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That depends what kind of self esteem you're talking about. If you're talking about arrogant style of self esteem where you compare yourself to others about your relative superiority, it could potentially be a problem if you stay along those lines (since you believe there is other self to compare and it feeds your monkey mind ...). If you're talking about peaceful and non-needy self-esteem, like you know you can do everything you want if you put the right effort, without any praise or approval (because there is no you to be praised and every answers comes from emptiness ...), then no, in fact you need that if you want to go really deep, you won't be able to do it without that.

Most people think I'm either in a depression or a drug addict, being happy just for the sake of being happy isn't possible in their mind

A really weird thing that only happened in my dreams happened right now. I guess it was some kind of Astral Projection, except it felt way more real than the previous ones (as real as reality). There was no "waking up" from the Astral Projection (or whatever it was), I don't know if that's how Astral Projection works, but in this case it shocked me a bit, because there was literally no real end of the experience, it just feel like I jumped instantly in a different kind of reality. I was in total dark, realizing that I was all alone, so I just got to my parents room, to see if that was true, and it was (ok this is a common nightmare, I guess, but ...). So at that point I realized I was totally aware that I'm all alone in this world, and then I just aimlessly floating around in empty space, going through walls that weren't even existing anymore, there was nothing except pitch black. I was dancing in me, through me, with me, and I was silently horrified by it. When I tried to stop it, there was a huge pain in my spine, I couldn't rise, I was totally blocked in my body. Why would I stop it ? I don't know, but what is the most interesting, is that I was way less afraid than before. The mind interpret that as something horrific, that's why the theme of the experience is pitch black and loneliness, which doesn't have to be this way. TLDR:

Everytime I listen to binaural beats, I get a mystical experience the same or next days :3

I think it's time to burn the books and actually do the shit they talk about. Thinking about it won't do anything

@Natasha "Try again", you think I'm your personal jester or what ?

When it happens A few minutes later

Because he makes me funny in my pants.

If you really would to know if it works, you'll try to do it instead of asking if it's "new-age bs".

You're all enlightened ...

IF you're in your teen years and have a girlfriend, don't think too much about that. Try to learn tantra though, like that you won't have to ejaculate. If you're single, once every two week is enough.

Rape and torture and murder is as much love as you loving your kids or your partner. You didn't misread what I just wrote. If you really want to realize your enlightenment, you need to drop all point of view, concept and beliefs you have, and these aren't excluded. What I mean by that is, that certain culture exist/existed or could exist (I don't know for sure, didn't study this) were rape could be totally legitimate. If everyone in this culture paradigm firmly believed that rape is a good and natural thing, everyone will accept it, even encourage it. It wouldn't even be rape at this point, because women would accept it, just like they accept it in the animal realm (what do you think it is ? It is what we human calls rape ...). Same thing for torture, there is animals playing with their prey, even when they are still alive and deeply wounded. Why do you think they have no remorse and even enjoy torture (because it is torture by our definition) ? Well, there is no sense of self, they have no conditioned mind, they just do what feels fun for them. Now you can understand why Zen Devilry is a real thing, because you could totally be 1000% enlightened and have 0 sense of morality. But I just said morality is relative, so why should we care about it ? Yes ultimately, nothing is real, nothing matters, and nothing is really damaged, so why bother, why should I not fuck and use everyone and everything how it pleases me ? Well, because you have a mind that is already conditioned ... It's not like you could erase all the data in your mind, and start again with 0 beliefs/perspectives, even if you could, that would be pointless and not really fun. What is fun is to integrate all the paradoxes into this slice of reality, and make the best of it. That doesn't mean you always do the "nice thing", but it means that you take into account the fact that almost every other humans are highly unconscious and suffer already from it, so why would you add more suffering to it if you can avoid it ? Wouldn't it be egotistical to do what you want at the expense of others, which at this point, you realize is all you ? Yes it would, or it would indicate that you're still very unconscious (paradoxically) despite being enlightened, which is possible, everything is. The most popular enlightened being of all time were hardcore on compassion. Buddha spent the remaining of his life creating teachings that today are still very effective to release our sense of self (Zen). Jesus literally sacrifice himself (he wasn't dumb, he knew what would happen), to show us how much compassion one can have. Nowadays we have the Dalai Lama, which advocates total acceptance of all religions and culture, even science, and travel all around the world trying to make that happen. But all those people (and the millions throughout history we don't know about) knows very well there is no problem at all, that it's all conceptual. If someone was raping, then torturing, then killing a child in front of them, they wouldn't even blink ... They would help if they could, but if they couldn't, they wouldn't care at all. They would still have emotions corresponding to the event, but they would fully know these emotions stems from their conditioned mind, and are not that serious. The best analogy my mind can come with, is a child that you're babysitting, crying over a toy he just broke. You know very well the child is creating its own suffering, but what do you do (if you're not egoic as fuck), you try to cheer him up right ? Why would you do that ? Do you feel bad for him (let's assume you're "above" that already) ? No you don't, at all, but you still do it, because you can, because deep deep down, even if you don't feel it, you love this stupid brat. On one hand you don't care at all, but at the same time you do everything you can to help.

