Shin

You will change the way you look at this when you will realize that no one can fulfill you. When you understand that you can be friend with anyone really. But you really don't need to have a friend that is "XYZ", it's just a lot more fun to engage with people who have the same interests as you, but not necessary (and not always true).

oh yeah thanks, I need to bookmark that video, too many people think if you awaken you get all aspects all at once directly

Really ? I honestly thought it was a useless exercice to begin with. But after some time I noticed that I was way more accute to my surroundings and I saw a lot more details in everything.

@ajasatya Does it feel like "you" are doing stuff, or is it just a movie that plays itself ? No philosophical or spiritual answer that don't answer the question please. Whatever the answer, can you choose to get immersed in the movie and play the character like before (while knowing it's "bullshit") or letting it plays itself, as in choosing to push a on/off button ? Or can't you ? @eputkonen @Shanmugam

I don't know man, that was just about making a joke about my huge ego

You're talking about me. I didn't do yet what you remember. Give me 30 years

Start journaling

I fucking knew it. That's why you laugh randomly, it's all just bugs in your system !

Fucking robot

... if you don't want to ejaculate ? When I want to last long it is quite easy, just ejaculate and then continue to fuck. When you don't want to release your sperm though, I have a huge problem which is that I can only last for half a minute, literally. So anyone here that is experienced in lasting a long time (at least 15-20 minutes) mwithout releasing anything ? I don't want a debate about if keeping the semen in is useful or not, thanks you.

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When all your friends awaken before you:

Challenging it was. Hard it was to focus, for tired the mind was. Reached was the goal I set, fearful and resistant was the mind to it. Weird the hand was, 5 fingers, why ? A cartoon character am I ?

This is such a waste of time. Not only there is no way to understand stage turquoise if you didn't make the shift personally (and if it stuck, otherwise it's just memories), But trying to understand coral when you aren't turquoise is even more useless. It's like trying to learn a track of Mozart when you don't even have hands. You can try, but I doubt it will work.

You will make friends by meeting them at the activities you like to do. So if you like personal developement and meditation/consciousness, you attend to events like those, or host one. At some point you will see the same persons again and again, then you will become friends. Use websites like meetup (the equivalent for your country, search them up), and seek for events in your own town through all means possible. The most important thing though, is to adress your loneliness issue. If you have a girlfriend and still feel lonely, there is some deep issue to cover. It will hinder you capacity to make friends, because healthy people don't want to be friend with clingy and desperate people.

If we were fundamentally wrong, we wouldn't exist.

The only time something like that happened to me, I thought my body would explode. ?

Waiting for the new video sunday morning

Yeah yeah, sure. Then give me a cosmic slap so I can see it too forca few minutes ?

You can until the end if you're still addict, but if you stay conscious while and after ejaculating, like 100% conscious, no way you can say to yourself: «worth it, totally normal, nope I feel awesome !»

Observing yourself becoming ideologist and judgemental, consciously, to transcend it.

YOU ARE NOT UGLY !!!