Shin

Getting enlightened ? Are you kidding, I'm doing all I can for it not to happen Nono, I just like innocent 16 years old asian chick that's all

Give me my asian chick already.

This is a good replacement NICE DISTRACTION WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo

Don't really like to do this, but maybe it can help Before Self-Actualization: Super needy for love and relationships/friendships Fearful about everything new or threatening to what I lacked emotionally Anxious about everything, couldn't think of the future without crying Addicted to Porn/Masturbation/Shows/Video games/Junk Food No job, no passion and no perspective for the future Nowadays I don't even know if I want a relationship anymore, and I'm enjoying spending all my time alone. Fear isn't an issue, because I know how it works now, it's uncomfortable at best (except for one single thing ). I literally can't be anxious, it's not part of my life anymore, except for very big things (and even then it's very mild and pass quickly). Only addicted to games and junk food now, but they are only still there because I resist something very badly (and need to distract myself a lot ). Studying a field I'm passionate about, and have multiple exciting perspective for the future.

Don't say ego death. To you it's literally death. Not a part of you, literally your own death.

That's a real question not an attack.

Do you realize what you're doing when you do self-inquiry ?

That's a good excuse to stay unconscious. Very good excuse ?

Where am I ? ?

You're the definition of zen devilry ?

Ahah ! It is only hard as long as you tell yourself it is !

Other teachers would just beat you with a stick.

Being aware of the breath 24/7 is a great achievement For the ego

Yes and no, Being conscious while you think is meditation.

That's 2 hours less of distractions. ?

You're taking it in the wrong way. Being will cure you of you're addictions, and not the other way around. You can't cure an addiction until you raise in awareness, you can try and may succeed, but it will either come back or create an another one. You won't be able to control anything about that, the will to do certain thing will just drop, sometimes instantly. I'm not saying to not do anything, but if you want to quit an addiction, then you need to study the negative effects of it, being deeply conscious when it happens, so the theories match the reality. Just quitting for morals reason doesn't work.

You can have instant enlightenment, We're all pretending it takes time and it's hard. Ofc we do, we buy time, it's fun to live as an illusion, You can create ennemies and dramas, THE DREAM !

Leo, you're calling people devils on this forum all the time. Don't be surprised if some of them take it literally.

And it's never satisfying, The irony ?

When you start to love people you hate

Almost died again, Had a beautiful walk, then stopped to watch the duck on the middle of a bridge. My sense of self got less and less solid, then I had tears coming out of fear. Looked away after 2 seconds. We gained 1 second boyZ