Shin

What you should really do, is stopping masturbation. @Santiago It's gonna be fine, just stop waiting and do it.

Then what about being honest and telling her that you're a virgin and that you need some friction with hands ? She can do that, then you can start to do it while it's hard. And maybe ask her if she likes anal, it's way more tight in there, it might work better than her vagina.

Just be closer to her, tell her you maybe need some help (if she's still seeing you she's not gonna freak out). Pills are for granpa or people who have serious issues down there (and you don't, you're just too stressed). I'll bet your penis will be pretty hard if she start to suck your dick ^^

If you wait too much (and that's already the case), she will get fucked by someone else pretty quick. That's not me being an asshole here, that's just reality, so stop being indecisive, fuck her. @Santiago I did, multiple times, she will go for an another guy. Stop being in your head and just do it.

Because thinking is as much an experience as seeing, touching, hearing, tasting and smelling. The only reason you might think it is not is because you identify too much to your stream of thinking.

Don't remember the video, but he definitely say something alongs those lines.

How could you love yourself if you don't know what you are ?

Except telling him or being extremely direct, I don't see how the situation could change. He either isn't interested or too shy.

Just be honest and tell her everything. Relationship where both sides are lying are already doomed from the start. And just fuck her, spend a day or two with her after, you'll know pretty fast if you want to be with her.

Want to stop suffering ? Take a 1 week vacation, stay all day in your sofa just being totally mindful of your monkey mind. That's it.

It's not because you don't have enough awareness now to stay present during those hard moments that you will never have. Just keep practising, you will be suprised how calm you will be able to be in some months/years.

And that is ultra soft, this is only the tip of the iceberg: https://nypost.com/2017/01/31/hidden-camera-video-shows-graphic-animal-abuse-at-pig-farm/

I'm nothing special man, i'm just a random dude. Don't put anyone on a pedestale, even the other people you mentioned, if you do that then you Will unconsiously think you're separate from them, which is not true. But thank you for the praise, even though there isn't anyone to take it (there is just a hand moving on a smartphone )

What is the point of knowing that (assuming we could really know) ?

This is shadow work 101:

The most important video is this one. If you actually do this 24/24, 7/7, it will supress all your problems in life in the mid-long term.

Because the intensity of connection can vary, some appearance are more drawn to others. For example, you won't see a dolphin fucking a kangaroo. Well that's not a good example, dolphin are assholes, they might actually do that.

The point is to realize how much suffering you're creating for yourself, then realizing the suffering was only there to make you think there was a self.

What if the big bang is just the birth of a cell in a organism, which itself is part of a universe that is also a cell of an another organism (to infinity) ? You could turn the question the other way around. Now add the multiverse. This is 0.0000000000*infinity of what life is. I wish you goodluck fellow scientists.

Did you experience in your meditation your soul ? You don't feel your body, there is no sound/imagery, there is no time, there is no mind, there is just "this" (whatever the label you want to use). For people who think it's hard, not it's not, you may just have to meditate a bit longer, so do it

I'm sorry but elephants still don't exist.