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@winterknight Is it possible for someone to fully awaken to their true nature (enlightenement), but still have suicidal thoughts — or even to commit/die by suicide? I pondered upon this question several times because I assume that serious mental health conditions are similar to that of diseases like cancer or diabetes, in that one cannot simply get rid of that human condition simply by just knowing their true nature. Or is it still plausible to say that once one is awakened, the thought or action of suicide becomes completely irrelevant to them and it would be impossible to happen?

Just to have a better sense of where you are right now, have you taken any psychedelics recently?

@Inliytened1 Thank you <3 My heart is opening up, even how I relate to people has had a profound impact alone. I’m here for this. There’s no option for turning back!

I meditate lying down most of the time. Is God judging my lazy ass?

Amen. As Jesus also said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light if life.” -John 8:12

@Conrad Thank you. What do you see yourself doing now? Will you “marinate” in your discovery and take a break from mundane life? Or will you continue to “chop wood, carry water” as before?

Well... I was with my sister and mom in the same room. Out of nowhere I found myself explaining what consciousness is to them. My sister rebuked my claims, unsurprisingly, but I kept my calm and defended my claim. Then, as I was listening to my mom speak, my sense of identity slowly disappeared, but I was precisely aware of this entire process. As I was still looking at my mom, there was clearly saw no separation. My mom, my sister, the words coming out of my mouth, were all just... happening. I felt an immense peace like I was a child again, and I got out of my chair to hug my mom and sister for the first time in since I was a kid (I am 23 now). I didn’t feel any resistance or ego while all this occurred. Tears rolled out my eyes because I realized everything I was searching for was right where I was all along.

I had a short, but profound direct experience of no mind a few days ago. My mind slowly creeped back in after that. Should I accept that this, too, is a grace from God; that everything I thought I knew was just an illusion? Or is this illusion also just a part of an endless illusion? My mind feels lost, perplexed, obsessed, and fearful. But I’m also thankful that I made it this far.

Once you transcend and become God, can you willingly lower yourself to lower states of consciousness (with all its identifications, fear, judgements, etc.) just for fun?

Are you considering creating a Love Course?

Yes, work on your mental barriers, but don’t put a limited belief that you can’t have awakening experiences until you master your worldly hang-ups. You’ve already made your choice not to accept the Truth in doing so. I’ve had plenty of awakening experiences while still having multiple “mental disabilities” by society’s standards.

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I second this. In the beginning, I was super arrogant and did things more than I could handle. Psychedelics will teach you directly what you are and are not ready for. But don’t let those setbacks weigh you down too much... The more you learn the inner workings of yourself, the more authentic confidence you’ll discover and your life will flow more intuitively.

I had a mystical experience while lying down in bed and I felt my heart pounding because I knew what was happening. I entered the black hole and I freaked the eff out. I couldn’t sufficiently let go and I instead I jumped out of bed in fear that I would die. I have a lot of personal baggage that needs to be worked on. But what am I supposed to take of this mystical experience???

I want to ask this question specifically to Leo, but anyone can answer based on their own experience. I know Leo has advocated strict behavior changes (such as cutting off TV, eating healthy, minimizing lifestyle, etc). After enlightenment, however, can your personal life all of a sudden become less rigid? For example, before enlightenment one might have avoided all junk food and TV 99% of the time. Do most people after enlightenment simply drop those rules or take them a lot less seriously? Not to say that one will start binging on junk food and watch TV all day, but they no longer mind eating junk food once a week or rekindling a friendship with someone they used to label as toxic.

In my personal life I’ve basically avoided politics (mostly out of not caring and not thinking that I can make a difference). As I’ve been growing my consciousness, however, I’ve been a more concerned citizen and have taken some action steps such as changing what brands I buy from and by signing petitions that aim to change our current social conditioning. I’ve noticed that Leo has been more vocal about how politics works on his blog. I would love for Leo to make an episode or even a series on how to get involved with politics in a high conscious way. That includes what traps and information to avoid, as well as what actions we can take individually to have the best impact.

