Shin

"The ego is gonna be kinda stupid and not really gonna understand the full scope of what I'm talking about, he's gonna think like, <<Ohhh Leo is just kinda kidding that I'm gonna kill myself, I'm not really gonna kill myself.>> And so the ego is gonna get on board and like all those ideas and benefits, and he's gonna take some years to chase those benefits, Until he reach a point where he's gonna say <<Oh shit, he wasn't kidding>>. But then it will be too late, cause the ego is gonna be past the point of no return."

Looks pretty practical enough to me. Especially when you think you're gonna die

Motivation needed

And that's your point of view, Which is relative.

Deep sleep = Waking state Yeah, sometimes I don't see the difference in consciousness when I "wake up" or when I "go to sleep". It's the same thing or no-thing that is experiencing both, they are in it both, there isn't even a real distinction.

What is your question ?

When your mind starts to say things like: «I don't care what happen, I need to know, even if it kills me» Or «I want to know the truth, whatever the cost is»

Except they don't even see the end, they project their fear into it ?

Exactly what people do when they talk about enlightenment though ?

Had a dream where I was again fully aware of being in a dream. Yet it was exactly like «reality», I just knew it was «not real». Used to happen once every few months, now it's several time per month. I'm being paranoid right now, i know it's the same on some level right now too. I need to know, but I'm so scared to know ???

Lul Just watch then end on youtube, then complain about the game being bad on the forum, Lul

Nope, Still backed off ? At least I tried to face it. Tomorrow I will try again. I want it to be over, I can't live like that forever.

In a few minutes ?

Ok still 2 hours left before bed and I want to self inquire ... Relevant

But ... ... Did you lick Bentinho feet ? That's all that matters in the end ...

Ok. Is that make sense to expect a paradigm shift out of my control rather than trying to understand ?

It was a nice afternoon, I walked for 1 hour in a brutal wind. Almost brutal enough to not being able to walk I wanted to go see the horses, but I had to take a plain field road, and I didn't want to push my luck, already had a hard time walking on a road with houses Amazing the way I dodge looking at nature now, it's absurdly funny, It's comical really I look at the ground sometimes, that didn't happened in years, obvious coping mechanism Also I ate 2 burger with fish in 2 weeks, forgot to tell it until now.

I hope you see the irony in this

I'm not seeking a rape thank you

Suffering. Life will give you plenty. Can't force genuine interest for it, you either are curious or not.

Make me slap myself. I'm waiting.

How so ?

Because you think you have a choice ? How cute