ajasatya

It doesn't work like that. Your life right now is a consequence of an infinitely long and complex chain of events. Everything and everyone is your past reincarnation, for you're not an individual in the most fundamental level... you're the Universe itself living through many forms. I'll give you an example. Suppose that the father of a small boy commits suicide and the experience is so traumatic that the boy grows mentally disturbed. What if that disturbed adult has a child? It's very likely that the child will grow under the toxic influence of his/her disturbed father. And nobody in this tragic story is a reincarnation of someone in particular. Rather, they're all the same Entity living different perspectives, thinking that they are individuals.

@Khron Angry? Good. Now let go or you'll be repeating the same mistake, as in looking back at your 38 y/o self and regretting for wasting so much time and energy with anger. Instead, do something about it. Appreciate your life NOW.

@Pernani If you want to master something, manage to be so good at it that you can teach it. If you can't teach something, it means that you haven't mastered it yet. But the main trap in this approach is hypocrisy. If you don't embody/apply what you say on your own life, it smells.

Solipsism has nothing to do with awakening. It's just another mental game.

@Mezanti Do It!

I'd recommend the Yamas and Niyamas from Yoga + The Noble Eightfold Path from Buddhism. Those 2 ensemble well. Confusing? Try those and you will notice a lot of resistance arising.

Human beings are the planet earth thinking, speaking and typing on the internet.

@arlin If you want to speed up the process, carry out a light emotional state, smile (for real), wish happiness for EVERYONE around you (parents included) and be a servant. These practices should trigger a lot of unconscious toxic patterns.

Stop thinking that you don't have a normal life. This silent agony is more common than you think. Virtually everyone is a piece of suffering flesh, specially those who put a lot of effort to look happy. That's normal life: a series of days of sorrow and despair. If you want to get out of the mud, you will have to live an extraordinarily anormal life. The first step is questioning every single belief about what it means to be happy. You absorbed those as you grew up, which is expected. Now it's time to free yourself.

@EricHanefi Because there's no way out. Arising as Consciousness experiencing itself is a spontaneous and unstoppable mark of existence. The only option is to learn how to embrace and appreciate this absurd phenomenon called Life.

@VeganAwake Can you ever get away from it or you just think you do?

@CreamCat It's not that simple. You can be an asshole as you speak the truth. The truth can hurt people, depending on how you say it. You can say it politely, gently and calmly or you can just say it without taking the feelings of others into consideration. Tenderness is far more advanced than simply not lying.

@Alex bliss Isn't that a desire per se?

@Kiko Therapy can be very helpful with phobias.

@kieranperez Good call. Keep it up! You're onto something

@Alex bliss Their own cravings for violence and sadistic practices are already strong forms of suffering.

@Raptorsin7 That's good. Expand your social network. Make true friends. Eventually you'll find someone that's worth sharing intimacy with.

@Raptorsin7 Go to yoga workshops, classes, retreats etc.

@mandyjw Adyashanti

@mandyjw In the Zen tradition, there's a huge distance from Kensho to Samadhi. One can have Kenshos very early but still be vulnerable to emotional/conceptual drawbacks. And this also happens in this community. Samadhi is when you master Kensho as well as a lot of other things (emotional mastery included). For this more advanced stuff I'd recommend listening to more experienced practitioners. By more experienced I mean people with 40+ years of experience.

I'm sorry to say this but you're already failing by building up expectation. "I'm afraid this is going to be another failed attempt". BEEEEEMP. And you're still resisting it by postponing it. There is no future meditation. You will never meditate tomorrow. You can only meditate now. I'm done for now. Good luck.

@aklacor727 Here's a clue for you: the mind will always come up with reasons not to meditate, regardless of your context. Why is that? Because meditation scares the mind. Deep meditation is the cessation of the mental turbulence. And you, as someone still highly attached to the mental activities, will be tempted to skip it every time. Believe me... even if you lived in an isolated place with the perfect conditions to practice meditation, you'd still find your way out to avoid practicing it. This is why you gotta make a counter-intuitive move. Just sit in meditation right now. Even if it's for 5 minutes. It doesn't need to be on the ground. Or hell, just close your eyes and do one cycle of mindful breathing. Breathe in and breathe out slowly as you feel your muscles stretch. Why the ceremony?

@Mikael89 Pardon. Hell, just as you described, exists because our society is not ready to raise new human beings in a healthy way yet. Maybe in 200~250 years from now emotional openness will be something we will be teaching our kids since very young ages so they won't grow as wounded or emotionally blocked adults. And just to pinpoint it, your chances of reaching Truth are virtually zero as long as your heart is so rigid and your're stuck in the mind. I was where you are and I guarantee you that the best approach is to own your struggle and to cleanse all that hatred and violent way of thinking.

@aklacor727 What would stop you from sitting in meditation for 10 minutes right now?

@Alex bliss Hell is: craving, attachment, violence, neediness, distractions etc. It might be a lot closer than you think. Or maybe you're already living in it?