For the past couple of days I was dealing with a slight, annoying pain on my left arm (starting from below my shoulder down through the front bicep). It got me to realize that it is important to not neglect our posture, especially for us who work behind a computer most hours of the day. Here are some things that I have either been doing, or want to make a conscious effort to do on a regular basis: A solid strength training program, even with just resistance bands. One of my goals when I was a teenager was to be a bodybuilder and to perfect my nutrition. Those days are gone, and I’ve become more balanced. I believe that you don’t have to be a super-serious bodybuilding gym-rat to get the benefits that strength training provides. I will integrate that back into my life soon. I have a small adjustable desk stand that can, for example, hold a tablet or laptop; I believe that alternating between sitting and standing sessions is beneficial - instead of just sitting all the time. For every hour of inactivity/staying static, do a light exercise for one minute (walking, jump rope, push ups, etc.) I learned this from using my Apple Watch. The Watch literally buzzes me every hour that I am inactive, and so I set a timer for a minute and do a light activity. Here is a really good article that I found about dealing and preventing hand, wrist, and arm pain. Don’t wait until it happens to you! Best to educate ourselves and to build strong habits to prevent our bodies from degrading earlier than it has to otherwise. Other healthy habits: The 20-20-20 rule (I discovered this through an Acuvue e-newsletter): for every 20 minutes you stare at a computer/phone screen, turn your attention away at an object/scene 20 feet away. Do that for 20 seconds. Make sure you put night shift mode on your electronics at least an hour before your set bedtime. My devices are automatically set to do this. This can prevent the blue light from reducing your melatonin production, which can help you fall asleep faster. Newer version of iOS and Android have features that help limit your phone/internet use. I have my iPad and iPhone set to block most of my apps at 8:15pm sharp, and my Bedtime is set to 9:15pm (Bedtime automatically puts my devices on Do Not Disturb and blocks all notifications from showing up, even on the lock screen). These are powerful tools, but I am guilty (as I’m sure most people are) of giving myself more time (yes, you can conveniently just click on the “Ignore” button). I will have to discipline myself to not click on the ignore button 90+% of the time. Anyone else have experience with pain due to poor posture? Any other healthy habits that you’ve guys integrated that has helped prevent health issues from our modern computer and smartphone use?

I do not think so. Which one are you referring to?

Discovered this article yesterday. I honestly respect him a lot more after he opened up about this. Our society is waking up at a rapid pace. https://www.billboard.com/articles/columns/hip-hop/8490421/kanye-west-twitter-tweetstorm-drake-mental-illness-health-bipolar-new-music

Yes, I need to get back into that more... Right, most were very supportive. A couple I felt weren’t as receptive, but that’s not under my control.

This whole journey is amazing. Ever since I got into personal development at the age of 18 (I’m now 22), I have slowly but surely unraveled my deep rooted addictions and secrets. It’s still a long way to go, but opening up has been a huge milestone for me. I was recently given a proper diagnosis for what I’ve been struggling with in secret. It’s called “transvestic disorder”. For those interested in reading a little about it, I will put a link here . This is a sexual disorder, so I must warn that some people might find it to be a pretty sensitive topic. Here is the letter I originally wrote to my uncle, but I also decided to share with other members of my family. I also decided to share it with those who are open to reading it. I am happy to also answer any questions or to clarify anything that seems vague. ——— So to make this as simple as possible for the time being... One of the deep rooted issues I have been faced with since I was 13 is what I believe is called a fetishistic disorder, or paraphilia. Basically, the only thing that gives me sexual arousal are some specific fetishes. It is true that at this point in my life, my libido is nearing its peak. So although having a fetish exclusively is, to my knowledge, rare, it shouldn’t be an issue if it is healthy and balanced with other parts of my life. The issue for me, however, is that these fetishes have become a main obsession for me and has caused a lot of distress throughout the years. I did not start opening up about this seriously until I was 17, because I did not know the extent of the issue nor did I even know what was going on. So I spent a few years struggling with it on my own. To explain how bad this issue is - an example I could give is I could spent almost an entire day just fantasizing about the fetish, and the main way I would do that is spend hours on online chatrooms secretly talking about my fetish to multiple women. The reason I spend hours on it is because I’m trying to get a “sexual response” that would arouse me, but of course since this is a unique fetish, getting a sexual response that would satisfy me would take a very long time. Not to mention I’m doing it in secret, so the other person doesn’t even know I’m trying to get a sexual response out of them. This of course... this all cumulated into years of personal battling with myself and becoming more and more addicted. I am still faced with this issue to this day, but I’ve slowly gotten better ever since I opened up about it. I have also become much more aware of what it is, and what triggers me. I have shared a little bit about my fetish with a few therapists, my parents and sister, [other relatives], along with some online acquaintances. This issue I’m dealing with, along with other mental illnesses of course, is not well known, so the responses I have been given have mostly been just listening to what I have to say and being given the best advice they know with the current knowledge we have now. I did have one therapist who taught me some techniques to catch myself from getting caught up in those obsessive thoughts, but it is extremely difficult to use the techniques consistently when the obsession has become so automatic and powerful. There is no magic cure for what I am going through; only medications and hard work has been shown to lessen the obsessions. However, I am now actively seeking therapy and proper medication management to get the best treatment for me. The best I can do now is to better myself and learn from all of these experiences so that, in time, this will not have complete control over me. Me being honest and sharing this with others has also been a huge part of my recovery. So thank you for listening. I will keep you updated on my progress; the ups and the downs.

Yes I have sent it to them already. Was it necessary? I don’t think so. But I opened up about something I’ve kept hidden for such a long time, I don’t think I could have bottled it up anymore. The fetish is causing me distress, but I am learning how to express it/let it be without it becoming an addiction issue anymore.

https://www.wsj.com/articles/the-new-science-of-psychedelics-1525360091?Paid&nan_pid=1863953623&ad_id=7972769

I am also an addict. Thank you for sharing.