It's not because it is healthier or not. It's because if you can control your libido, you're basically free. Except long hours of meditation/self-inquiry and hard drugs, there is nothing else that is harder to overcome. And honestly, if you were doing it for some weeks, you'll know why it's a good habit to have (or non habit). You gain so much energy, and it's totally logical, releasing your sperm every fucking day isn't just fucking natural. Not only that, but what is its purpose ? You have like 10 seconds of pleasure and it's done. 10 seconds of pleasure for a whole day of low energy, only an addict would say it's worth it.

I like to watch something while I eat. Additionally, all his video adds knowledge that I could remember later if needed, so why not listening ? Now I understand why you say that, some people really think they NEED Leo's videos, as if watching a video will change anything in your life without actions (or no actions if you want enlightenement ), like, just one more, it's all I need, ONE MORE !

I probably shouldn't have said that. Not because it isn't true, but because some people will not understand what it means (their ego will use this as an excuse to do stupid shit). There is not a lot to explain, except that everything is the self, and nothing is outside of it. The self is pure love, except this isn't the kind of love we usually refers too, it is totally open and accept everything. Even Hitler was loved by god, just as much as Jesus ... Now, that doesn't mean we don't want a "better" world, in the sense of a more peaceful and compassionate humanity. I definitely want that, because If I look retrospectively to "my" life just 1 year before, it was a total mess and I was suffering greatly every day. it just means there is nothing wrong, except in the human mind, which is totally relative. It's just an exercice to impose on your mind, one of the best, because if you can truly accept everything and everyone as it is. It is exactly at this moment that you can start changing things according to your perspective AND be at peace and love everyone else as they are, and not what you think they should be. Accepting everything and to know there is not better in anything in life doesn't mean you let every psycho do their shit, it only means you won't be mad at them, and still act against them if needed.

Yesterday I was having a depression, except that I knew it was that, didn't bought into it, even laughed about it, and I was at peace. Peace is different than happiness, it's subtler, less flashy, but that's what you really want, not happiness, hapinness is way too much associated with pleasure and having a high of sort. You can't have constant happiness, at least not when you still think you're a human being, the whole seeking and hoarding of happiness is what creates sorrow in the first place anyway.

Using sex as a way to bond with your partner ?

In you. And you're quite warm I must say.

If you can already sees it as a mind and not yourself, then there is nothing to be done. Just observe it, and if it's not already the case, the mind won't even be on the foreground of your experience after a while, but rather an aspect of it just like any other thing. Ultimately, we all know what we have to do, it's not like it's rocketscience, it's just extremely scary for the mind, to accept and surrender to the fact that he's just an aspect of reality, and is just one perspective among an infinite number of it. The path is simple, just be. That doesn't even mean to do nothing, that means being conscious whatever happens. It feels amazingly awesome to be able to just sit and admire reality as it is, but that's not a prerequisite (albeit you will want to do that anyway).

At first, tons of meditation (just listening to sounds eyes closed), now mostly just being and admiring nature. It's already so beautiful and magic now, actually I'm wondering if my body could handle that much emotions. Probably not, but I've gone too far already :3