Shin

When all your friends awaken before you:

Challenging it was. Hard it was to focus, for tired the mind was. Reached was the goal I set, fearful and resistant was the mind to it. Weird the hand was, 5 fingers, why ? A cartoon character am I ?

This is such a waste of time. Not only there is no way to understand stage turquoise if you didn't make the shift personally (and if it stuck, otherwise it's just memories), But trying to understand coral when you aren't turquoise is even more useless. It's like trying to learn a track of Mozart when you don't even have hands. You can try, but I doubt it will work.

You will make friends by meeting them at the activities you like to do. So if you like personal developement and meditation/consciousness, you attend to events like those, or host one. At some point you will see the same persons again and again, then you will become friends. Use websites like meetup (the equivalent for your country, search them up), and seek for events in your own town through all means possible. The most important thing though, is to adress your loneliness issue. If you have a girlfriend and still feel lonely, there is some deep issue to cover. It will hinder you capacity to make friends, because healthy people don't want to be friend with clingy and desperate people.

If we were fundamentally wrong, we wouldn't exist.

The only time something like that happened to me, I thought my body would explode. ?

Waiting for the new video sunday morning

Yeah yeah, sure. Then give me a cosmic slap so I can see it too forca few minutes ?

You can until the end if you're still addict, but if you stay conscious while and after ejaculating, like 100% conscious, no way you can say to yourself: «worth it, totally normal, nope I feel awesome !»

Observing yourself becoming ideologist and judgemental, consciously, to transcend it.

YOU ARE NOT UGLY !!!

But you could grow faster if you become conscious of how ideological and how judgemental you can be while doing it ☺

What feels wrong ? You need to give more details. Did you get valuable advices from this type of people or not ? And if you didn't, is it because you didn't try what they told you to do ?

Why does it pisses you off ?

Clearly me ?

You're still alive ?!

Or everytime you think you have some days to cool off, but god reminds you you need to awaken and drop shit in your life lul

The only thing you control is what you focus on.

I already know that this won't be a problem for very long just from this quote. ☺

Intimate blog videos ? Leo does porn ? ?

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No women will like you because you don't want to. If you did, you will work for it. You wouldn't just sit here complaining like a 90 years old about how he fucked up his life. The only thing you want is validation on how lazy and fearful you are behind you supposedly depression. No one will give you that here, you waste your energy if you think that will happen. I know how you think you know, you think you're special, but the harsh truth is that you are just one lazy fuck amongst dozens of millions. Nothing special about that at all. You know what would be special and beautiful ? You working on yourself hard, and coming back in some months/year(s) telling us how happy and fulfilled you are.

Am I am too arrogant, prideful and cold-hearted ? Be 200% honest plz ?