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Haha yes! Music for me on a psychedelic is like focusing this powerful energy into a laser beam that I can direct with precision into nondual insight. For me without art what's the point of this work? Without sharing it's beauty?

I had ego death (to some degree at least) after smoking weed at the peak of an LSD trip (250ug). If you don't know, weed shoots the experience through the roof. It's supposed to be more gentle on LSD but I'm honestly not sure. For me the experience felt terrifying initially, but then beautiful. Initially it felt like I was completely losing my mind, dying and entering some black hole. This must be the classic "void" talked about in Zen. So much emotion came up that felt like it was bottled up over so many years, an explosion of tears followed, so much pain releasing as my ego was fading, it was incredibly therapeutic. What followed were moments of pure infinite light that consumed my being. It's like your essence is melting into your experience and conforming to it; as if the universe were a blank canvas, you were the paint in a bucket, and the psychedelic grabs that bucket and throws the paint onto the canvas creating the entire universe (a weird description I know). I also saw this "infinite mirror" of buddhas surrounding the sun which was really fucking cool aha. Hopefully that gives you some idea of where to reach without sounding too convoluted. I'd say anything under 200ug is unlikely to produce ego death. If you see the void, go into it as much as you possibly can, if you see the white light, surrender completely. It'll pay off big time. You can also act like the psychedelic is some spirit that you're respectively bowing to and asking for insight (in a non-clingy way). Put your hand into its hands with complete humility.

His confidence in science being able to explain consciousness seems straight up delusional to me. Science will never explain it, could bet ya a million bucks on that.

Maybe adopt a yoga nidra practice before bed? Definitely helps sleep and balances out any issues that could arise when doing more energising practices

I've heard it has some bizarre side effect on your eyes so I'm pretty sus about that stuff now. https://www.peoplespharmacy.com/articles/st-johns-wort-can-lift-mood-but-may-damage-eyes Ashwagandha, L-theanine, CBD, 5-htp... search round for those ones first I say

Honestly? None @Maxman Check out Mark Freeman's videos about ERP and ACT, that's your best bet for getting over this awful disorder. Had it myself a few years back, don't even recognise the symptoms now, a little bit of anxiety here and there but nothing close to what is once was.

@Peo to be honest, a lot of the negatives of MDMA can be avoided. If you're taking it (PURITY TESTED) in a safe environment, having supplements, drinking plenty of water and staying cool you should be totally fine. This isn't really the problem I see with MDMA. It's the fact that it depletes around a month's supply of serotonin. I've done all these things whilst rolling and still felt the depression afterwards. In my eyes, it is not a sustainable drug to be taking. But at the same time, trying it once or twice in your life is totally worth it. The first time was without a doubt the most therapeutic experience I had ever had, so much trauma and guilt surrounding that trauma healed in a matter of minutes. I was not the same after. It's one of those experiences that's worth having, but not worth repeating. At least not much.

@Shadowraix fun fact, taking a big dose of magnesium supplements beforehand significantly reducing jaw clenching. Can vouch for this myself, although gum was still great aha.

@acidgoofy Plenty of my friends have done it. All of them agree on this: You take one dose, you're gonna wanna have more. Its like doing a bump of coke, no one just calls it a day after their first bump. It's insanely addictive.

@Bridge to Infinity would u consider modafinil as an alternative to ritalin?

So I've recently been diagnosed with OCD, and was wondering if in the future (maybe 5-7 years) when my OCD is no longer there (or at least not bothering me) that enlightenment is still possible for me.

I'd practice letting go more in meditation and letting things unfold more naturally

The amazing thing about LSD from my experience is that it hits on so many of these different notes - selflessness, unconditional love, infinity; it's one of the most versatile psychedelics IMO

It does for me!

It's not masturbation per se that is the problem. It's porn, abusing it especially messes with your dopamine, it doesn't have an infinite supply.

INFJ-A! (Advocate personality)

@Display_Name Kids see ghosts was fucking mindblowing, psychedelic trip in an album. The blend of genres, style and emotions was undeniably genius. Cudi and kanye ftw aha.

I would take all those recordings you have straight to the police immediately. And any pictures you may have taken of anything in the house he has broken. That should say enough.

Lmao this does feel culty

This is such an accurate description ahaha For me it's like I'm a can of paint spilling onto an empty canvas which is the universe.

The point isn't to rid yourself of emotions, but to better handle them. You are not a rock.

It's just because of the POTENTIALLY psychologically addicting qualities for some people, that's it really, I remember him saying something along the lines of "If weed works for ya, great". It has its uses for me, especially for creative purposes when making music, breathes inspiration when inspiration is lacking. You don't have to agree with everything Leo thinks lol, I certainly don't.

@khalifa Thanks for sharing this, I can definitely relate to rushing the process, I use to HUNGER for this kind of knowing, but now have matured at least enough to know this is a long, sloooowwww process. Can't see myself doing 5meo for atleast 5 years. It's definitely normal to dive right in and suffer somewhat as a result. Hope things get better man. Rest up.

Piers is totally right on this one; it does make a mockery of the immense commitment of transitioning for a trans person and even though it's fine to identify however you want, projecting rather ludicrous expectations onto the rest of the world to remember your unique pronouns that could very well be different the very next day is just mentally insane. It just couldn't ever happen. Literal hundreds of genders? That don't stay? If that's how you feel fine, but how could someone else keep up with it all? It looks more a kin to some sort of personality disorder in my eyes. If there were some sort of universally excepted pronoun for it that we could all agree on than it's possible, but if they demand we learn a whole new language that is impossible to keep up with JUST so we don't get fired from our jobs for being "bigots" than regardless of how you feel on the subject, NONE of this would come into fruition.

Spiritual work should not always require one to withdraw from the world and suppress natural instincts, sex itself can be a gateway to enlightenment, integrating it into your spiritual life would yield more benefit than just denying it. Try and find someone (probably introverted) that's on a similar wavelength who you can share that journey with you.