga class was wonderful. the teacher conduced us through asanas that are perfect for me. it hurts but the changes in my body are visible. i can feel the healing process and it motivates me. after the yoga class, a guy started to ask me about zen and enlightenment. he has so many beliefs and it's very confusing for him. i taught zazen to him then i tried to give him an idea of what enlightenment really is. he was very grateful but he's still lost in confusion. it didn't feel like it was really his moment for a sincere ego seeking trip. after that, i started to play with paper airplanes and soap bubbles with two persons who live here in the ashram. we had an amazing time hahaha! being part of the actualized.org community makes me even happier!

@jse nah, that's not the proper way to use a spiritual name as a tool for enlightenment. you should not attribute meanings to it otherwise you're just creating another self-image. if you adopt a name that means nothing special, it's the best one. and having people that call you by your birth name and by your spiritual name is the best context. your identity will dissolve quicker.

yes, but it's not enough. it's also necessary a radical shift on your life to a extremely simple and minimalist way of living. you need to eliminate worries. a spiritual name can be useful too. i'm making a post about it on my journal today.

@Canadian i cannot tell you. it cannot be told. you have to experience it and learn from your direct experience. you are your own knower. if someone comes by with a broken heart, it's possible to get help in this forum. but if you're asking us how to live your life, we're going to tell you to live it fully.

@Canadian i observe 6 situations the guy totally objectifies the girl and the experience is quite superficial. he does not become attached to her the guy respects the girl and the experience is a little bit deeper. because he's pretty mature, he does not become attached the guy respects the girl and the experience is a little bit deeper. he does become attached but he is not aware of it yet the guy respects the girl and has a true admiration for her. he does become attached and it's easy to see it the guy respects the girl and has a true admiration for her. because he's VERY mature, he does not become attached to her the guy idolizes the girl. he will be attached for sure basically, the more we (men) actually admire the girl and the less mature we are, the more attached we will be.

i've had 2 experiences with ayahuasca and they felt great, but only because i was already 100% healed. what i learned was that you have to know what you're "seeing" with ayahuasca. when you drink it you go very deep into your thought process and you will live your thoughts as if they were real but you'll be actually dreaming. ayahuasca can heal people because people are so distracted that they can't spot their own lies. ayahuasca will show you everything that you're attached to including unconscious memories that still hurt you but you don't even notice. if you plan to drink ayahuasca, i recommend developing a trustworthy "let go" mindset.

@isabellc you have to be extremely sincere every time. tell him everything. tell him about your feelings. tell him about the reason you're married with him. always keeping eye contact. this is very practical and pragmatic. find all the sincerity inside you. it might hurt a lot but it will make you stronger. you may spot your own lies and it would make you feel bad. but it is necessary. go deep. deeeeep. have a profound life. try to get in touch with the truth inside you everyday. every moment.

imho, leo's mistake was saying that he'd go for the 5meodmt experience instead of the 3 years of enlightenment pursuit. as i understand, those 3 years of pursuit were fundamental for him to understand what happened on the 5meodmt experience. the 5meodmt is not a shortcut. it is just another part of his path.

of course it's possible. whatever happens, you have to experience it for yourself. my words are worth nothing. do it

yes, they can, because they're not the laws of nature. they're just an attempt to describe reality with thought process.

yes and no. yes because it will help a lot. no because it's not enough. what we call "addictions" are just habits that we judge as being harmful for us and/or for people around us. you have to go further. you have to fill your life with habits that you judge as being healthy for you and/or for people around you. meditation is just one habit, but you cannot live by sitting forever. this section may be useful for you. if you feel like doing it, let us know of your transformation. use your determination to inspire.

we practice hatha yoga (the physical part) so that we can develop a healthy spine and a solid meditative body posture. hatha yoga is just a step. maybe the easiest one.

@Xpansion @Naviy beautiful words. deeply human and kingly sincere. i could feel the connection with those feelings just by reading your reports.

inspiring... makes me wonder if i can do it too!

what's "falling in love"? going into more details, the problem appears when your happiness starts to depend on that external factor, that external satisfaction. you can diagnose this situation by paying attention to your thoughts. if you start demanding things from her (even just mentally) it means that you're starting to create your own suffering.

2016, oct 5th healthy meals happiness sharing zen passo a passo maturation actualized.org contributions yogasanas meditation self-inquiry & dharma contemplation ashram duties profound happiness insight today i sent an e-mail confirming my presence on the zen retreat that will happen in november, then i prepared the material for today's zen passo a passo zazen session. the theme was full expression and we read the second chapter of this book. more subtitles in pt-br for leo's video! the entire video will take a while! but translating it is quite an experience because i get to study it in more details and learn more. today i worked really hard at it. the yoga teacher did not come, so i prepared an special yoga class for myself. i only worked things that are insanely hard and painful for me. the lower portion of my spine is too dense and its shape is wrong, preventing me from performing many asanas properly. i want to fix it. the zen passo a passo encounter went well. the sangha is progressing together and it's extremely satisfying. after that i had a deep conversation with my girlfriend about full awareness and the truth. then i accompanied her to her home. when i came back to the ashram, i cleaned the meditation hall and came to my bedroom. here i just had a very honest feeling of gratitude. i don't have a car. i'm not a genius. i do not own my own place to sleep. my bike is very simple. i have 10 sets of clothes. my smartphone is very simple and i barely use it. my computer is 6 years old. i'm not handsome. my state of peace doesn't depend on faith. i don't drink. i don't smoke. i don't watch porn, nor do i masturbate. and yet, it feels like i'm the happiest person in this world!

nice! i had to do it too. i implemented all this from scratch... even the graphics

my recommendation is to use your sexual energy for something else instead. meditation, body work, consciousness expansion etc. if you have sex just for satisfaction, you will miss the main point of it, which is connection. deep connection.