Shin

Yeah, tease us and say nothing, what an a.. ??? I hope the punchline is worth the bad sitcom lives we have, don't disappoint us ?

I did get it ?? Oh boy, I wish you're right, that all this suffering, all those events that comes to crushes us aren't just random, but are here to awaken us ?

That sounds impressive, I need to see that with my own eyes ??

I was implying we're all Jesus in disguise. Wine is old fashioned though, cola and Redbull seems more likely nowadays though ?

I wish I could love like you do.

Drink those coca-colas, and let me save your sorry asses ?

Never give up. We believe in you ?

Leo has 3 letters. 3 = 666 666 = illuminatis Illuminatis = capitalism Capitalism = Donal Trump Trump has russian origin Leo is Russian ... … Trump and Leo are the SAME PERSON !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! … ...

Is it possible to be at Stage 5 without mystical experiences and Satori ?

The Truth

How do you know anything about that ? How could you know anything about something you never experienced ?

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Tuesday My heart is becoming quite scary nowadays. Everytime I'm alone for some time and am a little bit tired, it starts to feel weigthy. That would be kind of nice if it was just that, but I feel like it can explode at any moment, my mind is quite scared that something extremely painful will happen, or that I will die. I don't know if it's health related, or a defense mechanism of the ego to not go further, I'll have to check with a doctor (that I need to see anyway). Aside that, this afternoon I got a deep sense of "dream state" while being at the library. It felt like being watched from behind, looking at everything happening, including me, and everything was totally free and made at the same stuff at its core. The funny thing are they are still subtle glimpses, even though the realization are deep, I don't even know how that is possible In the evening I got again some light samadhis while having fun with some friends, and I even got some glimpses of no-self while eating there. Body 20 minutes work out One walk after lunch (not at dinner) Mind 25 minutes of reading (this and this), bought Being Aware Of Being Aware from Ruper Spira, but wanted to buy the one on Leo's List (No idea how I bought an another book ). Soul 40 minutes of meditation >>>No sitted self-inquiry<<< 5 minutes of affirmations of being honest

Does it help you in any way to regret anything ? Or do you only feel pain and loose time ?

At some point you don't even count and don't remember because it becomes natural ?

For how long ?

Monday Around 22 yesterday night I head my neighboor cried. At first I had all the good answers in the world for not trying to cheer her up like "I don't know her", "I barely talked to her" "it's too late". I just let the mind let it think what it wants and go for it, I had too much pain hearing her sobbing like that all alone. We talked for 4 hours, it was really funny and somewhat deep at different times. For almost 2 hours she tested me by being EXTREMELY teaseful, like I've never been that much tested from anyone before She tried to hit me on every levels possible while I returned every punch on herself, so much that she was on the brink of madness sometimes. She just couldn't find an opening, not even once, it made her so frustrated it was so funny This was a true test and a deep way to see the interaction between the masculine and the feminine, there couldn't be more to it except being physically intimate (which I don't want to with anyone right now anyway). That was the funny part where the tension has been released, the serious part I won't talk so much, it's quite personal, but let's just say that I apparently have a good potential to help people like this For brief moments I was able to be "no one" while talking to her, and I perceived her the same way I perceived my girlfriend of 2 years ago. I think it was Samadhis in both case, except in this case it happened multiple times. In a weird way nothing changes at all, but the thing that is "there" becomes so much more beautiful, and in a way changes I can't really explain how, it's not communicable I think, but it looks like the person has some kind of "aura" which is not something that you can see per say. It's something that is beyond perceptions, time stops, and I wouldn't say only love remain (I wouldn't even be able to say I don't know what that is lol) but something close to intimacy, but not in a romantic/relationship way. If that's how you see the whole world when you awaken, nothing else could compare, nothing else can matter more than this, It's like being alive for the first time in your life. Body 20 minutes work out >>>No walk<<< Mind 33 minutes reading "The Kriya Secrets Revealed" from JC Stevens. Soul 5 minutes affirmations of being honest 40 minutes of meditation 4 hours supporting my neighboor >>>No self-inquiry<<<

You're searching an excuse not to start. Meditation is the easiest thing in the world, you just need to sit and not doing anything. There is no "it must be done like this, then switch to that, finally do this", this is dogmatic bs that makes meditation looks complicated to make you pay for it (because it looks "Professional").

The one you do everyday ?

Just watch all Leo's videos about it, from the beginning (consciousness/enlightenment playlist on his youtube channel). Nobody explains it as clearly as he does imo.

That will always happen if you only know the mind. The mind can only conceptualize, compare and project. Meditate more, be mindful more, the only way to take a real decision is when you're beyond thoughts and listen to your heart/god/inner wisdom.

How much non-dual book did you read ? Did you watch all (or most) videos of Leo about non-duality ?