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Imagine waking up from a dream but you still have to take part in it. You will lose all sense of meaning for a while, only to then expand and realise existence itself which encapsulates everything is infinitely meaningful equally so to a degree so deep it transcends the very notion of "meaning". What seems so special right now is a mere joke in comparison, yet what you will find will include those things whilst going beyond it.

It is alone because it is all encompassing, a very different aloneness than the connotations of that word. Alone in pure stillness is very different than me ruminating on the prospect of a single divine being being alone. God is not a being. That being said you as a human wouldn't wanna stay there, hence here we are. Being alone in our finite minds is way more terrifying to me. WAY MORE. FUCK THAT.

I have one decent strength every morning, but usually never a second. I have no crash personally and the benefits feel worth it. It's better to combine with Theanine though.

my beloved Melbourne, tragic indeed.

watch the other video. Melbourne is ahead of the game mate haha. We're leading the way. If I made this complaint on Facebook the Police would be at my door right now as evident by recent events. It was silly to me and now I'm living it. Likewise it is silly to other countries until....well. I truly hope you're right, that this won't spread. That other countries don't adopt these totalitarian ways. France and Canada should look interesting. We'll see, but I hope you're right. "Totalitarianism is a form of government and a political system that prohibits all opposition parties, outlaws individual opposition to the state and its claims, and exercises an extremely high degree of control over public and private life. It is regarded as the most extreme and complete form of authoritarianism." Thanks for recommending that to me, sounds very accurate in describing my lived experience. Always remember this works like a frog in water, if you turn the heat up extremely slowly they won't notice the burn until it's too late. Currently burning right now, it's very fun. It looks like that water is getting hotter in other countries, hence my concern. But if you want to be a part of the problem in downplaying this be my guest. ^ Is this not outlawing individual opposition? Is this not prohibiting opposition? Is this not intimidating the public by using the Police as an extended arm of the government, as made evident by this and much more footage? Is this not controlling one's private life? Is this not extreme to you? Do you genuinely believe being arrested for Facebook posts is normal?

a very beautiful part of awakening

I am a conspiracy theorist? How so? What factual evidence? In response to what? I merely said mandates open the flood gates to totalitarianism, and used my own state of Melbourne as an example because I am living that reality right now. Here is an example below: Complaining about the government is now illegal. Yes, and the first mandated one to be politicised. It's actually the first vaccine to be mandated across all industries 100%, at least in my case. No unvaccinated person will be allowed to leave the house for the foreseeable future in my state. That is definitely new. People usually don't get paid either to get a vaccine, or win special prices like they are 12 years old. That is also new. Labelling everything as a conspiracy is merely a tactic to downplay that which you don't like to hear. Taking one side whilst downplaying and ignoring the other is a symptom of the cultural influence around us and increases the division we are currently facing, it's not the only thing but it is an important factor in why people are so divided right now. This is merely an ad hominem with no explanation behind it. What observable facts are even talking about in response to what I said? Like I said I am against mandating across all industries with every single individual in the planet. If you are so against the unvaccinated fuck em! Let em face the consequences, me as a vaccinated healthy person will be protected thus I have no concern. Another ad hominem to downplay my points because it creates cognitive dissonance during tense times. Here's another example of why my concern around totalitarianism is legitimate:

Probs real, I've had paranormal experiences that many shared in one house and only in one house that required a psychic intervention to fix. I saw their faces on doorknobs, I saw bike pedals spinning with aggression with no wind, others cried because of their experiences in that house, constant banging. My head was literally moved by one whilst in bed. The "psychic" was actually the son of one who was an electrician thus was not paid for any of this, he simply had too because he couldn't stop dreaming of this house it tormented him like it did me. It seems this usually only occurs because of deep unresolved problems the person had during their life that prevent them from moving on. Electricity fuels their presence for some reason. It's because of this that I think we probably do have astral bodies that continue upon death but I don't care either way, it's just that I've had way too much experience with this stuff to deny it. But to be honest this stuff gets really dark, I wouldn't entertain it too much. When it comes to spirituality focus on enlightenment that will actually set you free. Absolute vs relative basically. Ignoring the relative is very nutty I agree. People think they're smart with these classic "It's all imaginary HA! Got ya there" as if that helps anyone or even answers the question on a relative level at all, it clearly doesn't lol. Facts, I probably contemplate death too much.

Yep, that is exactly what happened in Melbourne. Now we are living in hell. The statement "get vaccinated without mandates" is simply too nuanced.

