Shin

Maybe you're asexual. Maybe you're just attracted physically (it's nice to look at), but not sexually.

The best pointer someone gave me was: I can't tell you, You're like a donkey trying to understand calculus

Yeah someone Like a video explaining that whatever you give you receive in depth That's gonna be even more hippie than ever, Leo needs a flower in his hair now

If only I knew it was so easy years ago

I think you already know the answer to that question.

You can feel something really painful, and not feel "pain". It would just be a sensation, no pain at all. You only suffer because the pain is associated with the death of the form you identify to. No identification, no resistance, no possible suffering

I don't even want to go to a zen center because I think it's still full of dogma, so I don't think so

Why ?

Imagine your daughter has been abducted. Now you're 99.9% sure you know the guy who did it. Will you be a good and moral citizen, or will you abduct that guy, torture him, until he tells you where your daughter is ? You would think you're in your right to torture that person in that particular position. Even though you can't be totally sure, and never will. Even if you were sure, it would still be you doing the exact same thing that guy has done to your daughter. This is "evil" perpetuating itself, and everybody does that to some degree (99.99% of the planet would torture that guy). So saying the Chinese are morally wrong, is the same as saying that everybody on the planet is "evil", we just do it on a smaller scale, and if we could, we would do the exact same thing that they do, given the same upbringing and mental state as they are. We do actually way worse in the US or in EU, it's just biased and not published in the news. Everyone is the devil in disguise, and the sole fact that you are upset about this, means you would do the same, because only a dense ego can be upset about something. You would do the same thing, if you get that, then you won't be able to do that kinds of thing in the long run. It's because we think we can't that we do, the devil always thinks he's an angel, otherwise he would have to admit he's the devil. But since the devil is also God, as soon as he recognize he's being a devil, he stops gradually to be one, and can never go back.

Horrifying when God identify to a form. Amazing when it doesn't. ?

That's what makes you confused Stop trying to categorized stuff, and then you'll know and stop being defensive

You're not conscious either, only God is conscious. And it can definitely thinks it's a rock if it wants to. Don't think you're more important than a rock

How do you know ? Have you ever been a rock ?

God is infinity, so it expresses itself through infinite events, beings, plants, whatever. So whatever is possible is possible, including what you think is impossible. If it wasn't accepting everything, it wouldn't be infinite, and what is love is the infinite acceptance of all God's creation (so it's infinite in all dimension, love/creation/consciousness). God isn't someone who say what is right or wrong, it's not a person, nor a thing, nor anything, unless you get that you'll always be confused thinking it's a godlike person who should or shouldn't accept some behaviors. And you can't get it through logical thinking with your brain, not even by intuition, because you're God right now.

The way you've asked her about sex is the equivalent of a woman asking you: "Hey, I know you're loaded, buy me a car and I may be nice to you"

Ok so last night I had a nightmare (I never have nightmare). I was, apparently, inviting a hooker at my place (really ? ), then I search for her in my room to ask for how much it's gonna cost. After a moment, I feel her in my back and she shot me, then I die, and at the same time remember she was a psycho that was always stalking me. I had a hard time sleeping after that, because it was not a random death like in most dreams, it was directly targeted at Shin, and since the distinction between realities is not that thick anymore, I could be dreaming that bitch back and she could shot me right now So difficulty to sleep again and difficulty to wake up, because, well, I'm kinda tired to get killed every other day now, I might turn insane before the end of the year at this rate tl;dr

Hi It's been a while I've been to this forum, I found it to be a distraction for me (still am). I said I would only come back if something happened. It's not an awakening/enlightenment, but it's different numerous glimpses succeeding each other pointing clearly to an awakening. There is different reasons for me to think this way, the main one is that I've dealt with all the major distractions that was on my mind. The other one is that I literally want to do nothing else than to know what this is all about, for real. That being said, that is what happened in the last 3 months. A lots of synchronicities with me doing things I feel like I'm supposed to do, and the numbers 11 and 22. For 3 months now I'm seeing them, most of the time without looking for them. This and things like 12:34 (we don't use AM/PM here), or 2112 etc ... At first you think it's just a coincidence, but after 3 months, now way this is random. Reality became more and more beautiful to experience, and I've been able to experience all my senses at once while feeling extremely light, and feeling and undescribable light in me, this is deepening everyday too. Everything I look is mysterious and seems alive. This past weeks, I've been inquiring everyday, and now I start to not know if I'm dreaming or not, it's the same feeling (which can't be described) as in a dream, and perception of objects/people and worlds is becoming more mysterious and clear everyday. Everything is beaming, as if it was reflecting light. This past three days I started to give love to everyone I know before I wake up, imagine it in every situation of the day to come. That and also opening up and giving love to everyone I see and talk to, even the people I don't like or that tries to harm me in some way. I didn't feel anything in the beginning, it was more about having faith that it will work, and it did, I feel like being a child again, that's the best way I can describe it for now, but I can feel there is way more ... I also was wondering what kind of question to ask in self inquiry, and like magic the new episode of Leo was released. So I've picked and took some time to really pick the domain I really want to understand now, the choice was difficult for the last two questions, but thinking back to my past, how I feel now, and what I'm trying to do and be everyday, the choice was quite obvious. It's also what I fled 8 months ago, that wasn't infinite pain that I felt, that was something else ... I recommand this book If you're open enough to be receptive to what she tries to awaken in you Your life will never be the same I'll come back when I have something more to say. I'm excited to share it with you In the meantime, know that I think of you and send love to you everyday now The best video on Youtube

Make friends with girls in a meditation center or something alike, and be honest about this problem. They will want to help you and you will understand intuitively how they work on the long run.

Watch David Deidas videos ?

You don't need to get better the way you think you need to get better. Women don't really care if you perform or not, but they care a lot if you care about her and are not selfish, if you connect with her, and more importantly (and what makes them turn on), is if you are connected to your (true) masculine side. Lots of woman will tell you that sex can be amazing physically, but they will almost always tell you that they are still unsatisfied, that's because most guys are disconnected from their emotions, don't care that much about her pleasure, and are manboy, so of course it's not satisfying, because they need the emotional component. It really doesn't matter how technically good you are in bed unless you understand this. You will maybe be good at one night stand, but when a deeper connection will form, you won't be able to have great sex, the girl won't at least, not for long. It's mostly the mindset you're in that matters, and this is something that only changes if you change the way you look and direct your life. The way you experience life as a whole is how you will have sex, it's not separate from everything else. We say making love for a reason, and that's because the degree to which you love life is the degree to which you can have good love making, past the physical lustful part of it, which is never satisfying, and pathetic comparing to the sex you can ultimately have.

Go through it or take a break. It's either a deep emotional trauma or your sense of self that feels threatened. You can decide if you want to face either of those now, but there is nothing wrong with going slow for awhile though. Just know that one way or another you'll have to face it, it's not going to go anywhere, no matter how good you are at roleplaying an ostrich ?

Then why are you giving an answer ?

Yeah I was just talking about sex specifically, but if his goal is the initial attraction phase, PUA is better. Depends on what he wants to improve on ?

That's 8 months where you husband said no, but finally, woman power prevailed ???