Shin

If you ejaculate during sex, yes.

The reason porn and masturbation are «bad» are only because it's a waste of energy for a few fleeting moment of pleasure. It isn't morally wrong, and even if it were, that would be relative to a specific point of view. You have to test it empirically (and not just for a week), to see why we say those things. Debating about it is the same as talking about spirituality, nothing is really in your direct experience, it's just stories that you agree or not in your head. Those stories counts for nothing, direct experience is everything.

All the deluded egos criticizing leo to still be an arrogant jerk when it wasn't Leo talking the entire time Of course Leo is arrogant and an ass, and there is lots to be integrated, but it was God speaking through an imperfect and biased ego, as it should and will always be. If the video triggers you, it's just that you're still very arrogant yourself, because you really can't judge Leo if you truly accept that you can (and were/are) arrogant at times. There would zero judgments or critics, at least not in the way most of you are criticizing him by being so judgmental. Does that mean Leo won't give a shit about how he speaks and conduct himself (poor amazon guy ) ? No he will change (quite a lot), he won't have a choice about it, because there is way too much love at that point.

Never close your heart, and let God shine through ? Infinite love ... ???

If you get this, There is infinite peace ahead ? Much love ?

You're always gonna be scared if you don't look directly into what makes you feel bad inside. Rejecting those feelings in any way will just make them stick, and they'll even grow. That doesn't mean acting on anything, but just diving into the fear and let yourself feel it fully. Whatever you fear you imagine yourself in a situation where it happens, you feel the emotions inside, you don't react or think anything of it, you just feel it, and let it go. Letting it go is different than rejecting, watch the episode of Leo about letting go ?

Those disgusting feelings are ONLY there because you have beliefs about how gayness is not right, not normal. I too questioned my sexuality at some point, and it was also disgusting, until I accepted it. It doesn't really matter if you're gay or not, what matter is that you have to stop saying in your head that certain things are ultimately right or wrong. Then if you like to deepthroat a man or not is irrelevant, you'd do it with 0 shame, and it would be the saame for everything activities in your life. You'd be free ?

It is not really the same thing, because it's a physical change to be more in accordance with whom they feel inside. That's just my interpretation, but I think it's because a masculine woman thinks she needs to have a masculine body to be her true self. It's a misconception of sexual polarity for me, as if you couldn't be a masculine woman without a penis. Anyway, those people embrace change, that's not what you are doing. You reject liking dicks because you fear what people would think of you, and it is in conflict with the beliefs you created about your dream life. Your dream life is when you are in total accordance to your genuine desire though.

What you want is irrelevant if it is not genuine. Your rejection of your possible homosexuality isn't gonna change anything if you're truly homosexual. That would be like wanting to be a doplhin when you are a man. You can't, unless you're in South Park.

What are you talking about ?

JP is the new Jesus

That's an understatement ?

Maybe you will, maybe you won't. What matters is how genuine you are with yourself, that's the only way true happiness will ever be a part of your life. If you reject your attraction for men, then it will never be possible to be happy, because you basically reject what you really want. It feels negative now because it threatens your identity, but it was a fake identity all along, get rid of it. Be so internally emotionally open and honest that no matter what happens, you're still gonna be happy. That is painful in the beginning, but only because you lived a lie all your life, wanting certain things because you think it will make you happy. Throw all that shit in the trashbin and live your life as you truly feel it, then there will never be a contradictory feeling in you telling you that you're lying to yourself. That's what negative feelings are, contradictions in your head, often about what is true and what you believe is true. Problem is an ego lives by lying, because itself is a lie. So if you really want to grow, in any part of your life, and feel really amazing (way more than you can imagine now), then you have to be 100% honest about how you feel, what you want, what you don't want and be transparent to yourself really. That is ugly in the beginning because you have to see that your whole life was basically telling you you're a good person, or a straight person, or a ... person, but reality is you're none of that, you can't define yourself if you're honest, and that's what you're afraid of. It's really just a shame honestly, it hurts because you are used to think you are a certain kind of person, but does it matters to you when you dream that you're getting fucked by a guy ? Most likely not, and this is because in your dreams there is not an ego to tell itself "I am a straight person !", there is only joy, fun and love. Want joy, fun and love all the time ? Let go of what you think you are, 100% of the time. Everyone can do it, the one that says otherwise can't do it because they told themselves they can't do it, not because they can't

Why do you want to repress something that would make you genuinely happy ? What you are trying to do, is the same thing as repressing your passion for a carrier, and continuing to work a job you feel dull doing, just because it is more acceptable to be a nobody that someone who is happy to work. I would gladly suck every dick I feel appealing if that was the case, why not, I would enjoy it. Big fat cock in my mouth ! Too bad I only like crazy emotional mess, I mean woman sorry

What if your dreams is just the real you experiencing its own infinity ? What if you're projecting dreams are happening inside your brain (that you never saw or felt), because that's what everyone told you ? What if the only reason you call dreams, dreams, is because you interpret it as not "real", because you believe what you experience now is more "real" ? What if you're dreaming right now, but are believing it so much, that you forgot about it, just like your dreams at night, until you wake up ?

Whatever you refuse to love is a part of you you refuse its existence. So as long as you refuse to love everything, you won't be able to feel divine love. Loving something doesn't mean wanting it in your life more, it means total acceptance. It's not because you love someone that you will never leave that person, if that person is doing you harm, still it doesn't change the fact that you love him/her regardless.

Of course it's gonna leave. There is a difference between letting the body doing it on its own and feel amazing for weeks, and doing it on purpose because you're addicted (even though it's considered normal). Now like you said, denial and hatred of self won't lead to transcendance, and this is an important part of the process to not judge oneself, it's an addiction after all.

You can learn to have orgasms without ejaculating as a man. There is plateaus or energy level at 7 dayish and again after that, so it doesn't make much sense to do it often. It's like eating junk food, it feels good on the moment, but you know you're going to feel like shit for the rest of the day.

Imagine that when you have an orgasm you are tired for a day, sometimes more (with less drive to do anything, even the things you like). Now imagine that the current level of energy you have can at least be tripled on the long run by not orgasming. That's pretty much it.

It's his last devilish addiction until he becomes full buddha. The ego will do everything to resist

You may be right, but from my own experience, this is heresy It's like saying that meditation or psychedelics, healthy eating, physical activities are useless and does not work, yeah for a tiny minority (maybe), for the vast majority it is needed.

If those thoughts still happen regularly, you're still partially believing them on a subconscious level. Yes they do, hence why they suffer enormously. Now what would be the best way to help them ? Surely not by feeling bad about it, rather, to feel so amazing that they feel loved just being near you