Doesn't really matter, in principle letting the unvaccinated face the consequences and minding one's medical business is a healthier societal culture than medical apartheids. The public opinion around vaccines definitely changed after mandates were introduced which is a shame, I'm currently living that right now. It's totally fine if you don't believe my lived reality, because in due time this will be your experience also as totalitarianism expands beyond Melbourne, assuming there isn't sufficient pushback. Moving the focus towards healthier eating (Obesity is one of the biggest risk factors), exercise, proper ventilation ON TOP of the standard guidelines will yield best results. Even if you were right that mandating it will speed hit us to the targets, that still sets a very dangerous precedent for the future of our medical privacy and basic human rights. To assert that such principles will be upheld following such events is simply naive; once it's gone it's possibly forever. Coming from someone who's getting their second shot next week, please don't associate me with anti-vaxxers or misinformation spreaders. All need for control stems from fear, and I understand your fear and the moral justification to control behaviour through coercion, it comes from good intentions but it is ultimately misguided and we may only see the full ramifications of this for generations to come. At least in my specific case in the T capital of the world, mainstream media spread equal amounts of lies as the conservative conspiracy theorists, such as the idea that a young perfectly healthy individual will almost certainly die of covid, or that all protestors in Melbourne are neo nazis which is a flat out lie. This creates frustration and confusion in the community that perpetuates the spreading of misinformation, thus if you're against it consider looking at the source of it. The politicisation of a vaccine overall makes many people naturally suspicious, this hasn't really happened before and people have never been THIS against a vaccine regardless of its effectiveness...perhaps there's a reason for that? Who are people going to turn to when the mainstream lies? That's right...conspiracy theories. By all means get vaccinated, wear a mask in busy areas, eat well etc. but when the government decides every medical decision for us with the highest degree of sanctimony we start to hit into very dangerous territory. Where do we draw the line? I'm genuinely asking. I'm living proof that we need to draw a line with how we control people's lives, using Melbourne as an example the desire for control grows as the powers continue being extended. Who knows perhaps one day alcohol will be illegal as this increases the detrimental effects of covid? Maybe that sounds silly to you, but to me in the T capital of the world it sounds very possible. I'm living it now...perhaps you will one day too.

That would just be a misinterpretation of what he said which is pretty easy to do considering he's sloppy with the technical details. The most absolute statement would be that there is no form, cosmos or death in the first place, these are all just masks consciousness/God wears, but that obviously isn't very useful. But if you're convinced on a relative level that your human brain's activities are controlling the entire cosmos not only is that not enlightenment it's the highest form of spiritual egotistical narcissism one could ever possibly imagine and I wish you the best in the mental asylum LOL. God likes putting limitations on itself. Get enough seperate animals with limited consciousness to meet and you get "consensus reality" more or less. A few crazy duds in the society will have chaotic dreams, and then one or two awake animals will finally realise it's all a dream. As long as one knows non-duality changes absolutely nothing about the relative world than a lot of confusion can be avoided.

Cheers!

Yeah the government is completely corrupt now to the point that it feels irreversible; thankfully I won't be living in this shit hole in the future. But yes it's a complete mass psychosis but the pushback is growing. Until our premier is elected out of office, unvaccinated will be completely segregated from all of society totally. The Gov and Media are actively encouraging the discrimination of the unvaccinated. People are leaving their jobs not because they are unvaccinated but because their companies are complying to tyranny. The YT channel Academy of Ideas has some really good videos on totalitarianism that illustrate what's going on very well. Needless to say my psyche fucking needed that clarity.

Mandating a vaccine to the "MUH FREEDOM" people is like throwing gasoline onto the fire thinking it was water. The people who may have gotten it before are now COMPLETELY against it for no other reason than the mandate. Get the vax but don't mandate it. Most countries would hit the sufficient targets without it. If you treat them like an adult they'll be more receptive. Coming from someone in Melbourne Australia the totalitarian capital of the world. It's not worth it.

Thank you very much for the advice, highly appreciated and yes a spiritual ego is a sneaky bastard no doubt. I find spiritual smugness very grotesque, and the zen attitude of going from the most divine places to a completely humble "normie" very inspiring. I'm glad to hear this because that does seem to be the trajectory I'm heading (thank God) because that nihilistic phase can last a long time but the drive for living fully does come back, but like you said it's more about the journey than a specific accomplishment. It seems a lot of us on this journey will have to shrug off this "hustle" culture that is so unhealthy, especially in self help circles such as this one; there's something infectious about it and maybe some of it's good but yes ultimately unfulfilling. One could perhaps use that fire for life itself I think. To be fully engaged in the world yet very detached is most definitely an art form, but I'm excited to see how practicing it will play out. Thanks again.

