[My First Mushroom Trip]

I'm starting to get a sense of what our true being is actually like, although I've barley cracked the shell. The fact that there are more levels above the one I'm on right now is simply incredible. I've been trying to stay in tune with it ever since the trip. The past week I've been going about my daily life just in ah of everything, my new state of being has just been the best thing ever. I can't wait to take my 2nd trip alone because a big portion of this trip was wasted on keeping my friend calm, I still learned alot but I could had learned more I feel like. Should had listened to Leo and endured the trip by myself.

[My First Mushroom Trip]

About a week ago I took my first trip on mushrooms, only took a two gram dose but it was very potent stuff. So I took it and had to wait about 30 minutes before it hit me but when it did... oh man. I had never been so aware of my monkey mind in my entire life! Now I know why its called tripping... your literally tripping over every thought you have. I was bouncing from thought to thought to thought to thought, it made me realize for the first time in my life the extent of how bad our monkey minds actually are, like... its bad haha. Unfortunately I decided to do this with a friend, which was a mistake. Once the trip really started settling in my friend couldn't handle it at all and started having a bad trip, he's not on the spiritual path like I am and it was his first time tripping too. Eventually he just tried to sleep it off, which was good because he was distracting me from the peak of my trip, I was mindful enough to handle the trip.

My friend went and passed out in my room, so I went to my living room and sat on my couch for the rest of the trip, just being inside my head with my thoughts. I realized why my friend was tripping out. He was trying to run away from it, but the thing is you can't run away from it because there's no where to run! You are everything, you are simply just everything! You can't identify with anything like the ego wants to, the trip shows you that you can't... and if you try, well.. your going to have a bad time haha. Now I have watched most of Leo's videos but there is a huge difference between hearing and understanding. My main points of realization in this trip was your not the body and life is just an illusion, I got a completely new understanding of this! 

Once the trip was over reality just looked so... clear.. like the clearest its ever been to me in a long time. In fact I drove around for about hour just to look at everything because everything looked so beautiful in a completely new way to me. The trip made me realize that I need to start taking my mediation seriously again, because I've been slacking on that lately by not doing it everyday. My mediation sessions have been so powerful since the trip. That new clear view of reality I had after the trip was so amazing that I didn't want to lose touch with it, and I didn't either! I have been mediating a bunch lately and have managed to keep this new perspective that I have now.

I feel that my awareness has increased. It seems like with every mediation session I am sinking deeper, and deeper into the present moment and its incredible. A lot less thinking and just straight being! I was actually really stressed out a day or two after the trip just cause the insights set in deep and it was such a radical change in seeing the world that my ego was starting to panic. My mediation sessions have helped greatly with that though, I'm feeling quite amazing now. I feel like a new person now who actually wants to progress more and more instead of staying in the exact same spot going nowhere, which was me before the trip. I'm a pretty big pothead too, I smoke everyday. But now.. this new sense of being is just so amazing that I really haven't cared to smoke much, which surprised me. I've been an everyday stoner since I was 18, I'm 21 now, and this is the first time in a long time that I haven't cared to smoke at all. Now I just smoke before bed instead of all day and night but I'm about to run out and now I feel like I can stop once I do.

I just had to share my story here. I try to explain this to the people in my life but none of them get it man, they just don't get it, I'm done trying to explain my journey to people, I don't even know why I try haha. I can't wait to see how far I can keep expanding my awareness, psychedelics ftw!

 

[The Happy Pill]

It lasted for about three hours, its the stuff that people take at raves and whatnot. It's a party drug no doubt about, but when you take it in a setting by yourself with spiritual intentions it could be beneficial experience in my opinion. What really got me was I was able to see through the illusion so clear, all that love and happiness pumping through and I was able to just step aside and observe my ego and it really hit me that our life is an illusion. Now I already knew that life is an illusion but now I can really see that, and its amazing and kind of scary at the same time.

[The Happy Pill]

So last night I took a "happy pill", by myself in my apartment. That state of pure happiness was the most beautiful thing I've ever experienced, I was just sitting on my couch staring at my wall, being mindful in my present moment. I was seeing right through the illusion, like just right through it, it never had been that clear to me before. I know taking this is basically cheating with the work we do here and I'm aware of that, but It allowed me to to get a sneak peek of what were aiming for, right? I've been slacking on my mediation lately but I'm about to start doing it everyday again. I also took a trip last sunday and it was very powerful to say the least, my first time doing it. I've had some pretty big insights the last couple days, I honestly fill pretty exhausted after having some of these insights.