Shin

Racist ?

You mean your left hand ? ?

Seriously it's new years eve ? Even if it wasn't there is tons of other interesting material to watch on youtube. Or read a good book, or make love to your wife etc etc ... Let the Leo have his holiday ?

You'd rather ask them ? Yes or no ? ?

Yes or no ? ?

Work more on what needs to be done rather than not. It works better for me. Like if you cut all you recreational activities, you will tend to be less productive than if you just focus on doing the things you want to do. In time you will have less and less time for «useless entertainment» anyways.

Yes ! Yes or no ? YES OR NO ???!!! ?

Yes or no ?

Yes or no ? ???

Yes Or No ?

Aren't you correcting them too by saying that ? Why not saying nothing and just move along with your day ? Why justificating yourself all the time ?

Yes or no ? ???

I was just meming, no shame in it ? Btw, saying it is slippery still means it could be grasped ?

«me me me me me me me» ?

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Day 14

Go to the next step, just tell yourself you're not a fapper anymore. If you look into the psychology of it, Fapping is about giving yourself the best natural physical pleasure you can have in life, with 0 effort, in a very short span of time. It doesn't matter if it's from porn or not really, It's basically a way to remain lazy, If you can give yourself the best physical pleasure possible, Why do anything else ?

We're not far offtrack concerning study, maybe a 2/3 hours behind, which I'll probably able to force my lazy Intj mind to catch up Highlight of the day: Looking at the crows flying in group. I was totally invested in the looking, I was GONE, for a baby second Didn't got a panick attack again, maybe the Universe understood I wasn't ready, or is preparing a sneaky plan where I won't even be able to panick and be forced to surrender Please force me to be your bitch and realize I don't even exist This is basically the path in a nutshell. No chanting to a deity/guru, not having a clear mind, not chasing a mystical experience, not feeling good all the time. The reason is, that if we don't deconstruct all the beliefs in us, which means everything that triggers us, for real, and not by ignoring it/denying it, Then the identification will come back, every single time. It doesn't matter if we have an enlightenment, or 10, as long as we don't do this, enlightenment will never stick. This is the main practice, from which everything else arose. It doesn't matter how much we meditate or self-inquire, there are people who do this for decades without any results whatsoever. All because they aren't doing the real work, which is to see through all the beliefs they hold, which leads in the end to the main assumptions of why enlightenment isn't already here. It's only after doing this for a while that we can really ask existential question, before that we are too much stuck in our mind about other "problems", "insecurities" and arrogance about what we think we know.

Healthy masturbation ? Remind me a day when smoking was seen as beneficial for your health ?

New years resolutions are a trick for you to be lazy right now. Same mechanism than procrastination. The only moment you can take a habit is right now, not in a fantasy future that never happens,

I am worthy of liberation ? Yes of course, everyone does Since we are all god, why anyone of us wouldn't be worth of being liberated from their delusion ? It doesn't matter what we did or did not, all evil was done because of ignoreance and internal suffering, we never wanted to hurt anyone, we only did because we were confused Therefore everyone and everything is worthy of liberation I personally don't need to) solve all my internal dilemma, I don't even know what those are right now since I slained a lot of them already. Even if there are still some of them left, which is probablyu the case, I don't need to solve everything before realizing my true nature, I can do this after too. I don't need to be a saint either, realizing my true nature isn't about being perfect, it's about seeing clearly what the truth of existence is. There is no need to be anything, except to have the will to be honest about everything in me. Am I willing to look at the facts of Existence, and have these obvious truths transform and clarify my beliefs about Presence-Consciousness? Can I receive and allow the goodness, the simple beauty, and the resulting ease and self-love of Existence into my being? I am ready to be wrong about everything, as long as I can merge with the truth, with what I already am without realizing it. It doesn't matter what the truth is, at that point I don't care about being right or wrong anymore. I'm still fearful to receive divine love in me, I don't kow why exactly, maybe because I never was in love and feel that I would loose all the control I think I have. Can I accept that I am already perfect as I am, inseparable from All That Is? Yes, I can intuit somehow that everything is perfect as it is, which of course is not an excuse not to improve to reduce the suffering of sentient beings that are identified with forms, in all of what I do, even the insignificant things. I also don't need to become "better", I am already a wonderful being as I am, even years ago, but realizing more of the truth and aligning with it more makes life more enjoyable for me, as well of everyone around me, so for this reason improving is interesting and a natural inclination. In fact, the more I realize I'm already perfectly fine as I am, the more I improve, but paradoxically the needs or want to improve fades. Or, do I insist—with the use of my petty mind—that I know better than the obvious truths of Existence Itself, believing that there must be more to it than that, or something other than that, or that I must be different in order to earn the goodness that’s already here? I don't need to be different to earn the truth, but I still think Enlightenment is a realization that is different that what I experience right now. I still don't feel as one with everything, and I still don't feel unconditional love either, nor that I experientially know that I'm not the body/mind at all. Some identification has been broken, but not all of it. In a sense I'm already enlightened, cause I think it's an infinite continuum, and the above points are just tresholds on this continuum, not the end of the line of realizations that are possible. Do I insist upon doubting the obvious and perpetuating more strife and suffering for myself? No, there is no doubt anymore about the fact that whatever I experience it is already it, whether I'm inconscious, angry, sad, or lazy, or whatever else I experience. There is no distinction between meditation and normal life, there was never a separation in the first place, I imagined the separation. Suffering doesn't exist as long as I accept what is happening, which didn't happen for a long while now, even several months ago I fully accepter the pain caused by some separations. Or, can I let these beautifully simple, non-mystical truths of Existence cleanse my vision, empty my heart of confusion, and then fill it back up with a loving fulfillment so pure that I cannot even begin to describe it? I don't know what to answer here I realized even more deeply nowadays that whatever I think or not, it's all part of the truth, even the most dumbest things No doubt in my mind that I will awaken and see my tru nature someday, I even see no reasons why it could be now actually. https://www.trinfinityacademy.com/courses/enlightenment-1-part-2-person-wakes-up-to-presence/lesson-10-there-is-only-now/#Homework

Being 100% truthful of how I feel and think and inquire until I get to the root cause.

Meditation and having a morning routine before going to work.