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Even in scientific terms when two distinct things are broken down you're just left with basic elements to the point where you can't distinguish between the elements of one thing as opposed to the other that was so obvious previously. So yes these distinctions have some validity on the surface but at the deepest levels possible there is just consciousness and nothing but, anything masquerading as something else is merely occurring within it. A wave on the surface is seperate, beneath the surface there is just water. This is basically the doctrine of 2 truths in Buddhism. What I eat does not make you shit, and yet the consciousness that allows for both experiences is of the same substance, or at least this is what awakening reveals experientially, taking it on as a doctrine however will only lead to confusion. The unity is underlying the seeming seperate-ness, hence the phrase "the ground of all being". The reason the consciousness part is ultimately more true than the seperate forms is because without consciousness those forms cannot exist, but without the forms consciousness can still exist (ie cessation). The water of an ocean can exist without waves.

I definitely feel that to be my default attitude these days, especially at 21 my mindset is so different than everyone else you can't help but notice these things. I guess I just miss some of that ruthless ambitious feeling even though a lot of it stemmed from fear and neuroses, but at the same time the meaning of life is to just live fully so sitting around doing nothing wouldn't be in accordance with that either. The lack of concern for proving anything to anyone definitely rings true for me, it shocks myself the most. Starting a business for ex when you're already so content inside is a weird journey, because beforehand certain personal problems could be used to motivate you. I hope that makes sense. IDK man...this stuff can sneak up on you in a way where before you know it you're there and there's no turning back, you have a new life now with a whole new way of permanent being, and especially being this young having gone so deep already your life feels finished before it even began. Your "homecoming" is essentially the start of a whole new life. I still can't believe it. How is this even real? Perhaps I should look to the "helping others" part for more of that drive? Sorry if this is too much of a vent lol, it's just such a transition. I guess at a certain point you just continue cos what else we gonna do? But that also enlightenment won't necessarily get your ass off the couch always. Goes to show the human self still needs work after "enlightenment".

FACTS Do you still find ambition in life despite this? I'm in the process of embodying and it's hard because the source of motivation for a lot of things has to change after this work.

Bruh the craziest shit is that's happening right now. If you've emptied your self out sufficiently it becomes so obvious. For me combining "headlessness" and do nothing/zen w/ basic mindfulness makes it seen, but that took over a year and half after to really actualise following the experience. I was literally just visualising/imagining how that experience felt alongside this stuff and never let it go; staying in that mindset and just going deeper and deeper in an extremely intuitive way rather than an intellectual way. Contemplation honestly isn't too useful for me but that's hard to say because it's basically my default. It's too intellectual, not intuitive enough. As long as our minds are sufficiently silent to stop making distinctions then more of this clarity is seen. Distinctions are the biggest distraction from this. It can get frustrating when people philosophise this stuff too much because it's just more distractions. "It gets simple when you get simple!" Sounds like an amazing experience. Also what a crazy dose you got balls man haha, nice work. I would never dare lol

It's so interesting cos I found LSD more direct for oneness experiences in the beginning, but nowadays since that door is open mushrooms are better for it because the only thing holding me back is my own thoughts/distinctions getting in the way. Mushrooms can really help surrender the mind. Mushrooms are probably the most humbling of psychedelics. The best for general personal growth, you feel brave after. But yeah I agree those peak LSD moments are just so beautiful I will never forget em. Going back though?......not sure on that. Don't see the need.

The idea someone could do so many psychedelics and still never have the slightest taste of non-dual awareness sober breaks my heart quite frankly. Or that some people can't be sane under such a condition, because for those who can they will be MORE sane and at peace. It's clear most people just aren't ready and that's ok. Doesn't make you as an individual special in any way though, it's just how it is really. And embodiment is almost an entirely different enterprise, it's like the pinnacle of self actualisation. That shit takes YEARS, and it is very obvious who's embodied and who isn't, regardless of their self acclaimed wokeness.

All memories have varying degrees of falseness, it's just that some are closer to the actual event. This is a relative statement. Ruminating on memories will probably steer it even further from what happened. From the Absolute POV... well there's really nothing to say ahaha. It's all imagination like all phenomena, but you can't really do anything with that. Even though consensus reality is part of the dream it has its use. If you're looking for absolute truth getting lost in the phenomena of your experience will only make things worse.

those are actually some pretty good images, especially the top one. From the light springs these infinite forms that are all made of and suspended in that one single substance. Or at least that was how the first one went. The deeper it gets the harder to describe it is. It feels like your coming home to something; there's a deja vu that I had the first time like I was returning to a place I forgot was even there, all the time inside me. A sense of "integrating" all things together into a sense of wholeness and completeness. There's a real sense of resolution to it, like all things lead to this and begin from this. You and the world (as the world) feel complete and together forever. Pure love and eternal peace will result. Beyond this stem even deeper levels of nothingness but I can't talk about it. It's divine imaginations go on and on forever whilst its nothingness that is its essence has eternal depths that no distinction can ever touch. The image below captures the mood of it for me as well, very inspiring no doubt but obviously not the real thing. No where close.

ahahahah "Glue's comin back!"