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I miss you old friend, see you in 2 months !

Yeah pretty much this. It's all ego based, you just have to keep practising and being conscious of your insecurities, it will sort it out by itself. Let yourself be so vulnerable that you become invulnerable, counter-intuitive as fuck but it works lol

Because it REALLY feels like you're dying. Some people might not experience this of course, but in my personal experience this is DEADLY serious. If someone threatens to kill you in a dream that you don't know you're dreaming, you don't just say "Hey, no problem, I'm not really gonna die right ? I read it in a book and I heard Eckhart Tolle saying something like that ! Just kill me I don't care lul". Nonono, you'll most likely be like "OH SHIT NO, STOP NO, I BEG YOU, DON'T DO IT PLZZZZZZZ !!!!! *wet pants* MOMMY DON'T LET HIM KILL ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

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No, just keep meditating. Add self-inquiry if you want, but you shouldn't stop meditating. @Torkys When you first heard about enlightenment, and people tell you it's gonna kill you Some months/years after ...

100% accurate.

It isn't bullshit. Last night I had 3 start of "something", the whole body was having huge orgasms and it felt like if I let it flow it would kill me (or maybe I'm just a huge pussy, which hum, could totally be the case ). I never done any yoga practices, and in my daily life if I do some body centered meditation I can fell the energy channeling in the entire body, it's amazing.

There is definitely something with that. The eyes automatically blink if you try to do this for some reasons. You can train yourself not to blink and see things more and more blurry. There is fear when you do this ...

The more you want a silent mind, the less likely it will happen. Why ? Because the thing that wants it, IS the mind ... @Ether Apparently not

You don't understand yet that this is just an excuse. You can go on for an entire lifetime telling yourself things like that. And then when death will come you will be like "oh shit, I was lying to myself this all time".

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The fiction has to die first though @Dodo Can't do that, I'm going full circle from the good guy/asshole spectrum It may not be enough, some people have to accept to die, it's not enough just to recognize it.

You have no idea what you're talking about. Enlightenment doesn't mean you're dogma free. You can be very closed-minded and enligthened ... You can have a rigtheous ego and be enlightened ...

Lol he's so right. I might die any minute now, it's calling me ! It really feels like there is no turning back though, so hum Just in case the body don't survive and it actually dies ADIOS AMIGOS !

Yeah no, in the western world, childs are just here to please the ego, because they think it will make them happy. It does, for like what, a few months, a year or two, then their childs becomes a burden to them (and they secretly resent them). There is no real relationship between a mother and a child in our "civilized" world, it's just "do that, do this, and maybe I will "love" you for a second or two". It's a owner-slave relationship, nothing more. @Dan Arnautu Of course it's a generalization, but it is quite accurate, just go to any hypermarket and watch.

I'm infinity dreaming I'm a cat dreaming I'm a human being dreaming I'm a banana ! I KNEW IT !!!

You will have to go through this fear sooner or later, so might as well go for it now. It's not going to magically disappear, it's only going to get worse if you don't take care of it. To the point you won't even consider doing the work because it is too painful to even think about it.

You can't receive something you already are. That's a misconception, to think you can receive love. In fact what happens is that a condition you set in your mind has been achieved, then you loose your shield and accept to feel good. Of course that never last, because the purpose of the ego is to constantly find reasons to be unhappy.

Losing your mind is a sign of progress, now you can start to see how fucked up it is

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(Someday I'll learn how to write proper english ) Don't remember the dude.

You will waste a lot of time trying to figure out everything on your own. There is books about everything now, just use them. That doesn't mean you should take everything on blind fate, you should still comtemplate and go do practical stuff to improve specifics areas of your life, books are only there to fasten the process, they aren't magic pills.

Heaven is right in front of your face !

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