Shin

Emptiness of thoughts (like 95% of the time). Whenever a thought cames in, it's way easier to let it drop than a regular day. Like, I can instantly choose to let go of a thought, even if it has a huge momentum.

@SeviI did 3 hours of sitted meditation, I'll do more now. I also did 1 hour of walking meditation and something like 30-45 minutes of self-inquiry (maybe more). I think I'll do 2 hours of meditation everyday now, I can feel the difference. @Sevi Tell me when you'll meditate then :3

No, it isn't. In fact, the more problems you have in your life, the better it is for realizing who you are. This is just excuses coming from your mind, nothing else.

Instead of going to a Dark Room Retreats with any kind of Darkness training, spend each day a certain amount of time in the dark. If the fear is intense, start with one minute, then add one minute everyday. When you're comfortable to be in the dark at home for a hour, go in a forest or some open-air place where there is no light whatsoever and stay there for a whole hour. After that, you could add 15 minutes every week.

YOLO !

You can't become something you are.

Smoother transition, at least at the beginning. I just don't want to pussy out when I could do it. Either way, for those who are afraid of the dark, it's still a good practice, even without a Dark Room Retreat in mind

Didn't watch it, but maybe it can help.

First hour complete. Such peace, much stillness, WOW PRESENCE. Next hour will be outside, supposed to be raining but it's not @Sevi @Dragallur @Who_Am_I @Barna ROUND 2 - 2 HOURS STRAIGHT

Ok it's time, join me if you want

That's a misconception that will follow you all your life if you don't try to see its stupidity right now. There is never a time where you're not ready, that's only the mind believing its own bullshit.

Good, now drop all these beliefs, and stop seeking knowledge. With all the free time you have, meditate 1 hour early the morning, and 1 hour before dinner. If you want to get serious at this, stop looking outside, go within and just watch every thoughts, sensations, emotions everytime you are conscious enough to do it, which with practice, will be every second of every hours. Ask yourself what you are, REALLY, and don't buy into what your mind says, because every answers that it will give you, can't be it. The mind doesn't know the answer, it is impossible for it to grasp it. In time something will break, and every spiritual concepts will (truly) make sense to you. Just follow the link in my quote below, 1 lesson every 3 days, revisit the old one the days in between. It's easy, more than you can think, the only reason people can spend decades seeking is because they are totally lost, well you can't if you follow Bentinho course.

You can do it.

Everything you're afraid or supress in your mind has to be faced in order to grow. If you don't, you'll only grow on the surface.

Eckhart Tolle

When an awakening fades out

@Sevi @Dragallur @Who_Am_I @Barna Tomorrow I'll try to have a breakthrough, I will meditate half of my awake time. Support much appreciated, don't hesitate to spam me :3 *EPIC MUSIC IN THE BACKGROUND* HA-OOH! HA-OOH! HA-OOH!

That needed to be said.

I'm saying that for the people who think they "lost" it whenever thoughts/inconsciousness appear. You can't loose it, THAT'S THE ALL POINT !

You question till you can know why it is there, and then you just notice it when it happen, and then it won't happen after 35426 times.

All your thoughts, whether they make you inconscious or not, are still the same energy as everything else. If you realize that, it's easy as fuck :3

I remember you once said you have a wife

There is a limit to everything :3

It's not your fault, you're naturally attracted to manly quality such as confidence/detachement/edginess and stuff like that. The problem is that our society is so much fucked up, that most of these qualities are mostly embodied by those we call "assholes" Men that don't posseses these qualities, well, you just simply can't stay with them, because there is nothing to keep attracting you in the long run. There are guys who have these types of quality without being assholes, but they are rare (and most of them taken anyway). Maybe next time, even if it's really really hard, try to get to know the guy more, like add 2/3 dates. Learn how to be more mindful of your sex drive, and how you can manage your attraction. It's hard, and you might not even want to do that, because you want all this to flow, like you don't have any control over it, that's what you want after all. If you really don't want to be abused again, or disappointed, you have to, otherwise it will never stop. Do these things, don't become a cold hearted girl that don't believe in love ever again.